[BeyondtheRainbow]

And once again it is 3:30 and I'm awake. I slept an hour. Yippee. I have a haircut appointment so I can't sleep as long as I want today.

I am beginning to hate 3:30. Such a dark, quiet, unfriendly time.

I used to get up at 4 AM every day. My body just thought that was time. I loved the peaceful mornings.. But now I am on clozapine and that means a lot of sleep. So I pay for being awake at 3:30 from a body that is angered. These mornings aren't peaceful.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Thank you dear you comment was very helpful. I don't think this insurance company participates in a Credit Card thought I would be nice. I'll see what my pharmacy says about this awful thing tomorrow maybe they were able to help in some way. I would really like to throw things and maybe punch a few people that made this mess.

I'm sorry, I didn't pick up that you have to pay the insurance. Sometimes I get med head.

My guess is with insurance you're going to have to just insist on a payment plan and be as forceful as you can be about the terms. Make sure you get the terms in writing on their stationery.

Insurance companies are required to have multiple levels off appeals. You could try to go through that process and fight to have the amount covered. I have no idea if it would work though since most appeals are about getting treatment approved before starting.

You've really had quite a week. I hope you get a break soon. How is the kitty prozac going? I had a very old cat (21 when she died) and as she got dementia she was on an anxiety med (amitrypline -Elavil) ffor year or two until she wasn't anxious all the time anymore. It really helped her. Cuddle your boy(?) and I hope that helps you feel better. Both my cats think I am here to serve as a large heating pad.

It's 4:15am ish and I'm bored.

I woke up at 3:50, so... not too awful. I might try to to back to sleep since I'm really, REALLY tired. I think I just have insomnia.

Otherwise, I had a great day yesterday mood wise. Not manic, I mean. Just didn't have anything negative going on in my life -- for a change.

I hope everyone else's day was good yesterday, and if not, I hope today is a better day.

[Daonnachd]

My wife and I are taking the day off work and going over to the town my dad lived in. Hopefully we'll start the process on the memorial service. I don't know what else will be on the agenda.

I'll be busy today doing chores relating to our upcoming trip. I also want to go to a shoe store and buy a comfortable pair of black flats (shoes). I have about four pairs of black shoes, but none are really comfortable enough to wear for any bit of walking beyond house/hotel to car to restaurant and back. For some reason higher heels are too uncomfortable nowadays. I have balance issues.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Feeling some serious nerves about my T appt in 20 minutes. After the confusing and dissapointing emails and me changing what I am doing so much plus not telling pdoc I really dont have a clue what to expect.

Im happy it is close enough to walk to though, that should help me settle down a little.

[liveforsummer]

Hugs everyone !

Pdoc appt next week. No idea what I’m going to say when asked how I’m feeling. Probably I don’t know.

(Sorry, on my phone, too much of a PITA to try multi-quote...)

BBB, so true. There's no place worse than just over medicaid amounts, so kicked off it, but can't *actually* afford other. I call it "no man's land", and that's exactly where I am right now.

Christina It is medicaid that kicked me off. My sister loaned me a substantial amount to facilitate my moving out, and I think they figured that was *my* money. Even if not, I have very little control over my hours at work and they just gave me a raise (a small regular one and another _temporary_ one --not helpful when you're on the edge of things).

TheSeaCat Your insurance situation is EXACTLY my fear. That somehow they will go retroactive from my being informed. I got a text reminder for a T appt Friday and I don't know how to answer it(!) What kills me most is that this is when I MOST need my case manager (to help me navigate this). But not if they're going to jack me over on it. (I've decided not to go just to be sure).

I keep going between being sad and afraid to being PO'd where I want to say screw it all, I'll just go off meds. That's the trouble with finally having gotten a nice stability. It's too easy to deny what lies on the other side (of no meds).

I really don't need this **** at the very doorstep of my usual annual descent into hell...
Sigh.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I'll be busy today doing chores relating to our upcoming trip. I also want to go to a shoe store and buy a comfortable pair of black flats (shoes). I have about four pairs of black shoes, but none are really comfortable enough to wear for any bit of walking beyond house/hotel to car to restaurant and back. For some reason higher heels are too uncomfortable nowadays. I have balance issues.

I have slight balance issues too, but they definitely get worse wearing high heels. I've never found high heels comfortable, even when they make your outfit look better. I think the balance stuff is at least partially med-related.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

My wife and I are taking the day off work and going over to the town my dad lived in. Hopefully we'll start the process on the memorial service. I don't know what else will be on the agenda.

I feel so bad for you. What a difficult time for you. Do you have other family in the area to help you with the memorial service? You have my deepest sympathies. I hope you get through this difficult time as easy as possible, though I'm sure it's never easy. Be sure you take care of yourself too.

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I have slight balance issues too, but they definitely get worse wearing high heels. I've never found high heels comfortable, even when they make your outfit look better. I think the balance stuff is at least partially med-related.

I agree that my balance issues are also a bit med-related, but maybe also a bit related to not wearing them much anymore.

I'm glad I went to the shoe store and grocery store in the morning. It's starting to snow where I live. The first snow of the cold seasons. I'm not sure if there will be much accumulation.

Pretty much all of the black flats (shoes) I tried on were discounted. I tried on about 5 different shoes. I found one I really like that is comfy and stays firmly on my feet. Of course that pair wasn't discounted. I bought them anyway. Expensive + wearing them is better than Less Expensive + Rarely wearing them.

[Blueberrybook]

Same old, same old today. Not sure I'm ready for Thanksgiving next week. We can go eat with my parents, grandmother & aunt & uncle, but none of my sisters can come, and they along with my nieces an nephews make the family gatherings much better. I have difficulties cooking now (having to pay attention to multiple things going on). Besides, cooking a Thanksgiving meal for 3 people just seems a waste.

Ran this morning more than I should. I think it's already the stress of the holidays and next week. My daughter has all week off from school. It gets hard when she gets bored. I need to do better tomorrow. I just don't handle stress well at all. I don't know why my coping mechanisms seem to have to hurt me: overexercising, putting off eating for other chores, seeing it nearly is the next mealtime so why eat the meal before that?

[Moose72]

I am supposed to tell pdoc's nurse how im doing today. I woke up feeling completely awake. But now Im back to feeling down. I dont want to do anything. Its parent teacher conferences though. My car is covered with snow and its still snowing. I had oatmeal for lunch. Low on money. Guess i gotta call the RN....

[Pookyl]

8am here. Feeling my usual Seroquel hangover. Otherwise ok.
I’m happy it’s Friday. Hubby will be home for the next few days - I like his company.
My daughter’s just hooked up again with a problematic ex. I don’t know how to process this.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

My wife and I are taking the day off work and going over to the town my dad lived in. Hopefully we'll start the process on the memorial service. I don't know what else will be on the agenda.

I’m sorry your having to go through all this. I’m sure you are still in shock, it took me days until it really hit me that my mom died in her slept.

Try to go easy on yourself , allow yourself time to grieve this loss

My heart goes out to you. Gentle hugs and prayers for you.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

(Sorry, on my phone, too much of a PITA to try multi-quote...)


BBB, so true. There's no place worse than just over medicaid amounts, so kicked off it, but can't *actually* afford other. I call it "no man's land", and that's exactly where I am right now.


Christina It is medicaid that kicked me off. My sister loaned me a substantial amount to facilitate my moving out, and I think they figured that was *my* money. Even if not, I have very little control over my hours at work and they just gave me a raise (a small regular one and another _temporary_ one --not helpful when you're on the edge of things).


TheSeaCat Your insurance situation is EXACTLY my fear. That somehow they will go retroactive from my being informed. I got a text reminder for a T appt Friday and I don't know how to answer it(!) What kills me most is that this is when I MOST need my case manager (to help me navigate this). But not if they're going to jack me over on it. (I've decided not to go just to be sure).


I keep going between being sad and afraid to being PO'd where I want to say screw it all, I'll just go off meds. That's the trouble with finally having gotten a nice stability. It's too easy to deny what lies on the other side (of no meds).


I really don't need this **** at the very doorstep of my usual annual descent into hell...

Sigh.

Can you have your sister write up a letter stating you were loaned the money to leave a unhealthy living situation. Have a notary stamp it ? Maybe that will soothe the stupid people , just a thought not sure if it helps any. I hateeeeee that your faced with all this and now not have a T to help support you , I saw go to the appt , maybe he/she would know how for you to get back your benefits. I’d definitely try it

Many hugs and I have all my parts crossed that this situation is resolved for you quickly !

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I agree that my balance issues are also a bit med-related, but maybe also a bit related to not wearing them much anymore.

I'm glad I went to the shoe store and grocery store in the morning. It's starting to snow where I live. The first snow of the cold seasons. I'm not sure if there will be much accumulation.

Pretty much all of the black flats (shoes) I tried on were discounted. I tried on about 5 different shoes. I found one I really like that is comfy and stays firmly on my feet. Of course that pair wasn't discounted. I bought them anyway. Expensive + wearing them is better than Less Expensive + Rarely wearing them.

Definitely the smarter choice to get the more expensive pair that fit better, nothing worse than a bad pair of shoes.

There's someone at the facility that is supposed to be quite knowligible (sp?!) about insurance stuff. I'd like if I could talk to her. Ironically enough, she was supposed to call me *before* this even happened. But she never called. I will follow up.

And just because this isn't *fun* enough already, my pharmacy is unable to get my manufacturer of lamotrigine. I'm going with the other brand simply to not deal with withdrawals. Sheesh.

They said insurance ok'd it. I checked the prices just in case they end up reneging.

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m feeling better today. Not 100% baseline but better. Still tired. Didn’t drink coffee today. I just wasn’t feeling it. But I stayed awake all day so that was good. I did get put in another classroom but it was fine. Much higher functioning kids so they didn’t need as much help.

It snowed more than they thought it was going to today. There’s at least three inches out there when they said it would only be less than an inch. Roads are a mess. I picked my son up early from school so that I could get home safely with him. Driving in the snow makes me so nervous. I hate it. It seems to have changed to rain though so by tomorrow it should be all washed away.

Giving everyone much needed hugs

[Moose72]

Snowing here too. Went to conferences. Hes "brilliant"- "Top 5 student of my career..." Sigh....

[TheSeaCat]

I'm feeling a lot better today, work was interesting to say the least, I had to talk down someone who was so mad that it was five minutes past the appointment time. It was quite a mess. Not to mention it is super easy to get behind when you have fifteen minute time slots.

I don't know how many times I've waited 10-30 minutes to see my doctor. Honestly there were times when I was a child that it would be an hour before I saw a doctor back in the day of paper charts and 30 minute appointments.

I got a call from my pharmacy and it looks like Medicaid will cover the cost of the Latuda, it looks like I might only have to pay $20 to the insurance company from hell. Which is a lot more manageable. I honestly don't know what I would have done if I didn't have a secondary insurance company.

I was really excited when she said they would cover most of it. I feel extremely lucky that this did not turn into more of a mess.

The closer it get's to Monday the more I start getting really worried about the Cardiologist. I went ahead and wrote down my pulse rate from all those doctor visits. I showed PA and he was very alarmed to say the least.

I'm kind of scared Seroquel might have done something since it can cause long QT syndrome. He reminded me that it would have showed up on my several EKG's and that unlike Geodon, Seroquel is less likely to cause it.

I'm glad I have one free day away from my therapist office, he said I could possibly go to two sessions a week next week, which would be a lot easier.

The PA and I are going to go see Fantastic Beasts this weekend, turns out we are both Harry Potter nerds; he's hoping it takes my mind off the Cardiologist; I doubt it but it will be nice seeing that movie since the ex and I did have advance tickets that I had to get a refund for.

Hugs to everyone

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I'm sorry, I didn't pick up that you have to pay the insurance. Sometimes I get med head.

My guess is with insurance you're going to have to just insist on a payment plan and be as forceful as you can be about the terms. Make sure you get the terms in writing on their stationery.

Insurance companies are required to have multiple levels off appeals. You could try to go through that process and fight to have the amount covered. I have no idea if it would work though since most appeals are about getting treatment approved before starting.

You've really had quite a week. I hope you get a break soon. How is the kitty prozac going? I had a very old cat (21 when she died) and as she got dementia she was on an anxiety med (amitrypline -Elavil) ffor year or two until she wasn't anxious all the time anymore. It really helped her. Cuddle your boy(?) and I hope that helps you feel better. Both my cats think I am here to serve as a large heating pad.

It's okay, I get med brain too.

I actually got news about the bill today, it looks like Medicaid is going to pay the most expensive medications, so obviously the Latuda. I did a little happy dance when I got off the phone with the pharmacy. They are saying the bill could be as small as $20 that I would owe to the insurance company; which I can send that in no problem. I couldn't imagine trying to pay the full amount.

It has been a pretty rough week but I keep fighting and finding ways to fix things. My boy, Demon is doing wonderful with the Prozac, much better than I ever did. I can actually leave him along without worrying he's going to attack someone that isn't me. He is spending more time with his twin brother. He still gives the best cuddles though. He likes snuggling when I'm sleeping, he thinks I might be a heating pad too. Thank you for asking about him, how is Charlie and Abby.

I think the oldest cat I had was 22 when we put him down he was a bad diabetic and we gave him insulin everything he was the parents first baby.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

(Sorry, on my phone, too much of a PITA to try multi-quote...)

BBB, so true. There's no place worse than just over medicaid amounts, so kicked off it, but can't *actually* afford other. I call it "no man's land", and that's exactly where I am right now.

Christina It is medicaid that kicked me off. My sister loaned me a substantial amount to facilitate my moving out, and I think they figured that was *my* money. Even if not, I have very little control over my hours at work and they just gave me a raise (a small regular one and another _temporary_ one --not helpful when you're on the edge of things).

TheSeaCat Your insurance situation is EXACTLY my fear. That somehow they will go retroactive from my being informed. I got a text reminder for a T appt Friday and I don't know how to answer it(!) What kills me most is that this is when I MOST need my case manager (to help me navigate this). But not if they're going to jack me over on it. (I've decided not to go just to be sure).

I keep going between being sad and afraid to being PO'd where I want to say screw it all, I'll just go off meds. That's the trouble with finally having gotten a nice stability. It's too easy to deny what lies on the other side (of no meds).

I really don't need this **** at the very doorstep of my usual annual descent into hell...
Sigh.

I am so sorry you are going through this sometimes Medicaid just cannot play nice; are you over the limit of which you can make to stay on Medicaid? I think here it's close to $2,000 a month before you get cut off. I hope that you do not have to go what I just went through about insurance. I hope you are able to get things ironed out and are able to see your T and pdoc and able to afford medications.

Please don't go off your medications if you are feeling stable, I'm sorry you feel you are descending into hell.

[Faltering]

I had akathisia and panic attacks while I was trying to sleep. It was awful. It seems like bad things happen after I take Latuda and lithium together. Now I have a migraine. I just can't win lately.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I had akathisia and panic attacks while I was trying to sleep. It was awful. It seems like bad things happen after I take Latuda and lithium together. Now I have a migraine. I just can't win lately.

I'm sorry things are hard for you. Is there a way to contact you pdoc so he knows you are having problems?