[unaluna]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Am I becoming unintelligible?

No. Your fine.

[Victoria'smom]

37 hours and counting.

Some part of me knows I'm unwell. That's why I go to a pdoc. I'm going to show her what I wrote the other day and update her. I'm to easily sugar coat things. I think she's going to up my meds. I think it's just who goes first what her she suggests.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Am I becoming unintelligible?

You are intelligible to me. My spelling without spell check is not .

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

37 hours and counting.

Some part of me knows I'm unwell. That's why I go to a pdoc. I'm going to show her what I wrote the other day and update her. I'm to easily sugar coat things. I think she's going to up my meds. I think it's just who goes first what her she suggests.

Is it 37 hours until you see your pdoc? Not sure what you meant by your last sentence. You had asked earlier if you were being intelligible. I think it is a good question to ask, as far as being mentally healthy. Take care!

[Victoria'smom]

Is it 37 hours until you see your pdoc? Yes, it's less now 26 hours.
I think it's just who goes first what her she suggests. Both my husband and I have appointments back to back. One of us will probably get referred to IOP and one to therapy or possibly IP.

[Victoria'smom]

So we went to the consultation. They're testing for autism and mental illness. I'll take about a month or more for insurance to approve. After that it'll take 3-4 month's to get in. After that it'll be 2 months for results. So now I have to go home and convince Miguel to go to a pdoc.

[~Christina]

Glad you went . Hopefully you can get the testing done quicker.

When does Miguel have to see the Pdoc?

[Victoria'smom]

I haven't set up an appointment for him yet. I'm still am trying to convince him.

[~Christina]

You are his mom make the appt now since it will take time to get it.

Take control .. he is your son and needs help.

Please don’t wait for him to agree to it.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

how did it go today?

[Victoria'smom]

The appointment was actually for tomorrow. we went there and everything. I honestly think it was today but she only works part time now.

[~Christina]

Do you plan to see pdoc each alone ?

Sorry you made the trip only to find out it’s tomorrow so much better than missing the appt.

[Victoria'smom]

I let my husband read the letter. He said "wow", I don't yet know if we're going in together. I think it's up to him. I'd like him with me to back up that I'm not going to do anything. That thoughts are just that thoughts. I'm worried she'll up my zyprexa and want me to go IOP. I'm okay with lamictal raised or celexa added but I don't want to gain more weight. It's getting hard for me to walk already.

I'm the first appointment so it'll look bad. Maybe she'll take into account the atmosphere of the house.

[Victoria'smom]

Here. Nervous. 1:20 appointment. Eek.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

thinking of you

[Victoria'smom]

So, she wants me in therapy and she raised my zyprexa to 10 mg. She said I can take anywhere from 5-10 mg depending what I need. She was not fond of my letter. She had my lamictal at 100mg ones a day but she amended to two x a day and to exercise daily.

My husband She want him in therapy and doubled his welbutrin. Again she wants him to exercise.

She also wants my son in therapy because the house is hard to live in right now. I think I can convince him to see a therapist.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

How do you feel about all this? Is there a therapist available that isn't the one you saw before and didn't like?

[Victoria'smom]

I don't like upping the Zyprexa but for now I'll take the 10's and if I become numb, tired, and mute I'll drop it to 7.5 mg. I don't think there's anyone else besides the therapists my husband and son are suppose to see.

We have to get a car too. We saw one for $800 that we may get. It has a broken motter mount and coolent resivor. none of the scrapping places are calling us back.

[~Christina]

Will you follow through with all 3 of you committed to T and actually work hard ????

Did you both go in together ?

If therapy isn’t hard your not doing it right ~ my opinion

Did you set up the appt for Miguel yet?

[Victoria'smom]

We went together. It was nerve wracking. She asked me how I felt and I just handed the note over. Her smile faded a little while reading but recovered quickly. I was so anxious and sad that I almost started crying, feeling so exposed but I kept it together. She asked what my mood was and I said 6 but it can change hourly. She said I'm very positive for how much I'm going through. She sees me in to two months.

I think I might go back to therapy at the other center. The only bad thing is they won’t share notes. However they will be willing to get us all in around the same time. They can meet 1x a week instead of every other week. However the center we’re at you can take the bus and walk 3 blocks and be there. I just don’t know if I can walk that far. I know it doesn’t sound like a lot but I start hurting just walking around our small apartment. There is a van that may be able to pick us up. I know therapy’s hard but my last therapist made me feel like I was wasting both of our times. She said this while I was having really bad psychotic thoughts. So I’m not sure I’m ready to go back to her or anyone else. If I do go back I want a male therapist. The woman I have seen are too new agey or completely clueless.

We have yet to decide what we are doing. I know therapy is hard but sometimes showing up is hard enough and talking is enough. I do need a reminder that I’m there. I scare away most therapists. I feel done with therapy but I do trust her. She didn’t overreact or try to place us in IOP. I’m hoping a therapist can convince Miguel to take his meds regularly and see a pdoc. I can’t force him.

[Victoria'smom]

Bad night, I'm glad I have a long sleeve shirt on. I'm listening to really low so I need to concentrate on it and not on what's in my head.

[Crook32]

Miguel is under 18 so I believe that yes you can force him.

[Victoria'smom]

I know I can technically force him but I don't need him resenting the mental health system, like I did. I'm hoping a therapist can convince him.

[Victoria'smom]

We bought a car from a mechanic. He's going to fix what's wrong with it and we pay parts and $50 for labor. So hopefully for $1,000 we'll have the car on the road. This puts all our bills as back log. Hopefully we can put them all off for next month. If not I have to borrow from my parents and that's no fun.

Now we have a car but no money for gas.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

We bought a car from a mechanic. He's going to fix what's wrong with it and we pay parts and $50 for labor. So hopefully for $1,000 we'll have the car on the road. This puts all our bills as back log. Hopefully we can put them all off for next month. If not I have to borrow from my parents and that's no fun.


Now we have a car but no money for gas.

Hope it’s a reliable vehicle for you. Can you borrow a bit from your parents for gas ? Make sure you notify your insurance company , this car might be cheaper to insure.

Hopefully Miguel will respond to a T and take his medication(s) he seriously needs help, often you as a parent needs to force him into treatment, better he be mad at you instead of self harm or worse.

Stay warm down there