[Wild Coyote]

Hi Seacat,

Wow! So sorry you are in Cardiac ICU.
Yet, am glad you are in good hands.
I am hoping they will get things figured out and will be very helpful to you.

Thanks for the update.

Thinking of you.

WC

[Nammu]

Oh sea cat! What an experience. I hope Santa brings you excellent health for Christmas.

Yikes, TheSeaCat! That must've been pretty scary! Even if you hate being in the hospital, it's good you are so you can be safe. I hope they figure it out soon.

[Wild Coyote]

My niece came by for lunch. She'd stayed a couple of hours. I LOVE spending time with her; yet, found myself feeling sedated, woozy and with some nausea. I 'd gone to rest the minute she'd left.

Probably going to help with putting up more holiday decorations this evening.

I hope everyone is having a decent Saturday.

Love to All!

WC

Doing well. Still hearing whispers, but I went to the mall this morning and it went okay, only got overwhelmed a little bit. It wasn't crowded so that was cool.

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

I shouldn't have gotten out of bed today; I am currently trapped in the hospital, Cardiovascular ICU to be exact. I fainted while shopping with M. Apparently while were discussing shoes my blood pressure bottomed out and I fainted cutting my head on a display which required five stitches. I also didn't wake up until I was in the ambulance and M was trying to shove an IV in my arm; which he is surprisingly good at. I also thought he had a twin in the ambulance the double vision had returned. I have very minor double vision as I post this. My heart rate is 160 and my blood pressure is 50/60 it was a lot lower in the ambulance. My heart rate was 200 when the ambulance got there.

I am beyond grateful I decided to hang out with M over the girls. I just keep thinking what if this happened while we were mini golfing. I would have traumatized my nieces. They wouldn't have known what to do besides panic.

My Cardiologist is also on call this weekend so at least I have my doctor that knows what the issue is. He also looks really good in scrubs; so at least I have an enjoyable view. He is still unsure what the heck is wrong with me; one minute it looks like Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia and the next minute it looks like Postural Orthstatic Sinus Tachycardia so I am getting a tilt table test tomorrow; once they get my blood pressure back to normal range; which in my case is traditional high. He doesn't think it has to do with the upped beta blocker it shouldn't have caused my blood pressure to drop out. Depending on what the tilt table says I might also getting an Electrophysiology Study either tomorrow or Monday to see if it was indeed a medication problem; it will also be able to tell them what medications I react the best with.

What grinds my gears was I was fine before I saw a Cardiologist my heart rate was high but the only time I noticed it was at a doctor's office and I had the rare issue of palpitations now it's sending me to the hospital; granted I'm pretty sure this visit was long overdue since I'm pretty sure my primary wanted to admit me several times over my heart rate; I'm just stubborn and he knew I would never go for it.

I also have to be put in the stupid ICU because no general floor wants a patient with a heart rate like mine; so now I have a nurse bothering me what feels like every five seconds. At least my nurse is nice. M also refuses to leave my side as does R. I'm debating on whether I call the parents or call Auntie. I mean I feel fine, just nauseous, a headache, fever, and my personal favorite fatigue. I'm also good and annoyed.

M also gets bonus points because he used my standard lie of why I am on Seroquel to the ER doctor depression instead of my Bipolar 2 diagnosis; my Cardiologist doesn't know my crazy diagnosis either. I'm just annoyed with my health here lately what happened to be indestructible and going a year and a half before needing a doctor; now I can't even make it a month. My mental condition is in check; but my heart isn't. I know I should be resting but I'm behind in school work and like hell am I taking an incomplete in all these classes.

I just want normal week where I am fine and don't have to see a doctor; hospital; or test. Is that too much to ask for? I am sick of health drama; and family drama. I feel like a drama magnetic; I swear my life isn't usually like this. I also want out of the stupid hospital, I hate it here.

Hugs to everyone

Seroquel used to make my heart race like non other. Is it possible that could be part of the problem?

[Blue_Bird]

Sorry about that happening to you TheSeaCat, it sounds scary

[Blue_Bird]

I ended up falling asleep after taking my morning meds and sleeping till like 2:30pm. I get so tired after I take my meds.

It totals out to a normal amount of sleep though when I add in the 3 hours I slept at night. I've never had a pattern like that before. It's strange, I can't seem to sleep longer than 3 or 4 hours at night. Then I'm wide awake till about 10 in the morning

Went to the library and checked out a few DVDs about Western Art, PBS documentary series. Studied for an hour. Sent out a Christmas card to a friend of mine.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Seroquel used to make my heart race like non other. Is it possible that could be part of the problem?

I wish; I've had a high heart rate for years long before Seroquel came into the picture; I was always turned away from donating blood because it was always in the 100's, and that was back when I was on one medication in college; even in the Prozac days my heart rate was still running around 120-130.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I ended up falling asleep after taking my morning meds and sleeping till like 2:30pm. I get so tired after I take my meds.

It totals out to a normal amount of sleep though when I add in the 3 hours I slept at night. I've never had a pattern like that before. It's strange, I can't seem to sleep longer than 3 or 4 hours at night. Then I'm wide awake till about 10 in the morning

Went to the library and checked out a few DVDs about Western Art, PBS documentary series. Studied for an hour. Sent out a Christmas card to a friend of mine.

What do you do in the middle of the night when youre awake?

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Moose72

What do you do in the middle of the night when youre awake?

I listen to music and try to fall back to sleep, but it generally doesn't work because I'm wide awake so I watch stuff on Netflix , read, write in my journal etc till it gets light out and I can go to the gym or go somewhere

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

I wish; I've had a high heart rate for years long before Seroquel came into the picture; I was always turned away from donating blood because it was always in the 100's, and that was back when I was on one medication in college; even in the Prozac days my heart rate was still running around 120-130.

I hope they get you sorted out soon, TheSeaCat.

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by Moose72

What do you do in the middle of the night when youre awake?

If that were to happen, I would take another Lyrica and hope for the best.

[tecomsin]

I have a very boring life. I've been waking up past 6 am, was hoping for 7 but am not going to take a high dose of olanzapine to get there. So sticking with 1 mg rexulti, 50 mg Lyrica and 5 mg olanzapine until I see my pdoc again next week.

The olanzapine also helps with nausea and anxiety. I've had less thoughts of being a terrible person.

Thoughts for all those who are struggling. Sleep well!

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

So sorry to see you struggle so much.

I won’t see my T for a month between his vacation and mine. I do know I can call his voicemail , his voice is likely enough to calm me down if I destabilize. Maybe you can do that also??

Do you have a plan if you just come unglued?

Stay safe

Thanks Christina! I can't call my T but I can call the hospital I go to and talk to the nurses if I need to. They can then assess if I need further support. I am hoping it doesn't come to that as I really need to get back to work in two weeks as I am broke from not being able to work most of this year. I have used most of my savings to survive. I also have Fibromyalgia and am in the middle of a flare-up. Also need that to calm down first. Talking to my boss tomorrow about returning to work. Not sure what to say as things are in flux right now.

[hopeless2015]

Hugs TheSeaCat....and to everyone

[Moose72]

Anyone have a problem with yawning going off sseroquel or trazodone? Its getting to be hhighly annooying. I also have new tremors since then. Im also on propanolol bbut im not sure how much it is helping.

[Tucson]

I am here. I am continuing to be on better terms with my daughter. Now that her mother has a boyfriend, she has been basically ignoring me. I can understand this. This is probably due to an insecure boyfriend. I have to watch my money very closely. I owe the state $2,000 in back taxes. They claim I made a $39,000 profit in the stock market one year. I do not think it was that much, and not on the year they claim it to be. Anyway, I do not know how this happened. This is not showing up on my record with the IRS. They claimed an audit was done. The IRS told me this that this is not the case. I have been timid to call the State Revenue office and work something out with them.

Yesterday I had an interview with Farmers insurance. I was told it is for a customer service type of position. It turns out to be for an insurance salesman. Fortunately all I have to do is answer their customer’s questions and find them the best deal that I am allowed to give them. When hired, I have to get two licenses before I can start to work for them. It looks like I am still in the running for they want me to write an one page essay on why I would be a good insurance salesman. I have to get it to them by 7:30 AM on this coming Monday. Right now I have writer’s block.

Update: I forgot to say that I am using my new sous vide cooker to cook pork loin spareribs. They are boneless spareribs. First time I have seen good marbling on pork. I am cookng it for four hours. Actually, eight hours or more would be better, but I cannot wait that long.

[TheSeaCat]

Small update; vampires wanted more blood; my CBC showed an infection so I guess the ear infection still exists. Head CT scan showed I have a lovely concussion from hitting the display. My blood pressure has ticked up a few points; still super low though. Heart rate refuses to budge.

My primary doc came for a little visit apparently he was working this weekend and was alerted than I found myself in a hospital. He wanted to make sure I was doing alright; he also wants to see me after I am released so I can't escape his office either; so he can check the head wound. He also told me to put down the textbook/laptop and rest. I honestly don't know how to rest finals are next week and I want either President's List; or Vice President's list.

He thought M was the ex C. Nope; best friend/person I have feelings for. There is also that office pole of when; sadly everyone lost since everyone guested by the office Christmas Party. I feel it will be soon since he refuses to leave the chair in my room. He also said he would be spending the night.

R brought me pajamas so now I can ditch the hospital gown since my shirt has buttons, I had to fight with a nurse and a hospitalist since they wouldn't let me use the bathroom since I am fall risk. They threatened a cath; I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom in spite; pissed the hospitalist off completely, which is okay because it was a NP and I really don't like them, the new one is a PA for the night shift; he told me have a nurse accompany me to the bathroom. I win that battle.

I am hooked up to a lot of IV lines and bags; I quite like IV Tylenol it's made the concession headache evaporate and has kicked my fever down a few pegs. I also have antibiotics, fluids with salt, and Levophed. I can count like five odd bags of medication plus my standard pills.

My nieces can't visit since they are not 16 and that's the visiting age; which is dumb since I am technically stable, it's not like I have a vent or a chest tube oozing blood. My Aunt dropped by; I also called my parents and Skyped for about 10 minutes. I've worried them, and told them about the new car in hopes dad screaming would raise my blood pressure; didn't even budge. He's mostly mad that isn't an American Made car; and Nissan's in his mind are a piece of junk.

I cannot have a shower since I am a fall risk, my hair is a bloody mess; literally it's in a nasty top knot. On the plus side I have hypoallergenic cardiac leads and I'm not itchy at all. Cardiologist told me I could have pulled the monitor off after 24 and called his office and told them I had an allergy.

I could do without the old guy in the room next to me screaming for bacon, granted thin glass walls meant I got to hear a fun argument between him and the Cardiologist. He walked in on me eating a big fat burger and didn't say anything. I think he hoped it would raise the blood pressure. M also brought me a milkshake with the burger. I am glad it wasn't hospital food.

I realize I said small update that wasn't so small.

Correction: not an IV it's a PICC line; M corrected me that you don't put Levophed directly through an IV. I'm Admin not a nurse lol

Hugs to everyone

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Thinking of you Sea Cat. You've had quite a day and I'm sorry. Glad M is staying with you.
He's a good friend if nothing else.

As a professor's daughter I'd encourage you to let the profs know you are in the hospital and have a concussion just in case you need extra time. The concussion may make studying hard. It's always easier for them to postpone dates when they have enough notice that they aren't wondering why they weren't notified sooner. Delayed exams may be your best bet for President's list (and there is no shame in asking; you should hear the reasons people come up with sometimes. You have a real, valid reason.)

Hope you have a good night.

[yellow_fleurs]

TheSeaCat that must have been scary. I hope they figure it out and you feel better quickly. I am glad you have some support. Please keep us updated!

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Thinking of you Sea Cat. You've had quite a day and I'm sorry. Glad M is staying with you.
He's a good friend if nothing else.

As a professor's daughter I'd encourage you to let the profs know you are in the hospital and have a concussion just in case you need extra time. The concussion may make studying hard. It's always easier for them to postpone dates when they have enough notice that they aren't wondering why they weren't notified sooner. Delayed exams may be your best bet for President's list (and there is no shame in asking; you should hear the reasons people come up with sometimes. You have a real, valid reason.)

Hope you have a good night.

Thank you for that advice; I've emailed a few professors but since all of my classes are online it's hard for them to extend the dates since it is a set semester. I'm doing okay studying wise; it's really fun when a doctor walks in and you are reading a Healthcare Law textbook. Their faces are comical mixed with horror.

I had one dear professor message back to focus on healing that he would get with the school so I might get one delayed exam which is undoubtedly the hardest class; so if he can postpone that date I would be very happy.

[wildflowerchild25]

Yikes sea cat!!! That sounds horrible! I hope you get everything straightened out soon! I hope you feel better and get released sooner rather than later!

[wildflowerchild25]

I had a great night today. RS came over and fixed my son’s bed and my door I finally have a normal working door again! And my son doesn’t have to sleep on a mattress on the floor. He’s so nice to do all that for me even though we’ve only been dating a month. Then we went to a holiday light show with my SIL and BIL. That was really cool. We go every year.

After my son went to bed and my in laws left RS and I had a couple of hours to just lay in bed and talk. It was really nice. I wanted him to spend the night and he wanted to too but I decided it’s too soon for that. My son always comes into my bed in the middle of the night to sleep with me and he might get freaked out finding RS there. Plus he wets the bed still and sometimes pees in my bed. I don’t want RS to get peed on lol. At my son’s physical in January I’m going to ask for medication for him to help stop the bed wetting. He’s eight years old now so it’s really too old to be doing that and he’s at the age where he’s gonna want to start having sleepovers. I don’t want him to be embarrassed if he goes to a friends house. So maybe in a couple of months I’ll feel comfortable having RS sleep over. It would be amazing to wake up to him. All in good time.

My son did get upset tonight though. He suddenly came out of his room and asked if I still love him. I talked to him about it in his room and he said he was sad that I’m going out with RS so much and leaving him at home. It is a big change; I very rarely went out with my ex. We didn’t spend much time together and when we did it was during the day when he was at school or camp because I was unemployed. So I assured him that of course I love him and he will always be number one in my life. I said sometimes boyfriends and girlfriends like to go out on dates but it doesn’t mean I love him any less. It’s been just the two of us for so long now that adding another person into the mix is bound to be stressful for my son. I just have to show him I love him and that will never change. I was going to go out with RS next weekend to his cousin’s birthday party but now we are going to bring him with us instead of leaving him home. It’s at Dave and busters which is an arcade no he will have a great time. And I’ll still get to go out with RS and my son won’t feel abandoned. Win all around.

[beauflow]

s everyone
Many many good thoughts TheSeaCat and everyone


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Today's been a good day.. sunshine and rainbows
self care included cleaning up my place and tidying it up.
I get so wrapped up with work that my personal surroundings get... let's say, "messy". This time not as bad as other times.

living alone helps this out so much, for me... but I can be messy too or just not tidy. I forgot sometimes this was one reason why I was like- I need to live alone, to see how messy I get ((like I need to sort out what's my **** to deal with, and suggested he do the same)).

I chilled out too after cleaning up, spent about the whole day in pjs ((or well my type of pjs )). Chilled out then showered... got dressed some whar pretty nice. ((Though those bumps now look like boils, one on my cheek )).

I wanted to go out ((Like the capital out ~50miles)), and then my ex texted me before I left the apt.
I always ask and know the answer is no, if he wanted to go for a journey down town.
I decided that it was probably best not to, but
He was gracious enough to go to the store with me. I just wanted to go at least some where.
He got his baby niece some really cute clothes ((i must had been a good mood- I was the one that picked them up and talking them up of how cute they were and his baby niece would love it ))).

On our way back, for some reason I started to talk about past years, when I've been really down and out- I remember, at some point he would suggest or I would ask if he would mind driving me to see some houses lit up.. and he would and it was always- just something that got me more into them whole- holidays are here, look at the pretty lights .., just much thanks that he did..and its a good memory and feeling with another person.
when coming back from the store he said "lets go on a journey " and we went around some neighborhoods locally.

We saw some really creativity set ups just drivin around aimlessly.. as usual, I got absorbed in that-- time and place doesn't matter.

Just really nice, for me a part of me is like-- I just needed some time to "be" in that way.

I feel like I lose this some times... or am unable to, of that makes any sense.

I still want to go to the downtown and eat pizza and see lights, and I remember sometimes-- that v word,,, vacation ..
I hope I don't bounce around too much on my days off, though I know- been told- talked about it and etc.. Work is a trigger due to the stress ...
I probably should take a day to look around, as I've said I would --- just take vacation and look for another job (hahaha)...

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Just realizing too
I wrote today didn't I? I am sorry, I did a flip around .. my car is fine,

I ran over something the other night while being irresponsible-- this thing--seriously looked like huge antlers to me, but idk my friend said it looked like a cattle thing?? (( cows were stolen in cow town soo idk?? Idk even know what cattle thing she was talking about because I am a "city" girl more than a "farm" girl)).

One negative thing was that I did get extremely startled by my ex standing in front of my door as I opened it, it was just "perfect timing " but my brain had issues with it... for me it's like a blow, a shock, a hit , a jolt to my Brianand body.. there's more to this, could go into my kid anxiety.. but I wrote a lot of positive
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I also did a cool craft, had a wooden peace sign for ever, I made it festive -- arts and crafts , a go to .