[scatterbrained04]

So frustrated. Haven't had internet since Sunday and keep getting the run around on getting it fixed. Now I'm looking at Friday for a technician.

Had a really tough anxiety day that messed with me at work. Felt like I had someone sitting on my chest for hours. Heart was racing. Ugh. It was so bad I had to run home for my PRN gabapentin I almost never take. It did help some. People were starting to notice I wasn't acting right.

[wildflowerchild25]

Feeling kind of down today. I think the lack of sleep is catching up with me. I slept better last night, got to sleep around 11. But I’m still exhausted today. I need a couple of good nights of sleep to make up for it. So hopefully I’ll sleep well again tonight. Then I should be back to normal tomorrow.

[Nammu]

Sleep is still interrupted but had a great birthday anyway. Took myself to a Solon for a half day spa. Saved up for 6 months to do this and it was great. Do miss my long warm hair though. Told the lady to pick a good style for me, carte Blanche and she gave me a modified bob, does look good. Got my auburn hair back. Daughter couldn't make it for dinner out the roads are very messy and she lives one town over but mum and I went out early.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Happy Birthday Nammu! Glad you had a good day of pampering.

[Faltering]

I'm still not sleeping well. I have paranoia and racing thoughts at night. Some nights are better than others. I'm hearing the same voices. I'm wondering if I might be schizoaffective but I'm too afraid to bring it up to my psychologist or pdoc. I wouldn't know how to approach the subject.

Happy Birthday, Nammu!!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Sleep is still interrupted but had a great birthday anyway. Took myself to a Solon for a half day spa. Saved up for 6 months to do this and it was great. Do miss my long warm hair though. Told the lady to pick a good style for me, carte Blanche and she gave me a modified bob, does look good. Got my auburn hair back. Daughter couldn't make it for dinner out the roads are very messy and she lives one town over but mum and I went out early.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NAMMU!!!


I am glad to read you have had a good day!


WC

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

So frustrated. Haven't had internet since Sunday and keep getting the run around on getting it fixed. Now I'm looking at Friday for a technician.

Had a really tough anxiety day that messed with me at work. Felt like I had someone sitting on my chest for hours. Heart was racing. Ugh. It was so bad I had to run home for my PRN gabapentin I almost never take. It did help some. People were starting to notice I wasn't acting right.

I'm sorry you're struggling with anxiety too. How much gabapentin prn do you take for it? I'm on gabapentin but for fibromyalgia, not anxiety. It seems like it does nothing for either of them...sigh. I don't even know that it helps me sleep. Thinking about asking the pdoc to talk to the rheumatologist, switch out the Wellbutrin for Cymbalta and stop the gabapentin. I did well on Cymbalta a good while when I was being treated for postpartum depression though even in the intake notes, the pdoc had written bipolar? So maybe she suspected from the start.

[~Christina]

Nammu !!!!

Happy Birthday to you !!!

So glad you treated yourself ! Bet you look spectacular.

[Guiness187055]

Happy Birthday Nammu

[~Christina]

I’m down right Rage-y .....

Have been for quite some time but woke wanting to scream at the Sun it’s just way to loud today.

Seeing Richard helped, his office is about the only soothing I seem to get lately.

My husband is wonderful he of course knows I’m not doing well and hugs me and I know he’s there if I need to talk. I’m lucky.

Grabbed food while out so no cooking tonight was nice.

It’s cold in here yet my husband is eating ice cream ?!?!?! Silly man ! I’ll stick to my tea or coffee !

Hugs to all that need one.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

WC, Im glad you don't have to sleep in a gym.

I'm home. Came home at 10 am feeling tired. So I laid down in bed and fell asleep for 4 hours! lots of dreams. Of course I woke up to umpteen texts and one missed call.

In other news I am getting fatter. Or at least my stomach is. Thanks seroquel. Can't wait to finally break up with you. (Of course 4hour naps don't help.)

Thanks!
I cannot imagine trying to sleep in a gym full of people!
I don't sleep well as it is.

I hate the weight gain side-effects of so many of these meds!
Are you continuing to do judo?


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I’m down right Rage-y .....

Have been for quite some time but woke wanting to scream at the Sun it’s just way to loud today.

Seeing Richard helped, his office is about the only soothing I seem to get lately.

My husband is wonderful he of course knows I’m not doing well and hugs me and I know he’s there if I need to talk. I’m lucky.

Grabbed food while out so no cooking tonight was nice.

It’s cold in here yet my husband is eating ice cream ?!?!?! Silly man ! I’ll stick to my tea or coffee !

Hugs to all that need one.

I hope you feel much better soon!
So glad you have Richard and hubby, too!
I am sad about your cool/cold home. I wish I could help somehow.
Thinking of you!

WC

[~Christina]

As long as I can keep it at 60 it’s manageable.

Funny in summer I’d kill for 50-60 degrees lol

Thanks my friend

[Victoria'smom]

Happy Birthday Nammu!!!!

[TheSeaCat]

First off Happy Birthday, Nammu glad you had a great day of pampering!

I'm doing alright today, kind of tired and run down. I woke up in the middle of the night to a pulse rate of 140, like two hours after taking my medication. Episodes have been happening more and more frequently; from the middle of the night to just normal day to day activities. I ended up skipping the gym since my dad ordered a technology device and he couldn't set the thing up so he desperately needed me to help him set up the smart device.

I decided to go out this weekend with M, I like hanging out with him out of work and I shouldn't be scared of being alone with another guy, he knows my feeling. Granted the office is sure we are going to get together before the office Christmas Party.

Hugs to everyone

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

First off Happy Birthday, Nammu glad you had a great day of pampering!

I'm doing alright today, kind of tired and run down. I woke up in the middle of the night to a pulse rate of 140, like two hours after taking my medication. Episodes have been happening more and more frequently; from the middle of the night to just normal day to day activities. I ended up skipping the gym since my dad ordered a technology device and he couldn't set the thing up so he desperately needed me to help him set up the smart device.

I decided to go out this weekend with M, I like hanging out with him out of work and I shouldn't be scared of being alone with another guy, he knows my feeling. Granted the office is sure we are going to get together before the office Christmas Party.

Hugs to everyone

The high pulse rate must be very uncomfortable.
I hope your med for this helps you soon.

It was very nice of you to help your dad out.

I hope you have lots of fun with M!


WC

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

The high pulse rate must be very uncomfortable.
I hope your med for this helps you soon.

It was very nice of you to help your dad out.

I hope you have lots of fun with M!


WC

It's super uncomfortable one minute I feel normal and then the next minute I feel like my heart is trying to escape my chest. I hope it works soon too, I go next week for the test that will show if the meds are helping or if they need an adjustment.

He was appreciative that I came right home and I was grateful that I didn't have to go to the gym.

I hope we have fun too.

[beauflow]

I'm tired today. Have had some depressive thoughts, but that's normal for me. I dislike feeling hopeful in the morning (up ready to go early) and then a bit sui at night. Think I'll take a bath... I am mixed with emotions and moods. My ex tried to sit with me but I just want to be left alone right now.
I've been told by the last few therapists that my job environment doesn't assist with my swings.. but I fear I will not really be "happy " at any environment... .. I find it funny, *a lot* dont really knows or gets it-- because I am great at presenting myself as it's all good... always had to , to get by.
But I have found a few coworker friends that do get it, they talk with me a lot when needed

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

It's super uncomfortable one minute I feel normal and then the next minute I feel like my heart is trying to escape my chest. I hope it works soon too, I go next week for the test that will show if the meds are helping or if they need an adjustment.

He was appreciative that I came right home and I was grateful that I didn't have to go to the gym.

I hope we have fun too.

I get the same way without my beta blocker. It can be down right scary. I hope the can solve your issues soon.

[Sunflower123]

Happy birthday Nammu!!!!

[BeyondtheRainbow]

After I messed up my meds (again!) last night I took some clozapine at 4 AM and slept a good bit of the day. I have been tired and groggy all day and hope to get to sleep earlier than usual to make up some sleep. I took a shower and am all snuggled up in bed with my cat (who knows where the other one is) and am just watching videos and playing Word Crossy on my phone.

My pill boxes have been correctly filled with clozapine and my new dose of gabapentin so hopefully I won't mess things up again for at least 2 weeks.

[Tucson]

Well, up until recently, I have been estranged from my daughter. Now that she has given birth to her daughter, our relationship is once again positive. I think she has been feeling a little lost over her situation. There are allot if unknowns that she will have to deal with. So I have been giving her advice, and reassurance that she is going to be a good mother.

I have been very weak from time to time. Hopefully, my new meds will help with this. However, as a consequence of my episodic depression, I have missed valuable time to get a job. All the job positions are probably filled. Oh yes, the State is sfter me for $2,000 in back taxes. Apparently, one year I made $39,000 in the stock market. However, this is for a year different from that which they claim I made this profit. I checked with the IRS on this.

I am nervous about calling the State on this. I simply have no money left to pay this bill. So if I cannt talk them into either dropping the debt they claim I owe them, or negotiate for pennys on the dollar, I will be in a bad position with them.

[VerMOZZica]

I managed to get up early today and make breakfast for everyone and then I took a shower and got dressed . I decided to keep myself busy today and totally decorated the house for Christmas even though my heart is breaking about bad news about the health of a person I really love.My sister's and their kids came over and helped us feel better. Now the house looks festive but I can't help but feel sad.

[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I'm sorry you're struggling with anxiety too. How much gabapentin prn do you take for it? I'm on gabapentin but for fibromyalgia, not anxiety. It seems like it does nothing for either of them...sigh. I don't even know that it helps me sleep. Thinking about asking the pdoc to talk to the rheumatologist, switch out the Wellbutrin for Cymbalta and stop the gabapentin. I did well on Cymbalta a good while when I was being treated for postpartum depression though even in the intake notes, the pdoc had written bipolar? So maybe she suspected from the start.

I take 1600mg gabapentin at night as part of my regular meds. But I have a prescription for 100mg pills for PRN that I can take 1 to 3 twice throughout the day. I hardly ever do that. Sometimes it feels like the 1600 at night does nothing.