[Unrigged64072835]

Seem to be doing better. I no longer need lots of pain meds for my back, and I'm bending around more.

I bagged two kitchen trash bags full of fall/winter clothes so will donate that soon. Still not concentrating as well on mental stuff so physical stuff will have to do. I'm really trying to stay positive about next year.

I do hope the ill feel better, the hopeless feel hopeful, the despairing find comfort.

[TheSeaCat]

Hi guys; today was a busy day for me; went to work for a while then saw primary doc around lunch for head lac and concession follow up. Stitches are mostly dissolved so I am getting my hair done after work since my doc says it's fine. My heart rate was 140 so of course he wanted an EKG, even though I see my Cardiologist tomorrow who will probably be adjusting my med at this point. My Fitbit tracks my heart rate in my sleep and it varies between 98-115; and that is right after taking my heart pill.

My primary doc was worried that I had ventured into Hypo for buying a new car and updating my phone plan; I had to pull out my organizer and show him the budget insert to prove to him that both decisions were not Bipolar made; but rather actual thought out decisions. I have a squirrel fund in case something bad happens; but even then I have plenty after paying the necessities every month. I don't seem to have any lingering effects from the concession which is good.

I haven't had a headache since the hospital incident; I did have a lack of caffeine headache last night but that was fixed with Excedrin.

Lunch meeting went well; I think I landed my big fish; we will see after tomorrow though. I will very pleased if I manage to land him. My dress for the party also got delivered and oh goodness it's even prettier in person.

Hugs to everyone

today so far has been so boring and normal and regular it's hard to really know how I feel.

sleepless night, gross shower, less than average breakfast, back to my room to post here.

I am meant to go shopping today for my food for next week

can I be bothered?

no, no not really. but it has to be done

[Blueberrybook]

Same old song...I am still not feeling great, went to bed around 6:30 PM last night, got up at 4:45 AM.

No fever yet (though I do wonder if one of my psych meds or the cocktail helps with it as it seems to go down shortly after taking them, and I do think the gabapentin helps with the body aches), some slight respiratory stuff going on, achy, sore throat, dry cough, etc. It occurred to me my PCP's office has a walkin clinic on Saturdays (short hours though, I'd have to be there at opening) where you cannot make an appt. I am not sure if it is open this Sat., but I will call & check today. Or have H check. Right now, I am super hoarse; I could not even call in one of my cats from outside to get fed, and I have a very good, loud cat-calling voice except when I have throat/respiratory issues.

I'd been bad, not taking the extra 100 mg Seroquel the pdoc prescribed, but in light of being at least hypomanic yesterday (on top of the illness, yes), I took it last night, so I believe my Seroquel dosage is 500 mg now instead of Seroquel 400 mg. I don't know. I take so many stupid psych meds. Times like this I feel like quitting them all cold turkey. Hopefully the upped Seroquel does help. I really didn't want to have to increase the AP.

Guilt over not exercising a few days now. EDs suck too

[Blueberrybook]

Same old song from me...still sick. Off & on fever, sore throat, dry cough, respiratory junk starting, back of lungs hurting, ribs in front hurting.

Supreme guilt over not exercising. ED thoughts everywhere though I am tending to get some nausea, limiting my eating.

How is everyone else?

Who else dreads the New Year's Resolution time with everyone resolving to lose weight? Commercials already going on the TV each break the station I'm watching lately I feel stupid for not jumping on the diet, better food bandwagon though I know logically I need to gain weight, not lose it, definitely not diet or exercise more.

My Facebook feed gets clogged with weight loss stuff all January: diets, calories eaten, workout plans, amount worked out, calories burned, goal weights, "bad" foods (well, they call them things to resist like carbs, gluten, meat, etc.). It is so triggering. But one of my sisters only posts her info there (that's where her inlaws can read about what's going on, how my 2 nephews are doing, me too). She mostly doesn't diet but sometimes does.

I will make my New Year's Resolution to not overspend money (in bipolar, this always happens to me in hypomania, full mania) and to call my pdoc when I start getting hypomanic unless I have an appt. in a day or 2 because I can jump from hypomanic to full manic fast, with no prediction.

Anyone else have a New Year's resolution not involving ED stuff? You can have 2, should you need to lose weight, not binge, exercise, eat better, just a non-food weight related resolution?

I actually slept last night! A whole six hours! I'm going to have to put up with the IOP for a little longer apparently.
My New Year's resolution is to see if my leg hairs eventually stop growing, or if before shorts-weather it'll be longer than my hair.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Seem to be doing better. I no longer need lots of pain meds for my back, and I'm bending around more.

I bagged two kitchen trash bags full of fall/winter clothes so will donate that soon. Still not concentrating as well on mental stuff so physical stuff will have to do. I'm really trying to stay positive about next year.

I do hope the ill feel better, the hopeless feel hopeful, the despairing find comfort.

So happy to read you are feeling better!

WC

[Blueberrybook]

OMG, actually got a doc appt. today at 1:45.

I'm done with everything.

Wasn't there some kind of quick response box that used to appear at the bottoms of threads? I don't see them anymore.

Every year my husband's best friend invites us to his New Year's Eve party, and every year hubby declines because of the guest list. This year hubby expressed interest in going. I really like his best friend, and though his best friend's wife and I are not friends, she is a pleasant enough woman to see occasionally. The misery is usually the other guests, especially his best friend's sister and her husband, and two of his best friend's other friends. They are just the rudest most judgemental people I have ever met. Hubby can't stand the sister and her husband, I can't stand any of them other than his best friend and wife. I had to nix the idea, but hubby gets upset that we socialize so little, especially at bigger parties. I prefer socializing with just one or two people (or max three) at a time, and people that are friendly.

Hubby seemed to never really like any of my friends. That's OK now, because I lost them. He has a female friend who had a husband that he disliked, though I didn't mind him. Another friend, who tragically died recently, had a wife who was unfriendly to us both. Other friends have moved away.

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Wasn't there some kind of quick response box that used to appear at the bottoms of threads? I don't see them anymore.

Huh, I never noticed they disappeared, but they were definitely there before.

Maybe it's not clear, but are you going to the party? Sounds like his best friend really wants him to go if he keeps inviting him. But I don't blame you for being upset with rude guests. I can't stand being around rude people either.

Maybe the party won't be so bad? I've been to parties with some people I didn't like, but the party ended up being ok because I avoided them and talked to the people I knew. You can also leave early if it's really that awful.

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Huh, I never noticed they disappeared, but they were definitely there before.

Maybe it's not clear, but are you going to the party? Sounds like his best friend really wants him to go if he keeps inviting him. But I don't blame you for being upset with rude guests. I can't stand being around rude people either.

Maybe the party won't be so bad? I've been to parties with some people I didn't like, but the party ended up being ok because I avoided them and talked to the people I knew. You can also leave early if it's really that awful.

Hubby said he'd tell his friend that we have other plans, then invite them to our house (just he and his wife) another time. I suppose just stopping by briefly wouldn't be a bad thing. I'll ask my husband if that idea appeals to him. Thanks!

[beauflow]

Some times I accidently press the little arrow that is the quick reply box and it minimalizes -- perhaps that is what is going on?
Attached some snip it's in hopes to help

[beauflow]

Hi all, hugs to those that are in need or want them.
I wrote some thing and deleted it, I deleted a few other posts too; but put them some where for reference. As I think I have mentioned, just bouncy and trying to manage it all with regular life stuff that everyone goes through.
Have moments that I am fine, then not, then question capabilities and such.

I just got back from the DMV to replace my broken license- I am not sure how it broke, I have suspicions on how but am not positive. I was a little taken back that one place refused to take it earlier this week, when it has had the crack for a few months now and other establishments have accepted it.
At any rate it was really quick to get it replaced, but I have a temp right now, which has it's downsides for me...
but one thing that always trips me up at the DMV is the question that's something like- "have you had any physical, medical or mental conditions that effect your driving"-- I have always said no, because I need my license-- but I do wonder at times if they mean- "where you hospitalized/do you have a disorder" if then-- well I have not been honest, I guess.

Possible trigger:

There is a strong part of me that does not understand if that is what they mean, like if One has attempted suicide and been hospitalized or has a disorder- just a part of me, does not see how that has to do any thing with my driving. I've been driving before I had a license and I work, etc.
A car was not involved with that last attempt, and I have only crashed a car once -- which one T got the whole story on that-- and there was ICE and I did not mean to consciously

Just trips me up, and I am too afraid to ask what do they really mean-- because I just don't want any troubles.
Plus I use my damn turn signal unlike the majority of people these days - whatever, to each their own.

[wildflowerchild25]

I am a hot mess today. My neck still hurts, though not as bad as before. I have a slightly sore throat, indicating that I may be getting a cold. I have my period which is throwing my emotions all out of whack. I feel like I could just break down and cry at any second. I’m so frustrated with the state of the house; it’s so messy, including my son’s room, which I am enraged about because I just cleaned it a month ago. It should not be so messy so soon. I don’t know how to get him to keep it clean.

I already screamed at him once today because I was so pissed off about his room. I hate screaming at him but sometimes it just comes out, especially when I’m feeling emotional to begin with.

Ugh I really hate hormones. I also have cramps and atypical back pain (for me) so I know the back pain is related to my period as well. I’m just miserable.

RS is supposed to come over tonight. I won’t get irritable with him, because I don’t know him well enough yet and he doesn’t irritate me yet lol. Give us a few months. I feel the need to warn him I might be getting sick though so he can decide whether he wants to risk getting sick or not. He probably won’t care. I hope I get to see him. He will make me feel better.

[Guiness187055]

Didn't sleep well last night. I thought I was turning a corner. Oh well. Picked up some prescriptions, took my son to the bank, and got coffee. My wife picked up a nail in her tire so I had to pick up her car and get it patched. Hope everyone is having a good day.

[Unrigged64072835]

Well, that only lasted a day...

Now have sinus headache and a lot of drainage. Stomach is also a little iffy. Resting on the couch and feel like a pile of snot.

I’m still making music, so that’s a good thing. I’m having fun with it.

Take care, people.

[Nammu]

Ventured out into the ice scape as TP is an essential valuable nessasity of modern life. I trust me but I don't trust other drivers especially when they drive as if it's a fair day without ice on the road. Fortunately the sand crews are out, even here in mums suburban area. You know it's bad when the semi's are slowing down and being cautious. But got my TP, tea and dry cat food. Also picked up the last prescription mum ordered before they switch her to a new pharmacy. Her pharmacy got bought out by the grocery store, she's none to pleased by that.

I had yesterday to lay around in my pj and be antisocial so my equilibrium is back to center. I plan nothing for New Years.

[Wild Coyote]

I am wiped out.

It's another dark, cold day. I just want to stay warm and sleep, day and night.

I hope everyone is having a decent day.


WC

Originally Posted by beauflow

Some times I accidently press the little arrow that is the quick reply box and it minimalizes -- perhaps that is what is going on?
Attached some snip it's in hopes to help

Thanks so much, beauflow! You were right that that was what I did. I never would have noticed the little arrow without your screen shot snippet.

[Blueberrybook]

Just back from the doc. Strep throat. She was very surprised the flu swab came back negative as I apparently have a very flu-like cough. She said there's the off-chance the flu swab was a false negative, and I could have both, that if I'm not better by New Year's Eve, it's likely both. I got a steroid shot in my rear and a prescription for antibiotics. I hate being sick

[Blue_Bird]

Had a wonderful day. Can't sleep though now so I'm binge watching stuff on Netflix. Tomorrow should be a great day too, getting new clothes and maybe some new music. Oh yeah, this weekend my sister is giving me a keurig since my old cheap coffeepot broke. So excited about that, it will be nice to have some quality coffee again after having instant for the past year.

[TheSeaCat]

I have had a wonderful day today; worked until lunch then went and saw Cardiologist my dose of Metoprolol was adjusted to 50mg a day and I see him again in two weeks. My EKG was normal just high again; it feels like April again where we throw a medication against a wall and see what sticks. I don't care at this point; I just want something that lowers my heart rate and gets my blood pressure out of the prehypertension range. Not to mention I really do like my Cardiologist and he really seems to be trying to get my numbers down.

I also am not diabetic my primary doctor brought the lab report and my a1c is 4.7 so I have quite a range before I am even considered pre. That really made me feel better that maybe the Metabolic Syndrome isn't super severe and with proper diet and going to the gym I should be able to get out of it. I have lost a pound since I last saw the Cardiologist; which isn't the best but it shows him that I am really trying.

In other news the tour went well; I now have to wait until Monday to find out officially but things are looking good for me getting him over to our practice. Not to mention I get the satisfaction of sticking it to my evil former employer. It will be I who gets the last laugh. I didn't get out of the office until 5:30 and then I had my hair appointment to make everything all one color again.

I am looking forward to having four days off again; I just took Monday off so I could sleep in and do what I wanted before this giant party. I am really looking forward to my first official date with M which I am so excited for; not to mention during the party I should be getting the news; so it will make things extra sweet.

My boss also called me her equal today and I didn't cry so I am making a lot of progress with the anxiety and finding my worth again. I feel like my groove is back and I am more me than I have been this year.

Hugs to everyone

[liveforsummer]

Good productive day. Hugs

[mugwort2]

Heavy rain until 6pm where I live. Didn't go out because of the weather. My new cell phone well the company forgot to put a simcard in it. Feeling very disappointed. Hoping t get it fixed sat. Planning to stay home for NYE. Boyfriend can' t travel due to severe back problems. Spent Christmas with a woman friend and her son. Pleasant. She paid for my cab home,.