I'm so over feeling like this. Luckily I did get my dermatologist appointment moved up so hopefully she'll be able to do something about it. I'm having a lot of self harm thoughts right now.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by spikes

I'm so over feeling like this. Luckily I did get my dermatologist appointment moved up so hopefully she'll be able to do something about it. I'm having a lot of self harm thoughts right now.

I am glad to read your dermatologist will see you sooner. Your rash sounds horrific.

Do you know what's triggering your thoughts of self-harm?
Does anything help when you feel this way?
Do you have ways in which you can distract yourself?

Stay safe, spikes.

WC

[Blue_Bird]

I talked to my doctor on the phone today since she wanted me to check in with her after she started me on the seroquel last week. I'm doing great, getting wonderful sleep and not agitated, paranoid etc. So I'm going to be continuing on that along with my other meds. I'm glad things worked out this way because college starts back up in 2 weeks and the last thing I need is to be completely unstable and taking 3 classes.

I'm going to the movies with a friend tomorrow, not sure what we're seeing but either way it will be fun.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I talked to my doctor on the phone today since she wanted me to check in with her after she started me on the seroquel last week. I'm doing great, getting wonderful sleep and not agitated, paranoid etc. So I'm going to be continuing on that along with my other meds. I'm glad things worked out this way because college starts back up in 2 weeks and the last thing I need is to be completely unstable and taking 3 classes.

I'm going to the movies with a friend tomorrow, not sure what we're seeing but either way it will be fun.

I am very happy for you!

I cannot imagine trying to handle classes and all that goes along with that if/when unstable.

Good for you for making time for fun activities!

I hope things continue to go well for you!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

I am really struggling, trying to not let depression overwhelm me.
I woke up in hell today, again, only worse. I'd just wanted to stay in bed, or worse.

Luckily, there are others in the house and we all have a morning routine in which I play a big part. I had forced myself out of bed. Forced myself to do my morning routine. Forced myself to take down the holiday tree. Forced my way through a large part of the day. I had intense feelings of dread and hopelessness every single moment. Somehow operating while in a deep dark pit of depression.

Right now, I feel better about having done some things despite my feelings. I honestly don't know how I did it all. I know I was gritting my teeth and was wondering if I'd make it through the various tasks. I was pushing myself to/past my comfort zone, trying to do "the opposite" of how I was feeling.

I've had a rest now and am feeling overwhelmed again. Yet, nothing is as severe as my early morning thoughts/feelings of severe depression. It slaps me in the face as soon as I open my eyes.

It's almost time to prepare dinner, yet another thing I do as a part of daily household routine, even when I despise doing so. The distraction the "daily routines" provide is very helpful, even when I want to cave and not complete them.

I hope others are having a much better day.

Love to All!

WC

For the most part, I've been doing pretty well. I'm definitely not depressed and haven't been for quite a while. I don't think I'm growing hypomanic, but it's possible I'm experiencing some little...What should I call it?...Short hints of something or other maybe kinda sorta in that direction? I don't know. I'll be doing great and then I'll have some anxiety out of nowhere for no real good reason. Maybe it was slightly triggered, but shouldn't be anything hard to brush off my shoulder like dandruff. And yet, I need an Ativan. I think I've needed a prn Ativan almost every day this past week. But only for anxiety or agitation that lasts an hour or so.

My mood has been good. I've been fairly productive and forward looking. I've been impressed with some of what I've achieved these past four weeks. I've been excited a lot. Or when not, I'm calm and feel like is just A-OK.

But this afternoon, I sort of saw a bit of the old me. Tasmanian devil attack out of nowhere alternating with an angel or Zippity Doo Dah, then calm again. I went to the grocery store, reluctantly, and there I started getting more and more pissed off that my husband doesn't like my stir fries. I LOVE my stir fries. He said he wants us to lose weight, and frankly, stir fries are a great way to achieve that. What is wrong with my stir fries? I'm the one with highly discerning taste. How could he like American Chinese stir fries more than mine? I friggin lived in Taiwan and traveled throughout Asia in my youth. I even know what real Chinese food from various regions taste like. I'm not exactly feeding him chou dou fu or anything. Actually, he may like that. I just mention that because I don't like chou dou fu.

So I'm in the grocery store getting angrier and angrier. I'm done my shopping and then decide I'm going to buy some broccoli. He hates broccoli. In fact, he hates a number of vegetables. I love vegetables. Vegetables are good foods to like when you want to diet. I won't list all of the vegetables he dislikes, but they include some of the main ones, especially available in the winter.

I thought chicken would be a good choice for tonight, so I looked in that section. Oddly, the stir fry cut chicken was the best deal. I stared at it a long time thinking that maybe I could make something for him more like a sauteed dish. But then the stir fry idea came back again and again and I'm cussing the sucker out for not liking my stir fries.

When I got home I was ramming around unpacking the groceries. The dude hasn't done anything wrong at all today. But I'm still thinking about the dang stir fry idea.

So there have been a few nights this week that I have gotten a little less sleep. Maybe 5 hours instead of my usual 8 or 9. It's not that I forgot to take my evening meds or took them too late. I took them at the usual 7 pm. But at 12 midnight I was tired. I only got to sleep at 2 am again. I had to get up early to go to an 8 am dental appointment. That pissed me off because it cost $400. I just spent over $3,000 on two root canals. Today I almost wanted to say something to the dentist about how he could have spared me the root canals if he had done a better job trouble-shooting my tooth problems back in June. But I did hold my tongue, so I do have some amount of control.

Tomorrow I see my psychiatrist. I'm not sure what to say to him. I don't want him to think I need more Seroquel XR again. My appetite has been smaller since I reduced it (on my own) a few weeks back. He wasn't angry at me, but did give me a little speech about how he would have liked if I had called him to tell him, and give him a chance to call me with any objections.

Isn't it an odd place to be in when you feel pretty well, have some good things in the works, but then also have some issues that seem like little yellow flags. I don't want him to focus solely on the yellow flags, but should I hide them? I'm tempted, but I know myself that when I'm face to face with him I'll blurt it all out like a dam suddenly giving way. Then he'll get that look on his face. The same look my husband sometimes gets on his face, which is often accompanied by "Uh oh!"

But maybe it's not "Uh oh!" After so many years of finally have a bit more insight into my illness I don't want to jump to conclusions, especially ones that strap me in too tightly...yet at the same time, I'm sick of being so cautious.

I WANT TO FLY! I'm sick and tired of waiting in the nest like a chick and never making that jump. No one around me is exactly pushing me out of the nest.

[Blueberrybook]

Ugh, ED issues have decided to outrun BP issues at the moment...

Though I am so wanting to trash my Seroquel & Lamictal. Surprised I haven't yet.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am really struggling, trying to not let depression overwhelm me.
I woke up in hell today, again, only worse. I'd just wanted to stay in bed, or worse.

Luckily, there are others in the house and we all have a morning routine in which I play a big part. I had forced myself out of bed. Forced myself to do my morning routine. Forced myself to take down the holiday tree. Forced my way through a large part of the day. I had intense feelings of dread and hopelessness every single moment. Somehow operating while in a deep dark pit of depression.

Right now, I feel better about having done some things despite my feelings. I honestly don't know how I did it all. I know I was gritting my teeth and was wondering if I'd make it through the various tasks. I was pushing myself to/past my comfort zone, trying to do "the opposite" of how I was feeling.

I've had a rest now and am feeling overwhelmed again. Yet, nothing is as severe as my early morning thoughts/feelings of severe depression. It slaps me in the face as soon as I open my eyes.

It's almost time to prepare dinner, yet another thing I do as a part of daily household routine, even when I despise doing so. The distraction the "daily routines" provide is very helpful, even when I want to cave and not complete them.

I hope others are having a much better day.

Love to All!

WC

I wish I could reach out and give you a big hug or help lighten your day somehow. Your friendship has meant so much to me and to so many others here. I am here for you any time and if there is anything at all I can do...please let me know.

Thinking of you.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I didn’t go to work today. I woke up feeling like I could burst into tears at any moment and I just couldn’t handle the idea of going to work. I took a family illness day because I don’t need a doctor’s note for that. I’m just going to say my son was sick. Of course now he will probably actually get sick. That’s karma for you. But whatever. I don’t care. I went out to target to buy a few household items so that I didn’t have to tell my mom I wasn’t going to work. She hasn’t noticed the depression yet granted it’s only been a week.


When I got home I was productive I called the billing office for a medical bill I had and found out that my insurance actually did end up covering it. That was a huge relief. It was $2300. I also called around to a few psychiatrist and actually got one on the phone. She’s actually someone I’ve worked with in the past. That’ll be nice if she can get me in because she already knows me. I thought she might refuse to see me because I was so bad off when I saw her last but she didn’t. My psychiatrist now can’t get me in until two weeks from now so I’m hoping this one can get me in sooner.


Now I’m probably going to sleep for the rest of the day. I don’t want to be awake. I’m having self harm thoughts. They’re not intrusive yet but they are there. No Suicidal thoughts yet beyond damn I wish I wasn’t here. Or I wish I could sleep until this is over.


I wish I could handle depression better. It’s only been a week and I feel like I’m drowning. I’ve already called out of work because I can’t handle it. I’m such a baby. I hate it.

Your not a baby, depression is a soul sucking hell.

What can you do that is the opposite of what your doing ?

Stay in bed ? Get out
Eat healthy
Mindfulness
Mediation
Remember you have RS in your life.
Self grounding

So basically do the opposite of whatever you want to do right now.

Good job handling a bill and making calls to a Pdoc !! That’s great stuff ! Hope you can get back in with one you saw before.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I wish I could reach out and give you a big hug or help lighten your day somehow. Your friendship has meant so much to me and to so many others here. I am here for you any time and if there is anything at all I can do...please let me know.

Thinking of you.

Thank you, Jennifer.
Your friendship means a lot to me, too.
Thanks for responding, for caring.
I know you know how this feels. I also know you have much to attend to these days and I offer both positive energy and prayers your way more than daily. I guess I could say I carry you in my heart.

With Love and Gratitude,

WC

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am really struggling, trying to not let depression overwhelm me.

I woke up in hell today, again, only worse. I'd just wanted to stay in bed, or worse.


Luckily, there are others in the house and we all have a morning routine in which I play a big part. I had forced myself out of bed. Forced myself to do my morning routine. Forced myself to take down the holiday tree. Forced my way through a large part of the day. I had intense feelings of dread and hopelessness every single moment. Somehow operating while in a deep dark pit of depression.


Right now, I feel better about having done some things despite my feelings. I honestly don't know how I did it all. I know I was gritting my teeth and was wondering if I'd make it through the various tasks. I was pushing myself to/past my comfort zone, trying to do "the opposite" of how I was feeling.


I've had a rest now and am feeling overwhelmed again. Yet, nothing is as severe as my early morning thoughts/feelings of severe depression. It slaps me in the face as soon as I open my eyes.


It's almost time to prepare dinner, yet another thing I do as a part of daily household routine, even when I despise doing so. The distraction the "daily routines" provide is very helpful, even when I want to cave and not complete them.


I hope others are having a much better day.


Love to All!



WC

Oh I hate that you are going through so much overwhelming junk !!!

Based on your pain mentally and of course physical pain .... I don’t know how you are able to push through one task after another. Your amazing.

Make sure no matter what you find time for YOU !!!

Hopefully you are getting some quality sleep , when do you hear back about your sleep study ??? Hopefully that helps allow you to get deep restorative rest.

You offer everyone here such uplifting support and advice and your doing so while in a struggle yourself !!!!!!

Be kind to yourself always

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am really struggling, trying to not let depression overwhelm me.
I woke up in hell today, again, only worse. I'd just wanted to stay in bed, or worse.

Luckily, there are others in the house and we all have a morning routine in which I play a big part. I had forced myself out of bed. Forced myself to do my morning routine. Forced myself to take down the holiday tree. Forced my way through a large part of the day. I had intense feelings of dread and hopelessness every single moment. Somehow operating while in a deep dark pit of depression.

Right now, I feel better about having done some things despite my feelings. I honestly don't know how I did it all. I know I was gritting my teeth and was wondering if I'd make it through the various tasks. I was pushing myself to/past my comfort zone, trying to do "the opposite" of how I was feeling.

I've had a rest now and am feeling overwhelmed again. Yet, nothing is as severe as my early morning thoughts/feelings of severe depression. It slaps me in the face as soon as I open my eyes.

It's almost time to prepare dinner, yet another thing I do as a part of daily household routine, even when I despise doing so. The distraction the "daily routines" provide is very helpful, even when I want to cave and not complete them.

I hope others are having a much better day.

Love to All!

WC

I'm sorry you're struggling so much, WC! Good on you for doing opposite action!! It can be SO challenging, but YOU DID IT!!
Hope it eases for you soon...

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

For the most part, I've been doing pretty well. I'm definitely not depressed and haven't been for quite a while. I don't think I'm growing hypomanic, but it's possible I'm experiencing some little...What should I call it?...Short hints of something or other maybe kinda sorta in that direction? I don't know. I'll be doing great and then I'll have some anxiety out of nowhere for no real good reason. Maybe it was slightly triggered, but shouldn't be anything hard to brush off my shoulder like dandruff. And yet, I need an Ativan. I think I've needed a prn Ativan almost every day this past week. But only for anxiety or agitation that lasts an hour or so.

My mood has been good. I've been fairly productive and forward looking. I've been impressed with some of what I've achieved these past four weeks. I've been excited a lot. Or when not, I'm calm and feel like is just A-OK.

But this afternoon, I sort of saw a bit of the old me. Tasmanian devil attack out of nowhere alternating with an angel or Zippity Doo Dah, then calm again. I went to the grocery store, reluctantly, and there I started getting more and more pissed off that my husband doesn't like my stir fries. I LOVE my stir fries. He said he wants us to lose weight, and frankly, stir fries are a great way to achieve that. What is wrong with my stir fries? I'm the one with highly discerning taste. How could he like American Chinese stir fries more than mine? I friggin lived in Taiwan and traveled throughout Asia in my youth. I even know what real Chinese food from various regions taste like. I'm not exactly feeding him chou dou fu or anything. Actually, he may like that. I just mention that because I don't like chou dou fu.

So I'm in the grocery store getting angrier and angrier. I'm done my shopping and then decide I'm going to buy some broccoli. He hates broccoli. In fact, he hates a number of vegetables. I love vegetables. Vegetables are good foods to like when you want to diet. I won't list all of the vegetables he dislikes, but they include some of the main ones, especially available in the winter.

I thought chicken would be a good choice for tonight, so I looked in that section. Oddly, the stir fry cut chicken was the best deal. I stared at it a long time thinking that maybe I could make something for him more like a sauteed dish. But then the stir fry idea came back again and again and I'm cussing the sucker out for not liking my stir fries.

When I got home I was ramming around unpacking the groceries. The dude hasn't done anything wrong at all today. But I'm still thinking about the dang stir fry idea.

So there have been a few nights this week that I have gotten a little less sleep. Maybe 5 hours instead of my usual 8 or 9. It's not that I forgot to take my evening meds or took them too late. I took them at the usual 7 pm. But at 12 midnight I was tired. I only got to sleep at 2 am again. I had to get up early to go to an 8 am dental appointment. That pissed me off because it cost $400. I just spent over $3,000 on two root canals. Today I almost wanted to say something to the dentist about how he could have spared me the root canals if he had done a better job trouble-shooting my tooth problems back in June. But I did hold my tongue, so I do have some amount of control.

Tomorrow I see my psychiatrist. I'm not sure what to say to him. I don't want him to think I need more Seroquel XR again. My appetite has been smaller since I reduced it (on my own) a few weeks back. He wasn't angry at me, but did give me a little speech about how he would have liked if I had called him to tell him, and give him a chance to call me with any objections.

Isn't it an odd place to be in when you feel pretty well, have some good things in the works, but then also have some issues that seem like little yellow flags. I don't want him to focus solely on the yellow flags, but should I hide them? I'm tempted, but I know myself that when I'm face to face with him I'll blurt it all out like a dam suddenly giving way. Then he'll get that look on his face. The same look my husband sometimes gets on his face, which is often accompanied by "Uh oh!"

But maybe it's not "Uh oh!" After so many years of finally have a bit more insight into my illness I don't want to jump to conclusions, especially ones that strap me in too tightly...yet at the same time, I'm sick of being so cautious.

I WANT TO FLY! I'm sick and tired of waiting in the nest like a chick and never making that jump. No one around me is exactly pushing me out of the nest.

I enjoy reading your posts!

My new pdoc is very "aggressive" about everything, even "yellow flags." Now realizing just how aggressive, I have to be ready for some type of a med change if I mention anything. I try to roll with it. I have some hope that her approach may be very helpful.

By the way, I LOVE stir fries! My husband does not, so I rarely make them. I do make them when he is traveling for work.

Good luck with your pdoc appointment.
Thanks for all you contribute!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Oh I hate that you are going through so much overwhelming junk !!!

Based on your pain mentally and of course physical pain .... I don’t know how you are able to push through one task after another. Your amazing.

Make sure no matter what you find time for YOU !!!

Hopefully you are getting some quality sleep , when do you hear back about your sleep study ??? Hopefully that helps allow you to get deep restorative rest.

You offer everyone here such uplifting support and advice and your doing so while in a struggle yourself !!!!!!

Be kind to yourself always

Thanks so much, Christina!
Your response means a lot to me.

I will get my sleep study results in late Jan., not too far off now. Honestly, I do not want to deal with a c-pap. I haven't been told I need one yet, but H reports I stop breathing in my sleep and then I gasp for air... often. If true, it's likely apnea. We'll see. H really wants me to try c-pap. His dad and his brother swear by it, as they both have apnea.

You are a great friend to me and I deeply appreciate you.


WC

[~Christina]

I’m just not coping well

One of the best human beings I know is going through pure hell ...

I’m so frustrated I can’t just drive to her and hug her and keep her safe.

My physical pain is just slamming me into a brick wall. Saw my rheumatologist today and he walked in and sat right next to me and asked me what’s hurting the most ? I said everything and even got a few tears going.. I seldom cry in front of anyone.

So what do I do ? Sure I know the typical advice as I can offer everyone here. I “ know” this stuff , I’m just bogged down on all levels. I think I will allow myself to stay in bed for a day or 2, maybe I just need to float, yeah I need to float.

[hopeless2015]

Hugs to all struggling!! Went to work, at laundromat now since I didnt go yesterday. I so miss having my own washer/dryer. Anyway, gonna try and stick to routine this week, feeling fine today. I've started back on the lamictal but it going to take quite some time to get back up to dose I was at. My own fault though

[Sunflower123]

M is heading back any minute. This is the part I deplore. I hold the memories of the fun, laughter and deep conversations we have close to my heart.

I was honest with one of my bible study friends about the reason I didn’t attend one of our most recent supper clubs (she was offended)....the SI was just too bad and I was truly debating on whether I should go IP. I keep this information secret for a reason. Well...you would think I’d admitted to murdering somebody. I mean really...WTF? I feel like saying ladies you’ve been really sheltered...you have no earthly idea how it is for us with mental illness. Of all people to hold a stigma. Well...I guess it will be out now. I shall wear it proudly and maybe educate some folks along the way. Tehehe. Nothing to do but laugh. Makes me appreciate all of you here so much more.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I'm sorry you're struggling so much, WC! Good on you for doing opposite action!! It can be SO challenging, but YOU DID IT!!
Hope it eases for you soon...

Thanks for your support and encouragement, Innerzone!
I really appreciate your response!

I am in a place, today anyway, where I could force myself, even though it was a grueling struggle. I know, sometimes, depression can be so paralyzing there is no forcing anything. I am trying to stay out of that level of depression, it feels like it is closing in on me.

I think of you often. I know you have a lot to contend with this year. I hope things are working out for you both insurance-wise and otherwise. You have worked hard to have a healthy life and you deserve a break!

Good vibes backatcha, friend!

Wc
WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Thank you, Jennifer.
Your friendship means a lot to me, too.
Thanks for responding, for caring.
I know you know how this feels. I also know you have much to attend to these days and I offer both positive energy and prayers your way more than daily. I guess I could say I carry you in my heart.

With Love and Gratitude,

WC

That just brings tears to my eyes. Thank you. I have told my daughter often: now if something happens to me...I have instructions...there’s somebody I need you to let know how much they meant to me. I carry you in my heart as well.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I’m just not coping well

One of the best human beings I know is going through pure hell ...

I’m so frustrated I can’t just drive to her and hug her and keep her safe.

My physical pain is just slamming me into a brick wall. Saw my rheumatologist today and he walked in and sat right next to me and asked me what’s hurting the most ? I said everything and even got a few tears going.. I seldom cry in front of anyone.

So what do I do ? Sure I know the typical advice as I can offer everyone here. I “ know” this stuff , I’m just bogged down on all levels. I think I will allow myself to stay in bed for a day or 2, maybe I just need to float, yeah I need to float.

it's often heart-wrenching when we care so much for another/others and we want to help when they are going through hell. You've been doing your best, a VERY good job, in being there for her as much as you can. I hope you can find some solace in this.

I am so sorry about both the mental and the physical pain. It can feel so very cruel to be experiencing a lot of both! I do not know how we are expected to endure it all sometimes.

Yes, sometimes we just need to "float." You've taught me this.

I am here for you... anytime.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

That just brings tears to my eyes. Thank you. I have told my daughter often: now if something happens to me...I have instructions...there’s somebody I need you to let know how much they meant to me. I carry you in my heart as well.

I am very touched and teary-eyed, too.
Thank you!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

M is heading back any minute. This is the part I deplore. I hold the memories of the fun, laughter and deep conversations we have close to my heart.

I was honest with one of my bible study friends about the reason I didn’t attend one of our most recent supper clubs (she was offended)....the SI was just too bad and I was truly debating on whether I should go IP. I keep this information secret for a reason. Well...you would think I’d admitted to murdering somebody. I mean really...WTF? I feel like saying ladies you’ve been really sheltered...you have no earthly idea how it is for us with mental illness. Of all people to hold a stigma. Well...I guess it will be out now. I shall wear it proudly and maybe educate some folks along the way. Tehehe. Nothing to do but laugh. Makes me appreciate all of you here so much more.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

I am so sorry this has happened to you.
WTF is right on!

I've had it out with my mom's cousin, who is a very popular Christian minister. She'd condemned her own nephew to hell simply because he was very depressed and took his own life. She was very verbal about her stance and clearly thought all should agree with her. NO WAY!

I was quick to inform her that depression/suicidality is a real illness and if she had a god who was, somehow, punishing to anyone who is ill, I'd want no part of her deity or her religion. She was taken back and was, initially, very offended. A week later, I'd received a note from her, thanking me for sharing my perspective. She'd also pledged to stop preaching against people with mental illness, especially those who tragically harm themselves and/or take their own lives.

I took quite a chance that she'd also condemn me to the family for taking such a strong stance in opposition to hers. (She is very well respected and many consider her word as gospel.) However, it was well worth it, even if she had not repented and had not revised her stance.

We have half a chance to educate those around us. Sometimes, it takes a lot of courage; yet, we DO know what we are talking about!

I hope this turns out well for you. I am sure your love and your sincerity has some influence in helping others to see the light in this regard.

Much Love,

WC

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am really struggling, trying to not let depression overwhelm me.
I woke up in hell today, again, only worse. I'd just wanted to stay in bed, or worse.

Luckily, there are others in the house and we all have a morning routine in which I play a big part. I had forced myself out of bed. Forced myself to do my morning routine. Forced myself to take down the holiday tree. Forced my way through a large part of the day. I had intense feelings of dread and hopelessness every single moment. Somehow operating while in a deep dark pit of depression.

Right now, I feel better about having done some things despite my feelings. I honestly don't know how I did it all. I know I was gritting my teeth and was wondering if I'd make it through the various tasks. I was pushing myself to/past my comfort zone, trying to do "the opposite" of how I was feeling.

I've had a rest now and am feeling overwhelmed again. Yet, nothing is as severe as my early morning thoughts/feelings of severe depression. It slaps me in the face as soon as I open my eyes.

It's almost time to prepare dinner, yet another thing I do as a part of daily household routine, even when I despise doing so. The distraction the "daily routines" provide is very helpful, even when I want to cave and not complete them.

I hope others are having a much better day.

Love to All!

WC

Hugs, WC! You accomplished an incredible amount today. I know how difficult doing such seemingly basic tasks can be when depressed. Those who've never known depression have no idea. Such accomplishments should be rewarded. Do reward yourself. You did it! And when there are times you just can't do them, that's OK, too. It took me a long time to really learn that. I remember in my early days I'd almost punish myself for not achieving things. Punishing myself for being sick! Now I know that all of us who struggle with depression are much braver and harder working than we give ourselves credit for. Even if all we can do in a given day is get out of bed to put day clothes on.

[Moose72]

I wont be on the board until a week from today. Hugs to all!!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I wont be on the board until a week from today. Hugs to all!!

Have a great trip !