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Checking in...

I’m almost done with the dress form. I’m itching to start making clothes with it, but first need to finish stuffing it. I’m really happy but tired.

Been quiet otherwise.

Lots of love and hugs to those who want them.

I need to get out of the house today. I decided to see a matinee movie at 12:45 pm. I think I'll see "Green Book" since it won at the Oscars. My hubby isn't interested in it, so I don't mind going alone.

The French school director referred my inquiry to a French instructor who may offer me private instruction. I confess to being a little nervous about contacting her. She wants me to call rather than email. I feel like I'll need to prepare ahead of time. Actually, now I almost wish I could attend the daytime group classes at the much lower level, but I've already inquired about private instruction and am not sure if the director would even allow me in the lower group. The private instructor's email to me was brief, just asking me to call her, but her English in that simple email was rather poor. If that's the case, the private class would likely be much more intensive with expectations of speaking only French. That's high stress for me having to be "on" constantly, if you know what I mean.

I finally decided to thaw a huge turkey that had been in my freezer for almost a year. I put it in the fridge three days ago. It was my plan to invite my dad and brother, yet I'm yet to do so. The bugger is going to be thawed before the weekend. I must cook/roast it, but I now feel a little intimidated by the huge project. It's a big turkey!

I just got off my scale. It wasn't as bad as I expected, but it wasn't good.

[pirilin]

Life is good. Finding positive in the negative.
The Great Charles Chaplin once said, "The only thing everybody has is a problem."

Cheers.

[fern46]

Checking in for the first time. I've been diagnosed as bipolar recently after a manic episode with full blown psychosis. Getting through the days fairly well, but I recently became overly aware of the passing of time and I feel as if every moment needs to be filled. I think maybe this is a form of anxiety. I'm not ready to ask for medication to assist with it yet, but I am keeping an eye on it for now.

Good luck to everyone today and wishes for wellness.

Hey everyone!
Good news-- I still feel good. I'm running on little sleep but I don't feel super tired. My concentration is improving some, so that's good. I can't seem to make myself commit to any activity though. I'm kind of scattered. Not that anyone cares- but I have 15 tabs open, 8 e-books, and articles on my phone all at once, not really giving any of them attention. lol I'm bad about skipping through my head idea to idea.

All in all I feel good! I'm not doing well on my soda intake. I got to work on that though. Other than that, life is going pretty damn well in terms of mood... but my problems are still there :S, I hope the increase in energy will help me tackle them or at least face half of them.

Does anyone else seem to run from their issues at every chance? If I can't see it-- it doesn't exist I tell myself...

[Aurelius710]

I... I just can't win. I found employment about a month ago (front line fast food position rather than the back line position I thought it was) and they immediately work me more than I wanted hours-wise. I tolerated it for a while (I mean, hey, paycheck!) until my grades started to suffer (30hrs week irregular hours plus school wasn't the best setup). So, I ask my bosses to cut me back a little bit, so I can focus on school more. They did... to the tune of 20 hours gone. I just wanted 8 hour days over a 3 day weekend. I now have two five hour days for the entire week. I'm tempted to just quit the job, but that would put my right back into the situation from early January. No paycheck and still no financial aid from the university.

One ray of sunshine: I'm meeting tomorrow with a state agency that specializes in connecting people with disabilities with good quality employment and providing in-depth job training for said employment. I've got some paperwork to fill out tonight and I meet them in the morning. I'm excited for that!

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by fern46

Checking in for the first time. I've been diagnosed as bipolar recently after a manic episode with full blown psychosis. Getting through the days fairly well, but I recently became overly aware of the passing of time and I feel as if every moment needs to be filled. I think maybe this is a form of anxiety. I'm not ready to ask for medication to assist with it yet, but I am keeping an eye on it for now.

Good luck to everyone today and wishes for wellness.

fern. Hope you find some helpful threads here. It's not easy coming to terms with bipolar

I had a nice day today! I went to Surf Taco for lunch, then to the movies, the book store, exchanged a pair of pants at Marshall's, and picked up a few things from Whole Foods, including three moji. I had never had moji. I bought green tea, mango, and pistachio moji. I liked the pistachio the best. Everyone almost everywhere I went was friendly and smiling. It was nice!

I confess that I didn't call that French instructor back yet. I will tomorrow. I need to invite Dad and my brother to a turkey dinner I'll prepare on Saturday.

I have no idea if the itsy bitsy reduction in my Seroquel XR last night helped with today or if I just had a good day anyway.

I'm making a delicious dinner for tonight.

Brentus, I do the same thing sometimes (run from my issues). Over the years, I got so sick of being sick that I decided to just "not be" as often as possible.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Anxiety is through the roof. Been cashier training last 3 days. It is NOT sinking in. At ALL. And I feel totally overwhelmed. Been choked up all night, knowing we will be dealing with actual customers tomorrow. I KNOW I will end up in tears. It's been hard not to cry during the training(!) I am so very much looking for a new job. I simply cannot handle this one. I don't even want to get out of bed. My mood sucks. I'm frustrated beyond words and feel like a trapped animal. I want to just walk SOOOOO badly, but no income is a no-go.


Holding back tears right now on the bus. I've made a HUGE mistake.


I'll be packing some xanax tomorrow, that's for sure.


FML


Edited to add-- ****. In the midst of crying myself to sleep, I remembered I have a nerve conduction test in the morning beforehand. If you've never had one, they're rather painful. I don't even want tomorrow to come. It is too much.

Oh good ! Yes new job ASAP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m so sorry that tears are happening yes take Xanax along.

I had a nerve study for my neck recently it definitely sucked , hope your doesn’t hurt too bad.

I have all my parts crossed for you that a new job comes up ASAP !!

Thinking of you

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I need to get out of the house today. I decided to see a matinee movie at 12:45 pm. I think I'll see "Green Book" since it won at the Oscars. My hubby isn't interested in it, so I don't mind going alone.


The French school director referred my inquiry to a French instructor who may offer me private instruction. I confess to being a little nervous about contacting her. She wants me to call rather than email. I feel like I'll need to prepare ahead of time. Actually, now I almost wish I could attend the daytime group classes at the much lower level, but I've already inquired about private instruction and am not sure if the director would even allow me in the lower group. The private instructor's email to me was brief, just asking me to call her, but her English in that simple email was rather poor. If that's the case, the private class would likely be much more intensive with expectations of speaking only French. That's high stress for me having to be "on" constantly, if you know what I mean.


I finally decided to thaw a huge turkey that had been in my freezer for almost a year. I put it in the fridge three days ago. It was my plan to invite my dad and brother, yet I'm yet to do so. The bugger is going to be thawed before the weekend. I must cook/roast it, but I now feel a little intimidated by the huge project. It's a big turkey!


I just got off my scale. It wasn't as bad as I expected, but it wasn't good.

Yes Turkeys take a lot of work ! But might actually fun ?

Congratulations on you scale. ! I am not aloud to check mine.

[Pookyl]

I’m mixed again. Cheerfully sui.
I’ve just told hubby that I plan to stop meds as I’m not convinced that they’re a good idea. He just rolled his eyes and said “really?”
I told him I’d take a prn if still feeling off at midday.

[Sunflower123]

I’m doing better and better since I quit that AD. I’m not bouncing around like a yo-yo anymore.

I’ve been visiting my daughter for the past two days at her college campus. She’s struggling with depression so I went up there to get her set up with a counselor, a psychiatrist and an academic advisor to keep her high GPA. It was a productive visit...cheered her up and calmed my worries while handling her problems. She has a nice apartment with windows facing the afternoon sun.

We went to the Cheesecake Factory. Am I the only one who thinks it is overpriced and overrated? The food was good but overpriced and I’ve had better cheesecake at Juniors in NYC for much less money. I also rarely wait 40 minutes for any restaurant. No offense to anybody connected to CCF...just my opinion.

It’s good to be home. My pets were glad to see me.

Warm wishes to all.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

I’m mixed again. Cheerfully sui.

I’ve just told hubby that I plan to stop meds as I’m not convinced that they’re a good idea. He just rolled his eyes and said “really?”

Sorry your struggling.

Stay safe

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m doing better and better since I quit that AD. I’m not bouncing around like a yo-yo anymore.


I’ve been visiting my daughter for the past two days at her college campus. She’s struggling with depression so I went up there to get her set up with a counselor, a psychiatrist and an academic advisor to keep her high GPA. It was a productive visit...cheered her up and calmed my worries while handling her problems. She has a nice apartment with windows facing the afternoon sun.


We went to the Cheesecake Factory. Am I the only one who thinks it is overpriced and overrated? The food was good but overpriced and I’ve had better cheesecake at Juniors in NYC for much less money. I also rarely wait 40 minutes for any restaurant. No offense to anybody connected to CCF...just my opinion.


It’s good to be home. My pets were glad to see me.


Warm wishes to all.

Glad you had a productive day !! I know how much you enjoy seeing your daughter ! Mine is almost 14 hours away. now I’d love some cheesecake lol

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Sorry your struggling.

Stay safe

Thanks feeling too chirpy to notice the struggle
I’ve promised my hubby I’ll stay inside even though I’m bored out of my brain.

[Nammu]

I'd love me some cheesecake! Bytheway I think the Cheesecake Factory is way overpriced and overrated too.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I had a nice day today! I went to Surf Taco for lunch, then to the movies, the book store, exchanged a pair of pants at Marshall's, and picked up a few things from Whole Foods, including three moji. I had never had moji. I bought green tea, mango, and pistachio moji. I liked the pistachio the best. Everyone almost everywhere I went was friendly and smiling. It was nice!


I confess that I didn't call that French instructor back yet. I will tomorrow. I need to invite Dad and my brother to a turkey dinner I'll prepare on Saturday.


I have no idea if the itsy bitsy reduction in my Seroquel XR last night helped with today or if I just had a good day anyway.


I'm making a delicious dinner for tonight.


Brentus, I do the same thing sometimes (run from my issues). Over the years, I got so sick of being sick that I decided to just "not be" as often as possible.

Sounds like a great day !

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

fern. Hope you find some helpful threads here. It's not easy coming to terms with bipolar

Welcome to PC ! Hope you find info that will help you.

[~Christina]

I am still miserable. This is ridiculous, day 3 and we have thunder storms coming Saturday so cold today of 38-40 today Saturday 69-72 , no wonder my body is screaming.

I sick sick sick of the shyt.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I am still miserable. This is ridiculous, day 3 and we have thunder storms coming Saturday so cold today of 38-40 today Saturday 69-72 , no wonder my body is screaming.

I sick sick sick of the shyt.

I feel your pain. Weather changes are a b**** with Fibromyalgia. I really hope things change ASAP and your suffering is reduced. I wish I could ease your pain and/or change the weather to something more manageable.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I am still miserable. This is ridiculous, day 3 and we have thunder storms coming Saturday so cold today of 38-40 today Saturday 69-72 , no wonder my body is screaming.

I sick sick sick of the shyt.

Originally Posted by Brentus

Does anyone else seem to run from their issues at every chance? If I can't see it-- it doesn't exist I tell myself...

I’m so glad you are feeling good. Sometimes I still run from my problems but I’ve learnt they don’t go anywhere so I now tend to tackle them as they come in. For the big ones I seek advice and go from there. It’s baby steps to overcome this. Be kind to yourself. It is a common thing people do.

[Wander]

Quick check in. I’m sure most of you have read my thread. Today I’m going to try to drag myself to university and test if it’s possible to keep going though in my heart I know it’s a lost cause. My hamstring injury is giving me grief too and will make sitting in class difficult. My physiotherapist told me not to go in if my pain hasn’t lessened, and it hasn’t. What to do? I barely slept last night due to pain so I’m tired too. I will take the day as it comes.

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m doing better and better since I quit that AD. I’m not bouncing around like a yo-yo anymore.

I’ve been visiting my daughter for the past two days at her college campus. She’s struggling with depression so I went up there to get her set up with a counselor, a psychiatrist and an academic advisor to keep her high GPA. It was a productive visit...cheered her up and calmed my worries while handling her problems. She has a nice apartment with windows facing the afternoon sun.

We went to the Cheesecake Factory. Am I the only one who thinks it is overpriced and overrated? The food was good but overpriced and I’ve had better cheesecake at Juniors in NYC for much less money. I also rarely wait 40 minutes for any restaurant. No offense to anybody connected to CCF...just my opinion.

It’s good to be home. My pets were glad to see me.

Warm wishes to all.

Glad you were able to help your daughter out. Also glad you’re feeling better.

We have a CCF here. Definitely overrated and overpriced, plus the one here is so LOUD. We can barely hear at the to-go counter. Thankfully Barnes and Noble has what my husband likes at their cafe.

[cashart10]

Had a very busy day today. Didn’t have IOP because I saw my t and insurance won’t cover both on the same day. Because of that I was able to sleep in. The kids were out of school because the teachers in our state are on a mini strike (kind of) due to screwy legislature and my husband is always off on thurs so we went out to lunch and spent the day together after my appt. We were in the car a lot though because we had a lot of errands to run. I have to admit spending the day with them made me less anxious and made my day better. I hope tomorrow is the same but I doubt it. I’m already feeling low and lost in my head again. My pdoc submitted a letter to confirm my continuous leave and listed my return to work date as April 8th. Apparently that is the Monday after spring break and she doesn’t want me going back before then. 🤷*♀️ The women I work with will not be happy with that and my mom will question it. I guess I’ll just have to tell her. But, like everyone keeps saying, the treatment is for me. No one else.

[Blueberrybook]

God, I really hate being bipolar and only once having a 6 month period of stability. My normal baseline is craziness basically since I'm mixed practically all the f***ing time. And there is no way I can even begin to explain to my husband what it is like. I just have no way to explain to someone who is not bipolar to begin to understand what my typical day is like I can't find the words at all.