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#851
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Can I offer a small tip that you don't have to take; a lot of times with any sort of injury medical providers will tell you to alternate between ice and heat; otherwise constant heat can inflame it more; so they recommend alternating between ice; heat; followed by more ice. I totally understand that heat feels so nice but ice is important too. When my mother had her hip replaced they only gave her ice and no heat. ![]()
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I’m so glad that you are now able to post what’s happening in you world Heath trouble are always turning your life up side down , I hope you find answers and get all that stuff fixed up Sorry things got tough at work, I remember shedding lots of tears at different jobs i have worked in my life. I do hope you get Cat back , I don’t k is what I would do without my dog. Take hood care of yourself ! ![]()
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Your doctor needs to get you in with a surgeon pronto !!! You need relief now ! I hate to know your going through so much , I’m glad you have RS Gentle ![]()
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Woke up to a HUGE Fibromyalgia flare , it hurts to even take a deep breath. I’m so miserable I’m crying over it.
I’m in the pity stage right now of WHY ME ???? I feel like I have done something catastrophic and I’m now being punished or some shyt. Tears are flowing. I’m nibbling on Xanax it doesn’t seem to do much but I really can’t take much more of this pain. It HAS to be better tomorrow. Fml
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#855
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#856
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You can file an extension on your taxes.
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Thank you, I'll have to look into that....
I am going to look also on cutting things again like I dont have cable but I have Netflix and hulu. I already was doing this, just will have to do more. I will look at part time. I am going to redo my taxes before submitting too, to ensure I didn't miss anything- I will still owe, because I see where the error was made. Maybe I misunderstood the lawyer or they weren't clear? I know after I had their services I mentioned I'd never recommend them to another because I felt he wasn't clear on what I needed to do.
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My cat had surgery today to remove a tumor. I'll find out soon whether it's cancer. My cat is about 18 years old and has had a good life I think. We'll see how it goes.
My mood is persistently low. I know only I can find happiness but it's a tough search. I'm distracting myself by doing research for another book I'm thinking of writing and staying busy at home and work but the low mood has a way of finding it's way into everything.
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* Dx: Bipolar II (finally, after years at Bipolar NOS) * Rx: minimal dose of Lamictal My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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#859
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Well I changed my signature after talking with my pdoc yesterday. He was confident that I have BP 1 rather than schizoaffective. The reason he gave is that I mostly talk about mood symptoms when I see him as well as fatigue rather than intrusive thoughts.
I've been trying to get off a low dose of olanzapine I was using as a sleep aid. Yesterday I was up in the middle of the night and had very dark thoughts, like I haven't had in a long, long time. I stepped down from 1.25 mg olanzapine about a week ago to zero. So far my sleep has been fair but not bad. I'll try for another week or so to stay off of it.
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I haven't been feeling well for a while. Digestive distress and energy issues. My mood and eating have perhaps been major contributing factors. I called my psychiatrist and told him I'd like to lower my Seroquel XR a little bit before I see him next week. I'll just reduce it by 50 mg. He always wants me to let him know about any changes I want to make on my own so that he has the chance to follow up, if necessary, or even veto my idea. I think he'll allow this since it's a small change and I'm definitely not hypomanic or manic. He'd be able to tell even from my message. I'll see if he calls back.
I was sad to learn today that Alex Trebek of Jeopardy has stage 4 pancreatic cancer. That's pretty dire. We watch Jeopardy every weeknight, and have for years. He's determined to fight it. I really wish him well. It will be tough to watch his struggle since he plans to work as much as he can. Update: My dear psychiatrist already called back approving my plan. He's the greatest! Last edited by Anonymous46341; Mar 06, 2019 at 06:15 PM. |
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#861
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Thanks hun , how are you feeling ?
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Pretty much the same. Seems like the pain is worst in the morning, I guess because the drugs have worn off. Once I get moving the pain reduces but I still can’t walk very well. My feet are tingling and driving me nuts. It feel so weird to walk when you can’t feel your feet. I managed to drive the five minutes to my son’s school to pick him up but I definitely shouldn’t drive much further than that.
Just hanging in there until I can see my dr on Monday. Thanks so much for your concern!
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#863
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Sitting on my couch with my youngest in my lap...lost in music from my headphones. I’m drowning from conflicting thoughts. The turmoil is literally making me sick to my stomach. Am I sick or is this spiritual? Should I take meds or should I not? I am obsessed about it. And my pdoc was gentle with me on the phone as I was 100% honest with her but I don’t know if I should listen to her. She told me if I go off my meds I will end up in the hospital but will I really belong there? I feel like this medicine is stunting my faith and taking my freedom. I’m afraid also.
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***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD ![]() "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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Hurt my hamstring yesterday doing yoga. Frustrating as mild, brief exercise helps my Fibromyalgia. Late yesterday afternoon I went down to the beach for a swim, forgetting about my hamstring. I couldn’t use my legs so had to swim solely with my arms. Lol. Getting home was a painful experience. Think I might go to the pharmacy to see what I can do to increase recovery time.
Saw my T yesterday. I was at the verge of tears most of the session, which is unlike me. It seems I might not be up to university. The series of horror episodes, that ended in a five month psychotic mixed episode, have taken their toll on me. Even my T said it was horrific. Starting university so soon after such experiences is like jumping parallel universes. It is jolting and unsettling. I am going to try going to university the next week but honestly doubt I’ll make it. I am empty and broken. Traumatised to the max. I think I will do my own projects at home that will help me recover. I need to keep busy and productive. I am also mildly depressed and terrified I will fall into another deep episode again. I’m trying to be positive but it’s tough when that has been my past experience almost every time.
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I am sorry wander that you are feeling the loss of your education. this could just be temporary. Just a break from the pressure of studies.
Work on you. Then rethink it for next semester. bizi
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I’m not sure if it is this anxiety talking but I’m about to get in the car and drive very far, far, far away. I am serious. I need to get away from here. This music is making my mind disconnected and disjointed but my mind is built up...like I’m on drugs. I’m feeling increasingly more nervous to take medicine. I did take my nightly meds just 5 minutes ago at my husband’s request but I can’t see taking a “rescue” drug like my klonapin or more seroquel. I don’t know if I should page the on call doctor? What would I even say? I don’t feel like it’s an emergency. But I feel like I am screaming inside and I don’t know if I’ll make it through the night without fleeing. Maybe my meds will make me tired? I suppose I’ll try to stay here and wait. My husband keeps asking me over and over if I’m sure there’s not something else I should be telling him. Not even sure how to respond to that one. Part of me regrets asking for his accountability.
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***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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Thanks. However, as I had to take last year off due to many major mixed episodes if I pull out now it is pulling out of the degree. There is no point to any of this anyway.
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Hello everyone and happy Wednesday; I hope everyone is had a good Wednesday and I hope that everyone is doing alright. Me; I am pretty tired and still rather worried about M and his back. Work was alright; I spent my day mostly dealing with nurse interviews so at least my brain was sort of occupied from my worry. I did have one interview walk out when I said who I was and my title; basically I'm not working for a kid. Like okay then your application can go directly to the shred bin. The nurse and I doing the interviews just started laughing at that; so at least I had something funny happen at work and eased some of the stress I was feeling; if only for a little bit.
I still feel pretty worried about my love and whatever has happened to his back again. He is not doing the best today and goes for the MRI tomorrow after work; but honestly he and I both very worried about this. He's doing the best but I am spending the night and making sure his dogs are taken care off and that he's doing alright. I'm doing okay despite my worry. Hugs to everyone ![]()
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Anxiety is through the roof. Been cashier training last 3 days. It is NOT sinking in. At ALL. And I feel totally overwhelmed. Been choked up all night, knowing we will be dealing with actual customers tomorrow. I KNOW I will end up in tears. It's been hard not to cry during the training(!) I am so very much looking for a new job. I simply cannot handle this one. I don't even want to get out of bed. My mood sucks. I'm frustrated beyond words and feel like a trapped animal. I want to just walk SOOOOO badly, but no income is a no-go.
Holding back tears right now on the bus. I've made a HUGE mistake. I'll be packing some xanax tomorrow, that's for sure. FML Edited to add-- ****. In the midst of crying myself to sleep, I remembered I have a nerve conduction test in the morning beforehand. If you've never had one, they're rather painful. I don't even want tomorrow to come. It is too much. ![]() Last edited by Anonymous45023; Mar 07, 2019 at 02:29 AM. |
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#873
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I'm sorry you are still in pain with the back; have you tried a TENS Unit that might bring you some relive. I hope your doctor's appointment on Monday goes well. Sending you many many many hugs. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]()
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Oh honey I am so sorry this new job is not at all what you want. I honestly know that feeling so well sadly. I'm sorry you feel like a caged animal. I'm going to unlock that cage. Just breath I know retail is stressful and often times rough when dealing with our types of situation. I am sending you some big bear hugs and hope you find a new job asap; one that you love. I hope your nerve conduction study goes very well and that it isn't to painful. ![]() ![]() ![]()
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I am basically at a standstill, a complete standstill
I don't know what else to say every day is just groundhog day- going through the motions, eating less than average food, having little to no interaction with people, and then failing to get a good night's sleep and that all starts again the next day, and the next, and the next, and the next doesn't help living with 30 or so alters I guess the positive of this week is that I got to have pancakes with sugar and lemmon on they were good too, ended up having like 3 of them but it doesn't solve the emptyness and sadness inside |
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