[tecomsin]

Hi Everyone,

I have been trying to check in each day but . not so motivated to post about what is going on, or not going on, in my life. I carry a lot of deep unhappiness with how things have gone in my life, and I know this is a common situation for people with bipolar.

I've never been suicidal. My swings from day to day are rather small. I seem to be stuck in a permanent low grade depression with lots of fatigue. Like the chemo drain never completely lifted.

I am trying to break the negative thoughts. Sometimes am overridden with anger and just want to destroy something. I am working on accepting those thoughts and refocussing to other ones.

[piano97]

u r not alone.

i haven't but have nearly thrown and broken a number of things today. it won't help though. screaming some can help but not ideal either. i feel like i'm being tortured today. reach for the next best thought. this is temporary and will get better. remind youreself of times when things were smoother and stable. it will come back. promise.


is there music you like? jazz always helps me some. and listening to now.
clearly are suffering, but if we can perceive it differently, maybe can get some relief. I'm gonna work on that for a little bit.

I'm sorry to hear you are suffering, too. I agree with piano97-- try music, it helps me release emotion when I can't actually release them in a physical way (cry, hit stuff, etc). I've been in a funk for awhile so I understand exactly how that feels, and it sucks. No one understands the wear and tear it does and how awful it really makes everything. Again, I am sorry and I hope you find something that helps.

[piano97]

I took shower and channeled Teddy Roosevelt. Am going to go for walk now. Sitting down to write has already began to exhaust me but will not stop me. Get Action.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, tecomsin I agree with what Brentus and piano97 have already wisely said better than I ever could. If you're feeling angry, listening to music is definitely a good solution. I'd also suggest to buy a punching bag if you can. You could vent your anger there. I'd also suggest to try out yoga if you can. It can be really helpful, especially if you're struggling with anger and depression. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. You don't deserve it at all. I hope things will get better soon for you. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with you feelings. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. You deserve to get better and to feel good. You deserve to live a good life just like everyone else. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. We're here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. You know we won't judge you here. I promise you that. Stay strong, tecomsin. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're a wonderful person. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this

[IssaColdWorld]

Invest in a good pair of headphones and listen to some music. That's what I've been doing this past week to cheer myself up as I have a lot of external situations and circumstances working against me and I feel very hopeless.

Things will get better for you! They will get better for all of us, just take things one minute at a time.

[tecomsin]

I don't normally listen to music as i have strong associations with psychotic episodes. My anger is not too bad. Don't want to exaggerate. It just percolates up sometimes. Looking for peace, acceptance and serenity.

Do you like to write or draw? They say coloring is a great way to get out energy and emotion.