[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I'm so sorry WC. I need daily help too. I can't imagine what your going through right now. Can you find an assistance apartment or have a home health aid come in?

Hi!
Thank you for your concern and your thoughtful response.
Great suggestions, thank you!

I am trying to find out exactly where to find services and have made a few calls.
There are quite a few services in this state, as I understand things.
I will have to find out more.

I appreciate you very much. I hope life gets easier for you.
I enjoy your updates!
Thanks again!

Love to you and to yours~

[Wild Coyote]

It is a truly horrible day for me today; yet, it has helped me tremendously to "hang out" here with such amazing friends!
Your support means so very much to me!

[fern46]

I'm having a good day. I rocked out some chores this morning and then we went to the pool. I painted the trim we replaced this weekend and then taught my son how to sew. I'm about to make one of my favorite meals for dinner and then plan on relaxing for the rest of the night. The long holiday weekend has been wonderful. I feel happy and blessed.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by fern46

I'm having a good day. I rocked out some chores this morning and then we went to the pool. I painted the trim we replaced this weekend and then taught my son how to sew. I'm about to make one of my favorite meals for dinner and then plan on relaxing for the rest of the night. The long holiday weekend has been wonderful. I feel happy and blessed.

Good for you! Sounds like so much FUN!

It is such a blessing to read positive posts like yours!
For me, it reminds me that better days are ahead!!!
During tough times, it's a very important reminder!!!

It's wonderful to have you participating here at PC!!!

[Ezrigirl]

Life is boring. Life is dull. Life is uninteresting. Life is not what we want it to be.

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Good for you! Sounds like so much FUN!

It is such a blessing to read positive posts like yours!
For me, it reminds me that better days are ahead!!!
During tough times, it's a very important reminder!!!

It's wonderful to have you participating here at PC!!!

Thanks! I am a very positive person by nature. I am grateful for that. I've seen rough times though, so I really try to hold gratitude in my heart when days like this come around.

Better days are ahead for you for sure. This is an awful time, but you are perservering with such strength and grace. I am inspired by you and I am so happy to know I was able to add a bit of sunshine to your day when you are down. Service to others is truly important to me, so just know I'm here for you any time you need a friend.

[Ezrigirl]

Well, went to bed at 11.45 and just got out of bed at 4.15

[downandlonely]

I'm also having trouble sleeping.

[Wander]

Anxiety was awful yesterday. Seroquel and Lorazepam helped but I felt so lost and confused like my brain is filled with cotton wool. It was horrible. In the end I just curled up and lay in bed trying to escape.

After 10 hours of sleep I woke exhausted but after dragging myself up I managed breakfast, a swim, lunch, then a walk on the beach. All without meds.

My mood is very low though and I’m worried I’m getting depressed. I recently came off 400 mg Lamotrogine (tapered) due to side effects so I’m hoping it’s just temporary. I had a nap and now it’s 5 pm. I’m exhausted and sore from the exercise. I just want the day to end. I can’t even concentrate so TV is hard to watch and books impossible.

See my T and pdoc on Wed. Hoping to feel better by then. At least the excruciating anxiety has calmed down.

[Scooter9]

I hope you feel better soon @Wander

I'm feeling better 2 weeks into the increased dose of Wellbutrin. I'm thinking of leaving the dose where it is to leave room to increase it again in case I need it in the fall/winter.

I haven't gotten to baseline yet but it's definitely better than 2 months ago. I'm thinking that maybe things will continue to improve plus I'll try to get out into the garden and stuff like that.

I'm continuing to write. I'm working on finishing a book I started earlier this year and hope to have it done in another month or so. It's about astronomy. I'm in the early stages of planning another book about astronomy that I hope to finish early next year.

I'm just sticking to what I'm good at in the hopes of getting some motivation going.

Writing is really hard some days: sometimes the words are just gibberish and other times each word is a battle to get onto the page. Then I edit a lot and rearrange sections and sentences. I keep old copies around and compare to what I have now and can see that things are moving along, which helps keep things going when things are tough.

I'm keeping up on the threads here and thinking of all of you.

[Ezrigirl]

Being around other people who are bipolar is lifting my feeling of abandonment

[Sunflower123]

I had a good second session with my life coach. We were headed in one direction with my goals and a negative core belief popped out. This belief has caused much pain and problems for most of my life and I hadn’t put 2+ 2 together. We’ve adjusted my goals accordingly to eradicate it.

I feel lighter and a sense of freedom. So far so good.

Off to the pool to ponder.

Warm wishes to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

[Ezrigirl]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Off to the pool to ponder.

@Jennifer 1967 You have a pool? It is summer and I deal with 90F plus days during July and August. We really to be friends with perks of a pool

[scatterbrained04]

Took a much needed personal day from work. First day I've taken this year. Have been struggling with being angry all time and being motivated to do things for months. Not sure if depression or burn out. Tackling some chores. Overall feel pretty good today and proud of myself for bowing out and taking care of myself a little bit. Have been getting some calls and texts from work, but trying to defer them off onto other people.

[Nammu]

Scatterbrained yay to being proactive!

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Ezrigirl

@Jennifer 1967 You have a pool? It is summer and I deal with 90F plus days during July and August. We really to be friends with perks of a pool

Lol! It’s a community pool two doors down. I deal with 90-95F days as well. I feel ya on that. Come on down anytime!

Work is going "meh" today. I'm working from home.

I've spent A LOT of money lately, on various things. Over $4k at this point, most of which was unexpected because a ton of sh_t happened at once, such as car getting hit (thus having to pay a deductible while my insurance subrogates), cracking a tooth, etc.. It damn sucks. I also didn't realize I spent over $1000 on stuff to treat myself. I don't know why I'm spending so much money!

Time to buckle down and save at this point. I also have to clean my apartment, which I haven't done in MONTHS. Well, I did do a little bit the other day, but not really that much.

No voices or anything right now, so I'm pretty good there. Not so stressed with work anymore because I worked all this weekend to get stuff done by Tuesday. However, I've been working longer than your typical 9 hour day. 5am to 2pm M-F, then 3pm to 6pm M-F. After that, I work on weekends too for like 6 hours a day. All just to catch up. But at least I enjoy the work, so it's not super stressful if I do on the weekends. I just go back and forth between my computer, reading, and work laptop.

So on the way home our car broke down and was towed to a repair shop in some small town with little around. The owner kept giving us a runaround about if/when they could fix. We now have to wait 90 mins to be towed again to a bigger town and a chain repair shop vs. a Mom and Pop type. Fun, fun! We may have to stay overnight in the town we're heading to. We had hoped to be home. If we do get home tonight it will likely be very late at night.

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

So on the way home our car broke down and was towed to a repair shop in some small town with little around. The owner kept giving us a runaround about if/when they could fix. We now have to wait 90 mins to be towed again to a bigger town and a chain repair shop vs. a Mom and Pop type. Fun, fun! We may have to stay overnight in the town we're heading to. We had hoped to be home. If we do get home tonight it will likely be very late at night.

Sorry to hear that. I hope your car gets fixed soon.

Cars can be a real pain sometimes.

[Unrigged64072835]

Today was more catching up with stuff. Was sick yesterday from something, not sure what. Better today though.

New photos on my Flickr site.

Waiting for hubs to come back with the car. Needed the rear brake pads and rotors replaced.

Love to all!!

[Ezrigirl]

I have come to terms. Since I am bipolar and a lesbian. I will not be able to get married and have a loving relationship. i will be alone for the rest of my life. I have stopped at the store, and got me a big bottle of vodka. I am going to get drunk.

[wildflowerchild25]

Day three with no smoking and I struggled a bit. My neighbor smokes outside and I smelled her smoke and I was like DAMN that smells good. I thought maybe I could get a pack and smoke some and no one would be the wiser. But then I’d be lying to RS and my son again and I don’t want that. So I thought about how expensive the juul and pods were and decided I didn’t want to waste that money AND spend even more on cigarettes. I’m down to like $20 until Wednesday so I didn’t want to spend too much. So I didn’t smoke. Yay for me!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I had a good second session with my life coach. We were headed in one direction with my goals and a negative core belief popped out. This belief has caused much pain and problems for most of my life and I hadn’t put 2+ 2 together. We’ve adjusted my goals accordingly to eradicate it.


I feel lighter and a sense of freedom. So far so good.


Off to the pool to ponder.


Warm wishes to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

I also struggle with the negative, it’s gotten much better over time, but it will always ready to pounce on me , I’m glad LC is going to help you with that... hope the pool was great * jealous*

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Took a much needed personal day from work. First day I've taken this year. Have been struggling with being angry all time and being motivated to do things for months. Not sure if depression or burn out. Tackling some chores. Overall feel pretty good today and proud of myself for bowing out and taking care of myself a little bit. Have been getting some calls and texts from work, but trying to defer them off onto other people.

Glad you took a day off , they are needed sometimes glad your feeling better.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

So on the way home our car broke down and was towed to a repair shop in some small town with little around. The owner kept giving us a runaround about if/when they could fix. We now have to wait 90 mins to be towed again to a bigger town and a chain repair shop vs. a Mom and Pop type. Fun, fun! We may have to stay overnight in the town we're heading to. We had hoped to be home. If we do get home tonight it will likely be very late at night.

Oh no !!! I’m so sorry this happened. Hopefully it will be fixed quickly.