[Ezrigirl]

I am thinking of going to a cemetery and just be alone with the dead. Nobody I know of is there. It is just a interesting coping skill when I am at a cemetery.

[yellow_fleurs]

Wander, I am sorry you are dealing with this and that you might have to go IP. I know the thought would scare me too, but I hope it helps stabilize you and keep you safe if you do go. I am sorry you had a traumatic experience last time. Is there a different place you can go if you had a bad experience at that last hospital?

[Unrigged64072835]

Hope your birthday plans were smooth, MM.

[yellow_fleurs]

Feeling eh, not bad not great. I find it hard to get up in the mornings maybe because I am stressed about my work project. So, it's like I am mildly depressed at times. Other than that, things are decent. Physical therapy is going pretty well and that gives me hope of improved functioning, something I had given up on. OCD stuff is definitely improved since this time last year but still screwing with my brain when I least expect it. I can't tell the OCD from real situations and thoughts sometimes. It's like an overactive imagination and it really messes with me. I can happily say I no longer feel like a danger to myself and like I have that all under control, which is a relief. Oh and I went on a weekend trip to some falls with my boyfriend. We did some hiking, ate ice cream and went to a vineyard. All in all a nice weekend.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hey there Blue!

I am sorry you are still experiencing voices/sounds.
I hope you get a long break.

Thank you so much for the info you have taken the time to send to me on PM. It's brilliant! You are brilliant! I will have more time in the next few days to read up again and see what transpires. I will get back to you via PM.

It breaks my heart that you have times of feeling alone.

Please do know I am always here for you.

You are very loved here at PC!

Thanks WC

[Ezrigirl]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Thanks WC

Let me know if you need more computer help. I’m always available and can teach you how to do pretty much whatever you want. Part of my job is hacking things at work. lol. (Well, in addition to developing some software. I hack things and then develop software to prevent other people from hacking what I’ve managed to hack.) I have certifications.

@bluebicycle

CULT of the DEAD COW

CULT of the DEAD COW
How the Original Hacking Supergroup Might Just Save the World
Joseph Menn

I got this book not to long ago, and I still got a lot of books to read. Since you are into hacking, you should be interested in the book.

[wildflowerchild25]

Had another nightmare. This time

Possible trigger:

my husband was alive again. I was happy to see him but soon I caught him buying drugs. I demanded he go back to rehab. He didn’t want to but I told him I would divorce him if he didn’t. He went but bought even more drugs on the way. I was so mad. I told him “don’t you know what it did to me to find you lying there dead?” And he just rolled his eyes. It ended with me saying **** you and leaving him stranded at rehab.

Yesterday was my husband’s birthday so I know where that came from. But now I’m just sad. We’re going to the zoo so hopefully that will cheer me up.

Stupid dream brain.

[Victoria'smom]

MM, how is the diet/your stomach doing? The diet ends soon right?

It was suppose to end but without the medication the indigestion comes back. I'm eating more "normal" but with edits. Like making food with fat-free cheese instead of regular cheese. It's not as good but if I do have an ulcer I wont know until November. My CT scan was denied and hematology is impossible for us to get into. So I'm being careful. I haven't upped my intake as much as I should and I'm still drinking mostly water (a mug of hot chocolate occasionally). I have no idea if I'm loosing weight. H is though and he's not as strict because he doesn't have to be. We're not getting AS healthy breads and things because they're just to expensive. Food for this has been expensive. I'm not sure I'll ever be able to put some my favorite things back on my "safe list" but I'm becoming comfortable with this new list. I'm even going to try frozen yogurt cake. It just requires a lot more prep and creativity.

I keep forgetting my evening meds until late, so I've had great difficulty getting up these last couple mornings.

Tonight is my uncle's service and tomorrow his funeral. I guess I have to go to both. I'm going with my sister instead of my father. Sis and I both only plan to stay for a short while.

[fern46]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I keep forgetting my evening meds until late, so I've had great difficulty getting up these last couple mornings.


Tonight is my uncle's service and tomorrow his funeral. I guess I have to go to both. I'm going with my sister instead of my father. Sis and I both only plan to stay for a short while.

Thinking of you and hoping both outings go well. Blessings to you and your family for peace at this difficult time.

weather wise today it is a lot cooler so I'm not so hot (thank god), and another plus is that I didn't get any annoying emails from that company I mentioned yesterday

it's still bothering me though and I did send them some stuff (mainly me typing out the word rabbit line, after line, after line, after line, after line)

I think they've got the message but I'm not letting it go so easily

apart from that mood's been good. nothing really to disturb me

[Nammu]

Happy Birthday MM.

[Miss Laura]

Been doing really well albeit having sever paranoia and obsessiveness. Its hard going but it's ok I think.

Working through it with my therapist.

Going to see Kylie Minogue on Sunday she has only 1 Scottish date and I'm actually going. Crazy. It's at Edinburgh Castle which is an amazing setting for a gig. Can't wait!

[Sunflower123]

Happy birthday Miguel’smom!!

[Daonnachd]

Happy birthday to Miguel's Mom!

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Going to see Kylie Minogue on Sunday she has only 1 Scottish date and I'm actually going. Crazy. It's at Edinburgh Castle which is an amazing setting for a gig. Can't wait!

Will the storms be past by then? It's not as much fun attending concerts in the rain.

Where will the stage be? Is it all set up on the esplanade outside the main gate? Or is it actually inside the castle walls?

My boys had Grandpa and Grandma Bain who lived at the top of the Royal Mile. RIP

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Will the storms be past by then? It's not as much fun attending concerts in the rain.

Where will the stage be? Is it all set up on the esplanade outside the main gate? Or is it actually inside the castle walls?

My boys had Grandpa and Grandma Bain who lived at the top of the Royal Mile. RIP

Hey,

It's in the castle where the tattoo is I think. It's all seated which is even better. I've been a few times to the tattoo so I'm really looking forward to it. Will give an update on Mon. My bus back home is at 11:30pm not getting into my city until 1:25am on Monday eeek I'm working on Monday too oh well lol will be worth it. No idea where the stage is if I can get a photo I'll try and upload it

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

It’s so difficult to stick to a specific sleep schedule. So okay taking Seroquil earlier makes perfect sense. But what are you suppose to do when you need to go out late to pick up your son??

Yes sleep and exercise sounds like fantastic plan but life sometimes doesn’t color inside the lines.

I set my alarm but when I woke up, my clock read "11:59". *sigh* All day I've felt like sleeping. I did get out for several hours. And I have to get N3 later, too. Exactly as you asked! And I just have to force myself to stay up untill I'm back in bed around 11pm. I think it might be the heat and\or feeling great inside in the cool air.

[sadveiledbride]

Insomnia is really kicking me lately as well as irritableness. Constant paranoia is surrounding me and I don't know how to get myself out of this hole.

[Moose72]

I still have paranoia that people at McDonalds where N3 works are going to

Possible trigger:

shoot me or N3

Every night that he works and I have to wait over 5 minutes for him, scenarios play in my mind. Its really nervewracking. I'm having a hard time with fearing this about all my children, actually. I fear Molly (N1) will have a similar fate, not to mention N2. And N3 works tonight through Monday with tomorrow off. Monday's his last day.

[Unrigged64072835]

Tried writing this a couple of times but had to do other stuff.

Twisted my ankle yesterday on the front steps, then fell. Sprained my right foot and scraped up my back. Other than a little pain and swelling I’m fine. My ankles are small and twist often, but this was the first time I actually hurt something. My mother used to sprain her ankles a lot, so it’s hereditary on that part. Thankfully my daughter doesn’t have that issue.

Otherwise the usual stuff is going on. Putting in a new dishwasher tomorrow because the top part of the old one broke off. Strange. I have a boot to wear for a few days so I can get other things done.

Love to everyone. Hope all is well, or about to be well in time.

[Polibeth]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Tried writing this a couple of times but had to do other stuff.

Twisted my ankle yesterday on the front steps, then fell. Sprained my right foot and scraped up my back. Other than a little pain and swelling I’m fine. My ankles are small and twist often, but this was the first time I actually hurt something. My mother used to sprain her ankles a lot, so it’s hereditary on that part. Thankfully my daughter doesn’t have that issue.

Otherwise the usual stuff is going on. Putting in a new dishwasher tomorrow because the top part of the old one broke off. Strange. I have a boot to wear for a few days so I can get other things done.

Love to everyone. Hope all is well, or about to be well in time.

I've got a sprained right ankle as well. I'm also using a boot when I need to walk some distance.

I've sprained my left one numerous times and ended up having surgery to repair the damage about 10 years ago.

I hope you heal quickly - it's miserable.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Tried writing this a couple of times but had to do other stuff.

Twisted my ankle yesterday on the front steps, then fell. Sprained my right foot and scraped up my back. Other than a little pain and swelling I’m fine. My ankles are small and twist often, but this was the first time I actually hurt something. My mother used to sprain her ankles a lot, so it’s hereditary on that part. Thankfully my daughter doesn’t have that issue.

Otherwise the usual stuff is going on. Putting in a new dishwasher tomorrow because the top part of the old one broke off. Strange. I have a boot to wear for a few days so I can get other things done.

Love to everyone. Hope all is well, or about to be well in time.

Hi! I am sorry about your injuries. I hope you heal quickly!
Love hearing from you!

[Victoria'smom]

We finally played the games. He loved them but one was too intense. He won one and we lost one (co-op game). My other games come in tomorrow. Miguel's having trouble at camp connecting, He's been avoiding family there because we said pretend they're not there. We meant don't rely on them, remember they're busy too and make friends. He's been actively avoiding them and taking on jobs that they are not on. He probably became very cold to them. We sent them a text that they'll see when not busy.

[~Christina]

Wild .... do you still have a T ?? Sounds like you might need to have some help poking around in your head to hopefully settle things down. I’m still in a nightly ptsd cycle myself , it’s exhausting.

Birdancer ... I hope that your able to manage through these rough days. Once things settle down I’m sure you will be able to get back in your normal routine. How’s your dad holding up?