[stahrgeyzer]

I'm feeling far too manic & depressed today.

[Wild Coyote]

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MM!!!

[Wild Coyote]

VERY challenged. Hoping to overcome.

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

We finally played the games. He loved them but one was too intense. He won one and we lost one (co-op game). My other games come in tomorrow. Miguel's having trouble at camp connecting, He's been avoiding family there because we said pretend they're not there. We meant don't rely on them, remember they're busy too and make friends. He's been actively avoiding them and taking on jobs that they are not on. He probably became very cold to them. We sent them a text that they'll see when not busy.

I'm so happy the games worked out! You deserve a little fun and I'm sure it is nice to connect for a while.

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

VERY challenged. Hoping to overcome.

You will overcome. Hold faith. Many blessings to you.

[tecomsin]

So my sister triangulated in my life again. She complained to my son about something she didn't mention to me and then claimed that I was going manic and he needed to investigate and have me hospitalized. We simply had a disagreement about something. So therefore i must be crazy.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

So my sister triangulated in my life again. She complained to my son about something she didn't mention to me and then claimed that I was going manic and he needed to investigate and have me hospitalized. We simply had a disagreement about something. So therefore i must be crazy.

That is so unfair to you!!!

I have no patience with triangulators!!!
(Those who triangulate.)

Sorry you've had to deal with her nonsense, tecomsin.

[LadyShadow]

Sister still not speaking to me, but I am okay with it. I have been doing really well, concentrating on school and trying to figure out what career path I want to go on.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

Sister still not speaking to me, but I am okay with it. I have been doing really well, concentrating on school and trying to figure out what career path I want to go on.

Hi there!
Always glad to hear from you!

Rifts with family members can be sad and, often, unsettling.
So glad you have continued on with what's important in your life.
You know how I feel about you!

[Ezrigirl]

Possible trigger:

It is 10.30 and it is time to get my bottle of vodka and get drunk.

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Birdancer ... I hope that your able to manage through these rough days. Once things settle down I’m sure you will be able to get back in your normal routine. How’s your dad holding up?

Christina, you've been so sweet checking on how we're doing. Big hugs to you. I'm hoping your pain continues to ease, my PC friend.

It was stressful tonight at the viewing. Luckily, I went with my sister, brother, and nephew. There are always awkward moments with relatives and townies not seen for a while. Tomorrow is the official service. There will be even more people. Families are so complex! I won't even go into why/how.

My dad went early to the viewing with his remaining brother. That uncle was taking him home when my siblings and I arrived. My dad's not holding up well at all. He's fully back on the bottle after only weeks out of the psych hospital and detox. My dad has always been a sensitive soul. His brother's death has hit him hard on a few levels. Everyone seemed to know about his drinking, even people that came from far away. It will kill him soon if he keeps it up. He's 77 and the drinking and depression make him deteriorate quickly. We can't make him stop. He has to do it on his own. Alcohol abuse is terrible! So many people with bipolar and depression die in part or fully because of alcohol. RIP Amy Winehouse, Jim Morrison, Ernest Hemingway, and all of the many others who use that and other non prescribed drugs that in the end do more harm than good.

I barely made it home. There was flooding on the route home. One car was stuck in a deeply flooded part of the road. People coming from the other direction were turning around. I had to choose to either turn around and go another longer route (which could have also been flooded), or give it a try to get through it. I chose the latter. I backed up, put on my emergency lights, and then put my car in a low gear and shot forward basically flying over the flooding. I made it with my Honda Civic. I think my manual transmission and going through fairly quickly was the key. I wanted to go home and definitely not get stuck like hubby and I did the other day en route home from vacation. Luckily, tomorrow is supposed to be sunny.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

So my sister triangulated in my life again. She complained to my son about something she didn't mention to me and then claimed that I was going manic and he needed to investigate and have me hospitalized. We simply had a disagreement about something. So therefore i must be crazy.

Oh good grief !

This is one of my pet peeves.

A person with Bipolar can get upset/mad/*****y/sad and it has NOTHING to do with Bipolar.

Sorry your having to deal with this nonsense.

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Oh good grief !

This is one of my pet peeves.

A person with Bipolar can get upset/mad/*****y/sad and it has NOTHING to do with Bipolar.

Sorry your having to deal with this nonsense.

I hadn't showed any emotion or got upset, mad or sad.

I didn't even know she was upset because I disagreed with her. For the simple reason of having an opinion that didn't agree with hers she decided I was having an episode and scared my son into believing that I was having an urgent mental health crisis. All the while she had asked him not to reveal to me that she had talked to him and wanted me hospitalized.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

I hadn't showed any emotion or got upset, made or sad.


I didn't even know she was upset because I disagreed with her. For the simple reason of having an opinion that didn't agree with hers she decided I was having an episode and scared my son into believing that I was having an urgent mental health crisis. All the while she had asked him not to reveal to me that she had done talked to him and wanted me hospitalized.

That’s ridiculous! Has she done this in the past?

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Christina, you've been so sweet checking on how we're doing. Big hugs to you. I'm hoping your pain continues to ease, my PC friend.


It was stressful tonight at the viewing. Luckily, I went with my sister, brother, and nephew. There are always awkward moments with relatives and townies not seen for a while. Tomorrow is the official service. There will be even more people. Families are so complex! I won't even go into why/how.


My dad went early to the viewing with his remaining brother. That uncle was taking him home when my siblings and I arrived. My dad's not holding up well at all. He's fully back on the bottle after only weeks out of the psych hospital and detox. My dad has always been a sensitive soul. His brother's death has hit him hard on a few levels. Everyone seemed to know about his drinking, even people that came from far away. It will kill him soon if he keeps it up. He's 77 and the drinking and depression make him deteriorate quickly. We can't make him stop. He has to do it on his own. Alcohol abuse is terrible! So many people with bipolar die in part or fully because of alcohol. RIP Amy Winehouse, Jim Morrison, Ernest Hemingway, and all of the many others who use that and other non prescribed drugs that in the end do more harm than good.


I barely made it home. There was flooding on the route home. One car was stuck in a deeply flooded part of the road. People coming from the other direction were turning around. I had to choose to either turn around and go another longer route (which could have also been flooded), or give it a try to get through it. I chose the latter. I backed up, put on my emergency lights, and then put my car in a low gear and shot forward basically flying over the flooding. I made it with my Honda Civic. I think my manual transmission and going through fairly quickly was the key. I wanted to go home and definitely not get stuck like hubby and I did the other day en route home from vacation. Luckily, tomorrow is supposed to be sunny.

BirdDancer. Oh damn hun so many things one after another after another.

Glad you made it home. Sometimes it is best to take a deep breath and floor it through some life struggles

I hope your Dad can slow down at least. Your Brother can’t keep an eye on him? I hope so, you have enough on your plate

I will keep you in my thoughts

[Wander]

Saw my pdoc. I’m packing now for IP starting in two hours. He seemed relaxed about it. I’m a **** ing mess. I don’t want to go there, but I am far from safe. So far I just don’t care. I really don’t think my pdoc gets this. My mind is panicked - chaotic - planning. I am too many things at once.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wander

Saw my pdoc. I’m packing now for IP starting in two hours. He seemed relaxed about it. I’m a **** ing mess. I don’t want to go there, but I am far from safe. So far I just don’t care. I really don’t think my pdoc gets this. My mind is panicked - chaotic - planning. I am too many things at once.

I know your scared... I’m so sorry but this really is the best way to stay safe and getting back on your feet. This is going to help you !

Let them take care of you.

I’ll keep you in my thoughts

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Wander

Saw my pdoc. I’m packing now for IP starting in two hours. He seemed relaxed about it. I’m a **** ing mess. I don’t want to go there, but I am far from safe. So far I just don’t care. I really don’t think my pdoc gets this. My mind is panicked - chaotic - planning. I am too many things at once.

(((((( Wander ))))))

Thinking of you, Wander!

I hope IP goes well and helps you tremendously!

I hope you will update us when you feel up to doing so!

Much Love~

[Wild Coyote]

(((((( Bird Dancer ))))))

Thinking of you!

I hope you will rest well tonight.

Much Love~

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by Wander

Saw my pdoc. I’m packing now for IP starting in two hours. He seemed relaxed about it. I’m a **** ing mess. I don’t want to go there, but I am far from safe. So far I just don’t care. I really don’t think my pdoc gets this. My mind is panicked - chaotic - planning. I am too many things at once.

Wishing you all the best. Hope you get well quick.

Originally Posted by Pookyl

Hi everyone, wishing you all good mental health.
I’ve only skim read some posts. A lot of triggering at the moment. I do wonder whether sometimes people say dumb things just for kicks. I’d do some blocking but I can’t remember how.
I’m leaving for a two week holiday tomorrow. Off to Iceland and Denmark to celebrate 25yrs marriage. My H and me met with my pdoc and planned the trip. I’ll have to take Valium to get on the plane.
I met with the community psych nurse also. She loaded some mindfulness exercises onto my phone.
Hopefully I’ll be ok.
See you all in a couple of weeks xo

Oh my, Pookyl, happy anniversary to you and your H! Your trip sounds wonderful! That is great how you have prepared. Have a wonderful time!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

Hi everyone, wishing you all good mental health.

I’ve only skim read some posts. A lot of triggering at the moment. I do wonder whether sometimes people say dumb things just for kicks. I’d do some blocking but I can’t remember how.

I’m leaving for a two week holiday tomorrow. Off to Iceland and Denmark to celebrate 25yrs marriage. My H and me met with my pdoc and planned the trip. I’ll have to take Valium to get on the plane.

I met with the community psych nurse also. She loaded some mindfulness exercises onto my phone.

Hopefully I’ll be ok.

See you all in a couple of weeks xo

A friend of mine went to Iceland a couple years ago and fell in love !

I hope you and your husband have an amazing trip

25 years ! Enjoy

I’m sure once you get back the problem around here will have be sorted out

[Ezrigirl]

Possible trigger:

Being off my med's and drinking again is starting to make me feel again. Starting to feel happy again, something I missed.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

Hi everyone, wishing you all good mental health.
I’ve only skim read some posts. A lot of triggering at the moment. I do wonder whether sometimes people say dumb things just for kicks. I’d do some blocking but I can’t remember how.
I’m leaving for a two week holiday tomorrow. Off to Iceland and Denmark to celebrate 25yrs marriage. My H and me met with my pdoc and planned the trip. I’ll have to take Valium to get on the plane.
I met with the community psych nurse also. She loaded some mindfulness exercises onto my phone.
Hopefully I’ll be ok.
See you all in a couple of weeks xo

Hey there, Pookyl!
You've been on my mind! Great to hear from you!
I hope you enjoy your vacation!
Much Love ~

[Blue_Bird]

Only got 4 hours of sleep so I'm pretty tired, I think a med my doctor has been trying to get approval on (I've been taking samples the past 3 months) was possibly approved, it says it's in process and being filled, will be ready today. I really hope so