Bipolar Check-in #40

Ahhhh that’s perfect hours!!

I’m so sorry for your loss it is some comfort to have such good memories

My condolences on your loss.

Your description of your friend and your sister laughing is heart warming. I am sorry to hear of your loss.

Well, took my meds and, like, a pound of Alleve and Tylenol and went to bed early, hoping my tooth/mouth would maybe feel better if I slept, which really makes no sense at all. But I was grasping. So, slept pretty well and when I woke up my mouth felt great! Hooray!

Mood is definitely better than a few days ago. Was not manic or psychotic at all yesterday. So, maybe stepping in the right direction. Maybe now I can string a few of these better days together. Hoping.

Glad that your tooth felt better. have a good day.
bizi

Didn't get as much snow as predicted but enough that the plow guy has to come and clear the drive, where is he? Somehow he heard about mum, hope that doesn't mean he thinks he doesn't have to plow the driveway cause I have no idea where his number is or even what his name is. Mum takes care of everything to do with the house. There's so much I don't know about houses.

Deepest sympathies to you and yours.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

I am a bit early; however,my company is arriving a day early. I may or may not have another chance to wish everyone well. I hope those not celebrating this holiday will also have a good day tomorrow! Love to All!

I have been up getting things ready for the big day.
Did get several things done before tweaking my hip!
I will ask my sister to help me once she arrives today.
Love to All!

Happy Thanksgiving. I am so grateful for you. You have been a big blessing in my life.

I hope you and your family have a beautiful holiday!

I am also very grateful for you. Our exchanges are very healing for me.
I cannot thank you enough! :
My best to you and to yours!

Whew! Last night was the second sleepless night I've had in 3 days! I keep a record on a calendar of when I increase or decrease my meds, so it appears that my sleepless nights are in direct correlation with my Abilify increase. I can't wait to see my psych PA on Monday and switch from Abilify to Lithium probably. It's too bad though because I didn't have any side effects with Abilify and it helped immensly with my hot flashes! (But that's all it did for me.) I hope everyone's doing well and has a nice Thanksgiving!

Having thanksgiving today.

I am here and alive. I am listening to my music, which is turning out to be like a marathon listening session that has started several days ago. Must be my OCD. I need to clean up the kitchen, pay a couple bills, and get my car washed and detailed. I think I can handle most of this today. I need to get my car looking good before I drive for Uber. I hope to apply by this weekend.

My memory has been improving over the latter part of this year. I am continuing to remember things that I have forgotten for most of my life. I do not know what is going on here. I was reading an article that mentioned the word "ammonia". The chemical formula for it flashed into my head as NH3. It is actually NH4, but close enough. Now where did I get this bit of information from? Not from any chemistry class. I then remember that a great many years ago, on one day, I looked up the formula to many common everyday products, likely including ammonia. I remember this by the feeling it gave me learning about this stuff that I have dealt with all my life.

I do not know what is going on here, but I am quite happy about this. Now if I can be more present to what is going on around me, I will be happier still. Add to this the working myself out of this "paralysis" I place myself into during the day. Could this improvement be due to my current meds? Maybe it takes some time for the mind to stabilize as to this being a delayed effect that develops over time. I have been for the most part stable, with some periodic mild lifting or depression of mood. I do have a continuing problem with energy levels, and their irregular swings. I have more energy than usual, stay up most of the night, then have low energy for most of the day. I need to keep more regular hours of sleep. This may help.

Thank you, bizi. It is a relief.

I started a thread on the Technical Support Forum asking for help with my messages. I can't seem to figure out how to read them and save them. I dunno. I'm an idiot. Just wanted you to know. Hopefully, someone will take pity and walk me through it.

Have a great day!

Your Private Messages? Towards the top right of your screen you should see 'Welcome Bpcyclist'. Under that there should be a link that says either 'Private Messages' or 'New Notification' depending on whether or not you have messages or notifications waiting.

Click on that link and navigate to your PMs. From there you will see your Inbox. While viewing, there is a control panel with links on the left of your screen. You have options to send PMs, search, track, etc. Also, there is a tiny down arrow next to the words Private Messages in the control panel. That lets you toggle between your inbox and your sent messages.

Hope that helps. Enjoy!

The plow guy came. I texted my sister in Arizona to get his name and I think she called her son who called the plow guy. Amazing what technology can do! Anyway I got out and brought mum's milk and a few goodies for her. Something called the Watergate salad that looked like something she would make, something called cranberry fluff and pickled beets and a very small ham,....tiny.

And I stopped at the liquor store and picked up a pint of Jack Daniels. Poured myself a small glass with ginger ale and popped into the freezer. When it turns to slush it will be perfect. Figured I can offer my daughter and sil a drink tomorrow. But I forgot the Pepsi!

Well, Hallelujah! I can put my feet up awhile longer! The traffic coming out of the big cities is very thick. I want them to be safe, of course.

Slept ok, but I took a lot of Clonazepam yesterday. Still woke up anxious. Things aren’t good, but I don’t know if I need to contact anyone yet. I don’t want to be hospitalised. I don’t even think I need to be. I feel overwhelmed and it’s 5.30 am. I have a busy day ahead of me. That could be a good thing. Can’t curl up in a ball all day.

Working on finishing up a final draft of a project today. I keep finding things I need to fix, and I am nervous I have made major mistakes. I tried to finish it last night and was up all night working on it. I keep picking at my skin from all the stress. I am going to need to get some makeup or something to look decent for seeing family tomorrow. I have a 7 am flight back home. Should be nice to see everyone, though.
Therapy this week was good. As expected, much better when I am feeling more 'baseline' as my therapist put it. She recommended I write a note to myself to read when I am having problems with my mood so I can remember it is not my baseline and I do feel better sometimes. She also thinks a lot of my attention issues are anxiety related and that I underestimate the effect anxiety can have. Might be accurate, I also kind of think I have the issues even when not anxious, just not as severe. I told her I was going to look into the testing with my psychiatrist to rule things out.
Oh I ran out of gas this morning (need to get myself together haha) and then had to call AAA at my job. Not the biggest deal, but left me feeling a little extra frazzled and was pretty embarrassing.

Sending compassion to everyone!

Are they driving in one of the states hit by a storm? Last night the news said there were three storms across the country

To all my American friends: Happy Thanksgiving! I will try to find the dog show online as i love dogs.

@Scooter9: Sorry for your loss. It's very healthy that you remember her so well and imagine she is with your sister now, having a gigglefest!

@~Christina: My dog is a sweet gentle female Schnoodle, seven years old. I love her!

They aren't in any of the storms, thankfully!
just a lot of traffic !

I am in so much pain that I just want to go to bed. I am thrilled to see my sister, she's my fave person; yet. wow, certain types of pain can take me right out of the game!

Much Love to You!