Bipolar Check-in #40

Dec 01, 2019, 08:14 AM

Wander, I agree very much with what fern wrote. But if you do step away from PC, you are always welcome back. We value you, a lot! We "get it" here.

Dec 01, 2019, 08:26 AM

A ball of intense emotions today.

Scooter9 · Dec 01, 2019, 08:35 AM

I was up at 1am... geez!

I took a higher dose of Seroquel before bed and went to bed really early but the Seroquel didn't do anything. I got up 1.5 hours earlier!

So now my pdoc says she can prescribe something else that she's had success with in the past. We'll see how it goes.

Scooter9 · Dec 01, 2019, 09:46 AM

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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Feeling very stressed. Severe pain. too.

Love to all!

Thinking of you and I hope things get better for you WC

Sunflower123 · Dec 01, 2019, 10:04 AM

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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Feeling very stressed. Severe pain. too.

Love to all!

I’m sorry you are having a hard time. Sending gentle hugs and healing vibes.

Sunflower123 · Dec 01, 2019, 10:12 AM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Well I did finally get some sleep. Been stuck in my head most of the day. It happens.

I woke up with zero nausea ! yay ! So I made hot wings LOL so far I still feel fine. I adore my Airfryer !

My husband and I have been putting a bit of money away all year to cover gifts for the granddaughter birthday and Christmas. We are going to head to the town where I have to go to see some of my Doctors 1.5 hours North this week to see what we can find. About 20 , likely more people are buying for this child ( as always) so it’s hard to find something thats unlikely going to be a duplicate. We also have to factor in the size. Since we have to pack it in with our luggage in the truck, my husbands oxygen concentrator is really big. We keep the back seat empty so our dogs can stretch out as much as possible.

We are heading down the 22nd.. I can’t believe there are only 3 Friday between now and Christmas!!!

My husband and I have decided we are going to this great Cuban place as our “gifts “ to each other lol..., Hey ! When you find a great Cuban sandwich it is truly a “ gift” we always get each other a card, feelings and hugs not gifts are more important

I do have the run by Social security and get the number to call to compare drug plans, my premium is going from 4.95 a month to 31.00 ??? Eeek... so I need to get on the phone and review our options when it comes to both our plans, it’s a pain in the butt. But I can’t find that number anywhere so going in person will be much faster than calling them.. one perk of living in a small town, but I have to drive to town to have a signal for my cell in order to make the call , so there’s the down side to small town and living in the middle of no where lol

So just a reminder to anyone that also needs to review there insurance plans. Time is running out

Hugs and calorie free cookies to all ~

So happy you finally got some good sleep. And you can’t beat hot wings on top of that!

I like you and your husband’s ideas of Christmas presents to each other. I’ve told my family many times I would rather be treated with kindness and respect every other day of the year then receive a present on birthdays and holidays and pretend niceties.

Good luck comparing plans!

Dec 01, 2019, 11:08 AM

@~Christina: So happy to hear you got some sleep and woke up with no nausea! Your holiday plans sound great! I'm eager to try Cuban sandwiches. Cuban food is supposed to be awesome. On "The Young and the Restless" the young chef is Cuban and everyone raves about her cooking. We have a lot of Middle-Eastern and Far-Eastern food where i live but as yet no Cuban.

@Wander: I'm sorry to hear you couldn't make it to your family celebration but sometimes choosing to stay home and enjoy the peace and quiet is the better option. I feel as @fern46, that chiming in on others' thread and supporting others is just as helpful as posting myself.

I my own news: I have great news: I tore apart my home and found my birth certificate!!! So now i am free to apply for my photo ID! It will take two weeks but then i can get my debit card unlocked and get on a half-price cell phone plan and rest easy knowing that i have current ID. I think i will also apply for a passport after as it's a good idea in case i have to travel internationally for a health crisis. So: YAY!

Yesterday i spent most of the day out being active, public transit, the cobbler's to see if he could punch a hole in my Overeaters Anonymous (OA) welcome chip so i can wear it around my neck, more public transit, a coffeeshop where i ran into two (2) separate people i knew, the art studio afternoon at my support group where we made pom-pom sheep, a pizza joint for a quick slice then public transit home. I was happy to see that i was not exhausted and feel i have finally recovered from my Fall episode. I was a bit weary as all the activity wasn't that fun tho. But still glad i got out to enjoy the sunshiny day.

Dec 01, 2019, 11:30 AM

My Czech husband gave me flawed recipes for a particular Czech Christmas cookie. There were two recipes (a nut one and a cocoa-based one). I made the doughs, saw they looked wrong, and ended up having to trash both. It annoyed me. I want to make these cookies, but now I am running short on a key ingredient.

bizi · Dec 01, 2019, 11:58 AM

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Originally Posted by BirdDancer

My Czech husband gave me flawed recipes for a particular Czech Christmas cookie. There were two recipes (a nut one and a cocoa-based one). I made the doughs, saw they looked wrong, and ended up having to trash both. It annoyed me. I want to make these cookies, but now I am running short on a key ingredient.

I am sorry your cookies dough was bad. That must have been upsetting!
Have a good day!
bizi

Dec 01, 2019, 01:54 PM

Thanks, bizi! You've been so sweet during these last few days for me. I've really appreciated it.

Wild Coyotes, I'm so sorry to read that you are in so much pain. I wish I knew what to suggest, but I know your pain issues are way beyond my understanding. In any case, sending hugs.

Christina, I'm glad you got some sleep, finally. I hope tonight is another good sleep night.

Wild Coyote · Dec 01, 2019, 02:59 PM

Thank you for your support.
The holiday was fine.

Have had other issues come up. They have long-term and serious implications.
I have an attorney to assist me, thankfully.
Still processing.

I've just read the ruling on my recent SSDI review, I was classified as "severely disabled." I often need some time to process the "truths" ruled/documented by the SSA.
I have a long-term claim with them. This should be a review .They are treating this as a new claim. It's all messed up. If this is treated as a new claim, I will not meet the earned wages test (because I have been disabled and on SSDI) . I will then be denied, despite being currently classified as "severely disabled." Either way, I will have to hire an SSDI attorney in order to order my prior claim file to prove I have had an ongoing claim for 20+ years and at the time that was initially filed, I did meet the work/FICA requirements, etc. I have no idea as to why they continue to treat this as a new claim. (As a new claim, it is remarkable that a "new claim" is totally approved for total medical disability within 30 days.)

This is just the tip of the iceberg right now.

Pain is the usual chronic pain, somewhat amplified by stress and a very painful injury. Will consult chiropractor/PT tomorrow.

I appreciate the Love and the support!
Love to All!

Wild Coyote · Dec 01, 2019, 03:10 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I was up at 1am... geez!

I took a higher dose of Seroquel before bed and went to bed really early but the Seroquel didn't do anything. I got up 1.5 hours earlier!

So now my pdoc says she can prescribe something else that she's had success with in the past. We'll see how it goes.

I was hoping this would work for you.
I wonder if you might be having a paradoxical effect with the Seroquel. It's a moot point.

I hope your pdoc's next idea works well for you.
I have changed course a bit. I now sleep a few hours and would rather stay in bed.

Any compulsive behavior is gone for now. I am waiting to see if I am just stressed or if I am also headed south. Time will tell.

I deeply appreciate your updates and your support.

Scooter9 · 05:16 PM

Thanks WC!

I

managed to sleep for a couple of hours in the afternoon!

I was so tired that I couldn't think anymore so I thought I'd try to sleep and I did.

I'm tempted to take another Seroquel tonight but I don't think I should. If it works I'll be groggy until the early afternoon - at least that's what used to happen.

I'm going to attend the funeral tomorrow of the friend that died last week. We sent flowers to the funeral home today.

Miss Laura · Dec 01, 2019, 05:12 PM

Saw my Uncle today, he looks really pale. He needs to get a defibrillator fitted into his chest as his heart isn't working properly. He is getting this on Tuesday it has its risks but it equally will save him if he has another cardiac arrest as it will kick into action.

We are fortunate as in Scotland we have mini portable defibrillators all over town ie in supermarkets, shopping centre, along a road. They are very new but if needing them there is a code you get told from paramedics and you get it and take it to whoever needs it. Plus kids are learning what to do in an emergency in schools. I'm glad there is one 10 minutes away from my parents in a car.

In other news I'm really good and looking forward to the start of the week. Makes a change

~Christina · Dec 01, 2019, 05:35 PM

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Originally Posted by bizi

Yay!!!!! You finally slept!How did it happen? did you take anything? do anything differently?
I am very happy for you.
and no nausea!!!!!! glad the air fryer sounds perfect.
Thank you so much for your support.
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Thank you Bizi

I didn’t do anything different, my insomnia is just a jerk to be honest. I don’t hold out much hope of sleep tonight but if it happens I’ll be over the moon happy !!

Return To Sender · Dec 01, 2019, 05:36 PM

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Originally Posted by Scooter9

...I'm going to attend the funeral tomorrow of the friend that died last week. We sent flowers to the funeral home today.

Hi @Scooter9 , Thinking of you and yours...
Bipolar Check-in #40

~Christina · Dec 01, 2019, 05:36 PM

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Originally Posted by childofchaos831

@~Christina do you have internet access at home or do you just use your phone's data plan? You can go to medicare.gov to compare plans also. That's what I did.

Ooooo does it work for the drug plan(s) ??? I’ve always had to call and rattle off my list of meds for my husband and I .. I will certainly check into it .. Thanks

~Christina · Dec 01, 2019, 05:54 PM

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Originally Posted by Return To Sender

Thank you Christina. I'm sorry that you have a fear of germs too, but I'm glad you've come up with ways to manage "it" so that it doesn't manage "you"!

In hindsight, I definitely should have just jumped in that shower when they left and had a good night's sleep and let tomorrow take care of itself. What stopped me from showering was that I knew they would be back the next morning with breakfast and that I would have to shower again, so I thought I'd save myself the trouble of showering twice by sleeping in my clothes. Boy was that a mistake!!! The leason learned here is to take it literally one day at a time, even if it means two showers in two days! Bipolar Check-in #40

P.S. To answer your question, I'm afraid of germs both when at home and when I'm out. For example, at home I can only sit on "my" chairs, and if I touch a light switch, door knob or cabinet handle I need to wash my hands, that sort of thing. And when I'm out it's the same sort of thing. Thank you for caring and sharing!

Well I’m glad my advice is something you can maybe use.

As for a shower two days in a row ?? Showering daily is a good thing. Not only just good personal hygiene but it helps build structure and plus it just feels good.. it’s a law I made for myself I shower daily no matter what. It literally takes 10 mins from start to finish, nothing feels better than a shower and clean jammies.

I do not wash my hair each time , I only do that twice a week as daily would dry it out and that’s unhealthy.

As for home .... start to daily clean light switches , doorknobs etc over time you will realize that hey it’s clean because I wiped it down today. That takes some time , but well worth it.

It takes maybe 10 mins a day to take a Clorox wipe and walk around wiping things down

Yes ideally the long term goal is to learn to be okay and not clean things daily.. but it’s 10 mins out of a day.

I am a cleaning freak but it’s about control. Personally my T and I know I’m never going to be ok not wiping down my bathrooms daily and cleaning the toilets and all surfaces. My husband has COPD so I’m hyper alert for keeping germs out of my home, he can get sick easily.

Being proactive against things that can emotionally paralyze you is taking steps forward

Scooter9 · Dec 01, 2019, 05:55 PM

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Originally Posted by Return To Sender

Hi @Scooter9 , Thinking of you and yours...
Bipolar Check-in #40

Thank you, RTS - very much appreciated

~Christina · Dec 01, 2019, 06:12 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Thank you for your support.

The holiday was fine.

Have had other issues come up. They have long-term and serious implications.

I have an attorney to assist me, thankfully.

Still processing.

I've just read the ruling on my recent SSDI review, I was classified as "severely disabled." I often need some time to process the "truths" ruled/documented by the SSA.

I have a long-term claim with them. This should be a review .They are treating this as a new claim. It's all messed up. If this is treated as a new claim, I will not meet the earned wages test (because I have been disabled and on SSDI) . I will then be denied, despite being currently classified as "severely disabled." Either way, I will have to hire an SSDI attorney in order to order my prior claim file to prove I have had an ongoing claim for 20+ years and at the time that was initially filed, I did meet the work/FICA requirements, etc. I have no idea as to why they continue to treat this as a new claim. (As a new claim, it is remarkable that a "new claim" is totally approved for total medical disability within 30 days.)

This is just the tip of the iceberg right now.

Pain is the usual chronic pain, somewhat amplified by stress and a very painful injury. Will consult chiropractor/PT tomorrow.

I appreciate the Love and the support!

Love to All!

I hate every bit of this for you

~Christina · Dec 01, 2019, 06:21 PM

Lots of cleaning and wheezing lol

I have my chili heating up. Oh my gosh it smells fabulous. Just what I need on this chilly night ! Chili=chilly ?? Hehe that made me giggle.

All my pain is ramped up. But it is what it is. Yes that’s my attitude today about it. Tomorrow ? I might be weepy or angry.

I got my text reminder today ... I see my T this week! I’m grateful I need to talk out a couple things that are causing me distress.

We are dropping into the 20’s by morning so I’ll have faucets dripping for sure. Having all our pipes break 5 years ago while we were in Florida for Christmas has me beyond paranoid about the chance of anything breaking again.

Many hugs !

Sunflower123 · Dec 01, 2019, 06:39 PM

I see my old therapist on Tuesday and I can’t wait.

Taking my brother back to the doctor or the ER tomorrow at 7:00 am with his agreement so there is a realistic plan. My 84 year old mother is wringing her hands and causing much drama about taking him to the ER tonight which he vehemently opposes. It’s just a stressful situation all the way around and I’m trying to keep my cool. I’m coming out of an episode and I’m not up for the drama.

Thank you for letting me type it out here. It helps a lot.

Warm regards to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

~Christina · Dec 01, 2019, 07:04 PM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I see my old therapist on Tuesday and I can’t wait.

Taking my brother back to the doctor or the ER tomorrow at 7:00 am with his agreement so there is a realistic plan. My 84 year old mother is wringing her hands and causing much drama about taking him to the ER tonight which he vehemently opposes. It’s just a stressful situation all the way around and I’m trying to keep my cool. I’m coming out of an episode and I’m not up for the drama.

Thank you for letting me type it out here. It helps a lot.

Warm regards to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

Oh I’m so happy you see your T soon!!!! I’m sure that will help you find balance.

Wonderful news that your brother agrees to getting more medical attention. Hopefully your Mom will chill , I can only imagine how stressful that is

Blue_Bird · Dec 01, 2019, 07:12 PM

Had a really nice day.

Went to Denny's with my sister for coffee and lunch. Also got to talk to my nephew on the phone. It was good to catch up.

I have a mouse and mousepad now for my laptop so I'm excited about that, it will be easier to play my PC games like The Sims.

It's snowing, we've gotten like half a foot already and are supposed to get up to 18 inches by tomorrow. It's coming down hard, looks like a blizzard out there. I have to walk to the pharmacy tomorrow too lol that should be fun.

Have a therapy appointment tomorrow but will have to reschedule due to the storm, I doubt my case manager would drive in this kind of weather, it's definitely not safe.

Got a bunch of cleaning supplies so I can do a good deep cleaning of my apartment over the next week, make it nice for the holidays.

My mood is good, sleeping well, minimal symptoms overall.

Blue_Bird · Dec 01, 2019, 07:14 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Lots of cleaning and wheezing lol

I have my chili heating up. Oh my gosh it smells fabulous. Just what I need on this chilly night ! Chili=chilly ?? Hehe that made me giggle.

All my pain is ramped up. But it is what it is. Yes that’s my attitude today about it. Tomorrow ? I might be weepy or angry.

I got my text reminder today ... I see my T this week! I’m grateful I need to talk out a couple things that are causing me distress.

We are dropping into the 20’s by morning so I’ll have faucets dripping for sure. Having all our pipes break 5 years ago while we were in Florida for Christmas has me beyond paranoid about the chance of anything breaking again.

Many hugs !

Chili is great in the cold weather!

I'm sorry you're in pain, I really hope it improves

That's great you have an appointment with your therapist, hope it goes well

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