I'm getting frustrated with the lack of response and no show from the plumber we were using. I'm also sad my brother won't/can't help us since I think it's likely a very easy and quick job. It's not like my brother is bed bound. He's working daily as an electrician.

I texted my brother asking if he thinks my husband and I could fix the toilet valve issue ourselves or if it would need welding, etc. I googled the issue and it doesn't look like it would and it looks possibly easy to fix. I wish my husband was more of a handyman. I'm thinking of having a crack at it on my own. I don't see why I can't possibly fix the stupid thing already. Apparently they sell repair kits in hardware stores.

If bro says it needs a plumber, I have to give up on our recent one and find another.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Florida trips= nonsense

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

A Warm Hello to All,

I haven't written for a couple of days. I am still recovering from the Christmas "gathering" I'd ended up organizing and making happen. I'd spent a couple of days prepping.

I'd decided a "buffet" was going to be the easiest approach for all. I'd also learned that some were staggering their arrival times. So I'd turned it into an "open house" with a "buffet." The Open House" hours were announced by my mother: 1pm-9pm. Sorry, I have to laugh here --

We'd had a total of just 24 people.
The last guest had left at 8 p.m. Some of these gatherings truly do not end until 10 or 11p.m. it seems people had yet another place to make an appearance. I was very relieved.

In a nutshell: I was in severe pain. It was the worst I've had in years. I'd kept pushing through set-up of the buffet, by groaning and screaming like I was in labor, and with swearing like a sailor! it was just fine to get through the pain in this I was alone while setting up.

I'd completely finished with every detail just 10 minutes before 1pm.
Our first 10 guests had told us they would arrive at 1pm sharp!

I was out of my mind in pain!
What to do? I had no choice: I told my mother everything was all set, just greet the guests, take their coats, introduce them to one another if they have not met. Encourage them to eat if they were ready to do so.

I'd crawled up the stairs to my room. I had not had enough pain medication to help enough with the severity of pain, so I took more, as prescribed and rested on my bed.

I could hear the doorbell, repeatedly. All I could do was to hope all was going well. An hour later, I was texted and was told my brother was leaving soon and had wanted to see me. Okay! I'll see if I can make it down the stairs?

Ooops! First, I need to get dressed. I was planning on changing outfits after having set up the buffet. Oh no! I was in so much pain, just excruciating, I could not get dressed! It took me 30 minutes to get dressed. I'd gingerly descended the stairs only to see my brother walking down the front walk toward his vehicle. I'd spoken to him, but he was angry about something and would not come back to chat for a minute.

Oh! Other guests saw me! I was still in agony and I'd needed more time to have the pain quiet down more. It was too late though! My mother came scurrying toward me, all worked up about not knowing what to do about certain food items becoming depleted. Ok, ok! I took care of it myself.

I crawled back up the stairs and contemplated going to the ER. The pain was that severe. The ER usually puts me on a morphine drip when I show up in that condition. What about the "party" going on downstairs?

In another 1.5 hours, I could again drag myself downstairs and attend to the buffet. Things went on like this until 6p.m., when I'd had some mild relief from pain and could go downstairs to say hello to the lingering guests, then mostly family and a few close family friends. I was still in so much pain, I was sweating bullets.

I was again refreshing the buffet, most guests interested in desserts at that time. So had gotten out several more desserts.

Every step, every move was excruciating. I had not yet given up on the idea of eventually getting to the ER.

My sisters had sat there, commenting that they'd heard I was in a lot of pain...and had verified that I did, indeed, look the part.

Yet, no help. None. No response when I'd specifically requested my sisters give me a hand. Crazymaking.

Somehow, I'd made it through the next two hours, taking it minute by minute.

When I gave the last guest his coat as he'd approached the foyer, I was thinking, "Oh, I am soooo grateful ! I am now free!"

He'd left and I turned around, walking back into the kitchen and the dining room, etc. I have to clean this ALL up! Nobody had offered to help. My elderly mother was totally exhausted and just could not function.

I'd finished the clean up by doing a great deal until midnight on Christmas night and starting cleaning up again from 8am-12noon on the 26th.

Now I know why hostesses like a call on the day following a function at their home, with a guest expressing gratitude:: the hostess is still cleaning up, while sputtering under her breath!

It's now 48 hours since the beginning of Christmas morning. I am in better control of pain, although it's still tenuous. I am getting my bearings back.

Once again, I am sputtering: "Never Again!"

Sounds like the last Christmas buffet you should do at your place. Just refuse to cook. If they want to eat they can all bring a pot luck to you. That amount of pain is no fun or joy in it for you. . Open a can of nuts next year and bake one kind of cookie and say that's it.

Wishing you peace and pain free days ahead for the new year.

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I'm getting frustrated with the lack of response and no show from the plumber we were using. I'm also sad my brother won't/can't help us since I think it's likely a very easy and quick job. It's not like my brother is bed bound. He's working daily as an electrician.

I texted my brother asking if he thinks my husband and I could fix the toilet valve issue ourselves or if it would need welding, etc. I googled the issue and it doesn't look like it would and it looks possibly easy to fix. I wish my husband was more of a handyman. I'm thinking of having a crack at it on my own. I don't see why I can't possibly fix the stupid thing already. Apparently they sell repair kits in hardware stores.

If bro says it needs a plumber, I have to give up on our recent one and find another.

Have you looked at YouTube to see instructional videos on how to fix the problem? There's literally a YouTube video for everything these days. My dad uses YouTube to figure out how to fix things in his house.

Even if you, for some reason, can't find an instructional video on how to fix the problem, you can definitely find a video that describes what all the parts/pieces are for a sink, shower, etc., and that may help you figure out how to fix it. IMO, it's worth a shot.

[Victoria'smom]

Do you actually want to switch therapists and pdocs?

I like my pdoc though she’s light on medication and intervention. I don’t worry about telling her most anything because I know she’ll rarely if ever hospitalize me. However, the downside is I’ve been sick since at least this summer. My T is growing on me I’ve only been with her since late summer. I’m not as open with her but I’m trying. She’s better than most T’s I’ve had since moving here. I just wish they could share notes.

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Have you looked at YouTube to see instructional videos on how to fix the problem? There's literally a YouTube video for everything these days. My dad uses YouTube to figure out how to fix things in his house.

Even if you, for some reason, can't find an instructional video on how to fix the problem, you can definitely find a video that describes what all the parts/pieces are for a sink, shower, etc., and that may help you figure out how to fix it. IMO, it's worth a shot.

Thanks, bluebicyle! I have read a couple articles on what to do, but a video would be good to look for. I'll do that. I think it really will be a simple fix. I'm guessing once it is done we'll be kicking ourselves in the butt for not trying earlier. We'll see.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

A Warm Hello to All,


I haven't written for a couple of days. I am still recovering from the Christmas "gathering" I'd ended up organizing and making happen. I'd spent a couple of days prepping.


I'd decided a "buffet" was going to be the easiest approach for all. I'd also learned that some were staggering their arrival times. So I'd turned it into an "open house" with a "buffet." The Open House" hours were announced by my mother: 1pm-9pm. Sorry, I have to laugh here --


We'd had a total of just 24 people.

The last guest had left at 8 p.m. Some of these gatherings truly do not end until 10 or 11p.m. it seems people had yet another place to make an appearance. I was very relieved.


In a nutshell: I was in severe pain. It was the worst I've had in years. I'd kept pushing through set-up of the buffet, by groaning and screaming like I was in labor, and with swearing like a sailor! it was just fine to get through the pain in this I was alone while setting up.


I'd completely finished with every detail just 10 minutes before 1pm.

Our first 10 guests had told us they would arrive at 1pm sharp!


I was out of my mind in pain!

What to do? I had no choice: I told my mother everything was all set, just greet the guests, take their coats, introduce them to one another if they have not met. Encourage them to eat if they were ready to do so.


I'd crawled up the stairs to my room. I had not had enough pain medication to help enough with the severity of pain, so I took more, as prescribed and rested on my bed.


I could hear the doorbell, repeatedly. All I could do was to hope all was going well. An hour later, I was texted and was told my brother was leaving soon and had wanted to see me. Okay! I'll see if I can make it down the stairs?


Ooops! First, I need to get dressed. I was planning on changing outfits after having set up the buffet. Oh no! I was in so much pain, just excruciating, I could not get dressed! It took me 30 minutes to get dressed. I'd gingerly descended the stairs only to see my brother walking down the front walk toward his vehicle. I'd spoken to him, but he was angry about something and would not come back to chat for a minute.


Oh! Other guests saw me! I was still in agony and I'd needed more time to have the pain quiet down more. It was too late though! My mother came scurrying toward me, all worked up about not knowing what to do about certain food items becoming depleted. Ok, ok! I took care of it myself.


I crawled back up the stairs and contemplated going to the ER. The pain was that severe. The ER usually puts me on a morphine drip when I show up in that condition. What about the "party" going on downstairs?


In another 1.5 hours, I could again drag myself downstairs and attend to the buffet. Things went on like this until 6p.m., when I'd had some mild relief from pain and could go downstairs to say hello to the lingering guests, then mostly family and a few close family friends. I was still in so much pain, I was sweating bullets.


I was again refreshing the buffet, most guests interested in desserts at that time. So had gotten out several more desserts.


Every step, every move was excruciating. I had not yet given up on the idea of eventually getting to the ER.


My sisters had sat there, commenting that they'd heard I was in a lot of pain...and had verified that I did, indeed, look the part.


Yet, no help. None. No response when I'd specifically requested my sisters give me a hand. Crazymaking.


Somehow, I'd made it through the next two hours, taking it minute by minute.


When I gave the last guest his coat as he'd approached the foyer, I was thinking, "Oh, I am soooo grateful ! I am now free!"


He'd left and I turned around, walking back into the kitchen and the dining room, etc. I have to clean this ALL up! Nobody had offered to help. My elderly mother was totally exhausted and just could not function.


I'd finished the clean up by doing a great deal until midnight on Christmas night and starting cleaning up again from 8am-12noon on the 26th.


Now I know why hostesses like a call on the day following a function at their home, with a guest expressing gratitude:: the hostess is still cleaning up, while sputtering under her breath!


It's now 48 hours since the beginning of Christmas morning. I am in better control of pain, although it's still tenuous. I am getting my bearings back.


Once again, I am sputtering: "Never Again!"

Oh I swear I’d like to throttle your Mom ! I knew you would have to do it all.

Your pain truly worries me. When your body is just solid pain and you are unable to get even a small break it wrecks hell on your whole body and each organ !!! Maybe going to the ER will allow you to get in front of the pain

My heart breaks for you

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

sorry, I haven't been caught up with this thread...


When do you go back? Is it almost over? I hope everything goes by quickly, if it hasn't already.


I don't like trips in general, but I'm just an anxious person. lol.

We leave Sunday to North Florida , stopping to see my brother, I am so stressed and concerned about this bone infection, he truly needs the IV port put in and 24/7 antibiotic for 7 weeks. His new insurance starting January 1st !

We only got to see the granddaughter 3 times !!!! Steve is going to between sadness and anger. We have huge expense making the trips...

I don’t know if anything will change in the future.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Have you looked at YouTube to see instructional videos on how to fix the problem? There's literally a YouTube video for everything these days. My dad uses YouTube to figure out how to fix things in his house.


Even if you, for some reason, can't find an instructional video on how to fix the problem, you can definitely find a video that describes what all the parts/pieces are for a sink, shower, etc., and that may help you figure out how to fix it. IMO, it's worth a shot.

This is a fantastic idea , my learned out how to replace light bulbs in her car headlights , my husband has used it many times when working on the 4 wheeler and certainly switching out mower engines.

[Victoria'smom]

Christina I'm so mad for you. I'm so sorry.

[~Christina]

Well I truly woke up thinking I was dying. I get acid pretty often when we have to live on shyt food !

Last night I work up and I inhaled right into my lungs. I was coughing so hard my ribs and back feel just broken. I literally could not catch my breath I was taking liquid antacid.

I used Steve’s oxygen for almost an hour. I was very close to going to the ER my oxygen level low 80’s

I have never inhaled so much into my lungs. I just kept coughing. Everything is still burning same as last night , water geeks like acid.

I’m hoping it doesn’t turn into aspiration pneumonia.

We had planned to met my daughter after work for dinner, her job is about 25 mins away but as she was getting ready for work she fainted, she felt it coming on so she made it to her bed thankfully. She is hypo glycemic.. so she is working from home. So we will cross the pound and have dinner later, I have no idea if I’ll be able to eat or not. She was eating correctly. So I don’t want her driving at all.

Honestly I really am ready to go ( I think Steve is also) home, we are going to stop and see our friend in north Georgia , steve said maybe we will stay a day or just visit and head home.

I certainly do not want to once again explain again why I have no interest in riding there horses.

We shall see.

The dogs are doing great as they always do thankfully.

I truly have no desire to come back down here anymore. My lungs that were slightly improving but wit all the gazillion cars and pollution sure isn’t helping steve not I

Other than snotty rain Sunday a a bit here and there Monday the weather has been nice partly cloudy which I’m totally fine about, steve was hoping for bright blinding sun.

[scatterbrained04]

Went in this morning for a routine dental cleaning. Ended up getting referred to oral pathology. Dentist saw something she didn't like and wants me to go to rule out oral cancer. Though she said most likely it's something benign, and I shouldn't lose sleep over it. BUT I'm a pack a day smoker, so yeah I worry. I'm anxious as hell. Came home and took PRN anxiety crap and laid down. Haven't moved all day. I like talking to people when I'm anxious about something, but don't want to get anyone worried. So talking here instead.

[bpcyclist]

Well, I finally was able to fall asleep after three attempts at around 0440 PST. Slept until a little after 10, which is unheard of good for me. This new weighted blanket does appear to be helping me stay asleep a bit better, just not get to sleep.

On the minus side, this current atypical regimen seems to be causing some pretty uncomfortable akathesia, which I just hate. Cannot sleep with akathesia. Plus, my PLMD is worse and there literally is no way to sleep with a left ankle that keeps kicking every 40 seconds. Don't know what I will do with all this. Stop the atypicals, and the psychosis will no doubt be worse. Still have some voices as it is anyway. Push me, pull me...

Hugs and support and love to those suffering from severe physical and/or emotional pain. Hoping everyone has a better day today. Be well.

[Nammu]

Well checked in to the hotel. It's pretty old for the price. Glad we have a suit tho. There's a door into the room where the beds are. That's nice. I can sit up and read a while when mum goes to bed. Brought soda with me, put it in the frig. Got a few munchies for tomorrow afternoon.

Christina, I do hope you get a long break from all of the trips! After New Years, I guess there aren't many major holidays for a little while.

scatterbrained04, sorry you have the stress of having to rule out oral cancer. I hope you'll be able to take the dentist's advice and not lose any sleep.

bpcyclist, akathisia....Ugh! I hope it will ease for you. I got a small weighted blanket for Christmas. I'm going to try it out soon. Between you and other members here, I was sold on it. I put it in my "Wish List".

Nammu, I hope you can really kick back with the book and relax. Enjoy the soda and munchies!

[Blue_Bird]

Still struggling with depression but trying to overcome it. My dose of wellbutrin was increased early this week but there was a mistake with my prescription and I'm still waiting to hear back about it from my clinic so I can get it corrected and finally start it. So I'm stuck with my old dose until I hear from them which won't be till next week at least since it's Friday evening now. Kind of frustrated about that

Have an appointment Monday at the new apartment place, hoping it goes well and I can move in February. stressed about that too, moving will be worth it but it's still stressful. Lately I've wanted to just curl up in a ball and disappear from the world. I'm doing what I can in the meantime to manage the depression though. Hopefully I hear back about my prescription next week

[falcon09]

I slept from 11pm yesterday until 5pm today. I don't know if I'm depressed or what

Edit: now that I think about it, I'm pretty sure I'm depressed. No appetite, no energy, sleeping a lot.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Still struggling with depression but trying to overcome it. My dose of wellbutrin was increased early this week but there was a mistake with my prescription and I'm still waiting to hear back about it from my clinic so I can get it corrected and finally start it. So I'm stuck with my old dose until I hear from them which won't be till next week at least since it's Friday evening now. Kind of frustrated about that

Have an appointment Monday at the new apartment place, hoping it goes well and I can move in February. stressed about that too, moving will be worth it but it's still stressful. Lately I've wanted to just curl up in a ball and disappear from the world. I'm doing what I can in the meantime to manage the depression though. Hopefully I hear back about my prescription next week

Am very happy and proud, if I may say that, of you for pushing through this ****. What is the new dose of Wellbutrin--450? You take the long-acting? I am on 300 and I missed just two days due to my own foul-up and I really could tell. It has worked wonders for me. I hope you get this sorted soon. Sending you strength and patience and positivity!

[CutegirlS]

Aww it is really nice of you be supportive for **** . All **** going to be okay including you. Never miss your psychiatrist appointment.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I think its ok to be ''selfish'' every once in a while too. I think that is one of the reasons so many are ''silenced'' in this forest in real life, not only are they labelled with unsavoury and wrong labels, treated as if they are unintelligent when they have a Degree and they are also made to feel guilty for taking up any time.. such as 10 minutes freakin insane So many many do eventually ''give up on the system'' which has repeatedly harmed them

Bad bear ''shouldn't'' speak

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Am very happy and proud, if I may say that, of you for pushing through this sh**. What is the new dose of Wellbutrin--450? You take the long-acting? I am on 300 and I missed just two days due to my own foul-up and I really could tell. It has worked wonders for me. I hope you get this sorted soon. Sending you strength and patience and positivity!

Thank you!, I was on the 150mg XL once a day and it was increased to 200mg but the prescription that got sent out was 200mg SR tablets twice a day so I have to get that sorted out , that would be 400mg which is much higher than the new dose I was supposed to get. So I'm just continuing taking my regular 150mg until they can fix the prescription error

[Trixxavi]

I'm doing okay today. Lately I have been dealing with intrusive obsessive thoughts about the past and having issues with body dysmorphia. I want to lose weight and to feel good about myself and to not be so physically exhausted.

[Nammu]

Eek! Got stopped by the fuzz! Right outside the casino. I rarely drink but did tonight. So of course that worried me. But he just checked license and registration and told us the headlight was out. Whew.

That was enough excitement!

Back in the hotel chill'n

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Eek! Got stopped by the fuzz! Right outside the casino. I rarely drink but did tonight. So of course that worried me. But he just checked license and registration and told us the headlight was out. Whew.


That was enough excitement!


Back in the hotel chill'n

But..... did you win anything ??? lol !

[~Christina]

BirdDancer, yes thanks !!!!! there should be no trips coming up anytime soon.

We met my daughter tonight for dinner, she is moving tomorrow in with a couple friends for a few weeks until the apartment is ready . She’s moved 10 times in the 9 years she’s been back in Florida. She is tired of roommate situations. Shes willing to cut out a lot of things in her life to be able to afford it.

Steve has gotten some bad news about some of the people, growing up , they all use to go camping as kids for 10-12 years. Anyway one of the parents has stage 4 lung cancer and her husband had to be put in a nursing home as his Alzheimer’s is in the combative stage and no meds are helping... it’s such a terrible way to go for both of them. I’ll let him go do any visits he needs to do for them..

Last night i had massive acid reflex ! I get it off and on here and there. Last night was truly the worse ever , I truly felt like I was dying. So much acid hit my lungs I had to use my husbands oxygen, steve says I looked terrified..I was so close to having him take me to the ER ! My throat is very raw sore and my lungs are on fire ! Hopefully I will fully recover by tomorrow.

Hugs to all !!