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I don't think I'll be a Santana. lol. I do have lots of prior music experience, though, as I mentioned a while back, so I know half of what I need to know (how to read music, all the intricacies of music theory, etc.). And yeah, I do have flat affect and flat vocal tone. All of my psych evaluations have said that, as have all my pdocs and therapists. My therapist thinks that my flat affect "pushes people away." She claims that I make people think I'm "uninterested in them." I'm not sure if that is true or not, but everyone says there is a major disconnect between what I'm feeling and what my face is showing. My therapist even admitted that she can't read me. She told me to tell her how I'm feeling (e.g., if I'm happy, sad, etc.). I mean, I try to practice showing emotion, but I suck at it because I either over exaggerate it or I don't do a good job at all, so I've just kinda given up and let it be. The weird thing is that my therapist told me not to worry about whether or not I have Asperger's, yet here she is saying that I likely have it (when I asked her) and that it's causing social problems for me??? |
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I was very ill in the '90's and saw a fairly well-known holistic M.D. He had me do an elimination diet. It was brutal, in that I had a lot of "withdrawal symptoms" from various foods. I was very ill from this diet. I recall I was mostly in bed, with piles of blankets on me and I was still shaking with chills and writhing in pain (mostly joint pain then). It was June and hot out, too. I also had severe migraines for those two weeks. I could not function to get the correct foods into the house and have them ready for whenever/whatever I could eat. A very good friend of mine stayed with me during the first two weeks and helped me tremendously! Although it can be very tough to get through, I honestly think it can be very healthy for the body. I guess I should schedule another one then? Lol! It is very tough and I admire the way you are handling this. ![]() I realize you may be looking for some foods that are not combined with other ingredients and may be looking for some kind of a variety in what you can eat, thus far. I want to share a site with you. They offer all kinds of specialty foods and also offer a filter for various types of diets (for example: paleo, gluten-free, sugar-free and more). I buy most of my supplements here, too. I have friends who buy almost all of the canned and dry foods , protein bars, etc., they would otherwise buy at the local health food store and the order is delivered to their door.. and they report they save money. If not helpful to you, please just disregard . I save big money by buying my supplements here as well. www.vitacost.com I am glad you are able to stick with the dietary protocol. It takes a strong-willed person to do so. ![]() I am sorry you are missing church. Some churches in my area offer free recordings of the sermon to people not able to attend. I wonder if this might be an option for you? I know it does not replace the fellowship though. Much Love to You! ![]()
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I wonder if certain types of therapists might work with Aspergers-like clients, specifically working on affect? You are an amazing person, Blue! Truly, in every way! On the one hand, I think, oh well, if someone is somehow put off, then they do not know what they are missing. ![]() On the other hand, I don't want you to suffer in any way because of this, if YOU feel it might get in your way? So, just as you can/do mask your mood/status by showing little affect, I do it by showing affect very different from how I am feeling. I am smiling away and telling jokes while I am dying inside. We are both masking our feelings. ![]() I think, socially, there is definitely and advantage to being able to show affect, esp in response to others. Yet, I don't think it is a requirement, as once people get to know you, it will not matter, in my own opinion. When you write here, I perceive your thoughts/ideas to be expressed by affect. I am wondering if I am projecting this upon you , or If you feel an inner experience of "affect?" I feel like you do feel affect when you write here. Maybe I am wrong? I just want you to be as happy as you can be! ![]()
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#504
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I had to hurry to say: I do hope you will continue to play with us here! ![]() I would miss you terribly! ![]() ![]()
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Yes! He was a master of carrying out the double entendras. He would credit it all to Jeremy Lloyd and the other creator but its also in how the actors carry out their lines. The whole cast was wonderful- especially in the "Mr. Grainger" years.
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What a lovely walk down memory lane, too! Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. My heart is touched. I feel great joy for you as the representative and the gifted student and dancer. I hope to read more, in your blog, perhaps? You are a very interesting, a super talented, just all around lovely person! I thoroughly enjoy your Presence here, just as many did in China! Much Love ![]()
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I feel really worn out often due to my meds, they're very sedating. They're the only thing that's been effective for my sza/bipolar though.
Things are going pretty good, stressed about moving but other than that I'm okay. Have to rely on community meals around town to eat for the next week till I have money to buy food. Hopefully this week goes by fast. I have to get 2 teeth pulled because my insurance denied the request from my dentist for root canals, so I'll schedule that tomorrow. Frustrated about it but it is my own fault, the years I was bulimic really caused a lot of damage to my teeth. Thankfully they're teeth in the back. I have an infection in one I'm on antibiotics for right now. Think I have like 5 more days left of taking them. Hope everyone is doing okay and has a good week ![]() ![]()
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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I know I should call my pdoc tmrw but I really dont want to. I dont know how at the best move to make and I know she should know that but I dont think she does. I mean she doesn't seem that smart. Everything I say so far she just goes along with. I say I want to go off something, change something, etc I am a master convincer who can make her say whatever. This is my 6 or so pdoc in the past 6 years. I'm sick of taking ativan just to hold a conversation and it doesn't last that long. I'm going to make a calming playlist making another thread soon for that if I remember. These thoughts man, I dont even know what they're doing at this point just call me your average
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Watching a Lewis Black DVD. After two weeks of zero issues I've moved from 100 mg to 50 mg of Seroquel. I can always go back up if I have trouble sleeping. Pdoc says the seroquel is only for sleep at this low a dose. Lewis Black is funny. I saw him live in concert once.
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#511
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![]() Hit the nail on the head! ![]() It's true, Blue, you can be felt and this is what I was trying to say in one of my posts to you. You are a very bright, sensitive, caring, funny person and more. You do come across well, even over net. So, I am curious. We cannot see you physically at all, but we feel you and we get you! ![]()
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Regardless if you have Bipolar or not , you found a comfortable place to post , get support and advice and give it right back. Stay here ! ![]() Sometimes diagnosis’s just float back and forth,I say just treat symptoms and hopefully you will find a diagnosis that you feel truly “fits “ ![]()
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I’m glad you had such an enjoyable night !!! Food sounds delicious ! Your years of travel are so interesting, what great memories for you to think back on ![]() I barely manage English language lol and you have many. That is so cool ![]()
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At least take one Ativan a day.. stopping use after being on it , high dose and extended time. Some people just stop and wind up having a seizure with in a few days, at least one a day will avoid that risk.
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Sorry your meds are so sedating, it’s such a common complaint and reasons people dump meds ![]() I’m so excited you are able to move, daunting thought but once your moved in I’m sure the cheaper rent will make life a bit easier. So sorry about your teeth and insurance denial. That’s just awful. I am glad you got on antibiotics tho, dental infections can quickly spread into your whole body, especially the heart. I hope things settle down soon ![]()
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Another grey drizzling here and there damp day. ... no sun likely for 4-5 days. It’s really getting to my husband.
That hour nap today felt glorious ![]() Dinner tonight was delicious! I do need to start making dinner earlier, my husband has been getting up around 6 everyday and dozes off in his chair right after dinner 6/7 pm. I need to start eating 4-430 so he had more time to digest his food, acid reflux is hitting him hard despite meds. Yes tomorrow I’ll plan for 4ish Hugs to everyone ![]()
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My friend had a stroke-like episode (possibly a minor stroke) today. She's in the Neuro ICU but they think she'll be ok.
She's my age (mid 40's) - so scary. |
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![]() I am so sorry. It's wonderful the docs think she will be okay! I also hope she will be fine. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Support, Healing and Lots of Love! ![]()
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I definitely haven't felt well but not as sick as you were. Mostly I'm just extremely tired and cold. I can't really nap but I feel like I could sleep all day. I can see church online but I miss the people and getting out of my house. I've really only been out for therapy, pdoc and a couple trips to the store. I think my small group is off for the next few weeks so I've got time to recover before that. I want to take a class that lets me volunteer but am holding off until March for that. It will be ok. I had spinach today so green leafy vegetables are my next addition for the next 3 days. Vegetables are amazing. Color and taste and texture. I've been waiting a long time. Now if I could just get the pizza I crave so much... ![]()
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What are you drawing?
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Oh very scary.. she’s where she needs to be if it happens again. Hugs to you both ![]()
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I had to do a liquid diet for about 2.5 weeks in my 20’s, I had multiple ulcers.. when you talk about how amazing the vegetables taste and texture I know what your saying. Enjoy every bite ![]()
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Weighed myself today. Down another pound. I've reached my first goal. Now just not to gain it back. I still have like 37lbs to go for my ideal, but my realistic is now 7lbs to go.
Thing is, I'm back to my regular diet mostly, but hubby brought this platter for us for the past few days and in it was salad and hummus. I was primarily eating low carb high fat and high protein. The ideal diet. But I hate making salads on my own, plus they never seem to stay as fresh and I also won't have hummus. I dunno. I just fear going back to poor diet because I'm both lazy and can't always get out for fresh produce when necessary. Well, let's see. |
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