The cool insomnia club #2

I took the remeron because my anxiety was out of control and I’ve been wide awake for an hour. I didn’t sleep well to begin with. My meds are so messed up and therefore so are my moods and anxiety. I actually had thoughts of aggression on Friday which I never do. Along with really bad SI. I swear this is the last time I’m gonna be honest with anyone.

Just wide awake waiting for the clocks to switch back.

I woke up at 2330ish. Ugh.

Gotta love the time change...

Sleeping still ( HUGE SHOCK) But I am spending far to long staying in bed, Physically my body cant handle this many hours in bed. My Fibro is high due to mini cold front coming through but also my PsA is beating me down..

So wash rinse and repeat ...

Gentle hugs

I fell asleep yesterday afternoon around 4:30. I got up at 6 to eat dinner. Then I went back to sleep at 7:30. I woke up because I had this bad dream where my mom was dying from Covid and I was begging her to pull through. My brother had already died. I guess the dream comes from the fact that they both think it’s appropriate to be going to to the mall and the Halloween store on Sunday afternoons when the cases in my state are almost at 8 thousand. anyways I woke up wide awake 10 minutes ago thinking it must be close to 5 but it wasn’t even midnight.

I’m just waiting for results. Although that could take days. Got an hour of sleep before they started. I tried taking some melatonin during them. Got about an hour of sleep. Been awake since 9:30. Remeron is completely useless when it comes to sleep.

I'm up at 1:30 - slept for about 3 hours.....which is pretty good for me lately!

I’m having a hard time again but not too bad. I average about 5 hours, it’s enough to stay stable but not enough to be well and physically up to doing things. I fall asleep after about an hour but then wake up too early and thanks to the time change the sun comes an hour earlier. Sigh

Ha! Great thread... usually my insomnia is that I wake up between 1 and 2 am and can’t fall back asleep, but tonight I missed my window of opportunity (between 10:30 and 11:30) and then had a heated argument with my husband, so this will be a crappy sleepless night :-(

I fell asleep at about 5. I kept waking up to get text updates from my mom. I had a weird dream that involved me being in the tornado scene from Wizard Of Oz. I woke up then had another bizarre dream right after that. I’ve been up for about half an hour.

I went to bed very tired at 4:30 with a bit of a sore throat and a weird feeling when I breathed in. I woke up at my usual time with really bad anxiety and a really bad headache along with the sore throat and some slight body aches. I wake up at 11:30 every single night now. All my sleeping meds are useless.

hugs and respect

I fell asleep at 4:30 tonight. I woke up and my cyst was back, and very painful. I know the doctor said it could come back. Not sure what happened unless it was the running. I am trying not to panic. But I really don’t want to go into a gynos office and that procedure I had done in the summer was the worst pain I’ve been in.

Can't sleep, too wound up. It's a little after midnight now. I need to get up at 6am so I'm thinking of just giving up on sleep for tonight

Been up for about 4 hours. This is seriously happening every night now. Doesn’t matter what I do or don’t take. I feel like I have a natural alarm clock now.

Daylights savings has really messed with my sleep this year. Severely.

I had a nightmare right before I woke up where a mother golden retriever was trying to get her baby out of a well. She had him half way up but dropped him and he was swirling down the well and yelping. It was a really bad dream. This remeron is doing nothing for my sleep except causing bad dreams.

up all night

I got 10 hours straight and then another 1.5 hour nap this morning. I think my mind is at peace about the election so it’s allowing my body to rest now.

Still having anxiety dreams. I was in college. A math class and I couldn’t figure out the problems. There was a work book with these foreign word problems. Yet somehow I was the teachers pet and he made models to demonstrate. I had to assemble a working prototype and started the college on fire. Then I was paddling down a very smooth river with rice paddies on either side. I came apron a bridge, an old lady was tossing bright orange flippers into the water preparing to jump in after them. Then I was in a huge lake, still placid but someone was watching me to see that I paddled correctly. I was scared that the inflatable thing I was on was going to shoot out from under me and dump me in the water. I started to realize that I was paddling towards a small village on the lake. But then suddenly I was paddling downtown Portland and many cars and a train were bearing down on me. I paddled ferociously and made it to the other side, ....then I woke up. Weird but vivid dreams

Dreams. They're a whole world. I had a dream last night, vivid, about a dear friend of mine...we met 20 years ago literally on a street in a tourist area; we bumped into each other and started talking. She had just moved here from Bulgaria. It was as though we were fated to meet. But I hadn't heard from her in many months; the pandemic has prevented us to be together. We've kind of drifted.


So I had the dream about her, awoke, and the first thing on my computer were photos she'd sent of her little granddaughter. I was dreaming about her at the same time she was sending the pictures.

Oh, how cool is that! Mysteries

I took 15 milligrams of the gummy melatonin half an hour ago. The extended release ones weren’t working. The gummies aren’t much better but it’s pretty late so maybe I’ll have luck tonight sleeping. This is the time I woke up 2 nights ago. I wish people (not on PC) would give me a break about my sleeping. I have legit issues and it’s been very hard lately.

Who is giving you flack about your sleeping?! That's so wrong!

Mother weird but cool dream. I was running away from a hospital was on a bus and got off at twighlight. I was by a zoo. In front of a large municipal building that had a bowling ally that was closed and dark. There were low lights along a carpeted hallway that lead to a bar with only a few people in it. I asked the waitress for help. How did I get to downtown mnpls? She wrote three bus numbers down, I remember 197, was one of them. She said she didn’t ride busses any more but that was a limited stop buss. All I had on me was credit cards and debt cards. I asked if the busses took them, if I needed money, how much. She didn’t know. I went outside to the bus stop and there was a few people and a small bus came but it was the wrong number, and before I could go ask the driver my questions he took off. Another buss pulled up but I couldn’t see the number, I walked along the side and could see no doors just fiberglass sides, I realized it was a private party bus. Then a gas an pulled up, yes a gas can. And told me to keep looking. I realized I’d lost my jacket and in the pocket was my diary, covered in wild strawberries on a blue background. I found my jacket and returned in time to see the right bus pull away. I got on the next buss but it went into the dark undesirable part of the city. It was dark and everything was boarded over.

That's an intense dream, Nammu. A lot of symbolism. I have to giggle at the talking gas can, though.