Bipolar check-in #47

Gatlinburg is super fun--that will be terrific.

bluebicycle, I totally get the lack of motivation. I've been there a lot. Know that I'll be thinking of you a lot this weekend. We're not too far away you and I, so hopefully the energy will make it easily through the distance! The sleep is a killer. It feels like it helps so much, but its such a deceptive liar. I know this so well. Do what you can. Look for small victories this weekend. I hope that you find strength and you feel less sh_tty come Monday. If you need encouragement, I'm in your corner!

Just shattered this morning so far. Feel exactly like I used to after a night on the trauma service in July. Maybe I can get going eventually here...

Man, really need to try to get something accomplished today. Anything would be good. Anything at all.

Hope everyone has a nice day.

Do one thing!

Take the victory and find another! Even if its small.

Pineapple Pepsi? Cool!!

Sorry about your therapist. We are here for you, though.

Hey, BirdDancer, I somehow managed to completely miss why you lost the XR dose. What happened with that? I thought you really, really relied heavily on that morning dose.

I also have a pretty sig. neuropathy and now, Periodic Limb Movement Disorder, which I feel is related, an off-shoot. Anyway, I feel for him. Is he on Lyrica or Neurontin or anything?

Due to a broad campaign and policy of science denial, many states and our federal government have created conditions that will result in COVID hanging around much, much longer than it would have otherwise. Fauci should have been making all decisions on this crisis, as any thoughtful physician or nurse would freely agree. In short, Republicans' conscious decision to care more about Trump's reelection than Americans dying of this illness will result in tens of thousand of additional and unnecessary deaths and greater economic harm. And before you whine at me, as I have said before, I am a lifelong Republican.

Here, here. Set tiny goals and do your best to achieve a couple maybe.

Okay, gonna write it down here. I will write at least one paragraph on the book today.

I’m sorry about your therapist. People here are willing to listen.

Great goal for today!

My goal for today I can share is to not confuse Papa bear (my husband) (he is very easily confused and I am not sure why... it is not a new scenario or issue... or anywhere new)

Hugs to all!

I have not confused Papa bear. However he just said he “shouldn’t have talked”..... there has not been any conflict between us.

Earlier on we were talking about when he was accidentally tipped out of his pram?pushchair. He was hurt and was taken to a doctor but fortunately did not need to go to hospital. I wonder how that and other occurances in his very early childhood may have affected him. They may have ... or they maybe did not.

Hugs to all

Feeling depressed. I stayed in bed until 1 p.m. staring at nothingness. I had to sleep last night without my CPAP because the mask ripped making it useless. Now I have no cpap. And I just don't feel like doing anything- not my walk, not nothing. I'm just down about too many things right now and I can't figure a way out. I have no idea how to fix anything and it all needs fixed. I was up late last night but finally got to sleep without my cpap which is not an easy thing to do when you're used to falling asleep with it. I just ate cereal but that's all I can manage. I'm on the phone listening to my friend tell me about his day. (We do this every day almost.) I am frozen like I can't do anything. Don't know what to do. Don't know if I could call my pdoc's office to get a message to her or if I should just go back to sleep cuz why bother...

I sometimes wish I could sleep for longer. 7 to 12 hours of good sleep a night... or any night...feels like an impossible dream.

My husband just said “I hope you are feeding on your solids”

I sometimes feel frozen . Maybe similar to what you’re describing

I'm sorry about your interactions today. It sounds... so confusing to me as an outsider. Could he be frustrated by something that only he senses? Or the memory of when he tipped out of the pram? Maybe he has anxiety from it?

Hugs to you, my friend!

I use a CPAP too, and I know how hard it is to sleep without it when you are so used to falling asleep with it. What part of your mask ripped? Could you MacGyver it together? Is there a way that you could share a picture of it so we could figure out a temp fix until you could contact your CPAP provider for an emergency replacement? I know that you are feeling low and that call may be tough, but its one that you want to try to make. Maybe if you can't make it there is someone you can ask to help make it for you? You have a few hours left in daylight if you are in the US, so you can still make things happen. Do your best!

It might not hurt to reach out to your pdoc. Just let them know that you are in the lows. If you do nothing other, it will feel like action to you. That's something, right?

Sending warm thoughts your way.

Thanks my friend for the hugs.

Yeah right now I’m feeling quite confused too. I think he could be frustrated by something only he senses. He does not have a conscious memory of being tipped out of the pram. One of his siblings used to regularly hit him and he did not hit the sibling back .....

Hugs to you!

Violence is awful. It always sews seeds in us, whether the do-er or the recipient of it. I wish healing for him.

Thank you swimmingly

Thanks. I feel like the people on PC are the ones who are being the most supportive right now.

Sorry, Moose. See if you can maybe do something. Some action. Anything besides just sitting around. Clean, organize, laundry, go outside for 5 or 10 minutes even. A little walk maybe.

I am just a big believer that sitting around doing nothing makes us feel worse, not better. Sending you strength and support.

Love, strength and support to All!

Why would I whine at you? I generally don't whine, anyway. Have I come across as whining a lot here? Let me know if so, and that will be rectified. I guess I do, on rare occasions, biiiiiiitch but c'est la vie. I see a difference between whining and "that which is so bad that it is replaced by asterisk marks so that tender ears won't be horrified, unless I add seven letters" i" between letters "b" and "ch". [For the record, I rarely even curse, as if that word in that usage, was even a curse word. The children of the world will survive! I guarantee! No extra therapy likely needed because of bad ole' me.] Boo! [No, I am not really scary, either.] In any case, I agree with what you wrote regarding the covid 19 crisis. I don't care who is which of the two only political party choices in a huge country. I do care that people get the right info and make reasonable humane decisions.

I complained to my psychiatrist that I had been getting excessively tired too early at night. [I was fine in the morning and early afternoon.] I asked if I could get rid of the morning 50 mg Seroquel XR dose. He said yes, so I removed it. Now I am a bit mildly "up". I'll see how it goes. If poorly, I will email him to see if I should restore it or rather add it to my 650 mg at night.

I'm sorry to read that you also deal with neuropathy, plus a limb movement disorder. My husband actually does take Neurontin for his neuropathy, but I think he may need a higher dose. He is very reluctant to take large doses. They have been prescribed but he still takes less. He's been taking only about 700 mg per day, when I think over 1,000 mg would serve him better. At first, he only took 300 mg. Is there anything you have found helpful for your neuropathy? As for my husband's pain, it is sad if the statin and Lipitor are the culprits. They have really worked well at improving his blood pressure and cholesterol.

Just had my T appointment. We decided that I'm sitting in my baseline. Neither depression or hypomania. We've named it "Unicorn" because I like labels on things. I've had a few rage moments in the past week. I feel uncomfortable in this in-between place but I know I should cherish it. I wish it was more defined. I like definition.

Good post

The reason for the edit made me

(Me no type gud sometimes either ..)

Thank you, I appreciate that!