[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by Nammu

I’m so glad the mattress worked out soupe. Hopefully now you can get consistent deep sleep again.

Thanks, Nammu! You know, I never realized how important a good mattress was until recently. I would have expected it from some old decrepit thing, but not a new one. The mattress in the spare room is new, too.

[Mountaindewed]

I got my surgery set up for June 4th at noon. I’ll leave my new house around 7 and I’ll probably need to be at the hospital at 10. I don’t know how long it will take but then we’ll check into the hotel after. We are doing the surgery the day before my cousins baby shower. Not the day before the wedding a couple weeks after that.

But the plan is to still move on the 12th. I really need to move I’m struggling so much right now I almost want to email my new therapist and ask what I can do but she said she doesn’t really allow outside contact.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I got my surgery set up for June 4th at noon. I’ll leave my new house around 7 and I’ll probably need to be at the hospital at 10. I don’t know how long it will take but then we’ll check into the hotel after. We are doing the surgery the day before my cousins baby shower. Not the day before the wedding a couple weeks after that.

But the plan is to still move on the 12th. I really need to move I’m struggling so much right now I almost want to email my new therapist and ask what I can do but she said she doesn’t really allow outside contact.

Congrats on getting your surgery date set up. I hope you'll take it easy during the move after your surgery. They should let you know if there are any lifting restrictions.

And what is this about Baskin Robins?? My grandmother used to take us there when I was a kid. My favorite flavor was peanut butter and chocolate. Now Breyers sells it's own peanut butter and chocolate flavor and its just like like Baskin Robins'! I have bought it, but not since last year. See, I could buy the half gallon and have some but then N3 would eat it all and I wouldn't have to worry about being tempted! Last time I was in a BR I found their ice cream scoops on the cones to be too small for the price and too expensive for their size.

[Moose72]

Pdoc called finally. She called right after she got my case manager's email from yesterday which was just before she called. In addition to the 2.5 mg of Haldol I take at bedtime, she wants me to take 2mg-4mg during the day and she will call me next week. She also said "You have really good insight into your symptoms". Uh, no I don't! It takes people like you, both here and in the chat, to hint at me these things! Plus my friend Caleb tells me if I'm acting "Happy because of the weather" or just plain "bats*hit" as he says.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Congrats on getting your surgery date set up. I hope you'll take it easy during the move after your surgery. They should let you know if there are any lifting restrictions.

And what is this about Baskin Robins?? My grandmother used to take us there when I was a kid. My favorite flavor was peanut butter and chocolate. Now Breyers sells it's own peanut butter and chocolate flavor and its just like like Baskin Robins'! I have bought it, but not since last year. See, I could buy the half gallon and have some but then N3 would eat it all and I wouldn't have to worry about being tempted! Last time I was in a BR I found their ice cream scoops on the cones to be too small for the price and too expensive for their size.

Thanks. Yeah I hope it won’t be too much trouble. I have to go for a Covid test 3 days before at the hospital so it will be a one day round trip of about 6 hours. I also have to get clearance from my primary doctor but that won’t be a problem I have an appointment set up with him anyways before I move. I’m just glad it’s getting covered by my insurance and or the hospital. The trans rights laws in my state are so good.

I got this giant 3 scoop cotton candy waffle cone. It was only $6 something. It looked like it should have cost $10. I asked my mom how much something like this would have cost at Disney World and she said $15

I used to only get the peanut butter and chocolate. I got it as a milkshake one time.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

Thanks. Yeah I hope it won’t be too much trouble. I have to go for a Covid test 3 days before at the hospital so it will be a one day round trip of about 6 hours. I also have to get clearance from my primary doctor but that won’t be a problem I have an appointment set up with him anyways before I move. I’m just glad it’s getting covered by my insurance and or the hospital. The trans rights laws in my state are so good.

I got this giant 3 scoop cotton candy waffle cone. It was only $6 something. It looked like it should have cost $10. I asked my mom how much something like this would have cost at Disney World and she said $15

I used to only get the peanut butter and chocolate. I got it as a milkshake one time.

Yeah she's right about the $15 cones at Disney. Just a premium Mickey-shaped ice cream bar is $5.

[Nammu]

Oh, poor mum. She’s having a hard day. It seems on overcast days she has a harder time. Because prince Philip was all over the tv today she was asking how long she has to live. She gets upset when she has a hard time remembering things and goes on about living too long. She’s 94. Same as the queen. She needs check s again but doesn’t want to order too many in case she dies.

[Scooter9]

My wife and I got an appointment for our covid shots! It's a couple of weeks out.

Vaccines here are in short supply so getting an appointment is a big deal here.

I'm still feeling low but that's not new. But I'm carrying on so I guess that's good.

[Victoria'smom]

My husband is finally taking my concern seriously and has choose to loose weight. It's going to be VERY hard for me but I'm going to talk to my T about it, take preventable measures. Maybe it'll be easier right now.

Also our car died. We don't know how bad it is yet but I think it's scrap.

[Moose72]

My city is now in a state of emergency because of Covid. They haven't told people not to go anywhere or changed the restaurant rules I don't think. I'm confused, but I'm going to try not to go anywhere- except I need to go to the grocery store. Dang it.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Oh, poor mum. She’s having a hard day. It seems on overcast days she has a harder time. Because prince Philip was all over the tv today she was asking how long she has to live. She gets upset when she has a hard time remembering things and goes on about living too long. She’s 94. Same as the queen. She needs check s again but doesn’t want to order too many in case she dies.

That sounds very painful for both of you.

[*Beth*]

The weather in downtown California is just gorgeous. The coming week, however, is predicted to be unseasonably warm. We're back to desperately needing rain.

I'm having the worst spaciness today. I assume it's from the Pristiq increase. I feel loopy and my short-term memory is really bad. I feel confused about what I have done, and what I need to do. I hope this passes.

[Sunflower123]

I managed to get mother and brother to doctor’s appointments one hour apart across town from each other. Both had excellent reports. Yay! Things are improving! We had Olive Garden to celebrate.

I’ve been on the phone for two hours trying to get the cable fixed. Is that a universal thing? Happily it’s fixed now but I was pulling my hair out. Cable is essential for a household with two limited mobility individuals.

Things are settled with my daughter. We have a plan for graduation now. She can get “limited mobility” tickets so mom can go. She’s on cloud nine. I’m glad things worked out.

I’m happy and at peace aside from the hair pulling. 😉

The weather was glorious today. My dog and i were outside for hours. We made it to the river. Only sat on a bench when we got there but we made it. My toe's still not healed. Tomorrow it's going up to 26 C, 79 F!

There was no ZOOM social hour as it was a staff day and i missed it. I tried to talk to neighbors but they were heading in and i was going out so it wasn't much.

Sometimes when i move my head i feel disoriented for a second. I think it's the benzo taper. It's good i don't drive.

I got rid of some extra dishes today. A wise friend years ago said the secret to a well-run home is to have only one of everything.

I haven't gained a great deal of COVID weight but my physical fitness level has taken a dive because i keep in shape running around the city and having adventures and there's none of that now. I huff and puff at the slightest exertion. Two men have remarked on it separately. We blamed the mask. I'm kind of annoyed that they ask so i've decided to make a joke about it. I'll say, "You take my breath away!"

[buddha1too]

@Nammu...I'm so sorry about your mother's sadness. I'm sure it's rough on you, too. She's lucky to have you in her life. You're always so supportive of the people on the boards, so I can only imagine how supportive you are of your mother. We know firsthand about depression, so I'm sure you empathize with your mother's pain. Be good to yourself, too.

@Scooter9...I heard on the news that your province is locked down for four weeks. I live in the Michigan, so we're semi-neighbors. We have the highest Covid rates in the country right now, & many say we should be as cautious as your officials are being. The fact that you & your wife will be getting vaccinated is a big step. I'm happy for you.

@Miguel'smom...So sorry to hear about the car dying on you, but it's a good thing that your husband is doing something about his weight (I need to do the same). I'm sure you will be very supportive of his efforts. When one person in a household is trying to lose weight, it makes it a challenge for everyone.

@Moose72...My state's governor merely made suggestions to scale things back due to the our Covid numbers. As I wrote to Scooter9, some think we should be doing more, & I tend to agree. I think you're wise to lay low & stay safe. We've all survived the last year, so it would be foolish to let our guards down now.

@Jennifer 1967...A few days ago you were at your wits end between your mother's driving situation, convincing your brother to get vaccinated, & getting things arranged with your daughter. You somehow worked your magic! You're something else!

I've been feeling kind of down the past few days...& I've also been uncharacteristically irritable. I hate it when I get impatient & don't check myself. The dog was annoying me today...by being overly affectionate, of all things (how dare him!). And tonight my partner knocked over a glass of water while we were watching TV, so I snapped at her. I apologized, of course (to the dog AND my partner), but words released can't be returned. I'm not jumping to any conclusions, but I'll keep an eye on my mood....& my mouth.

If you've not turned in for the night already, I hope your days start out well, all. Take care.

[Nammu]

Buddha thank you for the kind words. Tonight was better and we shared an 🍎, peeled and sliced. That’s our new gunsmoke snack.

Oh I know the irritating irritability well. Unfortunately it’s something I struggle with too. Your wise to keep an eye on it. Yes, how dare your dog be affectionate and cute at a time like this! 😃 May soothing vibes calm you.

[Mountaindewed]

My anxiety is so bad. I was a mess again with my meds last night. This time because I was S. Then I kept waking up all night to drink water. My anxiety is the worst right now and my stomach hurts. I just took 4mil of Xanax and a Pepcid to try to get it under control.

My mom won’t help. She won’t take control of my meds even if I ask her. The cough syrup and melatonin are in plain reach for me. My doctors want her to be in control of them. This is just like when I was a kid when she wouldn’t get me to a therapist until things got real bad when I was a teenager.

[Moose72]

@Mountaindewed Ooh I'm sorry! You need help but you CAN control yourself! You know you shouldn't take the cough syrup and melatonin and unisom and so much xanax etc. So don't! In fact throw it all away where you can't go get it again! Take it to the grocery store and throw it all in their trash- or maybe a fast food joint's trash- that would be nice and filthy and you couldn't just reach in and get them again. Give your mom your credit cards/debit card so you can't go buy more. These are just my thoughts. You know what you should be doing and NOT doing. Now go and make them a reality! I fear for you seriously. I fear for your life!

[Moose72]

I'm sitting here at home listening to Rene Jacobs again. I just wrote a long blog post about the hypomania and what I've been doing lately. I want to go to the grocery store but its Saturday and its liable to be really busy, including Sunday- both for food but also for new pots for my money tree and my succulents. I keep putting that off because it will be messy with the new dirt I'm going to have to get. I could repot them on my balcony I guess? Then sweep it up when I'm done? Maybe I could make an actual TikTok video? You know- talking? I'm not sure how to pause it though. Maybe I'll ask my friend who introduced me to TikTok to help me.

I posted an article on Facebook about how my town's covid rates are getting really bad again. Two of my friends posted anti-vaccine things in response! They said the shot is spreading the disease. I highly doubt that, as what's in the shot is just a protein of the actual virus, not the whole thing and it's certainly not a live vaccine. Do NOT want to stir up a controversy here, but just sayin' I don't understand these two. One of which has the audacity to post on my page after not talking with me for years?? And that's all she says?? Now I have a deluge of anti-vaccine posts under my article about my town having a lot of cases right now. Of course they say "It's the vaccine's fault!" I swear- they come up with the answers first and then retro go and make up the facts to go with them! Or maybe its just these two people. Well plus one of their husbands. So that makes 3 people blowing up my facebook page. Anyway....

[Mountaindewed]

I’m feeling better now. I slept until 11 and then I just made myself get out of bed. I took a shower and I got a sandwich from Jimmy Johns. I am watching antennae TV for the first time in a couple weekends and I’m doing my laundry and cleaning. I’m doing my regular weekend stuff and I feel like if I just keep at my usual schedule things will be better.

Basically I’ve been in a bad mood these last several days because I miss my old therapist a ton and I’ve been super hungry and I really want to lose weight. But I know once I move I can walk everywhere to get to the stores. Plus once I am moved my old therapist should be out of my mind for good. When I was there a couple weekends ago I was so happy to be there and I was not thinking at all about her.

I’ve been sitting in my rocking chair for the past half hour and it’s helped a ton with my anxiety.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I'm sitting here at home listening to Rene Jacobs again. I just wrote a long blog post about the hypomania and what I've been doing lately. I want to go to the grocery store but its Saturday and its liable to be really busy, including Sunday- both for food but also for new pots for my money tree and my succulents. I keep putting that off because it will be messy with the new dirt I'm going to have to get. I could repot them on my balcony I guess? Then sweep it up when I'm done? Maybe I could make an actual TikTok video? You know- talking? I'm not sure how to pause it though. Maybe I'll ask my friend who introduced me to TikTok to help me.

I posted an article on Facebook about how my town's covid rates are getting really bad again. Two of my friends posted anti-vaccine things in response! They said the shot is spreading the disease. I highly doubt that, as what's in the shot is just a protein of the actual virus, not the whole thing and it's certainly not a live vaccine. Do NOT want to stir up a controversy here, but just sayin' I don't understand these two. One of which has the audacity to post on my page after not talking with me for years?? And that's all she says?? Now I have a deluge of anti-vaccine posts under my article about my town having a lot of cases right now. Of course they say "It's the vaccine's fault!" I swear- they come up with the answers first and then retro go and make up the facts to go with them! Or maybe its just these two people. Well plus one of their husbands. So that makes 3 people blowing up my facebook page. Anyway....

You can always delete their comments. It's your Facebook page. You can also block that so-called friend that you haven't heard from for a while.

[Mountaindewed]

I feel so much better today and it seemed to happen shortly after I got my weekly injection. I snapped out of the tired depressed bad mood I was in Thursday and Friday and before 11:30 this morning. I’m wondering if my levels are low. I have an order anyways to get blood work done to check them. I plan on going on Monday while my mom is at the doctors. Then we will go on our road trip we had planned on going on yesterday.

The fact that I was actually sleeping yesterday and this morning instead of just lying down makes me think it may be my levels. My doctor had wondered the same thing and that’s why he ordered the tests.

[~Christina]

Hey Guys ad Gals

Hope everyone is doing okay.

I have all my windows open the weather is amazing !!!!!

Lots going on... But I am going to try and be here daily. I dont have much of a schedule in life the last months.

I had my second Moderna shot Thurday. Sore arm ( very swollen) down to my fingers. Woke up to the same, 1:30 I swear I felt like I hit a brick wall. I have never felt so exhausted in my life and over all body pain on top of my normal daily pain. , Ugh. I went to bed, Got up at 6 by alarm, made wraps for dinner took my meds an and right back to bed. I slept til 3 PM today !!!!! I still feel just as terrible... All my friends told me they had the same but woke up in 3 days and felt fully back to normal. I hope for the same..

This is still better than catching covid!

Hug and love too all

[bizi]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hey Guys ad Gals

Hope everyone is doing okay.

I have all my windows open the weather is amazing !!!!!

Lots going on... But I am going to try and be here daily. I dont have much of a schedule in life the last months.

I had my second Moderna shot Thurday. Sore arm ( very swollen) down to my fingers. Woke up to the same, 1:30 I swear I felt like I hit a brick wall. I have never felt so exhausted in my life and over all body pain on top of my normal daily pain. , Ugh. I went to bed, Got up at 6 by alarm, made wraps for dinner took my meds an and right back to bed. I slept til 3 PM today !!!!! I still feel just as terrible... All my friends told me they had the same but woke up in 3 days and felt fully back to normal. I hope for the same..

This is still better than catching covid!

Hug and love too all

So you have had the 2nd vaccination shot and felt terrible.

I am so sorry. I just had mild symptoms after my 2nd shot, low grade fever achiness in my joints, arm hurt but that all went away in a couple of days.
miss you glad to see a post from you!!!!!!!!!
love bizi

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hey Guys ad Gals

Hope everyone is doing okay.

I have all my windows open the weather is amazing !!!!!

Lots going on... But I am going to try and be here daily. I dont have much of a schedule in life the last months.

I had my second Moderna shot Thurday. Sore arm ( very swollen) down to my fingers. Woke up to the same, 1:30 I swear I felt like I hit a brick wall. I have never felt so exhausted in my life and over all body pain on top of my normal daily pain. , Ugh. I went to bed, Got up at 6 by alarm, made wraps for dinner took my meds an and right back to bed. I slept til 3 PM today !!!!! I still feel just as terrible... All my friends told me they had the same but woke up in 3 days and felt fully back to normal. I hope for the same..

This is still better than catching covid!

Hug and love too all

Yikes! I'm so sorry you had such a rough go of it. I agree, though...better than covid.

I'm having my second Moderna shot on Tuesday, so I'm preparing with several bottles of Gatorade.