Bipolar check-in #56

According to the insurance company I’ll be paying $40 a session instead of $100. Which is about what I paid for with my old insurance. When I had just Medicare without a supplement, a couple years ago, I was paying $12 a session for therapy but only 80% of my medical bills were being covered and I was starting to get sick a lot. I had to choose between my mental and physical health basically when signing up for insurance. And it was worth it since my doctors visits and my surgery in 2020 were 100% covered. But I feel like this new insurance is a scam. I honestly don’t understand it. I mean I don’t understand the out of network thing. Maybe it’s just because they didn’t actually have any therapist who took it. So maybe that’s why they are letting me choose who I want. It’s still a type of Medicare. Before I switched insurances I could see whoever I wanted to who took Medicare. Which was basically every doctor and specialist.

I took Lithium for years and was fine then two years ago, it became toxic for me. I have Level 3 kidney insufficiency. I hope your doctor will listen to your concerns.

it is only tuesday and I all ready feel that this week so far I have gone through every emotion possible

intense anxiety?- check

anger?- check

psympathy?- check

sad? - check

and like I say it's only tuesday..

I’m trying my hardest to skip the melatonin tonight. I did take a muscle relaxer because of pain. And a zofran for nausea. I think muscle relaxers can be addicting but I only got like 15 pills and I only take one at night. So when they are gone they are gone. My dentist actually suggested one time that I use them because I grind my teeth at night so badly she was worried I’d either crack a tooth or hurt my neck. That’s kind of drastic in my opinion but I took one tonight just for pain in my chest.

But my meds are hidden for the night now. My mom put them in her room somewhere but I’d have to go digging and I for one would never do that and also I’d get in huge trouble if I did.

My mom just handed me the 80 Geodon I had set aside for tomorrow morning. I really want to take it. My hunger was under control today since I didn’t take any Geodon this morning and my anxiety wasn’t bad too because of the stuff I took last night. I wonder if I can slowly wean myself onto all my Geodon at night. I have 20’s and 60’s I can use until I get used to the 80. I don’t know if 180 at night is healthy regardless how I switch myself to it. But taking everything at night helps both with my sleep and my anxiety and other side effects during the day.

What is the highest dose you guys have taken at night?

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Originally Posted by leomama What problems did 25mg cause? That’s what I have.

I don't know if the 25mg (Seroquel) specifically caused any problems; the higher dose definitely did. Since I'm trying to bring my weight, glucose, blood pressure, and cholesterol down (all high as a result of Seroquel) I figure it's healthiest for me to be totally off the stuff.

Interesting, well it’s the one drug that I take as needed so I’m gonna try not to need it.

Well it’s hot and my daughter is home in bed recuperating from a motor vehicle accident. I just got off work and I’m feeling down. Ordinarily I would exercise but the heat. I’m beginning to think it was a bad idea to go back on medication however the mania from marijuana wasn’t good either . I’m supposed to call my doctor tomorrow. I’m feeling anxiety but given the situation with my daughter I think that’s an appropriate feeling. I’m guessing if I wasn’t on anything I’d feel worse and drinking and smoking and vaping or taking thc gummies *are not options*.

OMG I can not handle the heat, I turn into to Super Witch, I feel bad for my husband at times.

You need to move off the surface of the sun

I hope this is an easy situation to take care of

I am talking with my friend Caleb. He said in addition to the bladder stones he also has stage 0 bladder cancer. He smokes heavily- 2 packs a day at least- and one of the leading causes of bladder cancer is smoking. I asked him how he managed to not smoke the two weeks he was in the hospital and he said he was distracted by the pain and everything that was going on. I asked if he started smoking again now that he's home and he said yes! He said the bottom line is that he doesnt really want to quit smoking- he's too addicted and he likes smoking too much. Read that again: smoking is likely causing him cancer and he still chooses to smoke! Ugh. This makes me so mad and sad.

Oh Jennifer what a mess I hope that there can be a fix that actually fixes the water issue..

Often heating elements can be fixed rather cheap, not all of course it would depend on the brand. We had one die years ago and we found one on Facebook market place that was being sold because they were updating, 40.00 ! Works like a champ, doesnt match our washer but that isnt something that I care about.

It really sucks that your not being listened to about wanting to get off a medication that can indeed cause major health problems. Can you try again and maybe have documented info on the dangers of it? I dunno. I just hope that you can get some changes across the board and get a damn week that your not having to put out fires..

I am so happy you have lots of things planned with M !!! Enjoy every moment

FANTASTIC !!!!

I doubt you will have any problem at all with things you have hung up. Apartment and Home rentals know that its normal for people to truly feel at home.. I am so excited for you..

Well we are just waiting on the results of my blood work. Its probably nothing. I don't feel that I need the appointment next week but whatever.

We got our second covid shot today! I can count myself among the 32% of Canadians that have their 2 doses (about 75% have had 1 dose).

I got a call about a referral my pdoc made for a depression therapy group. The wait list is 6 to 9 months!

Well I have yet another health problem to deal with.. I'm so sick sick sick of it all.

My husband has started to get those really horrible headaches again. As some of you might remember he was having these brutal headaches and it led us to a Neurologist and finding he has 20% brain volume loss.

I need to call the Neurologist and get him in sooner than November.

I did get him an appt for end of July with a Ophthalmologist as we both need a baseline exam since we have diabetes.

Everything is washing over me again, the constant worry, never ending Anxiety and numerous full on Panic attacks , the dread, feeling hopeless/ helpless. Zero sleep.

Hugs to anyone in need

I’m so sorry you have to deal with all that, it’s so not fair.

I’m so sorry to hear this. You have a lot on your plate. Thinking of you and sending many hugs and supportive vibes.

I’m sorry to hear about your daughter’s accident and that you’re feeling down. I hope things start looking up soon.

Thank you. I’m not sure about this lamictal. I’m wanting to tell my doctor it was a bad idea and I’ll just take the Wellbutrin. Last night I was up for an hour with nausea and did not get enough deep or rem sleep. Plus the dreams. I’m really suffering .

I was started on Seroquel while I was IP, but eventually had to stop because of urine retention. My psychiatrist switched me to Zyprexa which made me gain 30 pounds. My GP asked me to tell my psychiatrist to switch me to something else so she started me on Saphris. I haven’t had any side effects with it.

@~Christina, I’m sorry everything is piling up on you right now. That’s a lot to cope with at once. I hope you feel better and that everything improves soon. Hugs.

I’m feeling pretty good this morning. I slept well, and that helps. I have an appointment with my GP at 10:15 because I think I might have a blockage in my intestines. Today is laundry day, and I’m planning to get outside for a bit to get some fresh air in the shade. Hugs to everyone, especially those who are struggling right now.

I was just informed by my therapist that my med provider is on ****ing vacation (again). All I want is for someone to change a 1.5 to a 3 on my rx before I wind up in 4 point again.

I’ve been up since 2:30 I think. I skipped the melatonin last night and I fell asleep fast because of an extra 20 Geodon, a zofran, and a muscle relaxer. I fell asleep with my headphones on and the pop rock indie type music I like. I woke up because the theme song from the movie Matilda was playing. I think the song is called On My Way, or something. I really like that movie so that’s why the song woke me up. Then I took a melatonin at 3 but it didn’t do anything. I put my music back on and I stayed in bed until 6:30 and then I took a shower and watched the news. I took a Valium and I tried going without any Geodon but I ended up taking a 20. Both meds did nothing to help my anxiety. I woke up with this meningitis Covid type muscle ache in my neck that I assumed was just from sleeping so long with my headphones on. I took Tylenol which also isn’t helping. I mean I can understand my mental help meds stopping working but I don’t get how 2 extra strength Tylenol can’t help with a simple muscle ache.

I got to the grocery store ok this morning. I just got frozen fruits and vegetables since all my other stuff I needed is too expensive. So I’ll get to Walmart later.

My moods are in check today. But my anxiety really sucks again. I can manage it but it’s been tough. It’s been never ending since my surgery. Today I’m not dwelling on anything in particular. I’m not freaking about therapy or my insurance and I’m not having bad memories of last Christmas. I’m just kind of anxious for no reason today.

My temp is 96.9 I thought I read or heard from someone that low body temps are not good either. But it’s probably just my health anxiety. I am very cold and I’m probably just not feeling good from lack of sleep.

Oh no! Here's hoping you can get him in earlier and get it sorted.
Sending soothing vibes your way.