Bipolar check-in #59

I had an art class today. A jewelry making class. First you pick out a shape, then cut it out of copper, then put multiple layers of powdered glass on it and melt each layer with a torch. On the backside it’s a gray color on my front side I used a turquoise color for the background and a red for the design that you add with a silk screen. So cool. I burned my thumb but I have a cool pair of earrings to show for it. Tuesday I have a ceramics class then nothing until December when they have a class on how to paint your pet. Ha ha that will be a challenge as my guy is solid blue.

I don't feel that great mentally tonight. I slept 20 hours "last night". I just can't bear these thoughts! I'm also feeling depressed. I could call pdoc but I'm already on Wellbutrin and Haldol.

I don't feel that great mentally tonight. I slept 20 hours "last night". I just can't bear these thoughts! I'm also feeling depressed. I could call pdoc but I'm already on Wellbutrin and Haldol.

I can't sleep tonight. I have no idea why. I did take my meds this time . I took klonopin about 2 minutes ago so hopefully that helps.

Happy Thanksgiving to our Canadian members here!

Hubby and I will head out for our week away, soon. I just need to do some final household chores before we leave.

I didn't quite have enough of my regular Seroquel XR supplies for the upcoming week and my psychiatrist is away on vacation until tomorrow. I suppose I could go to a pharmacy in the town we are staying in, but I sort of wish I could first ask for my dose to be lowered before getting my current one filled again. My 600 mg is actually less weight neutral than even 550 mg. I've gained more than 10 lbs this past winter, plus I think I would do better on a little less now. I normally take 600 mg at night (two 300 mg pills), but I'd love to get down to 500 mg. Or at least 550 mg. I confess last night I only took 500 mg, in order to save the 300 mg pills for the trip. I also took all 50 mg pills (my only other Seroquel XR pills), which obviously required 10 pills of 50s to reach 500 mg. Way too big of a pile, indeed, with my other evening meds! Anyway, I slept only six hours last night, down from my recent 9 or 9.5. I didn't want to wake up late. I had some trouble falling asleep with the 100 mg less than usual. I will take 600 mg/night for the rest of the week. I see my pdoc face to face on October 19.

In Czech Republic, they don't give multiple medication refills like in the US. Only enough for a month to a month and a half. This is a negative, among mostly positives, though the docs can/will send a new script electronically based on a phone call request. My old pdoc in the USA could give me 5 refills per prescription (for regular pharmacies) or two 90-day supplies (for mail order). A good thing about Czech prescriptions is that you need not be affiliated with any one pharmacy. When prescriptions are submitted electronically, all pharmacies in the country have instant access to it. No need for prescription transfers between them, or paper scripts. You can even get a prescription in a scannable QR code form via text message.

This morning I had a bit of an outburst though. Nothing too bad, just got pissed at refilling my med box and needing so many and having them in bubble packs so I threw the bottles and knocked some stuff over. I've been feeling like a wild horse in a trailer since I got up at 11pm last night (went to bed at 9). And I hate when I have to move because people sit down right next to me chewing like a fking cow. I'm trying to not take the thorazine because I want to know if this invega stuff is working.

But my foot seems to be doing better. I've been working out strengthening my core and maybe all I needed was some PT and a few weeks of sleep off of the hospital beds.

Oooooo that sounds like so much fun !!! I wish they had something like that around here. Speaking of Sir ... Is he Behaving ? or bossing you around ??? LOL

Please reach out for help now instead of waiting until you might need IP again. A slight change in your meds maybe all you need.

Take care of you. Be Proactive

His coat has gotten thicker and he is sleeping a lot. I sure hope this doesn’t mean a long hard winter.

It’s amazing that my tiny town has an artworks center. There’s usually one adult class a month. They had both the jewelry and ceramics this month and ceramics next month but the November class sold out so I had to sign up for this month. I’m waiting on the pet painting class to sign up next month, I hope it doesn’t get sold out.

I guess I can call tomorrow. Doesn't help that I missed my appointment with my case manager last week. They are going to be upset with me!

Feeling pretty down today. Had a big scare earlier today. I started hearing noises coming out of my daughters room I was really frozen! I went and climbed into bed. Her room is in the far opposite side of my home.. Steve had been outside working on something and was very worried to see me in bed and looking scared. He went to check it out and its WAS Gus. Argh I had assumed he had gone back outside. I keep my extra towels in a cedar chest in there and didn't know he followed me !... Oooo it was awful to be so scared.

Steve's Sister had decided to move up here. She survived an aneurysm in early 2020. She often struggles to find words and can get overwhelmed, thank fully physically she has no long term diffculties but the mad rush to get much needed medical care is just awful and they want the rolling hills here. They came up and looked at some places already. Monday or Tuesday there home in Florida will be listed. Homes are being snatched up with in days of being listed same as up here. So I'm sure they will be staying with us until they close on a new place here. So that will be hard for me. But I'm thrilled she's making the move. Will be so nice to actually have family here. Not a fan of her Husband but I can easily ignore him.

Hope everyone is enjoying their day

I'm sorry your struggling right now. How long have you been on the Invega?

Oooo nice having family up near you! More incentive for the kids to visit you instead of you needing to go to Florida. Still 2 outa 3 sons did and your daughter did so that’s a great win.

About two months, but I was on Risperdal for two years before and they're almost the same thing.

Yes please do call first thing in the AM and don't worry about them being upset. I'm sure they would rather have you being Proactive than to get worse.

I took Invega for a long time and it worked but I did have to increase the dose to start feeling better. I don't remember the dose but it was up there was weight neutral also. I could not tolerate Risperdal at all. Honestly the only reason I stopped Invega is that I actually started to drool and zone out while doing stuff. I was happy that from the start it it was the only medication that didn't cause Dry mouth.

I hope Invega kicks in and really helps you

Oooooo I hope you dont have a rough winter ! That is awesome that you have the ability for classes. I wish more places were available for people to actual do something instead of Phones and TV distraction.

I have a ceramic candle holder I made when Amanda was about 7-8. There was a " store" you go in and pick out whatever pieces you want to paint and then they fired them. They didnt last long tho Just not enough business I'm sure. I had plans to make an entire set of dishes and serving bowls. I'm glad I didnt get half way done and have to stop LOL I would have be so mad !

Hope that painting class happens for you