Bipolar check-in #61

@bizi:

Oh, i'm so sorry to hear your cough is so severe. Does it help to stay as still as possible? Great that you got your vaccines but sorry to hear you are suffering nonetheless. I hope you get some relief soon. Sending good vibes!

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Originally Posted by bizi yes mam I follow orders. The cough is a killer when it wants to be. Can't breath etc. bizi

Oh, bizi! I'm very sorry to hear that you have covid. Please, please take extra good care of yourself

Bizi I do have covid. At this point it's just no taste and no smell. I'm depressed, haven't really been taken care of myself. I have until Wednesday to do my hair. Friday I get my injection again.

how the heck did you get covid?????
That was good advice about your hair.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

My baby nephew brought it to us when we were watching him.

Irritability has been creeping into my life these past days. Today I acknowledge it fully. Everything sets me off. Even piddly stuff that I normally just brush aside as too insignificant to fret about.

I just took an Ativan to curb the agitation. I told my husband and he replied with a sigh of relief and stated "That's good!"

I went and got tested again for covid this morning. Now I'm showing a lot more definte symptoms of omacron and my mom has some stuff now too. So I'll see what the test says. We cancelled my plans with my sister. I got coffee after getting tested. I know that may not be the most PC thing to do but I did it. I went to the drive thru. The workers at this place are super arrogrant and don't understand their own menu. I ordered my normal drink the drink I order almost every day and the lady was confused. And she made it wrong. Despite it being a menu item. Normally I just deal with wrong orders but today I didn't have the patience and I asked her to add cream to it.

But yeah I'm just super tired, achy, I have some nasal stuff going on. I finally got rid of my chills after putting on a hoodie and getting under 2 fleece blankets and a 10 pound weighted one. My therapist is gonna have a fit if I test postive but I will have to tell her and the dentists office.

My nasal swab had blood on it and my head has been killing me for days. I don't think thats very good.

My primary doctor diagnosed me based on various other test results. I forget what they are now though. One was having pre diabetes. Another was being obese.

I'm doing OK. I've been dealing with some family issues that last few days but things are going OK.I cancelled my therapy appointment this week due to the situations, which seemed to go over OK with her. To be honest, I was rather glad to cancel. I was dreading having it this week all together and well, I had an excuse to get out of it and I took it. Therapy is only as beneficial as you let it be. It was the right call to reschedule. Hopefully this week I will be in a better place to work on me.

It's a weird feeling, being "OK". I hope you all understand what I mean. I'm so used to either feeling awful, or feeling great. It was a very rare occasion things were just OK. When great, the smallest pleasures brought joy. When bad, nothing could make me feel good. Being OK -- I still can experience pleasure, but I have to play a much more active role in that. Perhaps I kinda understand why people stay on the go -- something to do to stimulate the senses. I unfortunately for almost 31 years have been a sedentary homebody so it's hard habit to break. Anyway, I'm just saying that feeling OK is a blessing, but also an oddity to me. All it boils down to is I have less concern over emotional distresses and more control over creating a better quality of life. It's a blank canvas ready for any paint I wish that day. I hope that makes sense.


The weather hasn't cooperated for me to go walking, but today I may just bear the cold nonetheless. We got a big snow coming. I really do like to walk -- perhaps my pacing the house will be a good alternative. Lord knows I've carved a path in the floor (metaphorically) from frantic pacing when upset. haha

Nothing really more to add today. No plans, I may read a book. I may take a second bath, but this time just to relax. Here's to just feeling OK everyday

I had another hard day with my appetite. Solid food is really tough for me. I have these shooting pains in my stomach. I am not constipated and my mom doesn't want me to take any more OTC constipation meds. So I took some tylenol 20 minutes ago and I ate some tomato soup. I tried eating a little bag of potato chips a couple hours ago thinking it would help with my nausea but it didn't. The pouch of tuna I had this morning took me half an hour to eat. I drank a full calorie Pepsi for the sugar and then I had the coffee this morning. I ate a candy bar at 2AM.

The tylenol seems to be helping my stomach pains. Or at least starting to help. I still have not heard back on my covid test.

I took my prescribed psych meds (besides my 160 mil geodon) early, so my anxiety is starting to become ok. My Old Navy jeans came today and they fit good but I'm glad I ordered the cargo ones half a size bigger. They are non stretch. The Old Navy jeans are a light blueish kinda white color and will look good with a plain white T shirt.

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed I went and got tested again for covid this morning. Now I'm showing a lot more definte symptoms of omacron and my mom has some stuff now too. So I'll see what the test says. We cancelled my plans with my sister. I got coffee after getting tested. I know that may not be the most PC thing to do but I did it. I went to the drive thru. The workers at this place are super arrogrant and don't understand their own menu. I ordered my normal drink the drink I order almost every day and the lady was confused. And she made it wrong. Despite it being a menu item. Normally I just deal with wrong orders but today I didn't have the patience and I asked her to add cream to it. But yeah I'm just super tired, achy, I have some nasal stuff going on. I finally got rid of my chills after putting on a hoodie and getting under 2 fleece blankets and a 10 pound weighted one. My therapist is gonna have a fit if I test postive but I will have to tell her and the dentists office. My nasal swab had blood on it and my head has been killing me for days. I don't think thats very good.

You did the right thing by straightening out your coffee order. I worked in a cafe for 15 years and coffee orders should be made properly - they are expensive enough!

When will you get the result of your covid test?

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Originally Posted by Moose72 My primary doctor diagnosed me based on various other test results. I forget what they are now though. One was having pre diabetes. Another was being obese.

I googled and came up with this:

"What is a metabolic syndrome screening? The screening measures five things: your waistline, blood pressure, HDL cholesterol level, triglyceride level and fasting blood sugar. If three or more factors are outside the normal range, you have metabolic syndrome."

Well, I certainly fit that profile. My ignorant GP needs to be educated about metabolic syndrome.

Normally I get them early the next morning. But everyone else seems to get them the same day. Whether its negative or postive. And I went right when they opened. So I don't know what the diffrence is.

I just don't like to seem like I'm the one at fault but I was polite about it and all I asked was for her to add cream. Not to remake it totally. So hopefully she didn't think too much of it. This whole place seems like a bunch of airheads but they may have valid reasons for it.

I'm running late today. Unusual for me, but my sleep has been so poor lately that I tried to keep sleeping this morning to "catch up." Had some success; awoke feeling fairly well-rested.


So, I'm finally getting around to doing my ton of laundry - seems like there's so much more laundry in the winter. And I need to do some work with our book business. I've been listening to Baroque music lately while I work and I'm finding that nice.

Darn it, I missed my 2 o'clock Gabapentin - terrified of that anxiety, so I just took it at nearly 4 p.m. Oh, well.

The temperatures are too high for mid-January; it's ridiculous. I don't suppose we'll see any temperatures like the cold ones in December for the rest of the winter and spring.

Mugs of hot chocolate with marshmallows (if you like them) all around!

I’m so sorry Bizi try and do your best to rest and get better

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Hey

The fact your Xanax is from July is proof you don’t have a tolerance and should worry if your needing to lean on it hard right now.

I think your doing well with things going on left and right.

I’ve said it before and I’ll continue to say it. “ you are much stronger than you think you are “



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I’m so sorry. I can relate to it all. I have zero advice other than be kind to yourself. Can you just ignore your husband for a few days ?? I’m sorry his response was stupid “”” that’s good””” I have hated that If Steve replies that way. Ugh ! I’ve told him before “ there’s nothing you can actually do to make things better but can you at least say “ is there anything I can do “””

Hopefully tomorrow you will be even a bit better.

Be good to your self

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I had a real hard time getting out of bed today this weather front coming has my Fibro and PsA ramped up even a bit more than I expected. I’m still in a really cranky mood too.

My area is wobbling back and forth on just how much snow will we get. I figure I’ll wait to look out my window in the am and see if it’s white or not. Altho it’s not going to clear out until late afternoon so who knows what the end result will be.. not that it matters I have no place to be.

Very surprised my Fitbit arrived today instead of estimated delivery being on Wednesday. So I have been setting that up and will take me a few days to really figure it out. Weather of course is too snotty to actually get out for a walk.

To all dealing with Covid I hope it passes quickly !

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Originally Posted by ~Christina I had a real hard time getting out of bed today this weather front coming has my Fibro and PsA ramped up even a bit more than I expected. I’m still in a really cranky mood too. My area is wobbling back and forth on just how much snow will we get. I figure I’ll wait to look out my window in the am and see if it’s white or not. Altho it’s not going to clear out until late afternoon so who knows what the end result will be.. not that it matters I have no place to be. Very surprised my Fitbit arrived today instead of estimated delivery being on Wednesday. So I have been setting that up and will take me a few days to really figure it out. Weather of course is too snotty to actually get out for a walk. To all dealing with Covid I hope it passes quickly ! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Yay that your Fitbit arrived! Let us know what you think of it.

My covid test was negative. So I'm not sure whats up. Today I feel better then yesterday. I hope when I see my doctor in the morning he does the full blood work and a food allergy blood test as well. My mom just thinks maybe I'm anemic real bad. Last night I was under 18 pounds of weighted blankets, my burrito blanket, and my Wizard Of Oz throw blanket.

So we will be celebrating my sisters birthday today since everyone is not contagious and my nephews don't have school tommorow.

I have to figure out what to eat today. My brother in law is making steak but I don't know what to do for the rest of the day and I have not eaten since 5:30 last night. I've had several zero sugar sodas though and an iced coffee made right this time.

I've lost 8 pounds since Christmas. Its been a combination of motivation, not feeling good, and stopping that benadryl, zofran, vistreil combo. Maybe going down on my shots and going to every 1.5 weeks has helped as well.

I'm still not where I was at Thanksgiving though.

I had on a heavy denim jacket and a hat along with my jeans and hightop Vans and my mom came in my room and told me she was so hot she needed to turn down the heat. She says I need to talk to my doctor about how cold I am getting. I don't have the jacket on now but I could use a blanket.

I made some cold brew decaf iced tea and I just took my second valium and my second antibtioic that I take 3 times a day and I feel kinda nauseated now. Can decaf black tea do that? Like interact with meds? I just took my topamax right now too.

Bizi and Miguel'smom, I'm sorry you got covid. The omicron is so danged contagious. Mountaindewed, I hope you don't actually have it. Either way, wishing you all a speedy recovery. Also sending well-wishes to all who need it. My husband and I are still going nowhere since our 3rd booster. I sure how this latest spike calms quickly and as permanently as possible.

My husband has been sleeping almost all day long for a number of days. When he's not sleeping, he's yapping and yapping to me, and always seems to do so when I'm in the middle of something. Then if I don't drop what I'm doing IMMEDIATELY and pay 100% attention to him, he gets angry. I swear that being with him nearly 24/7 for two years straight is not good for our relationship.

We see a new general practitioner this coming week. I'm glad, as our current one has been a big disappointment. The upcoming new one is even closer to our house. I'd like my husband to get some more antidepressants. I think he needs them. I have to almost drag him into doing anything productive.

Soupe I hope your new GP works out.

Man. I am sleeeeepy! I slept sorta sound but woke up at 3 am for a while. Then back up at 5 for work. this day has been dragging. All I want is a nap. lol I got most my homework done!

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed .... I made some cold brew decaf iced tea and I just took my second valium and my second antibtioic that I take 3 times a day and I feel kinda nauseated now. Can decaf black tea do that? Like interact with meds? I just took my topamax right now too.

I always have black tea in my cupboard, but I seldom drink it because sometimes it makes me really nauseated. Green tea can do that, too.

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour Bizi and Miguel'smom, I'm sorry you got covid. The omicron is so danged contagious. Mountaindewed, I hope you don't actually have it. Either way, wishing you all a speedy recovery. Also sending well-wishes to all who need it. My husband and I are still going nowhere since our 3rd booster. I sure how this latest spike calms quickly and as permanently as possible. My husband has been sleeping almost all day long for a number of days. When he's not sleeping, he's yapping and yapping to me, and always seems to do so when I'm in the middle of something. Then if I don't drop what I'm doing IMMEDIATELY and pay 100% attention to him, he gets angry. I swear that being with him nearly 24/7 for two years straight is not good for our relationship. We see a new general practitioner this coming week. I'm glad, as our current one has been a big disappointment. The upcoming new one is even closer to our house. I'd like my husband to get some more antidepressants. I think he needs them. I have to almost drag him into doing anything productive.

24/7 would stress even the best relationship.


I'm glad you're getting a new GP - I hope the new one is better. I've had a lousy GP for 5 years, but don't want to change my clinic quite yet, so I'm kinda stuck with her for now.