Bipolar check-in #62

WOW that's a lotta stuff to try! If anybody is out of ideas, go have a look. There must be at least a couple of dozen. And I have a lot of respect for people in the UK. Maybe more so than here (I mean the mental health professionals).

No, of course it's not ridiculous. We're all here because we were given an extra dose of emotions (maybe I'm assuming too much about some people, but it's why I'm here.) They are very hard to control, if not impossible, when they are this strong. If they weren't we wouldn't be struggling so much.
I think that, in a way, it may make us nicer people. So maybe we wouldn't really want to change ourselves so much. It just hurts sometimes.

With my last boyfriend, 10 years ago, I loved him very much. I could tell by things like that if he beat me at a game I was happy because he got to win. When I broke up with him, because he just kept lying and lying and it's just not healthy to be with someone like that, it took me a long time and many tears to get over it. Now, I'm no model of perfect mental health, I just mean that I understand and don't think you're silly.

@Jennifer 1967:

No, it's not ridiculous at all. Bipolar love is obliterating.

I'm back, more or less, and I don't really know how, when I was so down and out. I didn't sleep at all last night--but I got out of bed and started on my schedule, and when a part came that had an exercise on the floor, I fell asleep on the floor. Then I dragged myself to bed and slept for 2 hours. Makes a difference.

My spells are often like that, really really miserable for about 2 days and then it clears up. Some kind of rapid cycling?

I was feeling too embarrassed to say much on here because all the things I was trying didn't seem to do any good. Feeling like a failure. But then, maybe the schedule did help. It had such good results with the house looking better because there's a lot of housework on it, and then I had fun because I scheduled some of that too. And so it pulls me back, even when I'm miserable. And that may break up a bad spell sooner than usual. Just doing things that have good results. Or maybe it's because it brings me back to the present, where nothing is actually going wrong. These things I worry about are things that may never happen.

After one of these spells I inwardly yell at myself for taking it seriously, since it often goes away in 2 days, but when it's on me, it's a monster and seems very, very serious., like something I can never get over. I'm still not sure how I do. Maybe I have a normal streak in here somewhere.

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967 I am considering inpatient help. My family and friends are pushing for it. I have a few things to put into place first so I’ll see in a couple of days where I’m at. I know? Over a stupid breakup. I do love hard and deep and I am emotionally sensitive. Ridiculous right?

Ridiculous? Not. At. All.

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Originally Posted by tentoedsloth ... I was feeling too embarrassed to say much on here because all the things I was trying didn't seem to do any good. Feeling like a failure. But then, maybe the schedule did help. It had such good results with the house looking better because there's a lot of housework on it, and then I had fun because I scheduled some of that too. And so it pulls me back, even when I'm miserable. And that may break up a bad spell sooner than usual. Just doing things that have good results. Or maybe it's because it brings me back to the present, where nothing is actually going wrong. These things I worry about are things that may never happen. ...

Ohhh, hun! Please don't ever feel embarrassed about posting anything here. I'm here for you, we're here for you

I'm doing good today. My anxiety was a bit tough this morning until I took a pepcid. As I said before its just hard to know whats up when OTC meds work better then benzos and my other pysch meds. But I turned on the TV around noon. I finished season 1 of Celebirity Big Brother and I started season 2 about 2 hours ago. Jeeze what a group of clowns they got for season 2. I am doing very well with my diet. My secret has been vegetable trays and and sparkling water. I have my blood test and I need to leave around 7:30. I don't know whats up but today it was controlled with the pepcid and the zofran I took.

I FINISHED MY PAPER! omg im so relieved! and i did my family assessment skill demonstration! im alsmot done with these classes! then i get to take qualitative research.

Hey hey !

I’m feeling a touch better knowing Steve will be home in a few days. He said Cindy’s funeral was beautiful.

I just watched the news and it showed pictures of the damage in Ukraine. Absolutely heartbreaking. Then it showed the people fighting for there country. Another day that the Capital Kyiv isn’t in the hands of Putin !

Hope everyone is having a pleasant Sunday

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Girl ! You’re kicking college butt !!!

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Jennifer do what ever you need to do. I’m here if you need me.

Much love

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Not ridiculous at all. All pain is real and valid. Sometimes people are just hit harder by things than other people would be, doesn’t mean it’s less real! I hope you are able to get the help you need to feel better. If IP is it, then IP it is.

We told our son about me going IP tomorrow and he took it very well. He was so sweet, he gave me two books to read (diary of a wimpy kid lol). I told him he needs to make sure RS doesn’t just eat a huge bag of chips for dinner

I fell asleep in the afternoon and had just a horrible dream about me severely SH and it just justified my decision further. I’m having nightmares of what could happen out of IP vs in IP so yeah, that’s not good.

So I have to inform my job, I will call tonight. Not saying I’m in the hospital just that I’m working out a health issue. I’ll get all the documents from the hospital to file once I leave. I’m also going to let my son’s teacher know that I won’t be available and she needs to call RS for any emergencies.

Wouldn’t it be ironic if I go through all this trouble and then the eval team in the ER decided I don’t need IP? They ALWAYS send me IP no matter what but it would be the one time I’m actually seeking it that they would refuse.

Hey I’m so glad that you going IP you have been really struggling lately and you need the high quality of care they can offer. You’re Son and RS will be fine. I see lots of pizza and take out lol that’s okay !

I’m here if you want an ear before you go

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Really missing my wife today been crying off and on all day. Just really depressed. I did have a decent afternoon I spent it at my parents and my dad cooked steak for mom and I. That was a nice escape from reality.
I started going to my parents almost everyday for like the last month and that helps me escape some of my reality.

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Loads of hugs for you You are stronger than you think you are. Going to your parents sounds like a great idea.

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Im so sorry @otroo
Going to your parents sounds like a really good idea!
Sending you lots of positive thoughts

I hope it all goes as well as possible! you'll be in my thoughts tomorrow!

Im glad Steve will be home in a few days. Youre so right, whats happening with Ukraine is absolutely heartbreaking.

I hope youve had/are having a lovely Sunday too

Well I managed my busy day today, although I did go to bed at about 8pm until just now (1:20am). Im feeling ok just now but not ready to go straight back to sleep so I thought Id check to see how everyone on here is

I went to the 'Conscious market' with my mum, which is this kind of sustainable living and natural product market which had over 40 stalls. I got some tree oil cleaning stuff which smells like the forest, I cant wait to use it.
I also got this weird chagga tea. Its a kind of mushroom which grows around here and they mix it with cacao and it tasted really nice. Apparently its got lots of health benefits/antioxidant properties. I also got my sister some cake, nut butter and chagga tea.
There were sustainable/recycled/natural clothes, crafts and jewellery too but I didnt get any. I did pick up a few business cards so I can check out some of their instagram pages as I quite like those kinds of things, especially as gifts for people.

My mum didnt really like it, as predicted. But she came with me which I appreciated and she didnt ***** on it too much which was good (and surprising!). I think she is showing some of her worry about me by being very nice. I know she must be worried, she just cant say it.

We went to a farm shop together afterwards which was lovely and got my granny a couple of things which we dropped off at hers. Shes still very miserable. She told me she thinks shes lived "too long" .
My granny wont accept help for her mood, she blames the fact she has a sore knee on her feeling the way she does. But I think there is more to it.

Well I hope everyone has had or is having a lovely day! My dog is dreaming beside me His little paws are twitching

Oh NO !

There’s something wrong with the truck ! It’s running rough and throwing a code.

I am pure panic mode. No idea how he can get it looked at and fixed we don’t have money to do so.

Omg I don’t need this at all. I’m crying my eyes out.

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Oh no! Im so sorry @~Christina

It'll be ok!

Is there anyone you can call to check what it is that has happened? My local garage are usually able to tell me what they think might be wrong by me just describing what happened or describing the noise that is happening?

Im so sorry this has happened!

You can take it to a auto parts store and they will either scam it for you or they will tell you how to scan it. After you scan it you can clear the code and that might help it run better. After you get the code they can usually tell you what is wrong. It might be something real simple like a bad sensor or something else. After you get the code youtube how to fix it. Now if you don't have the tools some autoparts stores have tools you could rent or they borrow for free. If you were near Boise I would help you out. Good luck

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I am so sorry for your car issues. I got a flat tire by driving on a curb.
auto zone will run a diagnostic test to tell what might be wrong. it is free.
good luck.

It really threw me for a loop.
(((((HUGS)))))
I am glad that steve will be home soon.
bizi

We have a code reader and it’s showing a problem with #4 cylinder.

Argh !

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