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Old Mar 31, 2022, 02:52 PM
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Guys, I'm scared. I dread the biopsy tomorrow and then I have to wait for pathology results. Again. And I just have a bad feeling. Something about needing 3 biopsies doesn't sound good to me. And while my chances of cancer thus far are low they are there and the likelihood varies widely depending who you listen to. I was fine with one biopsy; I was sure that would be fine. I've gotten more anxious about it over biopsy 2 and 3 and the need for surgical removal of the lesion(s).

I just am so afraid of this. To make it worse I know that I have to lie face down on a table with my breasts hanging through a hole and being compressed from below for over an hour during the biopsy. When I had this before it was in a chair. But this place does it differently, probably for good reason. It does not sound fun. My pdoc told me it's not fun (she's had breast cancer so has been through all of this).

I just need to focus on this will be done soon. By tomorrow night I'll probably be asleep as stress and numbing tends to wind me up and then knock me out.

Thanks for listening over the last months. Otroo and any other man reading all this I'm so sorry. My poor therapist is a man and we've spent hours discussing breasts and things about breasts for months now. That's been interesting sometimes.

I love that your sense of humor remains That is so healthy.

Okay, I have never had anything done to my breasts except the standard mammogram. So please forgive me if I'm being totally naive. (My sis had breast cancer, though, so I know a little bit about all the procedures. btw - she lived 15 years after cancer treatments and tragically, died of an overdose.)
Anyway, in the past I have had massages. I laid out flat on the massage table and there was a hole at the end of the table where I'd put my face through so there was no strain on my neck by having to turn it. It felt so good to be lying there with my face in that hole. I'm wondering if the set-up for the biopsy is similar...you'll be lying down, which feels more restful than sitting up, and I'm wondering if it may feel more comfortable to have your breasts through the holes, not fighting gravity, and you can relax your back, neck, etc. I don't know if I'm making sense. I'm just trying to picture the set-up in my mind.

I am, of course, hoping the procedure is as comfortable as it can possibly be, considering. Please know I am thinking of you and sending love and healing vibes Of course, please let us know how you're doing.

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Old Mar 31, 2022, 02:56 PM
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OMG! I'm now a blond!

Hubby had wanted me to go lighter haired and the last 3 times it was gradually lightened, but today it is lighter than I expected ever going. I'm a little unsure about it, frankly. I can say that this is as light as it will go. Future times will just be coloring roots and hair cut. If I don't start to like it, it will be colored medium auburn next time or some hint of red...or light brown. I know that suits me well. It's not Hubby's favorite, but it won't matter. No one in my family is/was blond except in early youth. There were some slight red heads.

Update: This has been a scary hour. I totally had no clue what was going on. Apparently my hair was bleached before a new color was added. It's darker now. Relief! I confess I had been on the verge of tears before. See how ignorant I am about certain hair stuff?

She did a double process - bleach to bring up the level to very light, then the dye to cover. Is it a Medium or dark blonde now? What tone (gold, beige, ash)?
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Old Mar 31, 2022, 02:57 PM
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I Ran out of oxy so I'm drinking. I have therapy soon. I hope she can help

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I'm so sorry it didn't go well. It does sound like a med change would be a good idea, though. I mean...drug and alcohol use clearly indicates that there is mental health problems that are not being properly treated.
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Old Mar 31, 2022, 03:15 PM
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I had to pay $248 for my internet/phone/TV today and I'm flattened. They rip people off so badly.

I took 12.5mg of Seroquel last night and slept well. I do have a hangover feeling, though, so it'll be awhile before I'm functional. It's a gorgeous day, so I will try my best to take a walk.

Haha, I ordered a little crocheted basket, a bright chartreuse, to help with the spring sprucing up of my apartment. The woman who makes the basket is a military wife stationed in Frankfurt (Germany). So the army mail sent the basket from Frankfurt to San Francisco THEN to Chicago (???). It's "in transit" - hopefully that means it's BACK to San Fran, then to here. Gotta love how organized the army is(n't). Reminds me of when I go to VA appointments with David. "Hurry up and wait" as the army folks say.

As soon as I wake up fully I'm calling my health care advisor to get some numbers for med management in this town. I dread seeing that pdoc on Tuesday. I very seldom have problems with people; I usually get along well. But I feel like I hate her. Isn't that awful to say? But it's true.

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Old Mar 31, 2022, 03:22 PM
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Yeah they do rip people off. Where I live now there’s no choice, just one provider of internet and tv, phone. You can get tv and phone from others but not internet.

I’m sorry your pdoc isn’t working out, that majorly sucks.
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Old Mar 31, 2022, 03:32 PM
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@BethRags hope you get your basket soon, and I'm glad you got some good sleep

I'm here, just haven't been posting much. I'm doing pretty well, haven't had any med changes since I'm doing good lately. Tomorrow I'm scheduling an appointment to get Miss Mustachio spayed. Tomorrow I also have people coming over to change the filter to my air conditioning and I'm really not looking forward to that. I hate having people come to my apartment. They could be here anywhere between 8:30am and 12pm so I have to stay here and wait because I don't want my cat getting out when they come. I'm trying to eat healthier and am having massive sugar cravings but am trying to ignore them lol I didn't sleep well last night, and was looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow but I can't because I need to be awake for the people coming to change the filter, so that ruins my plans. I sat outside in the morning for about 30 minutes, it was nice being outside for a change. It stays pretty cold here in upstate NY kinda far into spring, on Tuesday it was like 16 degrees here and in the low 20's throughout the day. It's starting to get warmer now though
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I just don't get it.
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Old Mar 31, 2022, 03:54 PM
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She did not help. Just told me to stop pushing people away and maybe I need a med change.
Ugh. That completely sucks.
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Old Mar 31, 2022, 05:28 PM
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How in the world do I fall so behind on here????

I’m losing lots of time lately. Saw Richard yesterday and he mentioned about 15 mins in that I’m not my normal attentive self.

Anyway… we are going to start some therapy work using the “ Internal family systems” I am really looking forward to it.

I hope everyone is having a pleasant day.

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I had to pay $248 for my internet/phone/TV today and I'm flattened. They rip people off so badly.

I took 12.5mg of Seroquel last night and slept well. I do have a hangover feeling, though, so it'll be awhile before I'm functional. It's a gorgeous day, so I will try my best to take a walk.

Haha, I ordered a little crocheted basket, a bright chartreuse, to help with the spring sprucing up of my apartment. The woman who makes the basket is a military wife stationed in Frankfurt (Germany). So the army mail sent the basket from Frankfurt to San Francisco THEN to Chicago (???). It's "in transit" - hopefully that means it's BACK to San Fran, then to here. Gotta love how organized the army is(n't). Reminds me of when I go to VA appointments with David. "Hurry up and wait" as the army folks say.

As soon as I wake up fully I'm calling my health care advisor to get some numbers for med management in this town. I dread seeing that pdoc on Tuesday. I very seldom have problems with people; I usually get along well. But I feel like I hate her. Isn't that awful to say? But it's true.

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How in the world do I fall so behind on here????

I’m losing lots of time lately. Saw Richard yesterday and he mentioned about 15 mins in that I’m not my normal attentive self.

Anyway… we are going to start some therapy work using the “ Internal family systems” I am really looking forward to it.

I hope everyone is having a pleasant day.

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I'm sorry about the lost time lately. ''Internal family systems''.... Interesting. Let me/us know how it goes!

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How in the world do I fall so behind on here????

I’m losing lots of time lately. Saw Richard yesterday and he mentioned about 15 mins in that I’m not my normal attentive self.

Anyway… we are going to start some therapy work using the “ Internal family systems” I am really looking forward to it.

I hope everyone is having a pleasant day.

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It’s so easy to get behind on here. What’s internal family systems?
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Really depressed right now. If I can just remember where I put my bottle of seraquil

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I can’t get a link to work. Probably because I’m on Tapatalk.

Wikipedia has a good overview of it.

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Old Mar 31, 2022, 05:59 PM
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I can’t get a link to work. Probably because I’m on Tapatalk.

Wikipedia has a good overview of it.

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I'm home from my biopsy. It went well enough although was not comfortable. I am extremely tired.


Beth, your massage table question is good and I'll answer when I've had sleep. Right now I'm just trying to stay awake until bedtime. I'll tell you all about it tomorrow. There is a story.


Thank you all so much. I felt much less alone.


I hope I never have to do that again.
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I'm home from my biopsy. It went well enough although was not comfortable. I am extremely tired.


Beth, your massage table question is good and I'll answer when I've had sleep. Right now I'm just trying to stay awake until bedtime. I'll tell you all about it tomorrow. There is a story.


Thank you all so much. I felt much less alone.

I hope I never have to do that again.
Have a good rest.
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Old Mar 31, 2022, 06:09 PM
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I'm home from my biopsy. It went well enough although was not comfortable. I am extremely tired.

Beth, your massage table question is good and I'll answer when I've had sleep. Right now I'm just trying to stay awake until bedtime. I'll tell you all about it tomorrow. There is a story.

Thank you all so much. I felt much less alone.

I hope I never have to do that again.

I am SO glad you're through with that. Congratulations! I'll be waiting to hear from you when you're ready
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Old Mar 31, 2022, 06:13 PM
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@BethRags hope you get your basket soon, and I'm glad you got some good sleep

I'm here, just haven't been posting much. I'm doing pretty well, haven't had any med changes since I'm doing good lately. Tomorrow I'm scheduling an appointment to get Miss Mustachio spayed. Tomorrow I also have people coming over to change the filter to my air conditioning and I'm really not looking forward to that. I hate having people come to my apartment. They could be here anywhere between 8:30am and 12pm so I have to stay here and wait because I don't want my cat getting out when they come. I'm trying to eat healthier and am having massive sugar cravings but am trying to ignore them lol I didn't sleep well last night, and was looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow but I can't because I need to be awake for the people coming to change the filter, so that ruins my plans. I sat outside in the morning for about 30 minutes, it was nice being outside for a change. It stays pretty cold here in upstate NY kinda far into spring, on Tuesday it was like 16 degrees here and in the low 20's throughout the day. It's starting to get warmer now though

I glad you're doing pretty well. Yay! Ugh, I hate maintenance coming into my apt. It messes up my day (although never as badly as I imagine it will). My toilet lid has almost broken off, I need to get the maintenance dude in and I keep putting it off

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Old Mar 31, 2022, 06:16 PM
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I filled out a bunch of online forms and I'm supposed to be scheduled with a med provider at a new place. The provider is a man, which I generally do better with when it comes to medical stuff. If Tuesday could be my last appointment with that b**** it can't come soon enough.
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I filled out a bunch of online forms and I'm supposed to be scheduled with a med provider at a new place. The provider is a man, which I generally do better with when it comes to medical stuff. If Tuesday could be my last appointment with that b**** it can't come soon enough.

Are you changing therapists too?
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Are you changing therapists too?

No...I currently see my therapist about twice/month. I'm kinda done with regular therapy. I'm so tired of it. Not that it hasn't helped me, it definitely has. But I'm using the sessions now as a place to just de-stress. Not to go deep into anything.
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No...I currently see my therapist about twice/month. I'm kinda done with regular therapy. I'm so tired of it. Not that it hasn't helped me, it definitely has. But I'm using the sessions now as a place to just de-stress. Not to go deep into anything.
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Hey all. Checked on my mom's place and watered all the plants. Put my suitcase in their basement where it lives. Did two loads of laundry at the same time- two washers and two dryers- vacation stuff and stuff I didn't wash before I went on vacation. Talked with C for a while on the phone. Have a mammogram on Monday. Bills day is tomorrow. Bills day is always busy. But by evening I hope to be watching Golden Girls.
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