Bipolar check-in #64

*Beth* · Apr 04, 2022 at 04:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

@BethRags Miss Mustachio didn’t get spayed yet, unfortunately their appointments are booked until June so I scheduled one for then. She’s doing well though, I have a scratching post I bought for her being delivered today so hopefully she likes that

This is the one I got her, it’s shaped like a cactus

That's so cute. She'll love it!

*Beth* · Apr 04, 2022 at 04:36 PM

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Originally Posted by Sapien

Sorry I haven't been super supportive of everyone especially lately. Things have been chaotic.

Possible trigger:

My buddy OD'd on H on Saturday and my drug use spiraled but I'm quitting everything excluding weed as of today

I wish I could see what my therapist saw when she said my meds were clearly not perfect. I don't think my drug use is indicative of an episode. I don't think me wanting out of my relationship is indicative of paranoia either.

Sending warm hugs all around

Hi Sapien, I am so sorry about your friend. That is a shyte way to lose someone. My precious sister died of an OD 3 years ago. It just hurts and hurts.

Mountaindewed · Apr 04, 2022 at 04:40 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

I haven't been in a dressing room in a few years, but I'm surprised that the attendant allowed the dude to go in with the woman. But things have changed a lot. With that in mind, nah...I wouldn't feel weird about it.

I often don't understand my issues with some stuff but not with others.

*Beth* · Apr 04, 2022 at 04:42 PM

I managed a sort-of restless sleep, but it helped.

I have an appointment with a new med provider in one week! I see my miserable pdoc tomorrow; I won't say anything to her about a possible good-freakin'-bye. I have my fingers and toes crossed that the new provider will be a good one and I'll never have to see the former creature again. The new one is a man, which could be better. So many women psychiatrists seem like they have something to prove and it becomes a power struggle.

WOW. I can hardly believe that I may never have to see that horror show woman again after tomorrow!!

Apr 04, 2022 at 05:08 PM

I'm taking a break from the forum because it seems my whole life is about my bipolar. I'm tired of it. I wish everyone the best and if i ever feel differently i'll be back. I've learned never to say never!

Sunflower123 · Apr 04, 2022 at 06:03 PM

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Originally Posted by whatever2013

I'm taking a break from the forum because it seems my whole life is about my bipolar. I'm tired of it. I wish everyone the best and if i ever feel differently i'll be back. I've learned never to say never!

You will be missed greatly. Please take good care of yourself.

Sunflower123 · Apr 04, 2022 at 06:18 PM

I’m feeling weird today. Just odd. It’s been an okay day I guess. I sat in the sun for a while. Then I took mom to a doctor’s appointment one town over. We ran some errands and it’s late in the day. There was a lot of traffic but I can’t really account for all of my time. It’s been a blur to me.

I’m going through some growing pains in my friendship with my ex. I feel weird there as well. Yeah, there’s a reason we are exes. I don’t know.

My sister brought some food by and made a big deal about saying I love you, hello and goodbye to brother and mother but nothing to me. I believe she has mistaken me for somebody who cares. Not being talked to by an abusive personality is not a bad thing in my book. I’ve written her an email but have not decided yet to send it or not. It’s diplomatic in nature but does let her know I’m off her attack list.

I may go to bed early to reset. I don’t know.

Hugs to all.

Mountaindewed · 06:41 PM

My doctor finally got back. He was super nice. He said thanks for keeping him up to date and that I can restart my shots. I wasted no time and I've already gotten it. My arm hurts like crazy and I'm hoping the side effects aren't terrible. I was only off it for about 5 weeks so I'm hoping nothing extreme happens since nothing extreme really happened when I was off it. I think my metabloism slowed down but I didn't notice a huge change in my moods or my anxiety. Its just I feel like this is part of who I am and I felt like I was kind of missing my identity without it. I do think the blood level will go up again and I'll need another procedure but I'll cross that bridge when I get there.

Sorry for the weirdly timed posts that are in between others. I am on MSF probation for my recent outbursts so everything I post has to be approved before it can be posted.

*Beth* · Apr 04, 2022 at 06:23 PM

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Originally Posted by whatever2013

I'm taking a break from the forum because it seems my whole life is about my bipolar. I'm tired of it. I wish everyone the best and if i ever feel differently i'll be back. I've learned never to say never!

I feel really bad about this, Jane. You don't have to go into bipolar stuff here, you know. For example, check out Fuzzybear's thread about an animal....

*Beth* · Apr 04, 2022 at 06:26 PM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m feeling weird today. Just odd. It’s been an okay day I guess. I sat in the sun for a while. Then I took mom to a doctor’s appointment one town over. We ran some errands and it’s late in the day. There was a lot of traffic but I can’t really account for all of my time. It’s been a blur to me.

I’m going through some growing pains in my friendship with my ex. I feel weird there as well. Yeah, there’s a reason we are exes. I don’t know.

My sister brought some food by and made a big deal about saying I love you, hello and goodbye to brother and mother but nothing to me. I believe she has mistaken me for somebody who cares. Not being talked to by an abusive personality is not a bad thing in my book. I’ve written her an email but have not decided yet to send it or not. It’s diplomatic in nature but does let her know I’m off her attack list.

I may go to bed early to reset. I don’t know.

Hugs to all.

Hi Jennifer I'm sorry about the situation with your sister. No matter what I'm thinking it has to hurt. I support your idea of an email to her.

*Beth* · Apr 04, 2022 at 06:29 PM

I hung the flag that says "I stand with Ukraine" on my door. It covers the entire door, which is good because people can see it from the street (my apartment is upstairs). I've seen a few protest signs/peace signs around town; I'd like to see many more. That maniac must be brought to justice.

Moose72 · Apr 04, 2022 at 07:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

Ok. Tell me if I'm making a big deal out of nothing. I was at Old Navy today and a couple was heading into the fitting room and the guy said to the girl "want to go by yourself?" And she said "we can go together." And they went into a fitting room together. Ok I just found that to be super strange. But I'm not a prude. Like I watch reality TV shows with much worse stuff. So I'm like not sure why it bothered me so much. I know being off the testosterone can possibly change how I feel about certain things that being on it wouldn't have bugged me. But I didn't think being off it would have this big of an impact on how I thought of things. Unless that was a legit weird thing to do in public and my feelings are valid.

I think it was weird. I probably would've told my friends about it later but there are weirder things.

Moose72 · Apr 04, 2022 at 07:31 PM

I went out for lunch after my mammogram. My waitress was fine. I took half the meal home and ate the rest for dinner. As I was just getting to my car, my waitress came out after me and accused me to dining and dashing! I showed her my receipt and said that I paid already. She just bowed out and went back inside. I've been accused of trying to steal groceries too. I'd paid and had my cart and was just about to go out the door when a woman stopped me and accused me of stealing! I showed her my receipt and she backed off. Ugh. Moral of stories: always keep your receipts!

*Beth* · Apr 04, 2022 at 08:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

My doctor finally got back. He was super nice. He said thanks for keeping him up to date and that I can restart my shots. I wasted no time and I've already gotten it. My arm hurts like crazy and I'm hoping the side effects aren't terrible. I was only off it for about 5 weeks so I'm hoping nothing extreme happens since nothing extreme really happened when I was off it. I think my metabloism slowed down but I didn't notice a huge change in my moods or my anxiety. Its just I feel like this is part of who I am and I felt like I was kind of missing my identity without it. I do think the blood level will go up again and I'll need another procedure but I'll cross that bridge when I get there.

Sorry for the weirdly timed posts that are in between others. I am on MSF probation for my recent outbursts so everything I post has to be approved before it can be posted.

On here, I haven't noticed any change in your moods or anxiety over the past 5 weeks. Still - welcome back to your own identity

*Beth* · Apr 04, 2022 at 08:03 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

I went out for lunch after my mammogram. My waitress was fine. I took half the meal home and ate the rest for dinner. As I was just getting to my car, my waitress came out after me and accused me to dining and dashing! I showed her my receipt and said that I paid already. She just bowed out and went back inside. I've been accused of trying to steal groceries too. I'd paid and had my cart and was just about to go out the door when a woman stopped me and accused me of stealing! I showed her my receipt and she backed off. Ugh. Moral of stories: always keep your receipts!

How upsetting! My God. That happened to my oldest sister once. We 3 sisters had dinner together and the owner accused my sister (who is like the most honest person I've ever known) of stealing food. My other sis and I were outraged! Guy was such an a-hole.

~Christina · Apr 04, 2022 at 08:27 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Now I am very anxious about my biopsy results. There is a slight chance of getting them tomorrow. That would be ideal as I have my pdoc in the evening and if anything bad is there she'd be helpful. It's more likely to be Tuesday or Wednesday or even Thursday. I hope they pop up in my patient portal before I get a call. I just want to read the answer before someone tells me so I can think about questions.

I'm not too anxious about the results themselves. I mean I am, of course I am, but even if this is clear I won't know if it is really clear until my surgical biopsy and the pathology from that.

I've been sleeping a ton since my procedure which happened before. Last night I fell asleep early and then woke at 2:30 and was up for a couple hours until I took klonopin. I really hope that doesn't happen tonight. I want to see my therapist in person but if I'm too sleepy I'll have to change to telehealth. Which I am grateful for but it's not the same.

One step at a time...

Massive hugs

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~Christina · Apr 04, 2022 at 08:37 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sapien

Sorry I haven't been super supportive of everyone especially lately. Things have been chaotic.

Possible trigger:

My buddy OD'd on H on Saturday and my drug use spiraled but I'm quitting everything excluding weed as of today

I wish I could see what my therapist saw when she said my meds were clearly not perfect. I don't think my drug use is indicative of an episode. I don't think me wanting out of my relationship is indicative of paranoia either.

Sending warm hugs all around

So sorry about your Friend. Please take good care of yourself

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~Christina · Apr 04, 2022 at 08:41 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

I managed a sort-of restless sleep, but it helped.

I have an appointment with a new med provider in one week! I see my miserable pdoc tomorrow; I won't say anything to her about a possible good-freakin'-bye. I have my fingers and toes crossed that the new provider will be a good one and I'll never have to see the former creature again. The new one is a man, which could be better. So many women psychiatrists seem like they have something to prove and it becomes a power struggle.

WOW. I can hardly believe that I may never have to see that horror show woman again after tomorrow!!

I hope to hell your new provider will be a great fit !!

Screw that miserable pos !

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~Christina · Apr 04, 2022 at 08:42 PM

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Originally Posted by whatever2013

I'm taking a break from the forum because it seems my whole life is about my bipolar. I'm tired of it. I wish everyone the best and if i ever feel differently i'll be back. I've learned never to say never!

Take care Jane

hope to see you soon

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Fuzzybear · Apr 04, 2022 at 08:48 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

I managed a sort-of restless sleep, but it helped.

I have an appointment with a new med provider in one week! I see my miserable pdoc tomorrow; I won't say anything to her about a possible good-freakin'-bye. I have my fingers and toes crossed that the new provider will be a good one and I'll never have to see the former creature again. The new one is a man, which could be better. So many women psychiatrists seem like they have something to prove and it becomes a power struggle.

WOW. I can hardly believe that I may never have to see that horror show woman again after tomorrow!!

I'm hoping you don't have to see that

woman again dear Beth

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Anonymous41462 Guest Posts: n/a	Apr 04, 2022 at 05:08 PM #405 I'm taking a break from the forum because it seems my whole life is about my bipolar. I'm tired of it. I wish everyone the best and if i ever feel differently i'll be back. I've learned never to say never!

Beth catches the flowers Member Since Jul 2019 Location: Downtown Vibes, California Posts: 15,701 (SuperPoster!) 5 23.7k hugs given	Apr 04, 2022 at 06:29 PM #411 I hung the flag that says "I stand with Ukraine" on my door. It covers the entire door, which is good because people can see it from the street (my apartment is upstairs). I've seen a few protest signs/peace signs around town; I'd like to see many more. That maniac must be brought to justice. __________________