Bipolar check-in #65

Whew, did the oil change. That's a huge weight off my mind. It went well. I had a coupon for $7 off, so the cost was $50. Then ordered cat food and I am flat broke. Oh, well. I had my pedicure for the month.

I came home to a message that my therapist will be in tomorrow. Yay! I really didn't want to stretch it all the way until next week. And then I can call my sister on Friday.

Yikes, I am so tired. And it's time to do kitty dinner...test Sid's glucose, feed everybody their dinner, and give Sid her insulin. I never once have to worry about her being difficult, she's so intelligent and so patient. I think she knows that the insulin makes her feel better.

Alright dear ones, see ya later.

Oh Beth! You should see my solar light sunflowers 🌻 just put them out today. They look so nice. Got two each with three flowers on it. They’re glowing. I know you said you liked solar light flowers so I thought of you when I saw them tonight.

I will be home tomorrow from my road trip. That puts me at riding my motorcycle everyday for 3 weeks as of tomorrow. I am kind of sad that it is over I have done a lot for the last 3 weeks. I still miss my wife very much though and that will never go away though it might lessen but it will never go away.

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Well, I wrote something to just update on my recovery but it has disappeared. So, doing good, still having trouble typing correctly but it's improving. Sleeping less in the day time. Had telehealth folllow-up. Nothing like showing your breast to Zoom. (It was rine, not traumatizing at all as I worried it might be). And that's about it. So, improving. The best I could ask for.

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Originally Posted by Nammu Oh Beth! You should see my solar light sunflowers 🌻 just put them out today. They look so nice. Got two each with three flowers on it. They’re glowing. I know you said you liked solar light flowers so I thought of you when I saw them tonight.

Ooooohhhh! That sounds glorious! One very, very scorchingly hot summer I had a solar light in a pretty blue glass bottle sitting in my bedroom window. The bright sun and the heat made that light glowww, it was so lovely. Enjoy your sunflowers!

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow Well, I wrote something to just update on my recovery but it has disappeared. So, doing good, still having trouble typing correctly but it's improving. Sleeping less in the day time. Had telehealth folllow-up. Nothing like showing your breast to Zoom. (It was rine, not traumatizing at all as I worried it might be). And that's about it. So, improving. The best I could ask for.

Showing your breast to Zoom, teehee. You've been so amazing throughout all of this.


In your first post after your surgery you told us you were going to tell us "something funny-ish" that had happened in the hospital. Do you remember what it was?

Yes I actually do remember. Better than I did with my email to my mom that was gibberish, my carrying my bathroom soap bottle to the kitchen in the night, weird purchasing decisions, just not clear-headed. I'm way better than that. I can't believe I remember the funny-sih thing but i do.. Thanks for reminding me. I'll tell it tomorrow since my ability to type isn't great yet during the day and with my meds on board I will make way too many mistakes.

Try eating and having a sugary coke.

I feel a bit better today. My NP told me Monday to use Klonopin only if absolutely needed as it would depress me further. What didn’t dawn on me and must not have her either is that you don’t go off benzodiazepines cold turkey. Not at that high dose. I took some Klonopin and my focus and concentration came back as well as my ability to communicate. It lightened the depression somewhat as well.

A friend and my daughter were very frank with me that I’ve been burning the candle at both ends for some time now and that the stress is going to take me out. They both said I need to take myself off the back burner and take care of myself much better. I don’t know whether that contributed to this depression or not but I’ve listened and will start taking better care of myself.

Thank you for the kind words and the support. I really appreciate it.

Hubby and I have finally settled down a bit at home (after our trip). Our luggage is out of the way, temporarily, and the laundry is done. It's beautiful here in Moravia. Green, like outside @~Christina 's door.

We've not yet started making France trip arrangements, but will. What we're very excited about today is that Hubby's friend has booked an apartment to rent for two months in the city we live in in Czech Republic. That friend was one Hubby made at his last job. This friend works from home, so decided to do so from Czech Republic because of us. He had been living on the island of St. Croix after a hard breakup with his last long-term girlfriend, with whom he used to live in New York City. I've been joking with Hubby that we should get him set up with some nice Moravian woman. As we were driving home from my pdoc appointment yesterday, I was scoping out pretty young women for him . He picked a nice street to live on. It's fairly central to everything, with the city's biggest most beautiful park nearby as well as the castle and its grounds. There is a vegetarian restaurant on his street, as well as others that have plenty of vegetarian options. Yes, he's a vegetarian. He could walk to most all he needs or take public transportation. It's also easy to rent an electric scooter. He's coming in early July, which should be after our France trip.

I'm doing quite well. I've been mostly stable for more than a year now, but am truly at my best right now. My old psychiatrist would call this my true baseline, which is a hair above most people's. I suppose spring is playing a part.

To all who are struggling with bipolar disorder, know that I was certainly there in the past. I had a period of severe episodes with 10 hospitalizations. That was followed by additional hard years where a few times I was near hospitalizations. Patience is a rough word sometimes, as are tolerance, determination, and perseverance, but it's so important to never give up hope. Never! Nikdy (in Czech)! We can think of the struggle as fighting a war. Keep fighting for survival because wars do eventually end. Change comes.

Yesterday during my psychiatrist appointment I noticed his office was beautifully decorated. I commented on that, complimenting him on it. He said that it was no different than the first time I was there, but I only noticed that day. Beauty is all around us. It must just be noticed. It's hard when we're stressed or depressed, but it is there! I also thanked him for his part in bringing me to my current place. I hope that brought a bright spot to his day.

I had salmon and a slim fast. But maybe the Coke would have been better over the oranges and cream shake.

I made Mustachio an appointment to get spayed. It’s on June 16th. That’s the soonest they had available so I took it. She’s is at that age and is driving me nuts. Hopefully after the surgery she calms down.

I slept last night finally after being up for 40 hours but not as much as I’d like because she woke me up at 5am today. I’m glad I got at least some sleep though because I was hallucinating and feeling weird.

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Yeah sleeping sure made a difference. I feel a lot better.

Well, I jinxed myself by saying my sleep was good. Maybe two hours last night? ‘‘Twas mostly tossing and turning. Hot, then cold. Haven’t had that in a long time.

What lovely coincidences! Thank you for sharing about them, Beth.

Meant to get down to -5 degrees or something here tonight (Celsius) which is pretty cold for Australia when it’s not even winter yet. I live in a cold part of the country where it snows sometimes but I hate the cold. Not looking forward to winter. I know you guys in the US get a lot colder but we are more known for our 40 plus degree Celsius days and bushfires and droughts. Better rug up I guess!

Whenever I donate blood I get really sick (I sometimes pass out) and consuming some sugar and a meal helps

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird I made Mustachio an appointment to get spayed. It’s on June 16th. That’s the soonest they had available so I took it. She’s is at that age and is driving me nuts. Hopefully after the surgery she calms down. I slept last night finally after being up for 40 hours but not as much as I’d like because she woke me up at 5am today. I’m glad I got at least some sleep though because I was hallucinating and feeling weird. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

An unspayed female is impossible to peacefully live with. She'll be calm after the spay.

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed I had salmon and a slim fast. But maybe the Coke would have been better over the oranges and cream shake.

Md, when you're nauseated try ginger tea - you can even pour it over ice once it's steeped and sip it. Also, you can put ginger and peppermint teas together and sip those, either hot or over ice.


Another wonderful was to combat nausea is by sucking on candied ginger.

Also a half or full tab of "Less Drowsy" Dramamine - works wonders.

And ginger ale! Excellent for nausea. AND you can pour the steeped ginger tea over ice and add in a non-flavored carbonated drink (such as La Croix no flavor), sip that.

All of these work really well for nausea.

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Originally Posted by unlived Meant to get down to -5 degrees or something here tonight (Celsius) which is pretty cold for Australia when it’s not even winter yet. I live in a cold part of the country where it snows sometimes but I hate the cold. Not looking forward to winter. I know you guys in the US get a lot colder but we are more known for our 40 plus degree Celsius days and bushfires and droughts. Better rug up I guess!

Yikes! That is cold! The coldest temperature I've ever been in was in a mountain town. It was -4 degrees farenheit and I seriously thought my feet would get frostbite. 50 degrees means "cold" to me, lol.

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Originally Posted by Nammu Well, I jinxed myself by saying my sleep was good. Maybe two hours last night? ‘‘Twas mostly tossing and turning. Hot, then cold. Haven’t had that in a long time.

Ugggh, I'm sorry And as if sleep loss isn't bad enough, that hot-cold thing is just so darn unpleasant.

Maybelle is wearing her collar, she doesn’t mind it at all

Yes she’s driving me nuts. I’m counting down the days till her appointment

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The tree outside my bedroom window is spectacular! Great big old tree with fairly large leaves. It shades my bedroom so well. There's a lot of foliage back there, it's beautiful. My tiny apartment does have large windows, which I love. The living room and kitchen have no shade, though, so get quite warm by late afternoon. 80 degrees today and I'm already warm. Wait'll 90 and 100 come.....

Time to take a shower and go to my therapy session. I guess she's there today since I haven't heard otherwise.

Stay golden, lovies!

Awww Maybelle looks adorable. So chilled.

Beth my apartment in Texas had a big picture window in the living area and I attached Sir’s hammock bed to it so he could look directly out into the tree where the birds were. I also had a small dish of kibble there for him. One summer a huge black bird(raven?) sat on the ledge and teased him. Pretending to eat the kibble. Sir would get all worked up, I swear the bird was laughing at him. They say raven s are intelligent. We saw all kinds of birds even parakeets. That tree was sir’s favorite place to sit.