Bipolar check-in #65

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Well I am just cranky today. It’s this heat I’m sure

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The heat and humidity are shockingly high here too. We jumped from 40’s and 50’s to 90’s with humid conditions. Thank goodness for AC. This is August weather.

Oooh that sucks your temp has gone so hot far too early in the year. It’s just so miserable with the humidity.

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So I have this eating problem and wondering if anyone here has ever heard of what this is? I get spasms in my esophagus sometimes when I eat and it is so painful. Sometimes I throw up but mostly it’s just painful. My drs have done a bunch of tests and said there’s more tests they can do but have ruled out a lot. It seems worse when I go a long time without eating. Like today all I ate was cereal this morning then for supper I had Chinese food. I did get general Tso’s so maybe spicy is a trigger? It’s just so painful and tonight it lasted for for a while. I can go weeks and be fine then this. I don’t really want to undergo some of the tests they’ve brought up. Has anyone heard of this?

Have you been checked for esophageal stricture? It's unpleasant but is treatable.

Esophageal Strictures: Symptoms, Causes & Treatment

Yes. That was one of the things they ruled out. I’ve had scopes from both ends and they ruled out cancer, ulcers and a bunch of other things I had never heard of. And to be honest I played this down in the doctors office when I saw him because the tests sound awful. But the pain tonight was so awful. It’s been weeks so maybe I just “forgot” how painful it is?

I'll think about it and see if I remember any more from training years ago. My aunt has esophageal spasms but I think that's a non-specific diagnosis that she doesn't want to get checked out more, probably because you're right, the procedures aren't fun.


On the other hand a procedure that tells you what is wrong might be worth some discomfort? It sounds awful.

Your right. I’m second guessing my stance now.

Well I slept from 3am until about 5:30. It seems like every other day I must take seroquel in addition to my regular meds. I fight against it because I’m so groggy upon waking but I can feel a little bit of a rise in energy and my thoughts are racing a bit as well. Sleep is key, I can’T risk my stability so soon!

I made it to the doctor yesterday and had an EKG done, urine tested and blood work done. Today is a chest x-ray and next week is a heart stress test. Trying to get some answers.

The depression is back. I missed my med provider appointment yesterday due to the medical tests and won’t be able to speak to her until next week if then. I believe all this depression and anxiety is stemming from the realization that my life is not working for me. I’m under a tremendous amount of stress (I’m losing my hair to it) and I’m not thriving. I will rally but it’s too bad I had to go off the Wellbutrin so quickly.

This Sunday we are celebrating Mother’s Day and my, my daughter’s and my mom’s birthdays. It will be lovely seeing M. The pool is about to open and I’m going to Florida soon with M for a week. I’m going to a Drum Circle Monday. Lots of good things to look forward to. I shouldn’t be so down. I am.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day. Hugs to all.

That’s depression for you, good things can be happening but the mood is deflated. At least you can see that those are good things, that’s half the battle right there. Good luck with your medical testing.

I don't really know why I'm doing well.

Okay I'm not okay but... ugh...

My doctor said the nodule shouldnt be causing the swallowing issues. Then why do I feel the bump when I swallow... he's not my regular doctor though he is just a fill in. Hopefully I get a call about setting up the ultrasound because I can't just be left hanging with this thing becauase its stressing and freaking me out. I think my anxiety is just rough today because of that. I mean I think anyone would be stressed if they felt a lump while swallowing that they felt was restricting their breathing a bit regardless if they had an anxiety disorder or not. I've always had a lot of anxiety in my throat anyways that sometimes made me feel like my throat was closing up. But anyways today I'm not doing too much. I dug out my plastic Birkenstocks I got on vacation last summer and I'm just chilling inside with the AC and TV on and as usual trying not to overthink anything. Although I have made several small steps this week and my mom is getting a ton of paperwork ready to get me into a program that will really help me out.

Edit: I got a call from the radiologist department a bit ago and I have an ultrasound set up for Tuesday at 12:30. So I'm glad I have that set up, now I just have to distract myself for the next few days.

My pdoc gave me olanzapine and Prozac yesterday. I'm not sure how they will do for my depression but I slept till 0930 today so I will take that as a win.

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wfc, That is great news! Good for you, chickie!

Nammu, I guess I almost always wear unisex sandals. This summer's sandals are handmade from dark grey rope, no glue, completely woven by some guys on the coast. Only $30. I do have my platform Crocs sandals, ala Elton John I find platforms very comfortable. But yes, Crocs are hot for summer.

I love a good quality pair of shoes that lasts for years. I hope your new sandals are just the thing!

Beth, I don’t think I could wear rope sandals. Don’t they rub the top of your feet? Sound very pretty though.

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Originally Posted by Nammu So I have this eating problem and wondering if anyone here has ever heard of what this is? I get spasms in my esophagus sometimes when I eat and it is so painful. Sometimes I throw up but mostly it’s just painful. My drs have done a bunch of tests and said there’s more tests they can do but have ruled out a lot. It seems worse when I go a long time without eating. Like today all I ate was cereal this morning then for supper I had Chinese food. I did get general Tso’s so maybe spicy is a trigger? It’s just so painful and tonight it lasted for for a while. I can go weeks and be fine then this. I don’t really want to undergo some of the tests they’ve brought up. Has anyone heard of this?

Okay, I have had a very similar issue throughout my adult life. It'll go away fro years, then suddenly reappear. The spasms sometimes occur when I have not eaten (I'm guessing that stomach acid occurs?), but they are worse when I DO eat. I have to be extremely careful about what I eat - I'm thinking that spicy is a no-go. It feels like there is something blocking my esophagus and it is extremely unpleasant. Sometimes it will become downright painful, but the actual pain can go up to my ear(s) and down into my chest. Along with the extreme throat/esophagus discomfort. The whole thing is a misery when it occurs. (The Gabapentin has been causing it to flare up lately.)

2 years ago I was miserable with the thing, finally gave in and went to my GP. She prescribed Prilosec; lo and behold, after a few days of treatment the problem resolved. I did the full 2 weeks and the spasms/pain stayed away. Then last month it flared up again (when I increased the Gaba). I did another 14 days of Prilosec - problem gone.

So that's my experience with what sounds very much like what you're going though.

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Originally Posted by Nammu Beth, I don’t think I could wear rope sandals. Don’t they rub the top of your feet? Sound very pretty though.

Interestingly, the ropes are very soft and comfortable - and strangely supportive. Walking in them feels to me like walking barefoot (which I would do if I wasn't afraid of stepping on something or picking up some creepy disease).

If I knew how to use my phone camera I'd take a pic. The sandals are definitely unusual! I have long, large feet (size 11 ) and hands so shoes are always...a challenge

It’s a beautiful sunny day today. The humidity went down as did the temperature it’s a balmy 78 today. Hot to work in though. I bought flowers for outside. Two hanging plants of petunias and little yellow flowers and little blue flowers. A geranium and mix planters for the ceramic planter and geraniums and marigolds for the flower bed.. still have to sweep out the garage and put the garden bench outside but I needed a break. Whoo hot in the sun. 😃

Ooo yeah barefoot 🦶 that’s heaven but yeah, I no longer go barefooted for those reasons. Used to wear soft bottom moccasins for years, but I can’t afford them anymore. Yikes 😬

I take Prilosec now long term because if I don’t take it I throw up every time I eat. But yeah that sounds like the same thing I’ve got. Comes and goes. I was eating spicy food so I suppose that’s a no go any more.

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967 I made it to the doctor yesterday and had an EKG done, urine tested and blood work done. Today is a chest x-ray and next week is a heart stress test. Trying to get some answers. The depression is back. I missed my med provider appointment yesterday due to the medical tests and won’t be able to speak to her until next week if then. I believe all this depression and anxiety is stemming from the realization that my life is not working for me. I’m under a tremendous amount of stress (I’m losing my hair to it) and I’m not thriving. I will rally but it’s too bad I had to go off the Wellbutrin so quickly. This Sunday we are celebrating Mother’s Day and my, my daughter’s and my mom’s birthdays. It will be lovely seeing M. The pool is about to open and I’m going to Florida soon with M for a week. I’m going to a Drum Circle Monday. Lots of good things to look forward to. I shouldn’t be so down. I am. I hope everybody has a peaceful day. Hugs to all.

Once I had an absolutely top-notch therapist who told me "'should' is between 'sh it' and 'syphilis' in the dictionary." So, no "shoulds."

GOOD for you, Jennifer, for taking charge and doing everything that needs to be done to maintain your physical and mental health! Please give yourself major credit for that.

Yes - too much stress. Your hair falling out signifies too much stress on your mind and body. The pool will surely be extremely beneficial, as will the drum circle.

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Originally Posted by Nammu It’s a beautiful sunny day today. The humidity went down as did the temperature it’s a balmy 78 today. Hot to work in though. I bought flowers for outside. Two hanging plants of petunias and little yellow flowers and little blue flowers. A geranium and mix planters for the ceramic planter and geraniums and marigolds for the flower bed.. still have to sweep out the garage and put the garden bench outside but I needed a break. Whoo hot in the sun. 😃

Ohhh, the flowers sound divine. We were told here that we can no longer have potted plants outside our doors. That was 2 years ago, and I had to give my beloved geraniums away. But now there are more and more people, especially newer tenants, setting out potted plants. Our manager is very absent and doesn't do anything except collect the rent and pass out receipts. So I'm considering getting a little, colorful plant to set outside my door. There's a certain geranium, it's a neon-pink, I just love that color.

Haha, so yes, my bamboo blanket finally arrived yesterday. It's a pleasant light minty green. Not quite the quality of the first bamboo blanket, but no biggie. I'm sure glad I ordered it too large, though, because wow did it shrink in the dryer.

I took Tylenol PM, made sure I got to bed by 11, and slept well. The bamboo sheets and blankets really do help with comfort/temperature. I feel alive! I can think and function. My ZzzQuil was just delivered, so I'll take that tonight, plan to go to bed by 10:45, and hopefully accomplish another good sleep.

Today is jest gorgeous, I've opened all the windows wide and the breeze blowing through is lovely.

Nammu, I'm a few episode into season 10 of Call the Midwife. I'm excitedly looking forward to watching 1 or 2 episodes tonight

Ooo the thrill of watching call the midwife for the first time! I cried so much watching that show!