Bipolar check-in #67

Turned in my infographic for school. I had to post to social media as part of my assignment. Ugh I hate making those things!

I'm housesitting for 10 days. I forgot my weighted blanket. Sure hope I sleep.At least I'm in a bed this time. In the past my nieces had loft beds and I didn't want to sleep there. This year the youngest requested a regular bed so I have that to sleep in. (I don't feel comfortable sleeping in my sister and BIL's bed.) So I'm snuggled in trying to ignore the cat. I think she misses my niece. She's been following me around for hours crying. I put her out and she cried to come in. I try to put her on the sunporch and she cries to get back in. I let her in and she follows me room to room crying. I guess I'm going to have to put her out for the night and ignore if she wants back in if she doesn't settle soon.That seems unfair when I'm pretty sure the crying is really she wants my niece who spoils her to pieces. Tomorrow I get to float in their pool. Can't wait.

Question: A few months ago several of you bought bamboo sheets. Do you like them? Are they holding up? I may have to get sheets this week and that may b what do depending on your experiences.

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow I'm housesitting for 10 days. I forgot my weighted blanket. Sure hope I sleep.At least I'm in a bed this time. In the past my nieces had loft beds and I didn't want to sleep there. This year the youngest requested a regular bed so I have that to sleep in. (I don't feel comfortable sleeping in my sister and BIL's bed.) So I'm snuggled in trying to ignore the cat. I think she misses my niece. She's been following me around for hours crying. I put her out and she cried to come in. I try to put her on the sunporch and she cries to get back in. I let her in and she follows me room to room crying. I guess I'm going to have to put her out for the night and ignore if she wants back in if she doesn't settle soon.That seems unfair when I'm pretty sure the crying is really she wants my niece who spoils her to pieces. Tomorrow I get to float in their pool. Can't wait.

Yeah, it sounds like the cat is asking where your niece is. Poor kit. Enjoy the pool!

On bamboo sheets...I own 3 sets. I purchased them from Amazon; I'm sure there are top-quality bamboo sheets available for more money than Amazon charges, but I haven't looked into that. (Although Amazon does have some sets that are a bit pricier and most likely thicker and more durable).

I find bamboo sheets to be absolutely wonderful for summer. They are lightweight and satiny. I don't think they'd be too good in cold weather...maybe with several blankets, though??

The one aspect of bamboo sheets that I don't like is that they do seem to attract lint - although 1 set I have collects lint much more than the others sets do. Who knows why. Bamboo sheets wrinkle, even though I pull them out of the dryer right away, but when they're on the bed the wrinkles come out.

I definitely recommend them. Nammu was the other person who uses bamboo.

@Jennifer 1967, I so think Beth was on the money above with what brought on your horrible respiratory illness. You've been so challenged with stress for such a long while. Sending supportive hugs. Please try to rest as well as possible and try to deliberately think more pleasant thoughts. Summer has a ways to go. Many more float days.

@Nammu, I am salivating over the ribs, and happy b-day to your grand daughter. Like Beth's daughter, I confess I was more of a tom boy in interests as a kid. I liked forts, digging holes, and spending most of the day on my bike. I could possibly say I was mimiking my brother (also very naughty and wild), who I kinda worshiped, but though I'm full female, I still enjoy some "guy things" and tend to do better in conversations with them. I also always wanted to be an adult as long as I could remember, so my "dolls" of choice were Barbies living adult lives. I was sent to the corner in school, a lot. And liked it! Strange how people differ! In any case, the mermaid emoji is pretty cute! My favorite flavors were always vanilla and orange and I adored grapes and donuts (vanilla cream filled). I did always love music and dancing, perhaps the latter of which is a bit more "girly".

@*Beth*, and @Mountaindewed, I'm also so extremely sad, and have been, about the political situation in the US. And this is likely just the beginning of attempts to limit rights there. The outcry is nowhere near where it should be, I think that still for many people they don't yet feel sufficiently personally affected in a negative way, plus many are numbed by these past years. It's sadly going to require further limitations to really get outcry to where it needs to be. I, too, am originally from a "safer" state, but the bordering state to my childhood hometown could easily go either way. The poor and other most vulnerable, as always, will be the most affected.

I bought mine from Amazon too. I love them, they had 20 or more colors to choose from and even though they are for a full sized bed you get 4 pillow cases. Mine are wonderful. They are silky soft and yet sort of felt like. They are cool but they do warm up. I’ve got a bamboo blanket on and top of that a loose knit cable blanket. Because it’s summer my topper is over the chair. I had no shrinkage when I washed them. They do have deep sides which is perfect for my mattress. The pillow cases have little ends so you can completely hide the pillow. I’ve not had an issue with lint.

I was a ToM boy too. I was expected to play dolls with my girl cousins, but I’d make furniture instead. I’m old enough that the neighborhood kids played cowboys and Indian s, I was always the Indian! We used bikes for horses. My favorite colors were black and green. I could always be found outside. Often with books, sitting up a tree reading. I was always trying to do what I saw on TV, climbing ropes up the side of a building, doing somersaults off the back of my pony, taking things apart to see how it was made.

You're up late, my friend. It's 9:15 am in CZ. Your childhood activities sound cool! How did you do somersaults off a pony? A real pony? If so, what did the confused animal think?

I liked climbing trees, too. I used to think of them as my house.

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour ... @*Beth*, and @Mountaindewed, I'm also so extremely sad, and have been, about the political situation in the US. And this is likely just the beginning of attempts to limit rights there. The outcry is nowhere near where it should be, I think that still for many people they don't yet feel sufficiently personally affected in a negative way, plus many are numbed by these past years. It's sadly going to require further limitations to really get outcry to where it needs to be. I, too, am originally from a "safer" state, but the bordering state to my childhood hometown could easily go either way. The poor and other most vulnerable, as always, will be the most affected.

Exactly. And of course, by the time almost everybody feels the pinch it's usually too late to turn back and repair the mistakes.

I don't really care for mine. It snags easily and its starting to feel weird and I haven't been sleeping better. I still just have been using a throw or a weighted blanket. But I really like my bamboo pillow cases.

Fair enough. I used to have that fear too in an extreme way but I had fat friends and family who I loved so I get that.

I didn't take anything for sleep last night; of course, sleep was not great. I have to go to Plan B because I had such a powerfully negative reaction to Caplyta. Extreme fatigue, horrible disorientation including major memory lapses, and that weird off balance sensation.

I suspect that prescribing everyone who takes Caplyta a starting and staying dose of 42mg., regardless of presenting issues/diagnosis is bound to cause problems.

It's a nice morning, the kind of summer morning when I can smell the scent of grass, trees, agricultural fields, and all the foliage that has been heated for days. It smells like green. I'm enjoying it for a few hours until yet another 103 degree day.

~**~*~Wishing everyone restful vibes*~**~*

I feel like myself today for the first time in weeks. I think I’ve turned a corner. Yay! I’m still going to listen to the words of wise women and rest today while deliberately thinking positive thoughts and with the help of NyQuil. That’s right! Many more float days and still time to buy begonias. Not worth my health.

I have a busy day tomorrow filled with responsibilities that I can’t get out of so I’ll take full advantage of today to sleep and rest up.

Thank you for the kind words and the support. I really appreciate it.

I feel a lot better today. I slept really good last night. I don't remember what time I fell asleep but it was early. I know I got up to drink a can of Coke around midnight but then I got right back to sleep until 4 something. I know my new med can make me drowsy so maybe it will help out with my sleep. But my massive anxiety from yesterday is gone even with the large coffee I had. So I wonder if the anxiety was more situational anxiety then a med reaction. But the severe pain is stil gone. My appetite is still pretty low but I have a lot of fruit and vegetables and tuna and some plant nuggets and nuts. I just ordered a package of yellow fin tuna in olive oil from Amazon last night. I mean, I wanted to lose 18 more pounds anyways. But today I just feel a lot better physically and mentally even though things still arent good in the country. I'm returning my North Face shirt with the American flag in the logo. No way am I wearing that now. I ordered 2 Aeropostale shirts with rainbow Aeropostale logos instead.

I had a best friend from kindergarten until 7th grade who is a doctor now and took a big job offer in Boise Idaho last year and I'm dying to know what her poltical beliefs are like. The guy who I think is the front runner in my state is the one I'm the most worried about. In one of his commercials he made a totally transphobic comment and I couldn't believe the **** that came out of his mouth.

Oh, yes. Off a real pony. We lived in the country out on a rural road that was about 5-6 miles long. With houses set in groups, of 4 here 6 there, except a huge cluster that was called the village. There all the children who lived up and down the road would gather and we’d have parades, circus and contests. Fortunately I had two older sisters so I’d borrow their clothes to dress up and do tricks on my ponies back, like the circus. Many of us had our own ponies but my guy was mellow and tolerant. I spent a lot of time training my pony and my dog. We won a few times. There was no real prize. It was just a rag tag bunch of kids putting our own entertainment together and whiling away the long summer days. Back then the mum’s were all connected by party lines and the mum’s in the village kept eyes on us and if someone misbehaved the word went out to their mum. Think “the Rascals “ only 60s and early 70’s instead of 30’s. It’s all a gone by era. We had fun.

My friend just cancelled on me. I messaged her saying "Are we still on for streaks today?" as she had said on Wednesday that I could come over today and we'd have steaks. She replies "Oh I'm sorry! Tim has this thing for work that he literally just told me about that we're going to". Why do people think it's okay to just blow off a commitment? And was she even going to tell me? Because I messaged HER, not the other way around! Why not just be truthful and say, "I'd rather do this than get together with you"?

Her husband might have sprung it on her at the last minute. Just assuming she was available.

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed I don't really care for mine. It snags easily and its starting to feel weird and I haven't been sleeping better. I still just have been using a throw or a weighted blanket. But I really like my bamboo pillow cases.

Is yours a bamboo blanket? I have 1 that is really good and another that within 3 days of using it I threw it out. It was a mess of snags and threads. I was really disappointed with that one.

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Originally Posted by Nammu Oh, yes. Off a real pony. We lived in the country out on a rural road that was about 5-6 miles long. With houses set in groups, of 4 here 6 there, except a huge cluster that was called the village. There all the children who lived up and down the road would gather and we’d have parades, circus and contests. Fortunately I had two older sisters so I’d borrow their clothes to dress up and do tricks on my ponies back, like the circus. Many of us had our own ponies but my guy was mellow and tolerant. I spent a lot of time training my pony and my dog. We won a few times. There was no real prize. It was just a rag tag bunch of kids putting our own entertainment together and whiling away the long summer days. Back then the mum’s were all connected by party lines and the mum’s in the village kept eyes on us and if someone misbehaved the word went out to their mum. Think “the Rascals “ only 60s and early 70’s instead of 30’s. It’s all a gone by era. We had fun.

Absolutely fantastic!

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967 I feel like myself today for the first time in weeks. I think I’ve turned a corner. Yay! I’m still going to listen to the words of wise women and rest today while deliberately thinking positive thoughts and with the help of NyQuil. That’s right! Many more float days and still time to buy begonias. Not worth my health. I have a busy day tomorrow filled with responsibilities that I can’t get out of so I’ll take full advantage of today to sleep and rest up. Thank you for the kind words and the support. I really appreciate it.

Great! I sure hope you're on the upside now

Mine is a Dangtop brand bamboo blanket. I got it on Amazon. It looks nice on my bed but I just don't really care for it. Its gray and matches my walls and floors nicely. So at least it looks nice in my room. I just don't find it very cooling either. Lately I've just needed my kinda heavy burrito blanket.

"If I have a psychotic episode at work, can I write it off as a business trip?"- heard on the TV show "Laugh In". Funny or no?

I think it’s funny.

Something feels off.
I haven't been getting enough sleep, as my previous posts can attest. Few hours here, few hours there and a massive crash after about 3 days. I've been compensating with massive amounts of caffeine (soda, coffee and so on). It's enough caffeine that I'm going to have a heck of headache once I cut down.

Activity level is a bit like my sleep, a stampede of job applications, phone calls, trips here (love you guys, but I've been on the forum quite a bit), followed by a crash. What tied it all together for me was a rejection. A metaphorical pushing me away. I hardly know the person and I don't particularly get why, but it still sent me down nonetheless. If my mood shifted that quickly over something that mattered so little, it can't be good.

I meet with my therapist tomorrow and... I've got a short phone interview before that. I really hope both go well. 🤞