Bipolar check-in #69

I was up until 8 watching the hurricane coverage on CNN. But it was mostly just 3 minutes of coverage then 5 minutes of the same commercials for lawsuits for toxic drinking water at some camp and the same gross Colace commercial about crapping out a pineapple. So I just went to bed. It was about 40 degrees in my house and we didn't have the furnace on. I slept great. I slept under 22 pounds of weighted blankets and my burrito blanket. Except for an hour or so around 2:30 I slept until 6:30. I think it was the AC causing me to have the insomnia.

Anyways these last couple days my moods and anxiety have been pretty good. I'm guessing its just because I've slept well and my sister had the baby so the months long stress with that is over with. I also started eating better. My therapist says I got sick because of my diet and my sleep. I had tilapia and a purple sweet potato last night and I just finished the tilapia now. I gained about 6 pounds in the last few weeks and I lost a bit of it overnight but it will still take another week or so to lose the rest. So I've lowered my calories but uppped my food quality.

My nephews are causing quite a ruckus though and are wearing my mom out. We had to go to their house to feed their cats and then we stopped at the store and they asked for Lucky Charms, Oreos, and ice cream bars. All of which she bought for them. And they were so loud the whole time. I'm sure the employees and other customers were happy with us. Idk. I didn't get away with acting like that in public when I was their age so I think she is just super worn out.

I think I might understand @Sunflower123's decision to take a break. She's had some big changes in her life, & now she's got a good one! Enjoy!

I'm incredibly tired right now (9:15 pm). Tomorrow is our last day in the city we've lived, these past nearly two years. I'm glad, but the work sort of just begins, in a sense, despite busting our buns for weeks to prepare. I got up around 7 am and barely stopped until now. It'll be crazy tomorrow, but I feel good about what I accomplished today. There shouldn't be any panic...as long as nothing breaks, that is. We have help from a couple friends, as well.

Tomorrow night we stay with SIL, then move to our long-term Airbnb the next afternoon. I hope she doesn't mind me heading to bed early. I often do when we stay with her, so it shouldn't seem strange.

Good luck Soupe. I hope it all goes smoothly.

I used half a tablet last night, took a bit of time to sleep but once I did I got 7 hours! Today I did errands. Had to tun mum’s old pills to the pharmacy for disposing and pick up her new prescription. Dropped books off at the library. Ran to Wally’s for the household basics, laundry soap and such,…. Didn’t realize until I was half way to the checkout that I had forgotten my wallet! Had to drive all the way home then go back.

The flowers weathered the frost beautifully and are looking gorgeous today. I bought pumpkin decorations to put up next month. Everything is going dandy. My appointment Tuesday with the pdoc went great. He upped the ambien to 10 mg and I see him in 6 months. If I need anything sooner I just email him. I’m worrying a bit less about the car loan. The payments are reasonable. I’m hoping for calm, zen like winter.

I’m sorry hun

I can’t imagine having such a rough relationship with a child. I think it makes sense that you doubt anything that she says.

Are you able to line up rides to work that would be dependable ?

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Thanks

Yes the Tampa Bay was spared from such horrible destruction.

I’m sorry someone you care for is struggling. I will keep you and them in my thoughts.

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Finally glorious sleep for you !! YAY !

Oh damn I’d hate to have to go back home and back again. Personally I hate Wally. Yes certain things I buy there because somethings are just way more at my actual grocery store.

Glad your car payment is doable that’s one less stress !

Glad your flowers survived !!!

I insist you get another night of good sleep Do you dream much when you take Ambein ?

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I’ve been watching the news all day and just seeing the hurricane destruction is heart breaking. I need to turn it off for my own self care to be honest.

Sirius hasn’t felt good for a few days. He’s perked up a bit today thank god ! but still has no interest in food. Just watching him close. I just literally don’t have the money to get him in with the vet.

Our weather is absolutely Gorgeous! Mid 70’s for the high and lows in the 40’s. This weather is the best sleeping weather ever ! I’ve actually slept good for a good stretch lately.

Yesterday I was weighed for my Pdoc/NP appt. I lost 21 lbs ! I actually was a bit surprised.

I’m kind of waiting to see if I start having trouble. September and October historically is the time of year I struggle with being destabilized. I’m hoping this combo that I’ve been on since last September keeps me upright. Here’s hoping !

Anyone have any annual plans for Fall ?

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My friend C.S. had bladder cancer last year. They did surgery and got it all. But now it's back. 50% of cases are caused by smoking according to the American Cancer Society. This is the same friend who smokes and refuses to entertain any thoughts about ever stopping. He says he loves it. I think he's just addicted. He says he doesn't care if he dies because he won't know he's dead. So yeah the cancer is back and I'm sure he smoked like a chimney as he does every single day- 2 packs per day! But can I say anything to him? No! He would make excuses and likely even get angry with me.

What a super drag @Nammu. I suppose it's happened to everyone at some point, but having to drive hom to retrieve you wallet is such a pain. Just happened to David 2 days ago and he was beside himself.

Oh Moose I’m so sorry his cancer returned some people just don’t care to quit things that are addictive and truly bad for our bodies.

Just take good care of yourself

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I am waiting for these warm 80's afternoons to drop into the 70's. I feel like an overbaked something or another. The nights are cool, but the heat of the day keeps my upstairs apartment quite warm. Is this the last place in the western hemisphere to achieve autumn? Hawaii is still warm, maybe? Eternal porn weather. Everyone running around in skimpy bikinis, crop tops, and short-shorts. Get the action goin', get the cameras rollin', More, more, more. The land of glitterati and eternal bakedness.

Not me; I may be forced to wear a short skirt and bare legs, a tank top, but by God, I AM wearing my new dark grey boots!

I have a new GP and, from his photograph, he looks to be a sweet, intelligent man. I'll meet him one week from tomorrow. I have high hopes for the first worthwhile GP I've had in literally 22 years.

So Jennifer Sunflower is on break. She just couldn't give anymore, she was exhausted. I wish her little box said "On Vacation" instead of "Account Suspended," which makes it sound like she did some terrible, naughty thing.

Thanks for the concern, kids. Your messages are so kind. I send love to all. Peace, peace.

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I finally got here at midnight. It was slow. I didn't take my medicine last night. We definitely not getting our deposit back because we had to run away from the storm. Our TV is still on the wall. I broke my back teeth so side of my tongue keeps getting cut. My apartment stuff isn't sorted out yet and I have a $700 electric bill that has to be paid.

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I'm wondering about Disney World, too. I haven't heard any mention of it. I'm not sure where it's located.

Okay, I checked. It's in Orlando, which is right in the center of Florida. I guess that's "inland" so it's safe. I don't know, I have never understood the geography of Florida.

I've always wanted to try a Vick's shower vaporizer thing. Does it really work?

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Originally Posted by ~Christina Ian hit a bit south of Amanda. Oh the destruction. It’s going to be bad on her as it’s moving into her area late today.. All the water got sucked out of Tampa bay so it will come back and that’s one of the biggest worries. The wind is brutal. As of an hour ago she still had power. I hope for a miracle that her power won’t go out. I feel like a long tailed cat in a room full of Rockers. So stressed. I saw my psych NP today first thing she asked was how’s Amanda. They went to high school together. I applied at that gas station today. I sure hope I get a call back. I desperately need a damn job ! Going to be a sleepless night as I wait for updates from Amanda. Hope everyone is doing well ! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Prayers for Amanda's well being AND for her uninterrupted electricity.

Aw, poor Sirius. Gentle scritches for him.

I am waiting to hear about the gas station job. Fingers crossed xx

I'm so glad you're having lovely weather. I don't know. Maybe it's getting older or meds. For me, I mean. Noah's going to be in NYC for his birthday next week. What a gorgeous time to be there! I told him to please bring some of that chilly autumn weather back here when he comes home.

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed ...the same gross Colace commercial about crapping out a pineapple....

I hate that damn commercial!

[QUOTE=*Beth*;7258824] I hate that damn commercial![/QUOTE

I don't have TV so I only watch it sometimes at my mom's but I've never seen that commercial and hope I never do. Sounds very off-color.

I just get endless YouTube and Peacock Ads for politicians. Annoying but probably not pineapple level.

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Originally Posted by Moose72 My friend C.S. had bladder cancer last year. They did surgery and got it all. But now it's back. 50% of cases are caused by smoking according to the American Cancer Society. This is the same friend who smokes and refuses to entertain any thoughts about ever stopping. He says he loves it. I think he's just addicted. He says he doesn't care if he dies because he won't know he's dead. So yeah the cancer is back and I'm sure he smoked like a chimney as he does every single day- 2 packs per day! But can I say anything to him? No! He would make excuses and likely even get angry with me.

My sister was a smoker (and had other addictions). She had breast cancer when she was 52. She said she really enjoyed smoking and didn't want to quit. She made it for sixteen more years before the cancer returned. She said she didn't care, she didn't want to get old anyway (she was a vocalist for a rock band & felt that getting old would end her career), she loved to smoke. I totally supported her, knowing her and her personality.

So she kept smoking, using, singing, and OD'ed herself when her cancer returned. She was 69. I miss her terribly, but I believe that people have the right to opt for ending their lives if that life is not bringing them only pain. By that I mean, literally no "quality of life" in a medical sense.

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom I finally got here at midnight. It was slow. I didn't take my medicine last night. We definitely not getting our deposit back because we had to run away from the storm. Our TV is still on the wall. I broke my back teeth so side of my tongue keeps getting cut. My apartment stuff isn't sorted out yet and I have a $700 electric bill that has to be paid.

OMG...hunny...

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Originally Posted by *Beth* I hate that damn commercial![/QUOTE I don't have TV so I only watch it sometimes at my mom's but I've never seen that commercial and hope I never do. Sounds very off-color. I just get endless YouTube and Peacock Ads for politicians. Annoying but probably not pineapple level.

UGH! It is the stupidest commercial! I mean, okay. People get constipation and it's no joke. We all know how some meds can cause major GI issues. So yeah, let people know that Colace is available. Just say it, though! Please don't make up the most annoying and rudest jingle in the world with idiotic drawings...not necessary.

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow UGH! It is the stupidest commercial! I mean, okay. People get constipation and it's no joke. We all know how some meds can cause major GI issues. So yeah, let people know that Colace is available. Just say it, though! Please don't make up the most annoying and rudest jingle in the world with idiotic drawings...not necessary.

Actually shuddering in response....

Please get sleep at your SIL's @Soupe du jour. You clearly need rest.

They kinda work but they don't evaporate very well. I find the Vicks patches you stick to your shirt to work really good and they are long lasting. Their bath beads are good too.

And then the other one about the porcupine.