Bipolar check-in #69

I am sick at the exact wrong time. It started last night and I thought it was just allergies. I woke up at midnight feeling sick. I think its just a cold but my nose is running and I'm really stuffed up and I have a dry cough and a sore throat. My nephews are here, they are with my mom in her room. I am having a slightly hard time breathing but I am just super congested. I don't have a fever. I can't afford to get anyone sick at this time.

I went from Febuarary 2020 to November 2021 without getting the flu or a cold. But then I had a bad cold in November 2021 and then a lung inflammation in Januarary. Before covid I'd get about 3-4 colds a year.

So annoyed. So worried. So sleepy for days now

Yeah really bad timing… you’ll have to stay away from the baby and anyone who will be in contact with him / her.

Hope you get well soon so you can meet your new niece / nephew when they arrive!

Well, my sister had a girl. I had a feeling she would after having the part of the Eagles song Take It Easy that goes "Its a girl!" Stuck in my head for a few weeks. I'm not totally sold on the name. Its an old fashioned family name. If it was a boy they would have named him Arthur. But yeah everyone is super happy. I have to quarantine because of this cold I have. I just took some tylenol and a cepacol half an hour ago so my throat isn't hurting and I'm not coughing but I'm still tired and a bit congested.

I do wonder if there will be any favortism going on with an almost 9 year old, and a 6 year old boy. And now a newborn girl. I mean it almost seems set up that way in my opinion. But my nephews are super excited. They wanted a sister. My brother in law just wanted the baby to be healthy. I know my sister wanted a girl though.

I wonder if the being ornery and overly sensitive the other day was because I was about to get sick. I'm wondering if its worth taking a covid test. My head is killing me and I'm so congested and tired and I'm freezing under 2 heavy blankets.

Congratulations on your new niece.

I hope you feel better soon.

At home resting for a couple of hours - soaking up as much of this glorious sunshine as I can before I head out again. Yesterday turned into close to a 24 hour work day. Not planned or preferred but highly productive. I was pleased. It makes today a bit easier.

I drove brother’s truck around to the various places I had to go and the tears finally came. It was hugely cathartic. I welcomed it.

I couldn’t shut my mind off last night and started reading posts around midnight hoping to do so. I truly appreciated the goodwill shown to me. I also appreciate the support shown to me through the seemingly endless dark period in my life. Thank you.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day. Much love

I only had 2.5 mg of ambien left and it wasn’t enough. I got maybe 2 hours of sleep. Tossing and turning so I got up at 6 and watched loony toons. But my back was throbbing and my eyes itched so much I canceled aqua fitness and went back to bed. I did get a couple more hours. I see my pdoc today so hopefully an increase in the ambien.

My sister and brother-in-law just came by to tell mum in person that my uncle died. They brought a picture of the 4 brothers and sisters that remain of mum’s siblings

Oh no. I’m so sorry. Please accept my sincere condolences. I’m glad your mom is on Zoloft at this time. Thinking of you and your mom and hoping you catch up on sleep soon.

Sorry for your loss @Nammu

I'm so sorry for your loss Nammu.

Hope you feel better Mountaindewed congrats on your new niece!

Nammu I'm very sorry for you and your family's loss, I'll keep you all in my thoughts and prayers

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I volunteered for a couple hours today. Prepped sandwiches and made bagged lunches for the shelter then served tacos and soup to people in the lunch line. Made salads for another shift to serve , and cleaned up/organized in the kitchen. I'm very proud of myself for going back again. The last time I volunteered I had a horrible panic attack and almost started crying. So I'm glad I got myself to go back again, which is usually the hardest part going back somewhere you had a bad panic attack. It's a lot of pressure because they get busy fast and there's a lot of people that need to be served quickly. But I did it. I'll go back again and do another shift in a couple weeks from now. So far I've got 8 hours of volunteer time. 6 of those hours have been in the past month. I'm trying to get up to 20 hours at least. No particular reason. I don't have to. I just want to get experience so I can get a part time job sometime

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Sorry to hear about social security, I hope your appeal is successful and I hope your MRI goes well

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I hope you enjoy a restful day! You deserve it

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Hope you feel better soon Halliebeth!

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WFC, that’s great you’ve been going to the gym. I have a hard time motivating myself sometimes but I always feel better mentally after I’ve exercised. My apartment building has treadmills which is nice. I use them to walk briskly as well for 30-45 minutes. I’m too afraid to try running on one. I’m not very coordinated, and would probably trip and fall or something or go flying off it lol

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My condolences for the loss of your uncle, @Nammu.

@Mountaindewed, congrats on being a new uncle. Is this the first time for you? Or do you have any other niece or nephew?

@Soupe du jour I have an almost 9 year old nephew and a 6 year old nephew.

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Are you doing okay today?

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Originally Posted by Nammu I only had 2.5 mg of ambien left and it wasn’t enough. I got maybe 2 hours of sleep. Tossing and turning so I got up at 6 and watched loony toons. But my back was throbbing and my eyes itched so much I canceled aqua fitness and went back to bed. I did get a couple more hours. I see my pdoc today so hopefully an increase in the ambien. My sister and brother-in-law just came by to tell mum in person that my uncle died. They brought a picture of the 4 brothers and sisters that remain of mum’s siblings

Your poor mum. I offer my deepest condolences, Nammu.

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I'm sending you wishes for...better? How are you?

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I suspect med dude will leave the clinic soon.

I dunno, the gas station sounds kinda cool...

YIKES - I just read your post about Amanda. Hasn't she been evacuated now?

I'm sending you loads of love, sweetpea.

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25 @Sunflower123 I am SO happy for you! Congratulations! You deserve it! @~Christina Thanks for asking about Cheeto! I never did find out what went on last year but he just suddenly started gaining weight again and now he is fine! He had to get dematted so he looks pretty funny right now with his hindquarters shaved! Plus he had rolled in molasses that was spilled in the basement so he’s got a random patch shaved out of his side Now my problem is my other cat Ash. She’s just a mess. Her asthma is pretty bad but I can’t afford to treat it, and she also has something going on with her back leg (the vet explained it like a blown out knee in a human or something like that), which I also can’t afford surgery on. I feel terrible but I know at this point there’s only one option and I can’t bring myself to do it I don’t want her in pain and anxiety but she seems to be sort of ok with it for now so I’m waiting until she shows me she’s ready before I make that awful call.

I found a group on Facebook called "Diabetic Cats in Need." They have sent us free insulin and can help with some other things.

I wonder if there is such an organization to help cats with asthma?

It is ridiculous to label anyone "able or not able" to "stand up to a robber."
I worked the night shift 4 nights/week for fifteen years in an old, old indie cafe that was set off by itself and had absolutely no security of any kind. I was extremely fortunate because I was never robbed. I'm fairly tall, but when I worked there I was quite thin, and certainly not imposing. Well, a co-worker, he was a great, big buster of a guy. Tall and built. He was working a night shift when the cafe was robbed. He handed over the till, no problem. But the aszhole leaped over the counter and pistol-whipped my co-worker. He was about the sweetest guy ever. He was pretty beat up and off work fro some weeks.

Many years ago I worked as an outreach counselor for an organization that helped at-risk teens. My job was to go out with a partner at night and find homeless street kids and give them care packages, also give them instructions on how to properly disinfect syringes (AIDS was a major concern at that time). Anyway, it was the guys who were often targeted with threats and violence. A lot of people are threatened by men, so go defensive on them. We women, meh, the usual - stupid cat-calls.

So ya just never know.