Bipolar check-in #69

Ohhh that show is so good.. I can’t wait for season 12. One of the few good things during winter 🥶

I have been a couple of plus one for my dad though but it is like class of 55 or so lol. Those were fun to go to I have always liked to listen to elderly people tell their stories.

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You did a really good deal with the winter coat! I am sorry to hear that you have anxiety.

Good wishes!

I feel so sorry for you because of the system.

Good wishes!

I am sure she would be proud of you!

I’m glad you are being taken care of. I agree with others, it was too much for you and you needed this break to get well from pneumonia. I do hope your emergency mental health appts are helpful as well.

I take .5mg cogentin but it’s not really helping. But I can’t take more because my vision gets blurry. It already is but I’m hoping it can be corrected with a new glasses prescription. My mom’s office can’t get me in for another month though. I might just go to America’s best.

It’s not looking good for the Queen right now. Looking like she’s about to die which is really sad. Nobody has come right out and said it but just going by what little has come out in the media in the last hour or so.

I read awhile a couple years ago that things will be a mess when the queen dies. All out of sorts and stuff. Hopefully they get it figured out without too much problems.

It's been a morning. The tire pressure sensors on my car are no longer present, so my pressure has to get low enough for me to notice a significant difference in performance for me to realize I need to add some air. Today I noticed a difference so I add air, but I almost started freaking out because I added a little too much and lost a valve cap (but I know that these things are minor because when I checked it was only about 3psi over what I need and it never rains and I don't drive in mud so I can go without a cap until it snows). Went to the store to look for some caps, but they didn't have them.

So then I go to the pharmacy to pick up a week's worth of meds. I incorrectly assume my pdoc isn't a giant dumbass and the pharmacy does their job. Nope. They said I should get blister packs to make my life easier (more like I'm required to get them because I'm "high risk" but they incorrectly think I can't handle the fact that I'm kinda f**ked up so they don't outright say that). Well, I'm not supposed to start the Invega pills until the 19th and then I'm supposed to take it for two weeks, and I'm supposed to take prazosin every night. They put the Invega in with the rest of my meds and put the prazosin in a separate PRN pack so I had to dig out the old pill boxes, open all the bubbles, and take out the invega and add all the prazosin (which I'm sure I only got two weeks worth since the daily bubble pack says 28 pills of Invega, but they don't give out that sorta information with PRNs and bubble packs).

Anyway that was my morning. I see my ACT person in-person later on and she said we can go for a walk. I only slept 2 hours last night and I hurt my back a few days ago so we'll see how the walk goes.

Sunflower- I hope you have a speedy recovery now that you're getting some intensive help with the pneumonia. I think it's great that your T doesn't think it's time for IP right now, shows she believes you're handling things and in control.

Yesterday was quite stressful at work with absolutely everything on the store's end not working properly. Registers were wonky, debit/credit card readers weren't working and it was a roll of the dice whether or not my phones and phone cards would activate properly. All that said, it was actually a decent day sales-wise.

My boss is supposed to show up today or tomorrow for a "How are you doing?" and I am sleep deprived at the moment. This will be interesting!

I woke up with a bit of a headache, but it's subsiding as the day progresses ( I did take some OTC headache medicine). No plans for today, but feeling a bit sentimental. I've sort of been taking inventory of my life these past days and I realize how isolated I am in real life, and what little social support I have. I rarely leave the house and I do not have friends nor family that live close (with the exception of the family member I live with). I'm slowly working towards autonomy again and working out the emotional aspects that are hindering me, but sometimes I see the progress, but realize how far I have yet to go. It's not discouraging, just a little frustrating. As stated once in a song I really like "I wish'd it'd been easier, instead of any longer". I'll get to where I'm going in life... but it's a journey for sure.


For the record, and I'm being a bit vulnerable in admitting it here, I have come to the forum in search of support and to compensate for the limited help I have in my real life. I do find this forum helpful in general -- despite the issues I may have had in the past, I always come back. But this last bout has been hard on me to feel I can contribute and I don't post much. There are some emotional barriers and it's hard for me to open up, but it's important that I do it. So, I'm asking for all of your support -- it's a passive request though. I'm not asking you to anything other than what you do here -- offer advice, support, love, and friendship. My part is the active one, I'll try to open up a bit more and share thoughts, ideas, feelings, and events in my life. I'm appreciative for what I have here, or better said, could have here if I were more active. Please support me in my effort to make the most of my resources and overcome my personal issues.

So, I'll start doing my part and being more active and contributing to the community and I know I'll get the same in return. I'm gonna start opening up a bit more-- first by having a profile that at least gives a bit of information about me. It's a step into getting to know me, right? Thank you all for being who you are.

@WindsThatBlow you’ve got it! All the support you need…at your pace. Thanks for opening up and sharing what you did.

@Sunflower123 how are you doing? Feeling better?

Thank you for asking Nammu. You are a very kind person. I am feeling better. Physically and emotionally. Getting totally out of that setting and away (as well) from toxic people in my life has been a tremendous help in many ways.

I hope nobody trys anything funny at her funeral with all those big world leaders there. There was a movie called London Is Falling which is what I'm thinking of. Just with the war going and stuff I'm hoping theres a lot of protection put in place.

**** do I feel like I have something seriously wrong with me. I ate half a bag of cheetos, a candy bar, and a brownie last night and I didn't gain an oz. Normally when I have a cheat day my weight is up 3 pounds from water weight. It didn't budge at all. Then theres been the sleep issues and how I haven't gotten a decent night since last Thursday at the hotel. I keep waking up at 11 and then staying up and going to the couch at 4 and sleeping until 5:30 or 6. Then theres the fatigue I have had all day. I couldn't leave my house to go to SS I was too tired. I just watched the news. Currently I'm dealing with this anxiety and stomach pain and really really bad heat intolerance. It feels like I'm going through menopause. I have my shorts on and shoes and socks off. I have my window wide open and my tower fan I never use turned on high and rotating. I can just feel the heat seep through me. I'm not in a heat wave.

My friend on facebook suggested I may have an overactive thyroid which would make sense why I don't seem to be gaining weight no matter what I eat. I know I have those nodules. Mainly I just really want to hear back about my allergy test that was done awhile ago.

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed I hope nobody trys anything funny at her funeral with all those big world leaders there. There was a movie called London Is Falling which is what I'm thinking of. Just with the war going and stuff I'm hoping theres a lot of protection put in place.

No worry, Md. The exact plans for the time when HM dies were put in place many years ago. It's all in order and there's almost no doubt that everything will be carried out beautifully and smoothly, just as her reign was. Remember that the Queen has been on the throne through many global conflicts and wars. There will surely be plenty of protection at her funeral; it will likely be subtle, but quite present.

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Originally Posted by otroo I have been a couple of plus one for my dad though but it is like class of 55 or so lol. Those were fun to go to I have always liked to listen to elderly people tell their stories. Sent from my SM-S901U using Tapatalk

That must have been a blast! I, too, love to hear the stories elderly people have to tell. Living history.

Hiya Friends !

I am incredibly sorry I just can’t seem to pop on daily and offer support , kindness and love.

I’ve fallen back into binging the TV show ER and that’s a huge sign that I’m not doing so well. The stress of my eye ulcer and the worry I had about losing my eyesight and the whole ordeal about my car dying and not having a vehicle at all since our truck is down. Steve has to pull the entire engine out and hopefully he can repair it.

I promise I’ll try to get back on track here

Much love

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Christina never feel bad about not being on here and giving support too often. You deserve as much support as we do. You are under so much stress right now. I hope things improve for you, especially with the eye ulcer. That sounds painful. I hope you can get your truck running again as well.

Much love and healing vibes being sent your way

Mum wasn’t feeling too good so I made the old standby, grilled cheese and 7up. Followed by vanilla ice cream 🍨 she says she’s still feeling poorly but is looking better. She’s getting worried about her eye appointment Monday. She doesn’t want more shots in the eye and that will be determined Monday.

Hey Dear Ones, hi - I've missed 6 therapy sessions because of being sick, then this brutal heat and I'm kinda falling apart. If I had it in me I'd drag my mattress into the kitchen so I could sleep with the a/c blasting on me and actually get some sleep. I just don't even feel strong enough to do that right now.

My bedroom is hot 24/7. One more day, then the temperature is supposed to drop down. Still hot, but at least normal for summer and cooler nights. I'm going to increase my Lamictal a bit and hopefully stabilize myself better.

Anyway. I'm going to sign myself out for one day, hopefully two days, from here and from Facebook (I'm getting too much pressure from friends to attend the reunion dinner this week-end, it's causing me to feel not okay).

I just want you to know that I'm alright, and ask for prayers and good vibes if you've a mind for it. Thank you, as always.

Love all around! Be good to yourselves and I'll see you after a bit.