Bipolar check-in #71

I'm sending you big, big hugs @Blue_Bird I/we are always here for you!

Hey there, chickita... @~Christina...I'm thrilled for you that you'll be able to spend a week with your daughter. What a dream! I'm so sorry, though, I read and re-read your post, but I can't quite figure out what's happening. I guess Steve is concerned about leaving you alone in the severe weather conditions, so while he's in Florida you'll be traveling to Amanda's? Well, whatever the case, it sounds like everyone is taking care of everyone else. That is what counts.

😂 😂 You’re really digging yourself in deep. 😂

Not sure what Neurontin does but I take a prn Haldol when I have intrusive or racing thoughts.

Let's take this to PMs.

How are you doing Hallie Beth?

Hi @~Christina. Yes, our flights were nice and we're in NJ now. As it's early in the visit it's hard to write a lot. It's a painful visit. My brother's appearance is heart-breaking and my sister was crying for some of the time during my first visit. Today she and I will spend a part of the day with our brother at the hospital, as he gets another chemo treatment.

I feel numb in many ways. Also at times prone to anger outbursts...towards my husband, who doesn't deserve it. Trying to keep it all in check.

I forgot to bring my Synthroid on the trip. Luckily my old GP in NJ submitted a three-month supply script to my old favorite pharmacy. Fortunately, this med is not expensive purchased fully out of pocket in the US.

I'm sorry I'm behind in reading posts and am delaying some responses until I have more time to do so, thoughtfully.

Did they do any scans? The “rebound” test etc? Just sending you home with possible appendicitis is no good even if they think it’s early. If it’s appendicitis it needs to come out asap. I went to school with a kid who had appendicitis and they left it too late and his appendix burst and he nearly died. Sorry not trying to scare you just hope they’re doing their jobs!

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Originally Posted by Nammu 😂 😂 You’re really digging yourself in deep. 😂

I know, I know. Lest anyone think I'm hideous, I'll explain. No, I do not disrespect the dead. The two unfortunate folks who died after the 'quake didn't die as a direct result of it. There are some people who choose to live so remotely that emergency vehicles cannot reach them. I suppose there are people who do that in every state, if the state has such "hiding places."

So, those 2 people lived in houses up in canyons above the ocean. The roads to their homes are too narrow and treacherous for ambulances to travel. Both people died of so-called "medical emergencies" - they were not hit by falling debris or landslides as a result of the earthquake (although maybe they were scared and had heart attacks, I don't know). Seems to me a helicopter could rescue people who live like that, but

I had a friend whose dad lived in a mountain home he'd built himself and the home was beautiful, but it was one of those places not able to be reached by emergency vehicles. The man had his own philosophy about his way of life (hmm...). Frankly, I was more than a little bit jumpy when we stayed there. I kept thinking What if one of us has a medical emergency, this is prettty creeepy... So, I just tried not to think about it. Last I heard, the old guy is doing fine. You can only imagine the family arguments and legal issues that result when someone chooses to live so remotely.

I'm actually kinda going through something similar with my brother in law and sister. They want to travel to the old state in a bitterly cold blizzard on Friday. I guess to get Christmas presents. I don't know. It will be way too dangerous to even go to the grocery store let alone to another state. My mom is telling them to rethink their plans and they are just like "well... we'll see." My brother in law is just so stubborn. Their lives are more important then Christmas gifts though. My mom doesn't want to be too nagging or arugmentative because my sister and brother in law get yelled at a ton by his sort of abusive folks.

Take care of yourself too.

I've been sleeping a lot better these last couple nights. And on just one 10mil melatonin. I slept through dinner last night. My mom tried waking me up 3 times. I was up for about an hour or around one or 2. But then I got back to sleep and slept past 6. Normally I'm up before 5:30.

I think my hematrcrit level may be high again for the first time since March. I'm having very specfic symptoms that are making me wondering, and my injection dose was increased. But I've been irritable for no particular reason. I've been fatigued. I've been sweating which I don't do even after a workout. And I just feel very flushed, especially in my face.

I haven't felt like this in months, but my anxiety and depression and overall moods are a lot better after going up on the dose. The irritability though is whats kinda seriously making me think the level is back up. I've been pretty calm for a long time, and yesterday was the first time I lost my patience in awhile.

So I have my blood test on the 3rd of January. So I'll see then whats up.

Working out is a lot easier in the afternoon then it is at 3AM. I blew through my 30 minute workout and did mulitple workout activities and when I workout at 3AM I normally have to really push myself just to get to 20 minutes. I'm not too flushed right now just a little bit and I was overheated but I'm cooling down. I got sliently irritated afterwards for no reason but I am fine now.

I've been taking my meds consistently at the exact same time every day. Maybe that has something to do with the low anxiety and depression. I know they say with Prestiq you have to take it at the same time everyday and I was struggling with that for awhile.

Yes the cat scan was normal except I also have a nodule in my lung and a uterine fibroid (which explains some issues I’m also having. My gp said I have the signs of appendicitis and go back to er if the symptoms get worse.

Oh, I see the problem with this storm now. We're supposed to get up to 2 inches of rain, have up to 60mph wind gusts, and have 50dF weather and then it's going to drop to 10dF that night. Yeah, I'm expecting to lose power.

I still think they’re exaggerating here. They closed schools early today for no reason. And everything is closed tomorrow but as of now, raspberry, nothing. All they’ve done is whip up people. The news reported masses of people are shopping and driving.

This morning I received a phone call from the visiting nurse. She was coming at 11. Mum had her down to come tomorrow. So I didn’t go to fitness. I stayed home in case she wanted to talk to me. She talked to mum for 2 hours and called the pharmacy to straighten out a couple meds. One that should have been ready days ago.

Then I ran to the PO to post mum’s bills that we wrote out last night. She’s still weak so I wrote all the checks and she signed them. Ran to the book store to pick up my books. And needed my soy milk as I was low, the whole town was at the grocery store! Man there were so many people stocking up.

I haven't been watching much of the news (I just got that info from the weather channel's website dealing with their gazillion ads), but no one seems to be panicking here. My case worker still plans to come out Friday (when it's supposed to be rainy and windy). Grocery stores weren't packed when I went out yesterday. Just another storm. My mom did get a text today from Eversource/Piss&ShitNH that we will likely lose power and they're going to work as hard as possible to keep up.

Yeah we got a text from the cable company saying they are prepared to go out to fix any outage immediately! so dramatic

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed I'm actually kinda going through something similar with my brother in law and sister. They want to travel to the old state in a bitterly cold blizzard on Friday. I guess to get Christmas presents. I don't know. It will be way too dangerous to even go to the grocery store let alone to another state. My mom is telling them to rethink their plans and they are just like "well... we'll see." My brother in law is just so stubborn. Their lives are more important then Christmas gifts though. My mom doesn't want to be too nagging or arugmentative because my sister and brother in law get yelled at a ton by his sort of abusive folks.

Exactly! I get it: someone wants to strike out on their own and do this wild, adventurous thing. Great! But there's the reality that what you do has a ripple effect. You want to do something that risks your life, well, you may end up hurting people who love you. Maybe it's time to grow up and be more responsible.

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour ...It's a painful visit....

I am so, so sorry.

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Originally Posted by cool09 Told Dr. my mind is racing and he told me to increase my neurontin! Don't think he understands!

Neurontin (also called Gabapentin) can definitely help with racing thoughts.

I hope the news is embellishing, as the news tends to do. I had it on for some hours and was finding myself very tense, fearing I was going to lose all my friends here, due to being buried beneath massive snow things. Piles of snow, big huge white, hard, mean ones. Then I turned the TV off because it was getting silly.

And my daughter is in NYC, so of course I worry myself crazy about her! But she refuses to communicate with the entire families, only very occasionally with David and a bit with Noah. She grew up here and I don't know how she even knows how to walk a block in snow. But, she's 37 years old so I guess she'll figure it out or ask for help.

"Once upon a time there was a princess, precious and beloved by her very, very large family, adored in everything she did. But that princess grew up and she decided that love wasn't enough. No; she wanted "some space" so she moved far, far away..."

Well. I'm going to use one of those vacuum cleaner bags I found and vacuum my apartment. I sure hope none of you lose power.

I very much think they are embellishing the storm. I do worry about the wind tho. High winds can cause all sorts of problems.

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Originally Posted by Nammu I very much think they are embellishing the storm. I do worry about the wind tho. High winds can cause all sorts of problems.

Oh, yes, it sure can. When we have high winds here trees topple. Does that happen where you live, Nammu?

Yes, trees and utility poles. Plus it causes deep windchills. It’s only supposed to be in the teens, with high winds that makes the feel like temperature below zero. It blows the snow everywhere too and causes drifts across the roads.