Bipolar Check-in #72

Sending you hugs so that you might feel better, Christina.

Do you think a med adjustment may help?

Happy 30th Birthday @Mountaindewed! I'm glad you got the cake you wanted!

I'm still feeling low, lower than usual. I leave for my vacation on Monday, I hope it's better by then.

I hope the depression passes soon Christina, sometimes that's all you can really do.

I know it's difficult to do, but try to distract yourself for a while. Do something that you like and it might give you a feeling of accomplishment. It won't take the depression away but you might get some relief for a short time while you wait for it to pass.

Angry, crying all day for no reason other than being required to get out of bed for short periods of time. I am venomous with my tongue today. It's ridiculous. I don't know what to do.

@Mountaindewed. Happy big 3-0! Glad you’re feeling much better.

I think I'm becoming manic. I'm super agitated and I just ran down the road in this stupidly cold weather and gave myself an asthma attack that I'm still recovering from. I wish I took a haldol like two hours ago but it's only another hour before I take my nighttime dose so I guess I'll just deal. I called ACT and she just said to lay with my cat which annoyed the **** out of me because he kkept licking himself and that noise just drove me nuts like the nosiee of my keyboard is bothering me nd my coughing is bothering me nd everything is bothering me I told the act person that they wanted to steal my dooor for my colored handprints and I forget what she said but there's a helicopter bringing somoene down to Boston she said. I HATE helicopters. ffs someone give me a drink.

Hope everyone is doing well -- just surfing through the days. Nothing really new. Nothing to report.

Depression sucks. I'm so tired of feeling yucky. The only time I feel good is when I'm asleep and thanks to me med change that is at least a lot of the time. My increased AD is helping some. Today I got out of the house to walk at the state park I live near. That was good. I needed the sunshine. But I'm so far from being better. I just want to sleep all the time. Part is the meds but in the late afternoon/evening it's the depression.

I'm also concerned because I seem to be adjusting to the meds. I was getting to sleep by 11 initially. Now it's midnight and I'm still awake. Last night I had to take my extra dose at 3:30. It's just frustrating.


Sorry for all the complaining. I'm too tired to be polite.

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow Depression sucks. I'm so tired of feeling yucky. The only time I feel good is when I'm asleep and thanks to me med change that is at least a lot of the time. My increased AD is helping some. Today I got out of the house to walk at the state park I live near. That was good. I needed the sunshine. But I'm so far from being better. I just want to sleep all the time. Part is the meds but in the late afternoon/evening it's the depression. I'm also concerned because I seem to be adjusting to the meds. I was getting to sleep by 11 initially. Now it's midnight and I'm still awake. Last night I had to take my extra dose at 3:30. It's just frustrating. Sorry for all the complaining. I'm too tired to be polite.

I'm so sorry you're feeling rotten, Rainbow. Complain all you want to.

Can you call your doctor and leave him a message about the resting heart rate being so high?
I am sorry you are unwell.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

What did the nurse say about the potential UTI? she should ask for a culture and sensitivity It usually takes 3 days to get the final result, what bacteria is treated with the correct antibiotic.

Hi there 1000mg is not enough of vit d3. I take 5000mg of it to stay at a range of 50-60.
how low is your low? I have not heard of anyone starting out with 1000mg.
be well
bizi

They called the doctor and are doing the three day thing. I think it takes too long though. She’s deteriorating rapidly.

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Originally Posted by Nammu They called the doctor and are doing the three day thing. I think it takes too long though. She’s deteriorating rapidly.

Your poor mum. I'm very sorry that she's deteriorating, Nammu. Thankfully, she has you to help guide her through this important part of her life.

Holy cow, rain all night. Not the heavy storming that caused my bedroom to flood, thankfully. But a steady, hard rain. They're even having some rain down in SoCal. The years-long drought is definitely over.

I agree with bizi, @Mountaindewed. My D was also low, and I was prescribed a starting dose of 2000, which is a standard starting dose for low D. That said, your doc may have a reason to advise 1000mg. Maybe you should ask him about it.

Unfortunately not. It’s a lot better for sure, but the drought we have in the west will take years of excess to bring us back to no drought. Check out this website, they update every Thursday morning. There is also an archive so you can see where we’ve been.

| U.S. Drought Monitor

I take 2000iu vitamin d daily. Perhaps the dr just wants him to start low. Maybe his level was just barely low. I’m sure the dr has reasons

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Originally Posted by Random 503 Unfortunately not. It’s a lot better for sure, but the drought we have in the west will take years of excess to bring us back to no drought. Check out this website, they update every Thursday morning. There is also an archive so you can see where we’ve been. | U.S. Drought Monitor

Hi Random, thanks for that link, it's so interesting. Climate and weather are fascinating to me. Yeah, we have a ways to go. What makes me sad is that we've lost so many lovely old trees that have died, or are dying, because of the drought. There's a redwood tree outside of my window, a magnificent tree. But there is so much brown on it, I'm not sure it could be saved even if the drought does end.

natures disasters, droughts, fires, flooding, mud slides, hurricanes, tornados, polar vortexes, blizzards, earth quakes....
heavy sigh

It is spring and Our tulip tree is blooming, how beautiful!
bizi

I had a horrible dream that I was in the hospital again and RS was furious with me. But that wasn’t the worst part. The worst part was that CR was so sad and he said I wasn’t there for him and I didn’t save him while he was sick. It really shook me, I don’t want him to ever feel like that. I don’t want to be locked away from him ever again.

Luckily it made me more determined to make safe choices so I can be there for him instead of rotting in some hospital bed.

I seem to have gotten through the worst of this episode because though the SH thoughts are there they are more in the background. I was more active today. We went to the fire and ice festival at a cute little shopping village. It was nice because these past two days have been arctic, low twenties. Today it’s still brisk but the sun is beaming and if you’re wrapped up it’s very nice. We walked around a bit with CR, he’s feeling much better today. He doesn’t generally like walking around shops but I promised him food from a food truck haha. We got a deluxe grilled cheese on Texas toast with some tater tots. Delicious.

I think the sunshine did me good. It’s supposed to be almost springlike this week again so I’ll probably take some walks after work. Hopefully I’ll continue to feel better.

I’m feeling slightly better about the situation with mum. The good aide is there today. So I know mum is being looked after. The staff can’t force her to get up but I can. I got her up and got her to eat the Boston cream pie. It took her 45 minutes but she ate it. She also had hot tea.

The nurse stopped in and talked to me so I know they are following protocol and doing what they can. Tomorrow is Monday so she can see the doctor. She was more herself between episodes of sleepiness. We watched most of When harry met Sally or whatever the name of that movie is. Plus the sun came out, that’s so nice and the temperature is back into a reasonable temperature for Minnesota.

I’ll go back at supper and bully her some more about eating something. She said she ate breakfast but breakfast was just a bowl of cream of wheat.

Still maybe it’s just the sun but I’m feeling more positive about it all.

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Originally Posted by bizi ... It is spring and Our tulip tree is blooming, how beautiful! bizi

Ooh, tulip trees are gorgeous!

My appetite is back to normal today. I think the Unisom is out of my system. I also took some cough syrup for my cough Friday night and cough syrup can cause increased hunger, and it was my birthday anyways. I got my weekly shot today at 10:30 and then I passed out from 11 to 1:15. At least I didn't have the massive nausea reaction I had last week. My sisters family took my mom out for breakfast for her birthday today and then they all came back to my house. I sent an email to my therapist this morning and she sent a nice reply back. She says she has something fun for us to do tommorow. This weekend was pretty good.