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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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Oh my goodness nammu I’m so so sorry. Please know we’re all here for you for support during this difficult time. I hope you take time for yourself to regroup when you can, I know the aftermath can be just as stressful if not more. Please be kind to yourself and lean on us if need be.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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I’ve been listening to the songs she picked out. Amazing grace, into the west, abide in me. I’m not sure it feel real yet.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety d/o haldol, prazosin, risperdal and prn klonopin and helpful cogentin |
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That is GREAT news @Scooter9 - about the time in the ocean lifting your depression. I have found water to be powerful with regard to moving stuck energy. I've also read some things about how ocean water replicates pre-natal life and the birth cycle.
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Nammu I’m so sorry your Mum passed away
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So sorry for the loss of your mom Nammu, hugs to you as you go through this difficult time
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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I think I’m just getting stuck in my head. Days are passing and I often wonder what I’ve been doing. I roam Facebook a lot and post memes. Oddly enough I can focus enough to read a book ??!?!?!
Disassociating at its finest ![]() Oatmilk creamer is just awful ! I do not recommend it. Literally had to throw a iced coffee I made down the drain. Yes this is random as hell. My internet is screwed up. It works for a little while then nothing. I haven’t been able to come here for days. The joys of rural living and only having one option and that’s crappy Hughes net satellite service. Basically it’s like dial up. Can’t stream anything. We moved here in 2004 and I was pretty sure in a few years we would get decent internet. Nope. Can’t get cell service either. Oh well we choose to live rural so we just accept this crap service. Much love ![]() Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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That really is so cool, Brentus. Your red hair is fabulous! Excellent mental health goals, I think. The only addition I can think of is something like meditation, maybe. A long time ago I took a workshop & for part of it we did a walking meditation. I don't often hear people mention walking meditation, but I found that technique very powerful. Something about the movement while following the breath and practicing mindfulness, all at the same time. Well, here, I found this: Walking Meditation | Practice | Greater Good in Action
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Ugh, there was a period of time, about 12 years, in which I was being summoned for jury duty every few months. It was ridiculous! I'd receive that postcard in the mail and Here we go again... I think it's great if someone wants to sit on a jury, but it is not for me and it's not something I will do. They would not take "no" for an answer. I gave every reason under the sun. I finally, finally called the jury duty office place thing and TOLD the woman who answered that I have mental health issues that would cause me not to be able to sit on a jury. OMG! She read me the riot act about how it is a "privilege" to be a juror, dah, dah, dah. She refused to accept my NO. They kept sending me summons for years. Then I moved from the city where I was to my current town. I've received only 1 jury summons while living here, a couple of years ago. I never answered it. I hope I'm never arrested for evading jury duty ![]()
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Nammu, I'm sorry.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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Dear Nammu, I am so, so sorry for your loss. It is common, I think, to feel as if it "isn't quite real" when a loved one passes.
Please be gentle with yourself. Please know that we are here for you, as always. ![]()
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Oh Nammu, I'm so sorry for your loss. Like others have said, we're here when/if you need us.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
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I'm so sorry for your loss Nammu.
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Thanks for the compliment -- but as you probably know, we always want what we don't have. I've always hated having red hair. I joke a lot about it, but I normally keep track to how many old ladies at the grocery store make comments about how pretty my hair is LOL. Everytime I get my hair cut I also hear "people would kill to have that color". I get it -- but I'd much rather have brown hair. In fact, I've done that very taboo things a few times in the past and dyed it. If it weren't for maintenance, I'd keep it. Walking meditation is a great idea! I love walking outside when it's warm and incorporating this would be a easy. Thanks for the link!
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I’m feeling good because I have no work today it’s Sunday. Plus I slept in til 6am. I never sleep on a work night. I needed those extra few hours. I feel human for the first time in a week.
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I hope you’re okay nammu
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Went out and bought a multivitamin today. I hope it goes well for me, it's a different brand than I've tried previously. I have an issue where after a few days I start feeling bad taking a multivitamin. I assume I'm getting too much of something, but of course I can't isolate what. We'll see how this goes -- it's worth a try again. I may need to wait a few weeks to start taking it though, because I am on a 50,000 IU weekly protocol of Vitamin D (it's one pill weekly) and my multi vitamin has 1,000 IU of Vitamin D. I don't wanna overdose on Vitamin D.
I also will take my vitamin in the evening to make sure it doesn't affect my other meds in absorption . I also bought some V8 juice (this one is Strawberry Banana) to help get in servings of fruits and veggies. It is nice because basically if it is leafy and green, I don't want it lol. This way I can at least get a bit of something to offset my aversions :P. I'm looking forward to seeing some benefits from being just a bit healthier. I'm doing all this for health, to feel better -- which I really enjoy being the motivation. It's not about weight, it's not about being "optimal" -- it's about just making changes for the better. For example, kicking my soda habit would be optimal right? Not gonna happen-- but maybe I can offset my drinking of soda some, by at least drinking water in between sodas. That's progress. ![]() So, I have medications, therapy, lifestyle changes, meditation... I think I have a solid plan to make this year the best it can be for me. For the rest of the day I may find a hobby to get into. I feel like for the first time in a long time that I'm not passively letting the day go without benefit.
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I'm so sorry for your loss @namu. We're here if you need us
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* Dx: Bipolar II (finally, after years at Bipolar NOS) * Rx: minimal dose of Lamictal My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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Well, I have not accomplished anything for a second day in a row. I want to just clean up the kitchen. I also want to try my hand at creating music. I have listened to the radio and some music is pretty simple yet still sounds good. Intimidating. Depression is not helping me here. I did get my State refund check. I am now waiting for the Fed refund check. I normally do not get a refund from my Fed taxes. So I will see it as real when I get the check in the mail. Actually I chose direct deposit.
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Dx: Bipolar I, ADD, GAD. Rx: Fluoxetine, Buproprion, Olanzapine, Lamictal, and Strattera. |
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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That's cute about the old ladies ![]() Aw, I absolutely LOVE red hair! And you're welcome for the link. I found it interesting to read. I will say, though, that I don't think meditation/mindfulness need to necessarily be done "slowly." I roller skate mindfully, use my healthy breathing, etc. and I'm not usually skating slowly.
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You are (*(*(AWESOME!)*)*) Brentus, you're really doing amazing things with your life. I hope the vitamins work out well. And thank you - you are inspiring me to do better. The V8 is such a good idea. I feel so concerned because I'm the same with leafy and green. I force myself to eat the leafy greens, but I honestly do not enjoy it. ![]()
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I absolutely love oatmeal, but oatmilk, oh, barf. I live in the downtown "historical district" of a large town and my internet is very spotty. I have days, especially windy ones like today, when my signal keeps dropping and I lose connection or it is extremely slow - like dial-up, yes. I love talking to my kids, because they're in large cities & their cell phone signals are strong and clear. Well, being able to read a book is a very good thing. Be kind to yourself, Christina. I sense that you do tend to beat the crap out of yourself ![]()
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Well, first of all, I know I already posted to you, @Nammu, but you are very much in my thoughts. I feel like I knew Mum, and I will miss her. I'm sad today.
![]() My Saturday...cold ![]() I have champagne colored velvet and pretty trim to match to make bathroom curtains. The curtain there now is made from an old hand-sewn dress I owned a zillion years ago. Patchwork. The curtain is cute, but the fabric is literally disintegrating. I'm looking forward to having a new curtain in there. Oh, my gosh...I actually own a sewing machine. But, I loaned it to my daughter some years ago. Then when she moved to NYC, of course she left the sewing machine in her & her husband's house. Then they decided to divorce. But, many of her possessions are still in the house...including my sewing machine. I am just not yet up to seeing my former SIL, so I'll be sewing by hand. Oh, well, I like that. It's calming and rewarding. Peace vibes all around ~**~*~~***~*~*~~***~*~
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