Bipolar Check-in #79

Check the white part of your eyes, check if there's some yellow there. You'll be able to see it if it's there. The doctors and nurses at urgent care check your eyes too for yellowing.

I did nothing productive today. Gotta do my laundry and grocery shopping tomorrow. Still dealing with the tardive dyskinesia. My Pdoc is going to get an earful on Wednesday!

He may be suffering with petite seizures. where they just stop what they are doing and stare. For a minute or so. It is a form of epilepsy.
Yelling at him is not helpful. He may not know it is happening.
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Did shyt again. Laid in n bed all day, except for when I had to get up to feed the cats. I feel like I'm sinking lower and lower. Googled a person I shouldn't have. Feel worse about myself and my pathetic writing career. Ended up bawling. I know. BOOHOO. Spent the day begging people to review my book. Got a pity review from some pervert who left an inappropriate comment on my Facebook page. Feel really pathetic. Want to crawl into a hole and die. I'm just some crazy on disability with a pathetic writing career. I'm a huge FAILURE.
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He did have bad epilepsy as a kid. He got on the ketogenic diet. I'll mention it to my mom but she probably won't want to hear it. Anytime I try to make a suggestion about him she shuts me down.

Well, I got up at 3 am to see the lunar eclipse. The Earth's shadow was barely visible - see the attached image. The shadow is near the bottom right.

At least it was a pleasant morning.

Thanks for sharing Scooter. I have too much light pollution to see anything like this. Your photography skills are amazing.

Why is it so hard for me to get my *** in the shower?! Must get *** in shower! Leaving for mini vacation today. Texted my therapist. She said it's good I have an appointment with Dr K coming up and we'll just get me through this next week. I'm not suicidal or anything. Just lacking in energy and depressed, so that's good at least.

Thanks, @BeyondtheRainbow!

Since I was up, I thought I'd stay up to see the moon directly opposite the rising sun. No photos, but it looked really nice - a nice orange hue.

I'm just gonna give up on my antibiotic. I've taken almost 6 full doses and I'm an anxious agitated nervous depressed mess from them. I've been symptom free from strep since like day 1.5 of the antibiotics but I really can't be feeling like this any longer. My mom says its ok based on how long I've been symptom free and how badly I'm reacting to the antibiotic.

Yeah I know you don't just stop antibiotics, Mary. But sometimes things happen.

I think day 6.5 was my breaking point with my sinus infection too when I had to stop them.

I set up an emergency appointment with my therapist for tommorow afternoon. I told her everything I was feeling including going off the antibiotic. She understood and didn't try to talk me into staying on it. I think she knew it was messing with things a lot and was the cause of things

I just threw up a bit cause I'm totally healthy. But I feel better. I also found a lot of blood on the toilet paper. Sorry for the tmi. I have a gastro appointment in May.

I’m thrilled!!!! Here’s to feeling better soon! See my post on the forum.

Glad you got your meds, @Moose72!

Thank you, @Scooter9 !

You really should let your doctors know you react badly to amoxicillin so they can put you on a different antibiotic. Like I said, I'm allergic to penicillin so I can't go on amoxicillin. They always put me on a different kind of antibiotic and I'm fine, like last month when I had atypical pneumonia.

Have them put it in your chart. Tell them you're allergic to it.

I think I have a UTI. I’m having sharp pain in my bladder and urethra when I pee. No fever. I’m going to call the doctor in the morning.

So... my mom is in the ER. I get a call from my dad saying that he found her sitting on the couch, aphasic, agitated and seemingly blind. He was only gone from the house an hour and a half. So, naturally he called an ambulance and gave me a phone call.

I rush down to find her fighting with the nurses, aphasic and sporting a fever of 102 with a pulse of anywhere from 120-135. Lowest I saw was 118.

My educated guess was infection that's now affecting her brain. The two admitting doctors taking over her care seems to be thinking the same.

I'm so sorry this is happening, @Aurelius710! I hope they can find the problem soon and that your mother recovers.

I did really good today once I stopped the antibiotic last night. All the agitation anxiety on edge stuff disapeared and my moods were fine today. I sheepishly told my therapist the crisis was over and all she said "it was for sure the antibiotic then." I'll be sure to tell my doctors I can't take amoxcillian anymore.

I'm kinda low in energy right now but I don't think its a big deal. I don't think anything is coming back. I am in bed now even tho its not even 4.

My therapist did some googling and found out my shots can make me immune compromised. Which makes sense why I get sick every month but my mom and brother are always fine. Theres nothing I can do but wash my hands.

**** I have a 9AM ENT appointment tommorow I forgot about. Which means I need to take a shower and answer dumb questions.

I just threw up a bit of bile. Not a big deal. My therapist thinks my twisted intestines are an issue and that GI is blowing me off.

My blood pressure is 137/91. I'm just lying in bed listening to Sia. Barely moving. At immediate care it was 144 and they made a bit of a fuss about it.

I just threw up a bunch of bile. Yeah this is totally normal. 2 days in a row. My chest pains are better though.

I had a couple good things happen today. I took my dog to the vet for her annual checkup and it went well! As usual, the anticipatory anxiety was worse than the actual event. I've been dreading the bill, which can be quite absurd, but it was reasonable this time. The vet was new to me, a woman, and she was in raptures over my dog, couldn't stop saying how cute she was! I'll ask for her always now.

My dog's health is better than i expected, as i was worried she is losing weight. Not only is she not losing, she GAINED some since last appointment! So i'm thrilled! She is aging gracefully.

So i came home and did some budgeting, as it all hinged on how expensive her appointment was. And that went very well too! It's about the only area of life that i am doing well in, as i have discovered a new hobby of lying in bed. I did that all day yesterday.

But since i am experiencing such good news, and i just ran out of pop, i am going to attempt to quit again. I don't know if it's wise to quit one of the very few things i like about living, but staying stocked up in it has recently become yet another problem with it. The online grocery delivery service doesn't want to carry such a big order up thru the building anymore. Well, all i can do is try. It's been two hours and i am already jonesing. Will have some water. Eee!

@raspberrytorte:

How are you doing with the Coke Zero habit?

I went to the doctor today with 20 minutes’ notice! My doctor called me about the UTI symptoms I was having. Last night I went pee and felt a sharp pain in my urethra and my bladder. Urination slightly increased. She asked if I could get there in 20 minutes- then she added “Don’t speed!” I didn’t. Got there on time. The dip stick test was negative but I got my results from the urinalysis they sent to the lab were positive for trace amounts of blood and white blood cells. We’ll see when the doctor reads the results if that’s worthy of antibiotics or not.

I hope you're ok Moose. I sent my dr a note in the portal last week because my urine was cloudy, stung and smelled like toilet bowl cleaner. After the dip they called and said "to his surprise it was negative but they'd culture it". (The toilet bowl cleaner thing gets attention apparently). It came back with an "unusual" bacteria so I've been on antibiotics. If I finish and it's not gone I'll have to have another culture. I'm really hoping it's gone. The toilet bowl cleaner smell is gone at least and that is very good. Having something come out of your body smelling like that is freaky!

Wow! Toilet bowl cleaner smell! I hope this UTI goes away for you- soon!

I’ve been drinking lots of water to hopefully flush the bacteria out.

I just threw up a bunch of thick brown stuff that looked like brownie batter. Is that bad? I havent eaten in hours and I haven't had any brownies.

How are things going today? That sounds very difficult.

If you’re not sure whether to go to the ER or urgent care, call you ur doctor’s office. Hopefully they will have an on-call doctor call you back.