![]() |
FAQ/Help |
Calendar |
Search |
#176
|
||||
|
||||
__________________
The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "What if I can't get up and stand tall, What if the diamond days are all gone, and Who will I be when the Empire falls? Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token |
#178
|
||||
|
||||
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🎁🎈🎂 Scooter!!!!
__________________
Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
#179
|
||||
|
||||
Hi. New to forums. Kinda checking things out.
I am in the midst of a major depressive episodes. Feeling my way around here.
__________________
![]() |
![]() BeyondtheRainbow, bizi, Brentus, JaneOnceMore, Nammu, raspberrytorte, Tart Cherry Jam
|
#181
|
||||
|
||||
Welcome to the forum! 😊
__________________
The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "What if I can't get up and stand tall, What if the diamond days are all gone, and Who will I be when the Empire falls? Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token |
![]() Jazzyjazzjazz
|
#182
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
__________________
"Good morning starshine.... the earth says hello"- Willy Wonka |
![]() BeyondtheRainbow, MuddyBoots, raspberrytorte
|
#184
|
||||
|
||||
I'm happy you feel better 😊.
__________________
The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "What if I can't get up and stand tall, What if the diamond days are all gone, and Who will I be when the Empire falls? Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token |
#185
|
||||
|
||||
I got some lozenges with to this effect though my mouth felt dry again once the lozenge was gone. .
__________________
Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
![]() BeyondtheRainbow, raspberrytorte, Tart Cherry Jam
|
#186
|
||||
|
||||
Been a... contentious week at work. My already complex relationship with the competition at my store just got more complicated.
Basic summary, my employer and my competitors are both outside contractors hired to sell phones. I work with prepaid devices and they work with postpaid. Think TracFone vs Verizon Wireless. My company's contract allows me to talk up the sale, but forbids me from completing the sale, at the register or otherwise. My competitors have access to the registers and computer systems to complete the sales. So... I have to rely on them, in many instances, to complete the sale. They get commission on those sales, just like I do, but selling my phones isn't their primary goal. My problem: On multiple occasions, they've taken advantage of my inability to actually cash the customer out to try and steal my already completed sales. They've also acted as vultures, ready to swoop in when I step away, even when I've completed the sale and am trying to get the customer cashed out. Multiple different reps have tried this across different days. I'm torn. On the one hand, they're shamelessly trying to take advantage of my reliance on them to complete sales, in order to undermine my business. On the other hand, it's not working. There were six attempts I witnessed in the course of the past work week, but only one succeeded. My boss is aware of what's going on, but I'm hesitant to get her involved too much, just by the nature of my professional relationship with the competitors and the dynamics. I don't want to completely torpedo my relationship with them over antics that aren't working for them. I also don't want to sit on it until it legitimately becomes an issue. So much plotting! I feel like I'm in an episode of The Tudors! ![]()
__________________
"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." -Litany Against Fear (Dune) |
![]() BeyondtheRainbow, bizi, MuddyBoots, raspberrytorte
|
#187
|
||||
|
||||
I've been on 200mg of topamax for about two months now to supposedly help my weight and hunger. It's not helping. I'd like to just go off it.
PEOPLES ON OR WHO HAVE BEEN ON TOPAMAX, WILL I GET WITHDRAWAL IF QUIT THIS COLD TURKEY? I know I should probably ask my pdoc, but he's so SLOOOOOOOW. He'd probably make me wean off it in six weeks and make no other necessary med changes at my next appointment (which is on April 3rd). I'd rather just be off it by my appointment. It's seriously doing nothing. It's just a pointless med that I'm on.
__________________
The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "What if I can't get up and stand tall, What if the diamond days are all gone, and Who will I be when the Empire falls? Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token |
![]() BeyondtheRainbow, bizi
|
#188
|
||||
|
||||
Welcome jazz
__________________
Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
![]() bizi
|
#189
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
So the higher dose is where I had the issue at. I use it for my moods too.
__________________
"Good morning starshine.... the earth says hello"- Willy Wonka |
![]() BeyondtheRainbow, raspberrytorte
|
![]() raspberrytorte
|
#190
|
||||
|
||||
Thanks, everyone, for your birthday wishes, it means a lot!
I went out with my family for a late lunch and am enjoying a little rum at home.
__________________
* Dx: Bipolar II (finally, after years at Bipolar NOS) * Rx: minimal dose of Lamictal My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
![]() bizi, MuddyBoots, raspberrytorte
|
![]() bizi, Tart Cherry Jam
|
#191
|
||||
|
||||
Happy Birthday Scooter!
__________________
Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
#192
|
||||
|
||||
I took my Geodon correctly today. I didn't take a 20 at 11AM and the 80 at 2PM. I took both at 5PM. Then I realized my hunger was under control all day for once. So I think messing with the timing of my Geodon really screwed up my appetite.
My anxiety was ok because I was wearing my glasses all day. Not being able to see gave me the creeps I guess. So my stomach was ok too since I didn't have nausea or dizziness and I could read signs and see the TV. My glasses are these big blue framed ones that look like the designer Brandon Maxwells. But blue. I wouldn't wear them out in public but in the house and doing grocery drive up pick ups they make a big difference. I hope I can find a decent looking pair in a few weeks.
__________________
"Good morning starshine.... the earth says hello"- Willy Wonka |
![]() BeyondtheRainbow, bizi, MuddyBoots, raspberrytorte
|
#193
|
||||
|
||||
My depression has gotten intense enough to do something about it. I emailed in to my doctor to ask about Caplyta. It interests me because it targets bipolar depression and is an anti-psychotic. I tolerate anti-psychotics well except for weight gain and sedation. Anti-depressants make me hypomanic.
At this point i'm just going to ask questions about Caplyta. The cost is pivotal. It's a new drug and i found it quoted at $50USD a pill, which is absurd. If it's on the provincial formulary (Canadian) i can consider it, but it will make budgeting hard. But, hey, if i'm not here, budgeting doesn't matter. Unfortunately, my doctor is out of the office for about six weeks, so i'll have to deal with his replacement. I can't cope tho. I drank a bottle of wine last Sunday night. Sunday nights are the hardest time of the week for me. It helped pass the time, but i didn't like how i got cravings for it for the few days after, as i have alcoholism in the family. I didn't like the taste or the effect that much anyways. And i was sorry to break 18 months of abstinence from alcohol (not that it's ever been an issue for me). But i'm not keeping up with my activities of daily living. And last night i was so desperate for relief i took a cab down to an old haunt of mine, a very modest evening drop-in, but it was closed. So that was $30 down the drain. I'm wasting my life, lying in bed and lying on the sofa. I've exhausted all the possibilities for entertainment here at home and i'm too sedated to go in to my afternoon drop-in. I saw the posts about Caplyta here. Sounds like people have had a wide variety of experiences on it. I've got to do something tho. |
![]() BeyondtheRainbow, MuddyBoots, raspberrytorte, Tart Cherry Jam
|
#194
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
Welcome @Jazzyjazzjazz
__________________
Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
#195
|
|||
|
|||
Quote:
__________________
Bipolar I w/psychotic features Last inpatient stay in 2018 Lybalvi 10 mg Naltrexone 75 mg Gabapentin 1500 mg+Vitamin B-complex (against extrapyramidal side effects) Long-term side effects from medications, some of them discontinued: - Hypothyroidism - Obesity BMI ~ 38 |
![]() raspberrytorte
|
![]() raspberrytorte
|
#196
|
||||
|
||||
I take 200mg of Lamictal and 3200mg of gabapentin. Do you think I still have to worry about seizures?
__________________
The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "What if I can't get up and stand tall, What if the diamond days are all gone, and Who will I be when the Empire falls? Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token |
#197
|
|||
|
|||
Oh that is right. Good point. Probably not.
__________________
Bipolar I w/psychotic features Last inpatient stay in 2018 Lybalvi 10 mg Naltrexone 75 mg Gabapentin 1500 mg+Vitamin B-complex (against extrapyramidal side effects) Long-term side effects from medications, some of them discontinued: - Hypothyroidism - Obesity BMI ~ 38 |
![]() raspberrytorte
|
![]() raspberrytorte
|
#198
|
||||
|
||||
Today is the start of my new "regimen". I decided it's time to try to get back into the swing of things. I reached out to start therapy again. I'm gonna try to eat better, and go walking/exercise more. If I'm going to make changes for the better, I might as well go all in. I'm in a better place when I feel better. I feel better, when I do these things.
Slept great last night. It's rare I sleep well, without waking up, but I did last night! I feel refreshed. I've got a busy week packed. (Busy for me, it is really just one thing tuesday and one thing wednesday haha). I'm feeling prepared for my appointments and the week. EDIT: Just heard back from the therapist. I can start individual Therapy on the 25th but start IOP today.
__________________
![]() Last edited by Brentus; Mar 04, 2024 at 08:23 AM. |
![]() Aurelius710, BeyondtheRainbow, JaneOnceMore, MuddyBoots, raspberrytorte
|
#199
|
|||
|
|||
Quote:
__________________
Bipolar I w/psychotic features Last inpatient stay in 2018 Lybalvi 10 mg Naltrexone 75 mg Gabapentin 1500 mg+Vitamin B-complex (against extrapyramidal side effects) Long-term side effects from medications, some of them discontinued: - Hypothyroidism - Obesity BMI ~ 38 |
![]() BeyondtheRainbow, Brentus, raspberrytorte
|
![]() Brentus
|
#200
|
||||
|
||||
I think its safe to go up to 75mil of Lamictal. Its been a week on 50mil and I haven't had any issue.
__________________
"Good morning starshine.... the earth says hello"- Willy Wonka |
![]() raspberrytorte
|
Closed Thread |
|
![]() |
||||
Thread | Forum | |||
Bipolar check-in #64 | Bipolar |