Bipolar Check-in #80

Thanks 😊

I am on cloud nine... I'm ABOVE cloud nine!!!

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist in about 2 hours from now. Will update when I get back. Probably not much to update other than I’m hoping he’s okay with me stopping Thorazine. Since I’m relatively stable on the abilify and trileptal.

Whoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Congratulations! What did you get accepted for?

Nausea and cramps today...ugh. Periods suck.

I have to take one of our cats to the vet today for her annual exam and shots. It is never fun putting a cat into the carrier. Might go to the library in the afternoon since I'm almost done with my library books.

Still doing well mood-wise on on the Cymbalta. No sign of mania. Slept 9 hr. last night.

Congratulations @raspberrytorte!

I have an interview tomorrow at a clothing place. They called me today. I was surprised because it’s been awhile since I put my application in. Anyway I’m hoping to get it since that’s what I have experience in. Would be better than Taco Bell for sure. It’s still retail so it’ll still suck but it will be better than fast food for my mental health.

Also my psychiatrist increased the abilify to 30mg, is decreasing and stopping the Thorazine and eventually replacing the trileptal with lamictal

Congrats raspberrytorte! That’s a big accomplishment

Once I got the thing to work properly I had no issue. I got the sample taken over a couple hours ago. I then went to pick up my new Zofran. That **** is like magic. Its 8mg every 8 hours, and it disolves under my tounge. I haven't thrown up at all today and I've had a couple sodas. My stomach has been calm all day. Idk how long Prilosec is supposed to take to work but I took it at 10PM last night and I woke up at 6:30 feeling better. Also I'm not insanely hungry either. So I hope this is all a good sign that I'm heading in the right direction.

I just got a call from my pharmacy asking how I'm doing on my new med Propalanol. Ma'me I've been on that for almost 16 years.

That's awesome! Good luck!

Sirens Call Publications

My flash fiction "Desire" for the Summer 2024 66th issue.

Damn it. When is this seroquel supposed to make me sleepy?! Random, but I love my husband so SO much. ❤️ 😍

Absolutely crazy day today. Drove into Raleigh and taught my class about "The Law of Attraction" at the government agency in the city that I work for, and then headed to my old rehab which has been totally renovated, and took in a meeting. Met with a lot of the new girls and saw some of my old friends. It prompted me to go since I just went to a funeral on Sunday for one of my friends that went to the rehab who passed away suddenly. She was so young, it was a loss that hit everyone hard, so I was compelled to go back and see everyone. Then met with my good friend for Frozen Yogurt while she professed to me how much she wanted a husband, lol. Then headed to Barnes and Nobles and met with my sponsor to discuss my 9th step amends. It was a very wonderful meeting with her, she has such positive insights. All in all, a crazy day!! I am pooped!!

I wish I still lived in Raleigh though, so much of my life has been there for so long and everyone I know is there. I know a lot of people in my town, but they are usually working or doing different things, and one of my friends just moved to another town so that was a big loss.

Mood wise, I am really good. I am elated that I have such a full life compared to the way it used to be years ago. Waiting for my boyfriend to come home so we can watch some random series from the 90s I found on Ebay that I used to watch when I was younger. I hope he likes it.

I'm so excited. 🤗 My narrator is almost done with the audio version of my book. Yippie! I can't wait to hear the whole thing. And tomorrow night our old babysitter is hanging out with our daughter, so I get to have some alooooone time with my husband (whew. Getting hot in here 🥵 ). Going to try getting five hours of sleep tonight. Don't know if that will actually happen, but it's good to have goals!

Next week we're going on a mini vacation up to Lake Superior. Next week is not a good week. Next week is period week! Ugh. Daughter and I cycle at about the same time, so we're both either going to be menstruating or hard-core PMSing. Poor husband. Lol. Men! You're lucky you don't have to deal with this bullshyt!!! I'm PISSED Husband scheduled this trip during menstrual week. There are WHITE towels in hotel rooms.

I have my interview in 2 hours. I’m so nervous and excited

You're going to rock it!

wel my husband loves his guitar. saw a new pdoc as mine is leaving and will not be taking insurance. boo hiss! ugh. i really reallly liked him. but my new one is "ok" she didnt change anything whihc is good. i go back in august.

Had to run by the bank today, and I stopped at Starbucks to get a mocha frappucino. I am doing a lot better with not going to Starbucks so frequently. Lately, I'm down to once or twice a month down from multiple times a week. I have done a lot better with overspending lately. Now most of the purchases I make are groceries that get consumed that week or the next, and groceries are expensive enough.

Neurologist started me on Lyrica (or its generic anyway) to see if that will help with the peripheral neuropathy. Cymbalta helps the neuropathy some, but I really would like the tingling to go away or at least lessen. The numbness I can live with, but the tingling & pulling sensations in my feet are the worst especially when I'm trying to fall asleep. I hope I don't gain weight on it. Weight gain is listed as a possible side effect, and I find weight gain one of the hardest side effects to deal with since I have a past with an eating disorder.

How did the interview go?

It is awesome you are in good place right now. I'm so happy for you

@Blue_Bird

Yes. How did the interview go?

They said they’ll call if they decide to do a 2nd interview

I haven't thrown up in a couple days. But last night I was throwing up a lot in my mouth and then waking up and coughing. The zofran is working though. I feel a lot better stomach wise.

I had in person therapy. It went well. I have to do a dumb at home yearly visit with my insurance company next month. I do get a $100 Walmart gift card for doing it, but I find these home visits such a pain. Theres the questions part and then a breif medical test.

I'm doing well today I'm just a bit achy and tired for some reason and I woke up once because I thought I had a bloody nose but my nose was just running. That has happened before and then I got Covid 2 days later.

So my stool test results came back. And they came back high. Abnornormal is 120. Mine is 201. I'm pretty freaked out tbh. I'm waiting to hear what the doctor says.

But I've gotten more help and answers from this doctor and hospital in 26 hours then I did in 10 months from the other one.

I had an hour before I could take my zofran. I can take one every 8 hours. And in that 7 hours I threw up several times. Once I took the zofran I felt much better.

Been feeling bugs and seeing weird stuff all week. I know it’s just stress but I didn’t tell new Pdoc bc I don’t know her yet and plus I know it’s due to stress. It’ll go away eventually.

But my it’s annoying!!