Bipolar Check-in #85

We finally got our Christmas tree down! With all the Christmas stuff put away, I vacuumed the living room, den, hallway, dining room and kitchen. That took 45 minutes, and I'm a bit overheated from vacuuming now.

@Blue_Bird - That is a wonderful sleep! Awesome on getting back to an exercise routine after being so sick

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I’m really blah today. Didn’t get much sleep and what I did get was filled with dreaming. Friendly aliens were taking over the town. It was Christmas and the town had a plethora of decorations. The aliens wanted them. There even was a metal sculpture pine tree they took. That made people mad and they rallied and end the end they all made peace. I was a mail carrier and was delivering mail again to aliens and people both.

Did my pill boxes, I forgot to pick up my pills so I’m short. It’s freaking cold out. I don’t even know if the pharmacy is open tomorrow, it being mlk day. If I don’t write things down I don’t get them done. Tuesday is the coldest day, I’ll just get by without cause I’m not going out in that! 🥶 I’ve got two days worth of sleeping pills and three days of latuda. Today the pharmacy is closed. Tomorrow I don’t know and Tuesday it’s supposed to be a feel like temperature of -32. I don’t do well in minus temperatures. I do less well in hot temperatures. I’m a delicate flower! lol

@Nammu - That is crazy cold! It's getting cold here on Tuesday too. I couldn't believe my eyes; the weather site predicts a low of 17F with snow predited; I don't think it's ever been this cold in this area in my entire lifetime! I don't like heat much better than cold, but living here, I'm much more used to the heat than the freezing cold.

Blueberry when I lived in Austin tx the temperature getting down to 32F was cause for concern. 17F!!! Where you live! That is unheard of, you don’t have the insulation for that. What’s even crazier is that southern states got snow. We don’t have any snow at this time. The climate is surely mixed up. It’s warmer in Alaska than it is here!

We only get ridiculously cold like that in the mountains--it can get down to real temp -50F feels like down to -108F I think the record was. Here I think the coldest I've experienced was -20/-40 real temp/wind chill in F, but I can count on one hand how many times it's been below zero to my knowledge this season. Above freezing too many imo...

I'll take that -20 over any 80+F day though. Heat can go f itself.

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Originally Posted by Nammu Blueberry when I lived in Austin tx the temperature getting down to 32F was cause for concern. 17F!!! Where you live! That is unheard of, you don’t have the insulation for that. What’s even crazier is that southern states got snow. We don’t have any snow at this time. The climate is surely mixed up. It’s warmer in Alaska than it is here!

I live about a 20 min. drive from Houston. Yes, we definitely don't have the insulation for it, especially as I live in a house built in the 1960s. The really ridiculous thing is yesterday morning, I went out walking in shorts and a tank top!

Hey there @Blueberrybook !! Thank you for your amazing kind words! I honestly have not been doing well - the Invega shot that was forced on me had A LOT of medicine and I am really feeling it. Can't wait for it to wear off, so I can go back to the pills and feel like a little like my old self again, because I've been struggling so much with everything.

Looking into a better diet as recommended by my friend, and getting ready to start working from home tomorrow, so I am hopeful. Just hope I am able to get out of bed!

Took my son to the skate park this morning. He had a friend from school there. He invited her over to our place but our place is too messy. We’re going to meet at the park again on Wednesday at 9:00. Just hope I remember! We’re meeting his key worker tomorrow. I don’t feel like it I find her super boring.

I had a health shake for breakfast. I’ve got a detox lemon ginger and garlic chicken soup in the slow cooker for lunch. Yummy it smells divine but it still has 2.5 more hours to go. It’s loaded with veggies.

My mom tried returning some shirts to walmart. They would only take one because the computer said it was too late for the others. I got the one they took back just one day later. So I went on the walmart app and talked with someone through chat and got it worked it out. I'm really good with communicating online. But I'm almost selective mutism in real life. My brain just freezes.

My birthday is feb 4th but I have no idea when that is. Back in 2014 and 2016-2020 I worked on my birthday. I can't eat cake besides angel food cake. Clearly I don't care. I feel like adults who make a big deal out of their birthdays never had good birthdays as kids and trying are to make up for it.

I'm tired but I keep fighting it for some reason. I could zonk out right. now if I just let mysellf.

The dose of seoquel I took last night had me feeling much better today. It made it pretty hard to sit still during the day though-if I was sitting, I was constantly fidgeting. It was really hard to sit still during Mass.

I got out for a nice, long walk today. The weather was perfect for it. I passed a woman riding a horse on the trail so that was fun to see. I also got my grocery shopping done and cooked what I'll be eating for the next few days. I have off of work tomorrow's holiday so that's nice! I might have to go in to start setting up for a lab the kids are doing this week. If I don't do it tomorrow, I'll have to stay after school to prep on Tuesday.

I had trouble waking up today. Normally I'm up at 5 and I'm working out with the news on. Today I had the news on at 5, but I couldn't wake up until about 7:05. So I have not worked out, or cleaned my room. I did finally take a shower and I picked up something from Target. I feel as good as I can I guess. I didn't take Unisom last night and I know that can increase my anxiety. My stomach is fine.

Good morning, I took a 30 min walk out in the snow this morning. It’s 14 degrees and feels like 7 but wasn’t too bad as the sun was out. I slept good. Been doing good at exercising. Getting on the treadmill later for an hour. I find my anxiety has improved a ton with being a lot more physically active and exercising. I’m debating whether to do two separate 30 min sessions on the treadmill or just 1 hour straight. I think I’m just gonna do the hour straight and listen to my audiobook while I’m on it to pass the time. Get it done in one go.

The cats are still adjusting. Papi seems happy here. Mustachio is still angry about papi being here. I know she’ll adjust to him eventually.

Hope everyone is doing well

I'm doing well so far. I did pilates, showered. Today is my birthday (turning 47, ugh!), so I went to Starbucks for my free birthday drink and also picked up a breakfast wrap. I ate and read with the SAD lam, did lamp, and drew 3 pictures (in the Creative Corner Forum). Probably will read and I think H may pick up dinner tonight as long as any wintry precipitation holds off. If not, I may ask him to make cheese quesedillas for dinner; he's really good at those, and I don't want to have to cook today!

I hope everyone has a great day!

Happy Birthday blueberry 🫐

blueberry!

H is sweet; he's going to Panera Bread to pick up lunch so I don't have to cook today. My daughter and I both love Panera but H isn't that crazy about it. H is going to make dinner this evening too, just cheese quesadillas, but they are good, we all love them, and best yet, no cooking for me today!!

I got Amazon gift cards from my parents & my middle sister. My youngest sister sent a gift that I am waiting to open until my daughter is up and she & H give me their gifts.

Happy Birthday @Blueberrybook !!!

Congrats on another lap around our most necessary heat sphere, @Blueberrybook!!!

I love that alien nathan guy!

I’m still on a rollercoaster, but at least we got a little bit of snow. I didn’t get to sleep until 4am. Got crap for not taking the PRNs that make it literally impossible to not act on the stupidest impulses again, but, hey, I didn’t try to die last night so even if I get shyt for it, I know it’s the right decision.

Here are some pretty (imo at least) pictures.

To avoid the political stuff I’m watching an off channel, Mary Tyler Moore, I feel old. The cast is all dead. I grew up with these people, they were family. Whooow it’s not the 20th century anymore! All the things that were bright and shiny aren’t anymore. And man, a felon is president! Sure didn’t see that coming! Where’s my flying car?

You’re just that age! That's what the doctor told me about my shoulders hurting since my fall six weeks ago! It's arthritis and apparently that’s normal for 52? My shoulders have felt like I've been doing pushups and lifting weights since I fell. So she said to use heat and ice and do exercises for two weeks and then we'll see about physical therapy after if that doesn't help. I think six weeks of pain deserves PT! I've been using Voltaren gel on my shoulders and Roboxin sparingly as a muscle relaxer. But I suppose first I have to get through PT for my back. That starts the day after tomorrow. I am getting an uber to all six of my PT appointments and to my allergist appointment Thursday in 45 minutes away! We're just going to talk so I'm going to make sure my ride doesn't take off too far because I don't want to be waiting for hours!

Hopefully it won't snow this weekend so Caleb and I can go to the Oasis hot tub place and out to Carraba's to eat. Twice now it's snowed on the weekend here and/or there and he's cancelled. This weekend's forecast is 30 with no snow so that's promising. We're also going to watch Gabriel Iglesias' new comedy special on Netflix. (Don't tell him but I watched it already!). Speaking of tv, Henry Danger The Movie came out 3 days ago on Paramount plus and Nickelodeon! I watched it as my friend has a Paramount plus account. It was fun to see all the characters grown up! Ella started at six or something on the show! Well of course I've seen Ella ("Piper") grown up in person- can it really have been seven months ago that we were in California?? My sister's house so far has been spared from the fires. They did evacuate last week to one of my sister’s husband’s boss' empty houses he owns in a nearby state. (I forget which one!). They're back home now.

So, I told FWB that he can't come over for a "visit" until my back is better after six weeks of therapy. Last time it hurt too much! The next day I had to wear a lidocaine patch on my lower back which I hadn't had to do for several weeks. It's just not worth the pain- either during or after.

I might take a nap now. Or if I'm not tired just lay next to the cat who is on my pillow!

I was watching Henry Danger in the hospital while waiting to go in for surgery and a season 1 episode came on and my mom said about Piper "does she always yell?" I watched that show from 2017 until it ended.

Yes that was her character. A brat basically! She’s much nicer in the movie! You should watch it. It’s fun to see everybody all grown up!