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Mar 08, 2025, 05:30 PM
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I hate how right now all day I’m thinking “wow, this ADHD med is working great!” and now I’m obsessing that I’m “too good” which is incredibly irrational considering I haven’t actually had any manic thoughts/actions, just have been able to say what I need to say and do what I need to do. But that’s “too good” for me.
I don’t really have or at least stay at a euthymic level too much, so every time I’m not clearly depressed I must be at least hypomanic, right? And if I’m hypomanic today I must be in full blown mania in a few days, right? (I know that’s not quite how it works, but that’s the fear.) I think I just need a nap right now haha. Edit: I can remind myself that if I were ACTUALLY getting manic I wouldn’t be stressing too much haha.
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#2
Mar 09, 2025, 12:53 AM
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We’re allowed to feel good sometimes. Just not TOO good all the time because then it can derail. Nothing wrong with having a good day or good moments. We’re allowed to feel good.
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#3
Mar 09, 2025, 11:14 AM
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Life being what it is, you're probably going to have 'bad' days anyway, regardless of meds, so I'd still be mentally prepared for such an outcome. Expect the worse - I mean, this is life.
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#4
Mar 09, 2025, 12:13 PM
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Yeah, I mean there are differences between “bad days and good days” and “depressive and manic episodes” though. Bad days everyone gets and generally cope okay with. Manic episodes usually land me in restraints getting a B52 in a seclusion room and can typically be prevented with meds.
I slept really well last night and am wicked tired today so I’m not concerned as much now. I just hate how I/we have to fear feeling “too good” because of all the bull it can lead to if hypomania is missed and escalates. Same thing I guess with bad days but it’s easier for me anyway to say “I feel like crap today, must monitor for the next few days” than “I feel FABULOUS today, must be cautious.”
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Mar 09, 2025, 02:02 PM
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I definitely had what you are describing when I was younger, but not as young as you are. But as you said, if you are worried, that level of insight into self means you have not spiraled out of control. You are being cautious.
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#6
Mar 10, 2025, 05:23 PM
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Yeah. Ive been in a mixed episode for many weeks now! I had no idea! And what a mess as you’ve seen!
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