Bipolar Check-In #93

All the digestion and excretion chatter is turning me off.

My first NAMI peer advocate class was tonight and it was awesome !

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Saw. my pdoc today. He chatted with me a little longer than he has in awhile. Not sure if he just had the time so decided check in on some extra stuff or he did it because I mentioned how a lot of my SI recently had been anxiety fueled instead of depression fueled and he said them being anxiety fueled tends to be a little more dangerous. So, maybe the possibility of more dangerous SI led him to chat with me a little longer. Overall, a good appointment. No med changes despite being a little low and rather anxious-but that was to be expected. He tried to give me a little pep talk which was kind of him. I go back in about a month.

Another good day at school. We had a drill to practice in case we ever have a lockdown so that was a little stressful. Even though it was just a drill, and the students knew about it ahead of time, they still got nervous. That's understandable though.

Aww shucks, it goes back up to the eighties in a couple days.

Lizzo looks great.

But idk. I have a bad feeling these weight loss drugs are going to blow up in everyones face eventially.

I did too much tonight and my stomach feels like its going to fall out of my *** and I can't feel the incisions on my stomach. Or much of my stomach. I didn't take a pain pill. Just Tylenol.

I wamt to get my haircut. A taperd side with a fringe top. But I can't.do it for a week or 2.

My mind is great but my body is.still dog ****.

Can someone please explain why my oxy and valium were free but my Lamictal is $57 and my visteril is $25. Does anyone else see a problem with this?.

I ordered 5 books tonight. 3 for my.niece and 2 for mysef

But **** me sideways am. I in paIn toniiht.

I’ve had vivid bad-dreams since I’ve been on Doxepin for sleep. Last night was the same. I’ve felt drugged all day. The dreams have been really disturbing. I’m not taking the Doxepin tonight.

Family discord continues. I felt “up tight” throughout the day. Current situation seems insurmountable.

Tried to sleep after my ultrasound but couldn’t fall asleep. Need to go shower soon but it’s so cold! Brrrr. I’ve got a jacket and 2 layers on. Perhaps I should go make green tea with honey.

I can’t sleep. I’m too hyped tonight. Just listening to some music feeling good and euphoric. Excited for this next chapter in my life

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But what if its causing problems now??

That is sweet of you to offer to put up the xray! Im sorry im such a weirdo!

Just an incredible day that I will never forget. I did some work in the morning, and had a great meeting, then got all dressed up and spent the afternoon on the church grounds deep in prayer. I went into Adoration to light some candles to pray for those I love and then took my vows to the Legion of Mary - I cried at some part of my vows, because it was a beautiful promise. They had lots of food, snacks and drinks to celebrate after our meeting.

Then I watched the newest episode of Only Murders in the Building, it premiered tonight, then spent the night watching shows and flirting with someone special. I am flying on a high now too, I think things are going really well, finally.

Looking forward to all the spooky things for Halloween and even started my Christmas shopping - just so much to be grateful for and so much to look forward to. : )