Bipolar Check-In #93

@Nammu yeah I can suggest that. I might even let them know it’s highly uncomfortable being in a room full of volatile people talking behind each others backs in the same room and making nasty comments aimed at specific people. Like why is this necessary. Make it necessary for the people who don’t follow the rules or respect other people but don’t force every single person to have to sit through that crap.

@Blue_Bird: Wow, i really hear you on both topics: public transit AND building meetings. Sometimes on public transit i can really get the "Ride From Hell." It can be traumatic like you experienced with the scary, angry man behaving erratically. When i'm feeling well i have tolerance but since my accident on June 2nd and sensitivity due to PTSD i've been taking Ubers sometimes just to escape the trauma of public transit.

It sucks that mandatory monthly meetings have come back in your building. I skip them now, even the annual general meeting, and my home is the biggest investment i will ever make -- it's not good to not be informed. But the meetings can be quite ugly, as you say. One was a real sshhiitt-show, so much arguing, non-owners stormed the meeting, threats were made, and a fight almost broke out. Yikes!

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Feeling really good. Resolved four loose-ends today and am feeling like things are smoothing out again. Made my first-ever evening visit to the lobby and it went quite well. My dog and i collected several nice compliments. I had heard the real estate market was cooling off in my city but my neighbor said her brother just sold for full-price in one day! Whew!

Yes it is scary public transit sometimes. I have PTSD too so am hyper sensitive to that stuff as well. Ubers are so nice. They’re expensive but when I do get them they’re so nice and such a relief compared to public transportation.

I might just see if I can get an exception to skip them for my own mental health. Like the meetings literally have me panicking in my seat and paranoid. Idk why they brought them back.

Glad you’re feeling good and you and your doggie got out

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I've been having severe diarrhea all afternoon. Pepto Bismol was useless and I've taken 8 keopectate and its still there. I tried nalpping for a bit. My *** is on fire.

I had a rough night last night. I just started crying and a flood of emotions came with it. I am thankful my wife knows exactly how to bring me down. But today, I have felt pretty level. I finally got all my paperwork dealt with for every doctor I see, my disability paperwork is finally at the right place, and I have a job interview next week. On top of all that, my house is finally clean. I struggle with cluttered house cluttered mind. So it feels like I can finally relax and that is helping a lot with my stress levels.

He looked like a 50 yr old man! As my mother used to say, im old but i wouldnt sleep with him!

She musta got that from one of her nutty gfs.

it’s been a horrible day - again…screw it. It’s too much to explain but I feel really really trapped. a needy family member is causing tremendous suffering for others . my wife is super stressed out. im super stressed out all the time since family member moved in. Ifind myself getting more angry at life. My therapist says use boundaries but honestly if he’s neurologically damaged how can we do anything but care for him. We think he pretends to be more forgetful than he really is so that he doesn’t have to deal with his life and responsibilities. totally avoidant. There’s no real solution at this point so im just venting I guess.

recently my brother in law od’ed on psych meds and did neurological damage. ect treatments made his memory worse. He moved in with my wife daughter & me. He just sits on couch and watches tv all day . He’s completely uninvolved in his own life -it’s unbelievably frustrating to watch - really unhealthy behavior.

I’m finished my interview. The weekend has officially begun!

Just sitting here aching - its so hard sometimes.

@LadyShadow What does your therapist say about your connection and the hurt it is causing you?

@BeyondtheRainbow - not much - I will get over it, it's just one of those nights..

Hang in there lady shadow

I woke up in a lot of pain. I had a bunch of diarrhea and my incsion is dripping brown stuff. I don't have a fever and chatgp says it looks fine

Idk if this is just the healing part of things. I'll call my doctor though in the morning.