What song best describes you and your BPD?

Life Less Frightening by Rise Against

All these songs...

Breathe Me by Sia
But Home is Nowhere by AFI
Halloween by Dave Matthews
Laid to Rest by Lamb of God
Turning Tables by Adele
Bleed American by Jimmy Eat World
Wait by Earshot
Diary of Jane by Breaking Benjamin
Breaking the Habit by Linkin Park
Map of the Problematique by Muse
Hurt by Johnny Cash
When You Find Me by Joshia Radin

hate me by blue october
second chance by shinedown
dear heart by sanctus real
broken by lifehouse
concrete girl by switchfoot

'sheep'...pink floyd....

thats what you get for pretending the dangers not real....

things are not what they seem

I love Skillet! I've never heard that song though, so I looked up the entire album it was on, and decided to download it.


It's Everyone's Fault But Mine
Straylight Run

everything has got a sense
a permanence attached to it
sucks you in and feeds you till
finally you're used to it

and now you're so dependent
now you're so defensive
now you're finding reasons
why they're all wrong

so in love with all your vices
you can't change or move on

and it comes to this, such tragic endings
you shake your fists, just stop pretending
it comes to this, such tragic endings
it's hit or miss, just stop pretending now

now everyone keeps asking you
"what exactly happened?"
you've got all these excuses but
you don't have an answer
'cause you don't know yourself
you don't know your own weaknesses
you're always innocent
because you're never honest

so wrapped up in your perspective
morality's become an opinion

it comes to this, such tragic endings
you shake your fists, just stop pretending
it comes to this, such tragic endings
it's hit or miss, just stop pretending now

you wanted to be left alone
wanted someone to say
"boy i'm always here for you"
but you can't have it both ways
no, no one knows what you've done
no one knows what you've done
no one knows what you've done
and it's just as well

the only thing that comforts me is
knowing that you'll never be happy

it comes to this, such tragic endings
you shake your fists, just stop pretending
it comes to this, such tragic endings
it's hit or miss, just stop pretending now

yeh I kinda blew my mind with the entire 'animals album'!...

way back as a borderline freelancer taking all sorts!

just recently I played it and immediately aquired what the docs call the "ear worm"...
an auditory flashback most uncomfortable...the 'sheep'...the 'pigs'....the 'dogs' were playing on a LOOP for at least eight days...

sure I had a few drinks I guess but did not intentionally want to implant it like that...

insomnia ensued...and now...well I am playing 40's jazz....things I never heard before...!

because and simply....I have no memories of it...and it's kinda nice to

Samuel Barber's adagio for strings opus 11

...ok I will check it out

...immediately put me in tears

ouch

didn't know I had so much water in my damn head..

I need more eye sockets to let it out..

ouch..

what a ?

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6 minutes later I have recoverd somewhat..

not sure what happened there..

isn't this what they used for the movie "platoon"...when the guy got shot to bits near the end? willem dafoe?

hmmm...nevermind

very nice piece of music M

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2 minutes later
and again it ....&$%#!

I hold my head...

"Put my head in a wheelchair" ...and add a c...

Now that you mention it...I remember that movie -vaguely.

The only scene I remember is- willem flailing about...gratuitously in slow-mo...

for what seemed like way too many minutes...really ruined the music for me.

It was so d@mn contrived.

Now I remember why I haven't listened to this in years! Got repulsed and turned it black.

Ok...Barber's adagio4strings is coming off my "bpd song list".

"...need more eye sockets to let it out..." lol...

...apologies for ruining your tune....

I did like it....but yes the 'contrived slo mo of that guy running while 100's of bullets were dispatched into him'.....with the music and visual panorama?

yikes....the cinema huh!

anyway it's ok...

I am tired today and thank God! I don't have a jukebox 'earworm' troubling me today.

sometimes and often I just need some good ol' silence

Sounds of Winter by Bush

Cornflake Girl by Tori Amos

You Found Me by The Fray

I've posted it somewhere before, but Lana Del Rey's ten-minute "Ride" video - especially the monologue at the beginning - is very descriptive of the BPD experience, at least for me.

"There's no use talking to people who have a home
They have no idea what it's like to seek safety in other people"
"I was always an unusual girl.
My mother told me I had a chameleon soul,
No moral compass pointing due North,
No fixed personality.
Just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean."
"I'm trying hard not to get into trouble,
But I've got a war in my mind"
"I'm tired of feeling like I'm f***ing crazy
I'm tired of driving 'til I see stars in my eyes
It's all I've got to keep myself sane, baby
So I just ride, I just ride"

And also, Plumb's "Cut", which I'm not going to post a link or lyrics to, because I think it can be really triggering, even though it's a great song.

I actually posted this song on the board a week ago. Should have thought to make a thread. This song has comforted me for many years. If you don't know it, go find it on youtube. Such a beautiful song.

Breathe Me - SIA

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Love the topic!! (bipolar disorder)
Isolation by joy division

Isolation by joy division

In fear every day, every evening,
He calls her aloud from above,
Carefully watched for a reason,
Painstaking devotion and love,
Surrendered to self preservation,
From others who care for themselves.
A blindness that touches perfection,
But hurts just like anything else.

Isolation, isolation, isolation.

Mother I tried please believe me,
I'm doing the best that I can.
I'm ashamed of the things I've been put through,
I'm ashamed of the person I am.

Isolation, isolation, isolation.

But if you could just see the beauty,
These things I could never describe,
These pleasures a wayward distraction,
This is my one lucky prize.

Isolation, isolation, isolation, isolation, isolation.

Hook me up by the Veronica's...I used to listen to this song as it explains how I feel and this was wayyy before I ever knew that there was anything wrong with me. Listen to it peeps or just reed these lyrics

I'm tired of my life, I feel so in between
I'm sick of all my friends, girls can be so mean
I feel like throwing out everything I wear
I'm starting over new, 'cos I’m not even there

Sometimes, I wanna get away some place
But I don't wanna stay too long
Sometimes, I wanna brand new day
Try to fit in where I don't belong

Hook, hook me up
I wanna feel the rain in my hair
Hook, hook me up
Where should we go? I don't even care
Anywhere is good enough
Hook me up, hook me up

I like the lights turned out, the sound of closing doors
I’m not like other girls who always feel so sure
Of everything they are, of what they're gonna be
Sometimes, I'm just a girl stuck inside of me, of me

Sometimes, I wanna disappear some place
But I don't wanna stay too long
Sometimes, I'm feeling so alone
Trying to fit in where I don't belong

Hook, hook me up
I wanna feel the rain in my hair
Hook, hook me up
Where should we go? I don't even care

Anywhere is good enough
Hook me up, hook me up
Anywhere is good enough
Hook me up

They're gonna crash and burn
I'm gonna find a way
Nothing left to say

Hook, hook me up
I wanna feel the rain in my hair
Hook, hook me up
Where should we go? I don't even care

Hook, hook me up
I wanna feel the rain in my hair
Hook, hook me up
Where should we go? I don't even care

Anywhere is good enough
Hook me up, hook me up
Hook me up

Confession (What's Inside my Head) by Red.

I feel fine, and I can smile
But I feel the anger coming
It's underneath, I don't know why
It's always overflowing
It's a constant fight, deep inside
And I want to forget this!

I confess, I'm always afraid
Always ashamed, of what's inside me
I confess, I'm always afraid
Always ashamed, of what's inside my head

I can breathe, and I still feel
But not the way I want to
I'm on the edge! I don't know how
I can escape this nightmare!

I confess, I'm always afraid
Always ashamed, of what's inside me
I confess, I'm always afraid
Always ashamed, of what's inside my head

What's inside my hea-ead.

I'm wasting away!
It's part of my instinct
I'll run away!
From everything I hate
Take this away!
Help me escape
Take this awayyyyyy

I confess
Innocence!
Innocence!
In-no-cence!

beggar in the morning by barr brothers

Steady woman won't you come on down? I need you right here on the ground I've walked the outskirts of this town Been terrorized by what I've found
I saw a standing virgin bride Where holy Dionysus died She tore the heart out from his side And laid it there, and there she cried
(Whoa's x4)
She said, "Hello, I'm a monster too." "What poisons me is what poisons you." Into these animals we grew (But) When we were young our eyes were blue
I take my medicine on my knee Twice a day but lately three Keeps the devil from my door And it makes me rich and it makes me poor
I'm a beggar in the morning, I'm a king at night, My belt is loose, But my trigger is tight
May come without warning, [ From: BARR BROTHERS - BEGGAR IN THE MORNING LYRICS ] At the speed of the light Make it shine so pretty Make it shine so bright
(Music Break)
I think I've come a long, long way To stand before you here today They're yours alone, the songs I play, To take with you or throw away
Whoa-o-o-o, Whoa-o-o-o-o-o-o, Whoa-o-o-o-o, Whoa-o-o-o, Whoa-o-o-o (Away forever or fade away)
Oh, I want an angel to wipe my tears, Know my dreams, my hopes, desires and fears We may capsize, but we won't drown Hold each other as the sun goes down
I'm a beggar in the morning, I'm a king at night, My belt is loose, and My trigger is tight
May come without warning At the speed of the light- Make it shine so pretty, Make it shine so bright.

Metallica "...And Justice For All" Lyrics
Send "...And Justice For All" Ringtone to your Cell

Songwriters: DIGGS, ROBERT F. / SMITH, CLIFFORD / , Y

Halls of justice painted green
Money talking
Power wolves beset your door
Hear them stalking
Soon you'll please their appetite
They devour
Hammer of justice crushes you
Overpower

The ultimate in vanity
Exploiting their supremacy
I can't believe the things you say
I can't believe, I can't believe the price you pay
Nothing can save you

Justice is lost
Justice is raped
Justice is gone
Pulling your strings
Justice is done
Seeking no truth
Winning is all
Find it so grim
So true
So real

Apathy their stepping stone
So unfeeling
Hidden deep animosity
So deceiving
Through your eyes their light burns
Hoping to find
Inquisition sinking you
With prying minds

The ultimate in vanity
Exploiting their supremacy
I can't believe the things you say
I can't believe, I can't believe the price you pay
Nothing can save you

Justice is lost
Justice is raped
Justice is gone
Pulling your strings
Justice is done
Seeking no truth
Winning is all
Find it so grim
So true
So real

Lady Justice has been raped
Truth assassin
Rolls of red tape seal your lips
Now you're done in
Their money tips her scales again
Make your deal
Just what is truth? I cannot tell
Cannot feel

The ultimate in vanity
Exploiting their supremacy
I can't believe the things you say
I can't believe, I can't believe the price we pay
Nothing can save us

Justice is lost
Justice is raped
Justice is gone
Pulling your strings
Justice is done
Seeking no truth
Winning is all
Find it so grim
So true
So real

Seeking no truth
Winning is all
Find it so grim
So true
So real

Metallica "Nothing Else Matters" Lyrics
Send "Nothing Else Matters" Ringtone to your Cell

Songwriters: COX, AARON MICHAEL / BATTEY, CARLOS CENTEL / PALACIOS, MARCOS ENRIQUE / BATTEY, STEVEN ANDRE / CLARK, ERNEST / OVERTONE,

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trust in who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

I never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know (yeah!)

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trust in who we are
No nothing else matters

Joy Division - She's Lost Control

Confusion in her eyes that says it all.
She's lost control.
And she's clinging to the nearest passer by,
She's lost control.
And she gave away the secrets of her past,
And said I've lost control again,
And of a voice that told her when and where to act,
She said I've lost control again.

And she turned around and took me by the hand
And said I've lost control again.
And how I'll never know just why or understand
She said I've lost control again.
And she screamed out kicking on her side
And said I've lost control again.
And seized up on the floor, I thought she'd die.
She said I've lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control.

Well I had to phone her friend to state my case,
And say she's lost control again.
And she showed up all the errors and mistakes,
And said I've lost control again.
But she expressed herself in many different ways,
Until she lost control again.
And walked upon the edge of no escape,
And laughed I've lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control.
She's lost control again.
She's lost control.

I could live a little better with the myths and the lies,
When the darkness broke in, I just broke down and cried.
I could live a little in a wider line,
When the change is gone, when the urge is gone,
To lose control. When here we come.

I wanna post two.

Bright Eyes - Sunrise, Sunset

Sunrise, sunset.
Sunrise, sunset.
Swiftly go the days.
Sunrise, sunset.
You wake up, then you undress.
It always is the same.
The sunrise and the sunsets.
You are lying while you confess, keep trying to explain.
The sunrise and the sunsets
You realize then you forget what you've been trying to retain.
But everybody knows that it is all about the things
That get stuck inside of your head,
Like the songs your roommate sings
Or a vision of her body as she stretches out on your bed.
She raised her hands in the air, asked you,
When was the last time you looked in the mirror?
Cause you've changed.
Yeah, you've changed.
Sunrises, sunsets.
You're hopeful then you regret.
The circle never breaks.
With a sunrise and a sunset there's a change of heart or address.
Is there nothing that remains?
For a sunrise or a sunset.
You're manic or you're depressed.
Will you ever feel ok?
For a sunrise or a sunset, your lover is an actress.
Did you really think she'd stay?
For a sunrise or a sunset.
You're either coming or you just left but you're always on the way.
Towards a sunrise or a sunset, a scribble or a sonnet.
They are really just the same.
To the sunrise and the sunset.
The master and his servant have exactly the same fate.
It's a sunrise and a sunset.
From a cradle to a casket.
There is no way to escape.
The sunrise and the sunset.
Hold your sadness like a puppet, keep putting on the play.
But everything you do is leading to the point
Where you just won't know what to do.
And at that moment you may laugh
But there is someone there who will be laughing louder than you.
So it's true, the trick is complete.
Become everything you said you never would be.
You're a fool! You're a fool!
Sunrise, sunset, sunrise, sunset.
Sunrise and the sunsets.
Sunrise, sunset, sunrises, sunsets.
Sunrise and the sunsets.
Sunrise, sunset.
Go home to your apartment
And put the cassette in the tape deck and let that fever play.
Sunrise, sunset.
Where are you Arienette?
Where are you Arienette?

Honestly don't think I attribute one song only as until now. i will give this some thought. I do love this thread. I did not know some of these songs before and they are great.

Okay I just read the lyrics for this in another thread here and this fits perfectly:

P!nk - Please Don't Leave Me - YouTube

I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many time I've kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
Da da da, da da

I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
But my heart is broken
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Da da da, da da

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Oh please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry
Da da da, da da

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da, da da
Please, please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)

Baby please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no

You say I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back
It's gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me
Baby, please, please don't leave me