What did you do for "yourself" today?

I didn't go to bed and hide after I told my husband that I have been si'ing recently (he knew that i had done it in the past...)

He has been watching my every move, but I haven't gone to sleep to get away from it... yet

I wish to say again how much I appreciate this thread. Even on days when I can not manage to do something for me, I still think about this thread. It helps me to remember to do something for me. So far, I have not allowed it to make me feel guilty or to beat myself up for not doing something for me, so that I can report it. YAY! That is, in itself, an accomplishment for me. Today, I took a shower and actually took some steps toward two of my goals. They weren't leaps, but even small strides in the right direction are significant.
A few days ago I was riding in a car that ran out of gas. We stopped making any progress at all. We just stopped. The driver of the car found a volunteer to help push the car off the road. While pushing, I heard the driver say to the helper, "It sure is easier once we get it rolling, isn't it? "
Since I often feel as if I have ran out of gas, this got me thinking. If I can just get me rolling in the right direction, even if I am out of gas, the progress will be easier. I might not make it to my destination that way, but at least I can get out of harms way. Maybe then, I will be able to refuel and continue on my way. Just some thoughts. Grateful for whatever I am able to do.

Actually, I am working through a DBT workbook and one of the suggestions in it is to scream into a pillow or go to a concert or somewhere that it is OK to scream and won't alarm anyone, and just scream. So, I think you are safe in your practice. Thank you for your response.

I love this metaphor MDDBPDPTSD. I think I'll try to keep it mind when I'm stuck. Thanks!

i scrapbooked for the first time in MONTHS last night. woot woot

MDD, perhaps your metaphor is already working "Get rolling". I booked keyboard lessons and called Separated Anonymous, a support group. I've been procrastinating on these for at least 6 months!

About a week ago, in a fit of panic and fear, I broke something. I knew at the time that it was not wise to break it, but I also knew the urgency of my emotions would not allow me to do nothing. This particular object was contributing, at the time, to a portion of my stress and panic. there was no "OFF" button that I could find at the time. That being the case, I tried to unplug it. I could not get it out of the wall! I swear. So, I instead got scissors and cut the damn wire. I am mechanically challenged, so after the stress subsided and I reflected on what I had done, I regretted it. Still, I did not beat myself up about it, because I knew I did the best I could in the moment. Tonight, I found the power supply thingy and pieces of wire that I cut. With being mechanically challenged, I did not know if I could restore it to working condition. But I DID IT! I am so happy that a week ago I was able to take care of my panic in that moment and even more proud that tonight I was able to repair the physical damage that I caused. YAY me.

You cut a live electrical wire with scissors? Seems to me like one of those things that one does to satisfy an urgent need that is highly unwise.

I actually ate something...first time in about 6 days. Yay for me

I had a small, but complete breakfast.
Put a tiny amount of sugar and vanilla extract in my coffee.
And didn't throw it up.

I asked and received: I got my farthest classroom moved into my building so I wouldn't be so sick by the time I walked to the room across campus. It worked great! Teaching was delightful.

had some pizza . for free

I know. that is why I felt bad about it later, but I gave myself compassion and understanding and therefore, I gave myself the room to do what I needed to do at the moment. I might not have been the wisest choice, but I was in such a high state of emotion that my cognitive abilities were challenged. I think I did well, being able to think of anything at all. I guess you had to be there. But if you were, then you would have come up with a better solution. Anyway, this was an accomplishment for me. I am not where you are in life and my choices my not line up with your choices. Thank you for your comment and concern.

I rang my pdoc because I'm having a bad day.

Stood up to someone who was abusive toward me.

Well, today I found out I have Rheumatoid Arthritis and I didn't fall apart or SI. I didn't arevert to any self destructive behaviors. I cried a little, got mad, then drew up a plan to reclaim my life and halt this d*mn disease. I also didn't do anything stupid when I told my son and he basically blew me off. So, all in all, I guess I feel pretty good

Sorry Towanda. You did a great job handling the news though.

Today I did two things for me. 1) I hung up on someone who was verbally abusing me. 2) I saw my therapist.

ummm.. I stayed alive (which was actually more for my family, if it was for me, i wouldn't be here), and I texted my t

I gave myself an hour to take nap in between chores to keep me busy and keep my OCD satisfied. I also had a glass of grape soda and didn't feel an ounce of shame/guilt about it.

Thank you Nicoleb2. I am glad you are still here.

Managed to get though the day, without any negative self talk and for that i am thankfull.

Can I say what I'm gonna do even though I ain't done it yet but am going to ... ?

Thanks for this thread

Today, I 'recovered' my three days of complete non-productiveness slightly by going to Starbucks and spending a couple of hours online recruiting more participants for my doctoral research. This is my goal-related thing

My pleasant event today was walking the dogs with my mum in the sunshine. So warm and light all of a sudden! I think when it's winter I forget that there is a summer behind us and a summer in front of us. I picked snowdrops and put them on my bedside table. It was lovely

Today was challenging. I stood up for myself and demanded respect from someone. did not get it, but at leas they know I will not be trampled upon.

Did not SI