4) You know you are Borderline when...

yes, sorry

Sounds familiar. I know how you both feel.

When you feel extremely social, happy and positive. You believe that you are normal and you can take everything.

You start to go on social networks and start posting and sending messages, just to delete everything after a while.

You get feelings of shame, regret, hate and stupidity. Especially when you can't delete something. Sometimes those feelings get very strong that you feel of numbness. …Honestly, I don't know how to explain this as the feelings and the behaviours change rapidly.

But other times, you want to talk to someone but then realise that it won't do anything only to make you feel worse.

I'm taking a risk by posting this.

Exactly. I don't have the courage.

when you can't cope with anything and everything just because your partner is gone for even just one bloody night.

when your mind is screaming and the utter turmoil and chaos drives you insane.

when you self harm or abuse substances/drugs to escape the insanity.

when you fear being abandoned so much that eventually your partner gets fed up of you going on and on about the same old thing, or requiring excessive reassurance every single day.

when you feel guilty for the above.

when you feel being alive is useless... you are nothing, you are pathetic, a shell of a shell, and you feel suicide is the only way out.

when you feel everyone would be better off without the constant and utter chaotic you.

when you blame yourself for everything because you've become accustomed to everyone else blaming you for everything.

when you care more about other people than yourself.

when you actually get so close to someone, you begin to "merge" with them.

when you begin copying others identities, their sense of style, their way of talking, their personality, everything... because you have no identity of your own.

when every second is utter torture.
for you, and those in your live.

When you came across a letter you wrote in the 3rd grade to your crush, telling him how much you hate him, threatening him, and telling him he better not talk to any other girls or there'll be hell to pay--and that he IS going to love you whether he likes it or not.

When you can't talk to anyone without feeling nervous and paranoid.

I can so relate

You build yourself up for a pdoc appt then you kid gets pneumonia so you have to cancel although your pdoc is going away for a month and you're gutted..

Ty very much short and cute!

Thanks, Tree!!!!

when you feel like you need to s**t or get off the pot, but you don't feel like you want to use up energy on deciding which one to do

Why not use a laxative so the issue explodes away?

good point

When you read yet another incorrect and stupid assumption about BPD and want to just drop everything you're doing and cry.

When you've actually screamed, "I HATE YOU!" *10 seconds later* "don't leave me!!!!!" before you knew there was actually a book titled with that exact thing about BPD.

I know this feeling all too well

When your therapist finally tells you that are officially BPD, and you think, "Well, gee! I could've told you that."

When you're having sex with your bf and you want to burst into tears because the bastard mentioned that he's considering relocating to London

TMI huh?

He's leaving me isn't he? He's leaving me for frucking London!!!!

omg.... True

Oh, I know what you mean! The first time I heard of that book I thought, "That's me! That's me! That's me!"

I get nervous if someone tries to contact me every day. I'm not used to people wanting to talk to me every day. I feel like it's a test and I need to come up with new exciting things to say every day or else they won't wanna talk to me anymore.

When you call to speak to a director about a problem you've had... how DARE she be in meetings all day! Her job is to talk to YOU!

...when you havent seen a friend of yours--who also has an MI--in a while and you're sure its because you stink, or she thinks you're too dependant on her

When you are sitting in couples therapy and get jealous that your therapist and your fiance can relate to one another and you feel like an outsider.