4) You know you are Borderline when...

anneo59 · Jun 02, 2013, 11:34 AM

boy can I relate to all this, tho bipolar is my primary. Take care, all

anneo59 · Jun 02, 2013, 11:37 AM

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Originally Posted by douglas76

I have been reading this site now for nearly 16hrs. I thought I was just dealing with depression, but after reading what other peoples symptoms are and what symptoms to look out for, I looked more into BDP. Then after reading more into BPD I realized that it can't be that as I have mood swings at the drop of the hat, with no "set" time frame, either days weeks or months, usually I have several a day.

I know I shouldn't self-diagnose, I am trying to get an appointment with a Psychiatrist, but I know that there is something wrong and I have some of the same traits/symptoms of BPD, which a very close friend suffers from, but on a more frequent turn around. Today for example, I have been fluctuating between between depressed and not depressed 5 times that I can count. Yet I haven't had a manic or high, yet I can relate to almost all of the post's in the forum.

I'm confused!?!

me too, can relate. Have been mostly bipolar for years, w a few other
DX. but never this one, but can sooooo relate. Good luck!

anneo59 · Jun 02, 2013, 11:41 AM

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Originally Posted by wadingthruemotions

I am there with you on this. I get it.

I wouldn't do it now, at 60, but sure would have in years past! I think!!!!!

anneo59 · Jun 02, 2013, 11:44 AM

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Originally Posted by BrokenNBeautiful

You still have rage reactions. when will this end? Practice, practice. And when do you need to get angry? How do you know it's not bpd rage?

big question for me, who has been bipolar for years. Plus, I don't really get into playing with peoples heads all that much unless I just have to, but sure do hate it when they do same to me

anneo59 · Jun 02, 2013, 11:47 AM

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Originally Posted by adam_k

When you tell your spouse something something honest at an inappropriate time, they get mad and then you hate that you have certain feelings and in turn hate who you are and just try to be what they want you to be.

amen!!!! for years!

Cavi · Jun 02, 2013, 01:25 PM

When your roommate is going to the store and they ask if you want anything and you say no but get mad when they come home without anything for you.

UnderTheRose · Jun 02, 2013, 11:13 PM

...you wake up in the morning, see the beams of sunshine coming through the window and think 'what a beautiful day!' then you walk out into the living room, step on something lying there, and think 'what a freaking pigsty, this house is a mess, i'm a total failure' and want to break something.

Atypical_Disaster · Jun 03, 2013, 07:04 PM

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Originally Posted by TreeintheWind

...you wake up in the morning, see the beams of sunshine coming through the window and think 'what a beautiful day!' then you walk out into the living room, step on something lying there, and think 'what a freaking pigsty, this house is a mess, i'm a total failure' and want to break something.

This has happened to me sooo many times...

anneo59 · Jun 04, 2013, 11:56 AM

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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

This has happened to me sooo many times...

same here!

greentires4me · Jun 04, 2013, 02:54 PM

when help is a foreign 4 letter word and its like people around you oblivious....

Atypical_Disaster · 03:02 PM

nevermind..

Phreak · Jun 05, 2013, 10:41 AM

When you're not sure if how you're feeling is normal and rational or if it's down to your bpd

Luvmydog · Jun 05, 2013, 11:52 AM

...you want to change your name to Dr. Bruce Banner (don't make me angry, you wouldn't like me when I'm angry).

adam_k · Jun 05, 2013, 03:04 PM

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Originally Posted by Arethusa

...you constantly need validation that your significant other really truly cares for you.

Yeah, this is totally me. I don't even know how to ask for it either, or even if she should have to deal with my insecurities.

When I want to be cared for and don't get it (enough), I close off towards her and want to not like her anymore. Maybe it is just my way of coping with my bottomless desire for validation and need to feel cared about.

yellowfrog268 · Jun 05, 2013, 03:34 PM

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Originally Posted by Lovebird

You know you're borderline when you're you're sure the traffic lights are conspiring to turn red because they know you're running late.

OMG!

I thought I was the only one with that thought.

UnderTheRose · Jun 06, 2013, 12:36 AM

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Originally Posted by Luvmydog

...you want to change your name to Dr. Bruce Banner (don't make me angry, you wouldn't like me when I'm angry).

i totally relate to that. i hate it.

shortandcute · Jun 06, 2013, 07:35 PM

...when you expect your creditors to look the other way when you blow them off--but get mad as heck if anyone does that to you!....when you think it's gross that your 49 year old (female) friend is attracted to much younger guys, but you secretly---....well, you figure it out.....when you want to act like a teenager--but still expect people to respect you for your age....when you are in public and are scared to death to acknowledge anybody, but get your feelings hurt if no one acknowledges you.....when you are shopping at WalMart or Winco or Costco and you just know everyone there is pissed off at you just for being thereor when you think the cashiers are judging you and think it's a joke that you think you deserve to shop there

Jun 07, 2013, 03:13 PM

When you desperately hold on to the most agonising, hellish emotional pain, because it does give you some twisted, guilt-ridden sense of identity.

Jun 07, 2013, 03:43 PM

When you read and keep up on the "You know you're Borderline when..." thread just to see how many of the traits are like you.

UnderTheRose · Jun 07, 2013, 03:55 PM

/me grins
^^ - what he said
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When you wonder if you really ARE interested in the things you are interested in, or if you are interested in them only because they represent who it is you want to be.

Jun 07, 2013, 04:27 PM

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Originally Posted by TreeintheWind

/me grins
^^ - what he said
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When you wonder if you really ARE interested in the things you are interested in, or if you are interested in them only because they represent who it is you want to be.

this. true. Not so much interests only but perceptions, feelings and other things too. I'm just glad I'm not attached to anyone right now. I'm really getting to know what my real interests and feelings are.

Arethusa · Jun 07, 2013, 04:31 PM

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Originally Posted by shortandcute

...when you expect your creditors to look the other way when you blow them off--but get mad as heck if anyone does that to you!....when you think it's gross that your 49 year old (female) friend is attracted to much younger guys, but you secretly---....well, you figure it out.....when you want to act like a teenager--but still expect people to respect you for your age....when you are in public and are scared to death to acknowledge anybody, but get your feelings hurt if no one acknowledges you.....when you are shopping at WalMart or Winco or Costco and you just know everyone there is pissed off at you just for being thereor when you think the cashiers are judging you and think it's a joke that you think you deserve to shop there

omg I can totally relate to every single one of these...

salsharia · Jun 09, 2013, 05:06 PM

when you start feeling happy and in control of your emotions so you read the "you know you are borderline when..." thread to remind yourself that you are not holding a get out of jail free card.