Originally Posted by Kimaya

Unholy tooth pain! No dental insurance is fun. Not that having dental insurance is much help, I mean most plans through my jobs have sucked for anything beyond x-rays and cleaning.

Waiting for a clinic to call me back and now its after 6p.... can I make it through another day D:

In good news I am feeling happy and more secure. Maybe the pain of the tooth makes other pains less front and center, heh. Naptime again.

i am a dental assistant... if u want any advice maybe i can help? xx

[Britneigh]

I have one heck of a black eye brewing. I love horse I love horses I love horses....ugh. Its super swollen and dark already

[Skitz13]

So I find myself really struggling with this new BPD diagnosis. I don't really know what to make of it.

So I ask.

With therapy, does this go away????
Is it just a behavior thing and if I change my behavior will that change things?

What can I do about this?

Help!...anybody!!!

[waggiedog]

Originally Posted by muaythailady88

Home from a morning in work. Stressed out. Put a mask on in work as I am self
Employed ... I can't work full time cos I think
If people get to know me they think am weird so I don't bother anymore anyone else feel this way???? Someone please help x

Hi hunny, oh YES YES YES, I absolutely HATE having to put on a ''happy face'' when I feel dead inside for sure. TBH these days when I'm depressed I just stay indoors under the duvet, can't face anyone. No, you're not alone darling! XXXXXXXXXXXX HUGS and LOVES, as ever.

[waggiedog]

Originally Posted by Britneigh

I have one heck of a black eye brewing. I love horse I love horses I love horses....ugh. Its super swollen and dark already

Hello darling, yes, as you know ~ I too love horses, always have. I bought my own pony when I was 15 years old!!! She was a 14hh piebald welsh section D cob, a right little mare!! Very bad tempered, ha ha, like me!! Oh dear, where did the black eye come from? HUGS and LOVES, as ever. XXXXXXXXXXX

[waggiedog]

:dancingchili:

Hello dear Plzsti. Oh dear, I'm so sorry for you, that this frightening diagnosis has been given to you. You sound young hun, I'm an ''old hand'' now having had BPD and all of it's terrible symptoms over the years. Don't panic and get frightened, there really is light at the end of the tunnel these days, unlike when I first started displaying symptoms. Meds can really help a lot, I'm happy with the meds I take. I also see a therapist on a one to one basis, then I do group therapy once a week to do a S.T.E.P.P.S. programme. This is a DBT type group therapy designed by an American lady called Marsha Linenam. So YES, therapy does help to change the way you react to situations because us BPD's tend to over~react and fly of the handle over tiny incidents etc. I find meds and therapy go well together. Although I've suffered BPD for 33 years, I was only diagnosed under four years ago. Have a good look around PC because there's a lot of info about BPD, try and make friends then you'll be able to chat, especially if they have BPD too. HUGS and LOVES, as ever. XXXXXXXXXXXX

Originally Posted by Plzsti

So I find myself really struggling with this new BPD diagnosis. I don't really know what to make of it.

So I ask.

With therapy, does this go away????
Is it just a behavior thing and if I change my behavior will that change things?

What can I do about this?

Help!...anybody!!!

There is no cure for this. You can try and learn skills to help you cope or handle your behaviour. What works for some might not work for others. Everyone is different.

[Espresso]

Originally Posted by Plzsti

So I find myself really struggling with this new BPD diagnosis. I don't really know what to make of it.

So I ask.

With therapy, does this go away????
Is it just a behavior thing and if I change my behavior will that change things?

What can I do about this?

Help!...anybody!!!

I've heard that DBT is the most promising therapy for BPD and that some people who do DBT will eventually no longer fit the diagnostic criteria for BPD. So it's theoretically possible for it to "go away".

[Britneigh]

Last night I drank a lot. Then I completely fell to pieces. I just started like full out ugly crying (you know gross nose, a bit drooly, hard core ugly cry) and my boss just hugged me. She has been through hell. I just remember siting wrapped around her like a child but I felt so safe. She just held me and talked to me till I felt strong enough again. It was the first time we've even touched and I've worked for her for a year but I just needed it. I've felt vulnerable all day today just because I don't like falling apart like that.

But I was brutally honest with her about things. I lied about how I got my black eye, I blamed it on my horse when in reality I hit myself in the face with a hammer. But I told her. I told her a lot. It's scary.

Going to be alone in the house tonight. Trying to distract myself, hopefully it'll be an okay day.

[detachedangst]

I have had such a good day. I don't know who this person is that is so productive and doesn't need to fake being normal. I feel disassociated from myself. Anything is better then how I felt the last four days.

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[Skitz13]

It's not been that great of a day. Went for acupuncture came home and went to bed, got up had dinner, taking my meds and going back to bed.

Having a hard time coping with this diagnosis

[Espresso]

I was having a good day. And then I had to interact with the human race. Incompetent people make me incredibly angry.

I feel like I'm not here anymore.

[JadeAmethyst]

Either getting better, or worse....another "friend" dowm...maybe for the best though.

Getting worse definitely ....

[waggiedog]

Originally Posted by nevergoodenough

Going to be alone in the house tonight. Trying to distract myself, hopefully it'll be an okay day.

Hi there hunny. I hope you did OK being in the house alone, was that the first time? Yeah, can be a bit scary, though needent be really. Do you have a doggie? That helps some. HUGS and LOVES. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[waggiedog]

Originally Posted by Britneigh

Last night I drank a lot. Then I completely fell to pieces. I just started like full out ugly crying (you know gross nose, a bit drooly, hard core ugly cry) and my boss just hugged me. She has been through hell. I just remember siting wrapped around her like a child but I felt so safe. She just held me and talked to me till I felt strong enough again. It was the first time we've even touched and I've worked for her for a year but I just needed it. I've felt vulnerable all day today just because I don't like falling apart like that.

But I was brutally honest with her about things. I lied about how I got my black eye, I blamed it on my horse when in reality I hit myself in the face with a hammer. But I told her. I told her a lot. It's scary.

Oh Darling, I', soooooooooooooooo sorry to hear that you were feeling so bad you hit yourself, I hadn't realised that. It doesn't shock me as I've done things like this soooo many times but I do self harm where others can't see, except for a lot of scars from years ago. You are in a bad place at the moment, poor love, but you WILL come out of the other side hunny. I know you're hurting and suffering, I've been there too many times. just try and relax, I know it's not easy darling. I send you lots of big warm HUGS and even more LOVES, as ever. I'll be back to you later babe. XXXXXXXXX

[Britneigh]

Originally Posted by waggiedog

Oh Darling, I', soooooooooooooooo sorry to hear that you were feeling so bad you hit yourself, I hadn't realised that. It doesn't shock me as I've done things like this soooo many times but I do self harm where others can't see, except for a lot of scars from years ago. You are in a bad place at the moment, poor love, but you WILL come out of the other side hunny. I know you're hurting and suffering, I've been there too many times. just try and relax, I know it's not easy darling. I send you lots of big warm HUGS and even more LOVES, as ever. I'll be back to you later babe. XXXXXXXXX

I am hurting so badly right now but I'm trying not to let it show. I don't want to be fired for being unstable. My boss swears I'm not at risk of losing my job but I don't believe her. I usually cut but I didn't have my pocket knife on me. So using a hammer to my face seemed like a good idea and it is something I could lie about. The pain was more real than anything I've ever felt. I don't know how to explain it without seeming crazy but if I could get away with always having a black eye I would never cut again. My boss has since taken it for now just to be safe. I felt so safe and calm when she hugged me. I don't remember the last time I was hugged. All I want to do is cry. I'm so tired of this all. My eye is still swollen and it's getting darker.

I feel like I'm going down to a point where I can't come out if...at least not alive.

[detachedangst]

Doctors told my husband the end is near for his grandmother. I don't know how I am going to be strong for him. Living is almost unbearable already. Just tell myself I can do this and fake it !!???

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[waiting4]

Originally Posted by detachedangst

Doctors told my husband the end is near for his grandmother. I don't know how I am going to be strong for him. Living is almost unbearable already. Just tell myself I can do this and fake it !!???

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Unfortunately, yeah, sometimes that's what I have to do. Fake it till you make it because the alternative is too awful to consider.

Just remember, we're always here if you need us.

[Espresso]

I made it through the day without wanting to punch anyone. Progress?

Originally Posted by waggiedog

Hi there hunny. I hope you did OK being in the house alone, was that the first time? Yeah, can be a bit scary, though needent be really. Do you have a doggie? That helps some. HUGS and LOVES. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

No, I'm usually alone in the house at least one day/night a week, but it never gets any easier. I have two dogs. I'm just not good being without another person... Anxiety was pretty bad, also considering that the past two weeks have been worse, but I got through it.

[Skitz13]

Getting more use to the diagnosis, maybe not comfortable though, not yet anyway. I find myself questioning my behavior, always analyzing everything I say and do.

I'm trying to lay low right now. I feel more comfortable just being alone for now.

I've just been chillin at home, doin my thing, staying calm. Today I plan on getting out for a long walk and then retreat back to my safe haven.

Angry :'(