[sinking]

im going to be inpatient in a clinic specisalized in BPD.
im going there in a few days and will stay for a bout a month.
im totally scared. terrified.
anyone done that? having soothing words to calm me down? please?

[MobiusPsyche]

I did inpatient but it was decades ago. I hope you have a good experience. Try not to close yourself off, you'll get more from the experience if you're open to possibilities. I think it's great that you can get that kind of support and are willing to accept it. The first two days will feel awful and you'll want to bolt; don't. Stay until the initial panic has worn off, at least, and then try to get everything you can out of the experience. At the same time, let staff know if you feel overwhelmed because they can try to help you stop things from escalating. Good luck!

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[dancinglady]

Originally Posted by sinking

im going to be inpatient in a clinic specisalized in BPD.
im going there in a few days and will stay for a bout a month.
im totally scared. terrified.
anyone done that? having soothing words to calm me down? please?

You will be ok. The fact that they specialize in BPD is great. You will get the right help instead of just babysitting. I will tell you it will be hard because they know all the tricks we play so be ready for them to help you even if it is not what you want it will be what you
NEED. They will also be very able to help with all of your intense emotions. Let them comfort and reparent you. At first I would guess it will be a lot of holding not specially physically but emotionally. It will be okay really it will. Try to relax and do some fun things for the next few days like eat ice cream go to a nice restaurant and have a nice meal. I would assume like all clinics the food will not be up to any restaurant standard.

[Chuva]

I went inpatient 3 years ago for a total of 3 weeks, but it was a regular psych ward in a hospital, and they thought it was just a depressive phase of bipolar disorder at the moment (...) (I don't have bipolar, but it was my diagnosis for 10 years).

What I can tell you is that one of my best friends went inpatient in a clinic specialized on BPD for 5 months - in the beginning she just wanted to cry and get out of there, she told me it was horrible, but now she speaks very highly of it and says it saved her life, which I believe is true, knowing her issues and seeing how she is now.

I've been inpatient in regular psych wards several times now, so it's not exactly the same experience but I can relate somewhat. It is a scary thought, but if it helps you down the road to recovery then well worth the fear. I think the fact it is specialised will be such a good thing for you as they will understand the diagnosis and know better how to treat it than a regular ward. Plus all the patients will be there with the same issues unlike a complete mixture which has always been my experience. Going to BPD place was actually an option for me recently, it would have been for 6-24 months dependent on how it helped I guess. I turned it down though, mainly because I've never fully agreed with this diagnosis. One of my friends is going soon though, I'm hopeful it will help change her life. She really struggles to be home and keep herself safe.

[YMIHere]

Sinking, I'm glad you got the answers here that you did. I hope they did a little something to give you peace. I started looking at where everyone was from and all the people who have these long stays in specialized places are apparently overseas. Here, in order to do that you're talking about THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS, which I do not have. I'm jealous.

Originally Posted by dancinglady

I will tell you it will be hard because they know all the tricks we play so be ready for them to help you even if it is not what you want it will be what you NEED. They will also be very able to help with all of your intense emotions. Let them comfort and reparent you.

What is so frustrating is that sometimes I feel like I don't even know when I'm playing these tricks. SOMETIMES I do, but even then it's a matter of getting my point across in a way that I cannot seem to do with words.

About the reparent thing - I sort of feel like this is what my therapist does. I feel like he's telling me the things I should have been told, but wasn't. And for all of his comforting words, I really don't believe him anymore than I believe anyone else except for the beeotch in my head who not so surprisingly sounds like me.

I won't even tell you two the things I've thought of doing in the hopes that it would get me at least a month of time out.....

[MobiusPsyche]

Originally Posted by YMIHere

I won't even tell you two the things I've thought of doing in the hopes that it would get me at least a month of time out.....

A) Outside the US, they also have limited access to such services. After they've tried literally everything else, that is when you might be given such things. It's not all unicorns and rainbows anywhere, really.

B) Please don't do any of those things. It likely wouldn't result in an inpatient stay of more than 3 to 7 days, anyway. Years ago it would have, but they are basically just doing crisis stabilization even for people with very good insurance nowadays.

[YMIHere]

Yeah. I know. I'm in FL. Here we have something called the "Baker Act" which means anyone can say they think you're a hazard to yourself can petition for an involuntary mental health hold (72 hours or not more than 72 hours I can't remember). My friend said she's come pretty close a couple of times to refer me. We've been friends forever and insult each other all the time. Just messing around and when she said that I thought she was kidding, but I played it back in my head later and asked her and she told me she was serious. I feel a disaster inside but I THOUGHT I gave the appearance of togetherness. Guess not.

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