[lynn808]

I am seeing a surgeon this Thursday for fusion to sciatic joint in left hip. I have 2 braces that I wear just about all the time.
Friday night I walked out on deck, slid on ice and fell down three steps. I landed on my left hip area- of course. I was able to get back into the house-this took about 15 minutes to get 15 feet.
I was assisted up to my bedroom where I have been for two days now. My b/f says I should just wait to see my surgeon this Thursday....but I am in intense pain whenever I move. It is a chore to even get up and sit down. I am only moving to get to the bathroom, which takes about 15 minutes to do....what should I do? is there any way out? I am already on pain pills...I don't know if ER can do anything....and I cant sit there for 8 to 10 hours and then be sent home, since this will definitely affect my depression and other problems...I don't see a way out. I am sitting here alone and in pain. sorry to bother and am sorry if I shouldn't post this....don't know what to do....
thanks for bothering to read this.....again sorry....

[gayleggg]

Don't apologize. It's what the forums are for. Sorry you fell and are now in more pain. My first thought is go to the emergency room, you could have broke something. Knowing me though I would wait until my appointment. I don't think much of emergency rooms for getting things done fast. I know my answer is no help but I'm worried you could have broke something that needs to be looked at before you see a surgeon. I can see why you are having a hard time deciding. My thoughts are with you. Hope the pain gets better.

[sabby]

I agree with gayle that you should probably have an xray done at the ER. If you have broken your hip or possibly done something to the fusion, it could have terrible consequences if you don't check it out right away. Better to be safe than sorry no?

I'm sorry you are in so much pain. I can't begin to imagine what you are going through but I'm sending you healing thoughts.

[lynn808]

thanks so much for your replies. It really does help to know that you all are out there... I am still alone, and am unsure if a patient first would help with an x-ray...I have had an x-ray done there before....maybe I will wait for b/f to get home some time tonite and he can take me...my jeep is in the shop-his son got into an accident the 2nd time he drove it....I have been without my jeep for about 3 weeks...this is making me claustrophic being stuck in the house, dependent on others, waiting around, not being able to do on my own, and the depression and BPD are hitting me so hard right now....diabetes is wacked because of pain, and the pain pills don't even begin to cut it....thanks for being there and understanding. Its nice to know someone out there cares....thanks so much...so hard to type between tears...take care y'all!!!

[lynn808]

hi everyone,
hope all is well and pain is less....
I have a surgery date for the fusion to my left hip area. March 24th they will go in and place 3 titanium rods in my left hip to stabilize the area. I will have six weeks of recovery then likely p/t to strengthen me...Then we will go to work on the lower back. I am hopeful that anything can and will help me get past this pain and I will walk again...I am holding onto this hope and I pray every day that I will make it through. thanks to all of you who have sent well-wishes and positive thoughts..... I would like to send positive thoughts to all others out there in pain and hope you know that I care about you and hope you can eke out good days!!!! take care now hugs for all

[sabby]

Sounds like you've got a good plan for the surgery(s). I hope you get through them easily and with good quick healing.

[Gus1234U]

holding the good thought for you Lynn,,, sorry i didn't see this thread until now~

[lynn808]

thanks for checking in on me...it means so much that you all care enough to visit even if you don't leave words.... I have started my physical therapy in preparation for surgery....I have to get into the mental state for my physical workout...ya know....got to get me there.....but I can do this too.....I will not fail...I will not be weak.....I am working to stay strong every day..... a group that I call my "family" is caring and checking on me daily and helping me to get through this....but I will check in all the time to visit my new friends and family type ppl here too!!!!! take care now...chat soon!!!

[krisakira]

You could call the ER and ask if they could do anything for your hip while you wait to see the surgeon thursday. I've done that before. At least you know if it's goofy or not to go.

[shinty]

I would at the very least call your surgeon that's going to operate on you and let him/her know about what has happened. It might be something more serious that has to be dealt with before your surgery, or something that might even effect your planned surgery. Better safe than sorry, and good luck.
Shinty

[lynn808]

Update for my friends who care.
Am waiting for surgery on Monday....have to see a cardiologist on Friday, though I don't know what he will want...there is no time for tests before the surgery now... I am running into many obstacles because of the insurance I have....they are trying to make me give up...they are taking away much of my state help now and really screwing me to the wall. I have tones of bills to pay...and still haven't heard a peep from the hospital from my psyche visit for five days back in November.....I am sure that will cost a pretty penny...which I cannot afford...this surgery will be making me pay for years....oh dear...well ranting doesn't seem to be helping me today...just feeling useless, hopeless, fat, lazy and unable to care for myself...typical BPD...and when I need it least....hope you all are coping better and stay strong. I am staying with my son and his wife for a few weeks but will check back in here soon...y'all take care now!!!!

[ginaaa22]

so sorry your going through all of this. like you I have lots of medical bills and although I have answers I still have the financial burden. Do you think your pain makes your BPD worse? Like it triggers it? When my pain is bad I'm more aggressive, anxious, agitated or sometimes depressed. I'm also bipolar so its hard to tell which one it is. I hope you find the answers you are seeking

[lynn808]

Originally Posted by ginaaa22

so sorry your going through all of this. like you I have lots of medical bills and although I have answers I still have the financial burden. Do you think your pain makes your BPD worse? Like it triggers it? When my pain is bad I'm more aggressive, anxious, agitated or sometimes depressed. I'm also bipolar so its hard to tell which one it is. I hope you find the answers you are seeking

hey ginaaaa22,
I am thinking the pain definitely feeds into the BPD and the bipolar is making that roller coaster ride all the more fun....It feels like it will never end so that the BPD too...cardio doc made me show up at 8am on Saturday for more tests...which took almost 5 hours. finally woke up from lil nap that I took...this roller coaster ride has many twist and turns and circles on it and feels out of control for now.... Sunday I have to pack all my stuff up so I can stay with my son and daughter-in-law for a few weeks....I cannot stay at home since there is no one to care for me here...oh what a burden I am...yes, I know bpd again making me feels worthless...this vicious cycle I am in....the headache, the pain, sore, tired of it, and it wont end on Monday....just new and different pain for 7 - weeks...yikes ppl....don't get on this ride....whenwill the circus end here?????

[lynn808]

Just checking in to say that surgery is over and I am at my son and daughterinlaws place now. am sore and hurting but will make it through this too. thanks to all of you who are there for me in spirit and who have contacted me too....it means so much to have you in my corner right now. Hope you all are doing well and fighting every day!!!!! stay strong til we chat soon....take care now

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by lynn808

Just checking in to say that surgery is over and I am at my son and daughterinlaws place now. am sore and hurting but will make it through this too. thanks to all of you who are there for me in spirit and who have contacted me too....it means so much to have you in my corner right now. Hope you all are doing well and fighting every day!!!!! stay strong til we chat soon....take care now

I hope you have a successful and speedy recovery! I was just thinking about you today, wondering how it went.

[gayleggg]

Yes, I, too, hope you have a speedy recovery. Glad the surgery went well. Hopefully you will start feeling better soon.

[Gus1234U]

so many branches in the 'tree of life',, hope this one leads to healing~!

[littlemiss44]

How are you feeling now? Is the pain any better? I sure hope so. I just wanted an update to how yr doing. Let me know ok? I care. :-)

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[lynn808]

hey y'all.... its now been about 11 weeks since my back fusion. I am coming back from bronchitis and slight pneumonia, a gift from a friend....lol..gone for over a week or so... so I have been out and walking around a lot. been walking up and down stairs though not too easily. I am trying to get on with my life after the back surgery. actually it isn't too bad, hey, I have good and bad days but the fusion has been overall successful for me. I am fighting a depressive funk right now, fueled by so many things out of my control. panic attacks are back and this sense of self-loathing is inescapable for now. yeah, I know...this too shall pass.....please make it quick......hope you are all fighting out there too.....chat back...see ya!!