[bebop]

I hate my life living with this constant pain. the meds make me goofy. I can't function and it just stinks!!! help! I want this to stop!!! I hate what is becoming of me. I want my old self back now!!!

[Eva1nder]

((((((( be )))))))))))

I'm so sorry to see you in so much pain...you're in my thoughts & prayers.

[bebop]

thanks eva. I just get so frustrated not being able to do things anymore. can't even get my house unpacked. errrrrrrrr

[heyjoe]

i know how you feel bebop ...if i think about the pain of numbness i start to flip out so i try not to

[bebop]

I hear ya joe. numbness would be good at times but in the place the pain is in. not my legs! waaaaaaaa

[mr_wrencher]

Hey Bebop I hate pain, numbness and limitations of my body, but I try to use pain as a way of messuring my actions. When I try doing things and the pain elevates I either stop or try to find another way to do whatever it is I was doing. I know if I were to cover the pain with more drugs I would push myself and become a Quad.

[Rhapsody]

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I hate my life living with this constant pain. the meds make me goofy. I can't function and it just stinks!!! help! I want this to stop!!! I hate what is becoming of me. I want my old self back now!!!

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I hear You LOUD & CLEAR....... I too feel the exact same way (often) and I hate the Life my PAIN has created.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

[(JD)]

((((Bebop)))) I wish I could impart what I know directly to you, and you be able to just "accept" it and go on, but it doesn't work that way. I, too, went through this longer than I care to think about... years and years... I hope you can find the better path before that. (((((hugs)))) Getting angry at the pain only makes you feel worse... really... you know this I think..but a good reminder is needed OFTEN imo (at least it was for me.) No one else really feels your pain, only you. And you have to, just have to do the best you can to control all aspects that feed the pain.

We are not just physical beings when it comes to pain (or anything.) Our thoughts, emotions, activities all play into it. If you must, set aside a few minutes each day to be angry at the way things are, and then stop.

Do I still feel angry ? Sure at times, severely. But I learned how it makes me feel the pain more (like focusing on it magnifies it's affect.) I sure don't want to increase my pain. I, like you and several others here, have more pain than anyone should have to deal with. BUT, handle it we will.

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[bebop]

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Hey Bebop I hate pain, numbness and limitations of my body, but I try to use pain as a way of messuring my actions. When I try doing things and the pain elevates I either stop or try to find another way to do whatever it is I was doing. I know if I were to cover the pain with more drugs I would push myself and become a Quad.

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I wish I could do anything without pain. I feel so useless anymore.

[bebop]

rhap I hear ya hon.

sky I know hon. guess the pain the last few days has just gone thru the roof again. just sitting hurts so bad. I try to not think about it most of the time but for the last few weeks the level has increase tremendously.

[(JD)]

I know. I couldn't lie down for the most part of two days myself. Breathe. ((((gentle hugs)))

[heyjoe]

That was a typo...it was suppossed to be pain and numbness......i have pain as well as total numbness for parts of me.......if i think about it it flips me out so in that regard that confirms what sky says....easier said than done but hopefully over time i will reach the level she has attained. but in the meantime i f*cking hate it.

[bebop]

(((joe)))

[Leslie]

(((((((((((((((((Bebop))))))))))))))))))))

Sorry about the pain. I wish i could take it away. I have tried many pain killers and it is hard to find one that doesnt make you feel spacey. The ones that dont make you feel spacey, also dont take away the pain.

Leslie

[(JD)]

I wish my pain med would make me spacey!!! I get no other affects but pain management hehehe says that goes with chronic pain. I wish it would totally zone me out at times... so I don't feel at all or care... rather than just be "managing" the pain
TC

[bebop]

leslie I would not wish this on my worst enemy lol.

sky I hear ya. although my dr did finally after the settlement give me something that halfway works. still doesn't take it all away though but it keeps me up at night. errrrrrr

I think I know why the pain has increased. I think at least one of the disk has torn some more. it is the same kind of really bad pain I get when they tear more. sometimes I wish they would just go ahead and completely blow out but I know even then it will still hurt. just keep me in prayers

[(JD)]

[bebop]

awe you are so sweet!