[lizardlady]

Spondiferous, I'll be a pocket rider.

[Gus1234U]

i went over to my cousin's for New Year's Dinner, and i'm deep in recovery....

sending you my love of college, Spondi~!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by spondiferous

happy new year everyone. wishing you all whatever you need this year, and as much of it as you need. i have had a good week for pain and everything. not-so-good with emotional/mental stuff. what a wild year it's been. i'm attempting to return to school this year and could really use some pocket riders, at least for the first day (tomorrow) and maybe even first couple of weeks, if anyone has the energy for pocket-riding i will try to keep my progress with school updated here.

those of you who are sick, wishing you a (hopefully) speedy recovery. it's been so cold here. but from what i saw on the news a couple of nights back, it's been cold everywhere in north america. hoping you all are able to stay warm/safe/sane.

to those who need/want them.

Spondi, Good luck with school!
I'll pocket-ride, I love school!
Please keep us posted!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

I, quite unexpectedly, had a very fulfilling day today!
We never know when the tide may change, even if only briefly!
Seize the day!

I may pay for it tomorrow. It was worth it.

Love to All!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Great difficulty sleeping last night. Spasticity. Migraine today.
Are others with fibromyalgia prone to migraines?

Love to All!

WC

[Kiya]

Yes I’ve been getting migraines since I was 7 :/

[Kiya]

I so wish I had unlimited internet!! I miss you all and think of you and am sad that I am not here to know what’s going on in your lives or support you.
Know I keep you all close in my mind!!

[Gus1234U]

ready or not, here comes the new year~!

[Wild Coyote]

Laid up with fatigue, pain, spasticity today. Med for spasticity makes me very tired.

I hope everyone had a good day.
Love to All!

WC

[January]

Hi Everyone,

I'm so far behind in reading posts. I'm sorry for that.

I had a death in my family. That set of cousins and I are very close. I got just well enough to attend the funeral. I thought I was going to freeze at the cemetery. The wind was so cold.

Then that night I thought my ear drum burst, but instead I have a malfunctioning eustachian tube from where I was so sick.

Then, I found out my ex husband died. I am so full of mixed emotions and no one will hear me.

Anyway, I've been sleeping a lot. If I'm not too dizzy from the problem with my ear I hope to take down the tree tomorrow. We'll see.

I love you all and I think of you many times every day.

PS. Belle has discovered she likes pumpkin bread. I had a glass of ginger ale in my hand and she play attacked me and made me spill it on both of us. She pouted at me for almost an hour because she thought I did it on purpose.

[Gus1234U]

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Gus1234U

Lovely!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Hi Jan! Sorry for your recent loss.

Thank so much, Gus, for the beautiful pictures!

Another day of keeping warm, resting. It's very cold here.

I hope everyone is as well as can be.


WC

[Gus1234U]

[~Christina]

Slowly packing for our move home. I’m trying to go slow. Unpacking out of the Uhaul is going to be a nightmare, ugh

Hope everyone is warm and doing well

[spondiferous]

Thinking of all of you.

I too suffer from migraines, chronically since I was a child. It's one of the worst things I deal with. Sometimes they last for days. I've had a migraine last 3 weeks at the longest.

My first week of classes was a huge relief. It feels so good to be around people again. I am really feeling many things these days, and a fullness. I can't explain it. I feel like it's a miracle just to be able to leave my house. I feel fierce. I feel angry and hopeful at the same time. I have experienced a surge of energy in the last week that's been incredible. I have been taking advantage of it to the fullest.

Wishing you all a good day, a restful or energetic or safe or peaceful day, whatever you need. to those who want/need them.

[Gus1234U]

(coloring books for adults~ )

[cakeladie]

So I haven't posted much because I've been sick with one thing or another and inam sick of being sick if that makes sense

Christina when are you moving? Are you happy to be going home ?

How is everyone else ? I have missed you guys

[cakeladie]

Jan I am so sorry for your loss

[Gus1234U]

oh where, oh where has my winter snow gone ?

[~Christina]

We are moving back this weekend. I can not go back to my previous T or Pdoc there company is maxed out on anyone with Medicare insurance. I’m set up with same company another town over but literally I am losing it, 6 years with my Pdoc and T and i just want to quit I didn’t by even know how to do T with someone else , where do I begin ? I refuse to walk through all the past trauma and assaults with a stranger T , I’ll quit it all now meds or T also the latest med for my Arthritis is a total fail.

23 weeks today and I have not been able to move on and sleep even the 2-3 hours a night without nightmares ptsd is ruining my life and now I have no one to turn to provider wise that I desperately need.

Maybe I’ll go home and sleep for weeks or becoming suicidal and need Ip if I can hold on long enough.

I’m so defeated and see no real hope. By the time I can even get into a new psych place my meds will run out, I should just ditch them now anyway.

Sorry I am such a downer, I just see no light at the moment

Hugs to you all

Sorry my rambling makes no senec

[Gus1234U]

my goes out to you, Christina~

[January]

Christina, my heart goes out to you. I can tell you that I didn't think I could share with my new pdoc, but I managed to do it and found he is very kind and helpful. Please don't give up hope.

Christmas with my family was a fiasco. It was very painful.

Thank you all for your condolences. I really appreciate it. My cousin's mother embarrassed me on purpose in front of a crowd of people at the restaurant we went to after the services. I wanted a hole to open in the floor and let me escape. My cousin didn't hear what was said but his wife did and now they are going to tell off the mother over me. She asked if I was wearing my real hair, if that was my real color and on and on until she actually asked me if those were my real teeth and if I wore my dentures all the time. It was like being a foil in Theater of the Absurd.

My ex's death was hard because the obituary painted this abuser, thief and liar as a saint. I was infuriated and diminished. At least I can go on that side of the valley now without fear of being shot.

What I haven't told you is that my son called me right before Christmas. He started screaming at me over the phone and told me so many vile and hateful things. I had no idea he hates me. It was a complete shock. He said I wouldn't hear from him again. No one can hurt me like he can. My heart is broken and I am left confused and shaken. How can he possibly hate me?

I've been sick, too. The antibiotic didn't clear up the infection in my ears and I have been falling. I go back in two weeks, but I don't think I'll last that long, if I can get an appointment.

In the meanwhile, Belle and I stick together.

I am so blessed to have Belle and all of you. You are my family.

[Gus1234U]

[Gus1234U]

wishing you a better year ahead~!
Happy Birthday, Kiya~!